Thread 33904361

Second verse; same as the first.

>>33904361 (OP)
I want to see how I look like crossdressing in panties and a maid outfit with an anime girl wig on but I'm scared to do it and think I'd look really ugly in it. It's fun to fantasize about but I highly doubt I'd look good

I just put in my two weeks notice without a backup job. I'm scared shitless of running out of money but I can't fucking take this company's shit anymore. I'm sending out applications daily, but hearing nothing. Why does it take a full ass week to hear from a small grocery store? At least do me the courtesy of saying no. At least tell me I'm as worthless as I think I am so I can just fucking kill myself because even if I get a job the cost of living has outpaced hourly wages by a comical margin.

>>33904361 (OP)
I crossdressed and went to a nightclub recently and got catcalled by a masc lesbian. I'm now considering a sex change because I've never felt attractive in my entire life until that moment

Same as before. Continued.

>>33904621
Just be a crossdresser. Flamboyant dressed up MEN can be very attractive to women. You just are like a person who lost weight and started feeling more attractive, and like an animal assumes losing more weight will make them even more attractive/lovable. Humans as social animals also associate being loved with safety. Namaste.

Same advice applies if you are a WtF

Hvstle!

I was talking with someone for nearly a year on discord and they unadded without saying anything. Didn't see it coming. I honestly thought we were friends. :(

What makes it worse is that the unfriending happened sometime after I sent explicit lewds. Beforehand, they had only seen teases. I guess they got what they wanted and left.

I submitted an application and heard back within hours and I have an interview tomorrow. But now I'm worried I picked the wrong job.
In-store shopping sounded easy on paper but now I'm thinking about how much hustling around the store I'll have to do and my bad back if I have to lift anything over 40lbs.

i just want a traditionally oriented Christian gf that takes care of herself and isn't zogged

I wish you’d let me in.

They date me and have sex with me because I'm cute but nobody wants to marry me I am unlovable himbo

Effort!

Why the fuck do you people have to exist

Life would be so much better if I was completely alone on earth

>>33904910
Aye away hunt and forage you daft bastard

>>33904902
this is why i'm vocel until i meet a nice Christian girl and get married

problem is even at church gatherings it's difficult to find a modicum of tradition

all these women are basically worldly trained feminists who couldn't be humble, modest, or least of all truly subservient to men to save their lives

so i'm looking into becoming amish

>>33904886
Maybe they lied about things about themselves and were afraid to disappoint you or something

>go to driving range
>set up
>some guy goes wandering into the range to pick up balls

Every goddamn time
I now understand completely why people make and join country clubs

So they dont have to see fucking pathetic broke fucking losers do shit like this all the time

nearly went menhera mode on my only friend because they talked to other people instead of me. havent met up with them in months up until that point

Every fucking year it's the same shit
I feel manic in the summer and depressed beyond belief in the winter
Except now I think people are following me or that I'm having religious events

The worst part is all my brain scans and mental aptitude tests come out fine so I'm fighting with the awareness of how fucking retarded I am

No wonder my psych thought it was OCD and couldn't possibly be schizo or bipolar

Fuck you I saw them in the tanks and saw the letters flashing I know my brain is making patterns out of nothing and that's the worst part, I know it's wrong but it doesn't stop the theory of salience is fucking garbage

Every fucking year I have to ask myself is this the year and pull out a "we're so back" from the depths of my soul

Fuck you all I hate you all kill you all
Fuck you all I hate you all kill you all
Kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill

*ANIME CHARACTER*

Being a fat kid deeply hurt me. Even though I got my hands on a computer in my room all I spent it on was jacking off and playing video games.

I remember spending some time sifting through how to lose weight as a teen but that's it. What causes this? Or is it a pre/teenager being a dipshit that was the cause? I was generally left alone and given things as a kid. Is it spoiled brat syndrome that made me expect for my physical being to change without my effort? Could it have been my cluttered environment?

>>33905070
Beatings and harassment from other kids would of made you thin

How is a post about South Africa's economy political and not allowed on /int/?

yes, i'm poor, by choice, but give me a few years of commitment, show me that you can love me for me, and i'll provide everything you could want

>>33905101
U got a magic lamp in the back?

>>33905185
no i just take underachieving very seriously and am capable of a lot

I legitimately think I might be stuck on him forever

>>33904621
Best shit ever.

It always happens at the worst time.

how can i support my friend if they says not to worry about them?

She feels and is drawn to me naturally.

It is not the worst time .
Any issues are because she wandered off the path.

If she stayed on we would of built up more over that time.

Any and everything we grow together through.

