I'm jealous of my friend. When I go out with him, I'm jealous of how easily he gets attention/laid from women. He's kind of a sex maniac and currently has 3 FWBs.
He actually says he can never get guy friends because of dudes always get jealous and he's glad that I'm not like that. But whenever I go out with him, it's so painful because he just seems to effortlessly do what is impossible to me. My confidence actually gets worse because he does this thing where he hyper-analyzes my communication with others and tells me where I went wrong. And he's usually right. But it just massively sucks and isn't really fun.
It's not to say I'm an incel/sperg. I'm not. I'm handsome, but my game is objectively bad, I mean its not TERRIBLE, because I still get contacts and stuff from women when I go out, but it usually goes nowhere. He wants to help me but also I feel like a shitty friend for being jealous of him. I feel like a lost dog following him around on nights out because eventually I just get so put out at how he goes from group to group effortlessly whereas I just see a bunch of strangers.
He wants us to travel together. I feel like it would just be him getting laid the whole time and me just listening to nearly nightly sexcapades which honeslty might just be too much. but also I recognize I am a shit person and not sure what to do. I can handle going out and having some introspection but travelling with him will feel akin to getting cucked almost I feel like
He's a good friend, and I think I can handle my ego getting slapped around for the better on an occasional night out, but I think travelling with him would destroy me.
At the same time, maybe it would be an opportunity to break out of my shell, but maybe I'm just a sperg and there is no breaking out of it for me. Idk.
He actually says he can never get guy friends because of dudes always get jealous and he's glad that I'm not like that. But whenever I go out with him, it's so painful because he just seems to effortlessly do what is impossible to me. My confidence actually gets worse because he does this thing where he hyper-analyzes my communication with others and tells me where I went wrong. And he's usually right. But it just massively sucks and isn't really fun.
It's not to say I'm an incel/sperg. I'm not. I'm handsome, but my game is objectively bad, I mean its not TERRIBLE, because I still get contacts and stuff from women when I go out, but it usually goes nowhere. He wants to help me but also I feel like a shitty friend for being jealous of him. I feel like a lost dog following him around on nights out because eventually I just get so put out at how he goes from group to group effortlessly whereas I just see a bunch of strangers.
He wants us to travel together. I feel like it would just be him getting laid the whole time and me just listening to nearly nightly sexcapades which honeslty might just be too much. but also I recognize I am a shit person and not sure what to do. I can handle going out and having some introspection but travelling with him will feel akin to getting cucked almost I feel like
He's a good friend, and I think I can handle my ego getting slapped around for the better on an occasional night out, but I think travelling with him would destroy me.
At the same time, maybe it would be an opportunity to break out of my shell, but maybe I'm just a sperg and there is no breaking out of it for me. Idk.