Thread 33688153

My pet bird, who I had for a decade and considered my best friend, died at the end of July. Since then I have been drinking almost every day, sometimes with only a day or two break in between streaks of drinking. So I am technically an alcoholic. Why can't I stop doing this? How do I stop? I don't believe in a god so not doing AA. Its not affecting my work life but I fear it will if I don't do something. I had a dream about my bird this morning and was devastated when I woke up.

>>33688153 (OP)
>I don't believe in a god so not doing AA
I don't think AA has anything to do with religion.

>>33688181
God is very centric to their program, its all about doing God's will instead of your own. At least where I live

>>33688153 (OP)
>I don't believe in a god so not doing AA
Look up SMART Recovery. It's like AA but less God.

>>33688153 (OP)
I'm sorry for your loss, anon. I did the same thing when my cat passed. I wasn't ready to face the full force of my grief. I slowly stopped drinking when I was. It took time.

>>33688153 (OP)
>Why can't I stop doing this?
Because it's preventing you from feeling grief. The problem is, until you let yourself feel the grief, you can't process it and get past it.

>>33688298
>>33688276
How do I know when I'm fully facing it? Its not like drinking makes me not care that he's not here, I don't even know why I do it fully. I can't even look at my pictures of him without getting upset. I love him so much. I can't describe how bad it hurts, not having him.

>>33688153 (OP)
>>33688187
>AA bad cause God
you don't have to believe in god, just a higher power greater than yourself. that can be anything you want. a doorknob, Led Zeppelin, doesn't matter you just have to have one. my sponsor's higher power was AA lmao

>>33688153 (OP)
I drank more than you for no good reason. If you stopped at all any days then this is rookie stuff.
t. 9 months sober alcoholic

>>33688690
Don't brag about how much you used to drink. Makes you look like a tool.

>>33688693
I'll do that if you stop crying about your faggot bird and get a new one.

>>33688153 (OP)
F
Rest in peace, birdo :(

>>33688697
Wow. You are a disgusting piece of shit.

>>33688153 (OP)
Sorry for your loss.
You should get a new pet. Maybe another bird, maybe go for a lizard or something instead. Having responsibility for something is good for you. Having companionship is good for you. Having new experiences is good for you.

>>33688153 (OP)
>Since then I have been drinking almost every day,

Wouldn't a new bird be cheaper?

>>33688153 (OP)
Get a new pet. Maybe a dog. Thank god for this advice