If I apply myself I can be famous, a little bit infamous and possibly rich, but this requires me to more or less cut ties with my more or less toxic family. I also dont really want to live in another country. I feel like there is either uncertainty or certain mediocrity. I have never been that much of an adventurer.

Taxes are stolen.

I gotta take action

Going to apply to be admin of a tech company...I have no job experience, where should I learn to write up a resume?

>>33904361 (OP)
Get It Off Your Chest

I did it anons!

It has been a week.

>>33905543
You won't get too far without job experience in tech, I've tried. The AI algorithms will auto delete resumes that don't like.

Action action action

i am worn out. i am unhappy. i miss my doves. i cant afford to get food i enjoy.

its so quiet and lonely having no other friends. i screwed up all of them. there is no way they want to talk to me again, lmfao and its better if i stay forgotten anyway

better that way for them all ive done is mess up lives, isolation for myself is the only answer for them to be happy but I DO MISS THEM

Please don’t let her be his girlfriend please just let her be a friend

>>33905338
IFS therapy

I'll never be able to atone for what I did. Once I'm dead, I'll be burning in Hell for all eternity like I deserve.

>>33905827
IFS therapy

He shouldn't have told me we could fix each other by being together and just laying on top of each other
That we could go on dates and have sex and cuddle
He knew my shit is fucked up and I'm delayed and only recently started recovering being able to entertain stuff like this
So what the fuck was his deal that he'd talk to me like this for months and then suddenly disappear. I thought we were gonna meet up like we talked about. I thought we were gonna fix each other like he said. I thought I was gonna become a real human
This is too much he messed me up
I could've kept healing without him
But now this happened and it's like 3 steps forward 12 steps back

>>33905827
Jesus Christ is your advocate, confess to him your sins and he will forgive you. Obviously, consequences are still there but Jesus got your back from now on.

The cross is for every type of sinner. And in Him we are born a new creation.

Nope. Stop calling me. Don't try to fuck with me now. I'm scheduled when I'm scheduled. I don't care about this job anymore. I don't care about doing it well anymore. I will do what's required of me and won't lift a fucking finger beyond that. You can't bitch out the group chat about high labor and then ask me to come in early.
You say I get the inventory count wrong every week? Then do it yourself. You check it thoroughly in the morning - just fucking do it yourself. Whatever I'm getting wrong, I'm getting wrong because I haven't been trained. You fail to train me, I don't do the job right. I don't know what things I've counted incorrectly. The stock units don't make sense half the time, I'm just counting by weight, case, or bag like it says. If I miscount, great, maybe that says something about the stock organization that I can't SEE half of the shit I'm supposed to count without unloading the entire shelf (while I'm meant to be serving customers).
Two weeks submitted. I'll work there until the 19th and then I'm free of you.
There is no fucking teamwork at this job. I and the guys on my shift are the only ones expected to look out for the next shift - us closers get to make the morning all cushy easy peasy for the openers and then we get to clean up their trash from the entire 14 hours before I clock in. When do I get to complain? I asked if the midshift would prep a little less food because there's too much throwaway at the end of the night. I get bitched at for asking and blamed for the over-prep. I asked the midshift to just keep nonperishables stocked so I'm not scrambling when I take over - I'm talking cups and lids. I get bitched at for asking. I asked for one - ONE - extra pair of hands to make closing on time feasible when we get McClane. I get bitched at for asking.
Fuck you. Fuck this store. Fuck this company. I'm glad you're moving to another store, and I hope it falls apart under you for your fucking attitude.

>>33905711
God I fucking know how that feels.

It's always so obvious when you've been creeping, you love testing new vocab out from the posters you're most obsessed with lol

It was actually one of the ways we used to love to fuck with you. It was like one of those little puzzle sets for kids where you put a marble in a tube and it comes out some crazy curly q slide way on the other side. Was always funniest when you'd do it from multiple sockpuppets in the same span of time.

Just a shame you're not as cute irl as some of your best works or we'd let you sit in the cuck chair... IF you wanted to earn your ticket with that bitcoin like you offered ahaaaaaaaaaa goofy ass

I caved. I'm so fucking weak. I couldn't even go two weeks. I'm gonna regret this so much tomorrow.

Just recalled some forgotten memories of going on a pixel art site as a kid. Feeling nostalgic

I gotta have self-control

This will all lead to one situation that I will regret.

>>33905845
Your larp shows you are pathetic

>>33904621
Don't cut your dick off anon.
It'll go horridly.
Just be a femboi and embrace your inner slut.

the more times i hear from people the horrible things they see me as the more i become those things. I wonder how much worse people with personality disorders get after having access to the internet and seeing how theyre demonized.

Ok I'm just gonna see what I can do.

I have to say much less, thats way too truncated, Id rather just say nothing, some things are too tasteless to ever be said, it was interesting in the way it was told weeks ago anyways

>>33904921
>all these women are basically antiwhite who couldn't be humble
there ya go.
fix'd.
It's fucking dire though yes

>>33905845
I know the pain.
You need to stay strong and find a support pillar anon.

>>33906072
Adrijus don’t you remember your Hina? Come on niichan your mistress needs you.

>>33905955
Aaaaand I regret it. Why am I so hopeless?

I wish things would go my way.

is it even possible for me to make friends if i cant handle being around people who talk about their fun experiences with their other friends? even the smallest mention of something they did with another person or some friend or group theyre in makes me so furious and upset, it makes me feel disgusting.

God who cares

>>33906122
the 19th was such a mistake

>>33906122
Go back to gif

It's time to see what I can do.

it's over.

I had an almost transcendent moment last night. I was high on Fruit Loop strain marijuana, collecting cans and bottles for money at 3 am, a ways into my route, I came across a closed for the night cafe and wanted to hit the bin in front of it. They had a music speaker playing music. "Johnny Hates Jazz - Shattered Dreams " was playing. In that moment it's like reality felt so surreal. The weed was hitting, the slight fatigue from cycling, "And now you've given me, given me Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams Feel like I could run away, run away" playing as I sat at this bench in a closed down shopping district at 3 am taking a break. The music was somewhat faint as if it was turned down after closing yet still all-encompassingly loud at the same time as it was the only noise in an otherwise completely silent dark world. I don't know if I felt more melancholic or blissful in that moment.

>>33906238
Kino as all get out desu

>>33906139
Who is Hina?

Hypocrisy if actually judged that way

Funny enough I took up dumpster diving at the suggestion of some local punx as a way to get stuff to donate to food pantries and shelters and shit (Marshalls and TJMaxx type places throw out all kinds of bougee shit. I've even been making a killing in passive income selling some of the Bath&BW candles and body sprays and stuff like that on eBay so I can put the money right back into other mutual aid streams)

Boutta spark up m'self. I'm going ghost. If you feel an astral wet willy it's me

I'm enjoying the accelerationism to some extent from a separate higher perspective of course but ye gotta look out for your community with all this manipulative fed bullshit afoot. Sorry it's tightening the noose but I did warn you about those stairs bro. I warned you dog (re: saturn, rope)

My boss over here telling me I won't ever have to worry about homelessness, AND I SAY BULL FUCKING SHIT!

I don’t want to think about girl. We talk sometimes, but I doubt she thinks of me nearly as much. We had a really nice thing for the small amount of time we had access to each other, and now we don’t. I would like to see her again, but there’s some chance I don’t get to because she gets a bf in the meantime, and there’s also some chance things never align so we can try being an actual thing. It’s really annoying and I hate it. I just want her on my couch, or to not remember she exists. One or the other.

Additionally it's tradition to look to the Saturn placement of the person you've harmed to see what form your karma will come in, so. Y'know. Sorry for stelliumrocking

>>33906267
Dumpster diving at night makes me feel the main protagonist of a post-apocalyptic open world RPG game like Fallout or Days Gone.

They're too Neurotypical to get the Hell I'm currently in that I'm trying to prevent. I doubt that they'll ever see it. They'll only see the fact I overcame it pretending it never existed like the Hell itself.

>>33906312
I'm an earlybird because it's a bit unwise to voluntarily put yourself inside of a difficult to maneuver space in commercial areas at night as a female. Be cool to have a vulture pal

I’m falling for you

I'm panicking to such an extent that I might lose consciousness.Im fainted

>>33906351
Steady yourself and make sure not to fall over

I'm afraid of dying. I don't want to end my life by committing suicide.

>>33906330
It'd be cool if I had a girlfriend, but I guess we can't always win and have to settle with less.

>>33906357
thanks

>>33906364
Try to take deep breaths in and out

>>33906286
Why haven’t you asked her out yet?

The connection between us is undeniable. I wish you weren’t scared to contact me more directly, but I’m willing to take this at your pace

>>33906368
thanks

Double dog dare you to move your trailer to Meadow

Neighbor

>>33906381
You can get through this, anon

It doesn't make it a cycle or anything, just because we both always knew this would happen.

>>33906375
We live across the US from each other. I have asked before if she would date me in theory and the answer is yes.

i found my first ex

18 years later, she aged alright

but it's only now, actually seeing her through more experienced eyes, that i realize i can spot women like her from a mile away now, and i don't have to worry about falling prey to them anymore

>>33904361 (OP)
I HATE WOMEN

tfw you realize that girl who invited you over for pie when you were 16 was actually interested in you and a wholesome girl you could have settled down with straight out of the gate

>>33906388
thank you so much for your support

Jeez. Moving is stressful.

It's not glocking to me that I have to study or else my future will be shit and my life will have gone to waste

Wads nod glocking to you famb??? :~DDD
Is its nod glocking du you thad I'mb standink on bizineds??

Don't tug o war the good Wheel back from me it makes me too aroused to bully you so it has to be consensual so it's not foreverially crab yank switcheroo be a dear and do the right thing

>>33906455
Holy fug :~DDDD

>>33905039
This sentiment is why you and him didn’t work out, also you’ll always choose your mom over your partners and you’re too unemotional / antisocial. You never cared for his health and let him sit in the cold and he wasn’t seeing any changes

>>33906468
Literally le hidden Shadowbelly of currentnow Bvll fvll lunation (8th house ruler bigbuxx correspondence alongside Cap/Saturn)

*sting~*

"I didn't know I was in love with you"

Wtf? No way this is a real thing anyone struggles with. You have to be fucking with me

Alexithymia seems like a correlation with the sorts of people in this pool aka fellow autists wdym

>>33906475
Fug I’m jusd a fuggin boy :~DD

>>33906427
You’re welcome

I hope you’re doing well because you’ve changed a lot in other ways but the relationship part was always very toxic and onesided
I really wish I made different choices for your sake but at least they lead me here today

And I hope your mother finds a boyfriend or something. She’s insufferable

You will eat ze bugs.
With your hands.
You will shit in ze river.
And drink it too.
You will own nothing.
Not even your mistakes.
You will be happy.

Actually I will being gettening lifted off that pack that makes your breath smell like the Denver Airport instead

>>33906581
But the Denver Airport sort of smells like DMT. Just like Home Depot.

>>33906584
i've been in a few home depots and smoked my fair share of dmt and can't say i've ever smelled dmt in home depot

a purge of the right plastics in an injection molding press gets close tho

Don't fall for the yandere/obsessive/schizo gf meme
It's an empty relationship where you don't have say in it, the chick does whatever she wants and any limit you set will trigger a giant emotional reaction. You're not a real human being in her eyes, just a thing to play with, no emotions nor feelings
It's not like a hentai, the sex will be bad and your dick will hurt afterwards

>>33906317
People cant read other peoples minds. There is some sympathizing but its limited.

>>33906358
Good, then dont commit suicide.

>>33906610
Thank you Anon for warning us. Some men fall so that others can live.

hmm

Dated a girl for years. she left me for a guy she knew for a month. they dated for 4 months and now they've broken up. Her company dissolved and she had to move back to her home country

I just find it funny how the situation went from

"you guys have been friends for such a long time dont throw it away" - him to "he doesnt want me to talk to you anymore" - her to nobody is talking to anyone in less than 2 months

>>33906610
>me imagining a sexy yandere giving me a sexy creepy smile pussy pounding my dick.

>>33907358
>sexy yandere breaking into my house middle of midnight doing that too...

>some dumb bitch walks into traffic, gets hit by a car and dies (driver didnt even get charged and YET...)
>city passes traffic code saying all cars now have to stop for ANY PERSON AT ANY CROSSWALK
>so any time anyone walks up to any crosswalk on any street traffic is now LEGALLY required to stop completely

Do these idiots have any idea how much this is going to fuck up traffic

Holy fucking shit this stupid goddamn city of goddamn pearl clutching fucking retarded moronic halfwit idiots

>>33907409
>death
>pearl-clutching

I'm a 31 year old woman but I recently contracted military derangement syndrome after watching a ww1 movie with a great war song now I can't stop looking at war songs. REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE let this fixation pass autism is not a quirk it's just a fact of life

Guess i'll see you on saturday J, hope we can get a chance to say hi at least.

>>33907568
It's ocd, you retarded bitch

I'm a get super rich learning cs and nobody is going to stop me.

>friends groups merge and i'm encouraged to add a bunch of people back
>One is this absolute slag of a cow
>Goes to a con and takes videos of her shaking her ass in people faces all weekend
>regrets it and starts trauma dumping on twitter
>Tells everyone shes was raped at 8 years old
>unfriend her becasue I dont even know who the fuck she is
>she messages me later about it and tells me everything wrong with her until i bock her

>>33907692
Wtf

>>33907568
Try playing a paradox interactive game with documentaries in the background and a hot drink

Tomorrow came and went :(

>>33907923
What were you expecting?

>>33907927
A message. I can keep waiting for a while but am pouting a bit about it

>>33907932
Did you talk to them in this thread?

>>33907475
I dont give a fuck when worthless morons die
Fuck em

tired of everything being taken the wrong way, I want to just stop giving anything

>>33907936
Unless they were the anon panicking to the point of nearly fainting, nah

>>33907953
What made you feel they were going to message you?

>>33907957
She said she would lol

>>33907958
Oh.

>>33907961
Yeah I kinda feel like a dope but am trying not to

>>33906469
Who are you talking about I am a man with a penis

>>33906469
Aren't you fucking a child right now basically since the girl has brain damage?
32 and 18 year old

I'm kinda excited about moving. I think I can get a better place for cheaper. I think the market is correcting.

I think I'm going to start talking to people again

>>33906554
>This guy fucks kids daily reminder
>Also both kids went into care because he's a felon

>>33906559
Did your mother litterally dox cheswick and say she abused her dogs and was mentally ill. When she isn't. And then when she showed statements on here actually steal almost 13 grand from her family
Looool this is why you don't fuck anyone from 4chan or even have ldrs with them

On one hand, I am pissed because other than a couple of very bad faults of yours (being untrustworthy and manipulating my friends), I really liked you a lot and wanted things to work between us. On the other hand, I'm glad I got to see you for what you really are, so I'm finally able to fully get over you after this time. When you see me continue to thrive, I hope it eats away at you and I hope it makes you more miserable and demotivated than ever before.

I've been sabotaging myself since childhood. I remember changing schools at 6th grade. And finally I found some people who actually wanted to talk to me. All I can feel is my face scrunching up like a pressure behind my face. There was one who kept inviting me over and I kept putting it off all through out high school.

Instead of taking my SATs I walked out of the testing center.

I even got a prom date with this cute and bubbly Latina and I showed up drunk. I got booze from this one guy and he was standing there with his date near us cuz I guess my date realized I was drunk. I kept procrastinating through out my teen years about health and fitness

I've been using enlistment as an excuse to shitbag through out my 20s and now that I finally have it I've become unglued. I can't sleep. Legit I spent 2 weeks waking up and falling back to sleep. I promised my family I would enlist but now I know who I am.

I didnt move out when I was 18 using the excuse to workout and work to enlist and now I'm deeply in debt and can barely meet the minimum fitness standard.

What do I do? Do I cancel my enlistment and get into therapy? Do I go ahead?

I'm ignoring whatever tf you're doing because I have too much going on to deal with your cagey demeanor. Genuinely do not know how to converse with you...

If you finally learned how to have a conversation and show real desire to a woman, feel free to send me a more direct message.

so they pulled another 2020

democracy is so dead they have to show us

the corpse will stop functioning soon and we'll be under a new system of governance

the only questions are how it's going to play out and who is going to end up governing

we have a choice to restore what was but it's not going to be handed to us, and the last people that did such a thing had half the world team up to destroy them

but we can learn from their mistakes

>>33908242
We've conversed fine before, the awkwardness is on your end. Stop deflecting. I can be as cordial as you desire me to be, but only if you want me to.

>>33908327
I recognize my part and that maybe 2 autists just doesn't work.

Regardless, I still want to be chased, and I want you to be more confident. My mind won't be changing on that either. I've come to terms with the potential of losing you if you can't attempt to sway me in any direct capacity.

>>33908389
>>33908242
I thought these were for me. I was about to say...

>>33908389
Alright, fine. You've been fair, just give me a sign that I'm doing it right, and I will give you what you need. If you do that, I promise I will reciprocate soon.
You're lucky you're cute.

Time to just do the damn thing.

I experienced handholding today bros. I don't get the signals. I wish I was a chad.

>>33908468
I hope you don't pull a hamstring.

I know this guy irl, he's such a faggot and recently I found out he has a semi successful youtube channel
>https://www.youtube. com/@HeyitsStuart
>ima just leave that here
would be a shame if someone was to spam his comment section with not so kind words.

>>33908459
>You're lucky you're cute
No, I think you're the lucky one here

Iss like that? Hell yeah, iss like that...

I was young Angel, but these niggas turned me evil...

You can't seriously think you can keep getting away talking to me the way you do? I've put up with your constant snapping for far too long and it's tike you were put in your place.

I was literally going, right as you snapped at me. As usual. But no, I didn't move in one millisecond like you wanted.

We're going to have a very big falling out at this rate. But I dont care anymore. I barely give a shit about you now and it's all thanks to years of dealing with your shitty behaviour.

>>33908529
NYPA faglord

>>33908146
Your "protectors" were trying to protect you from rejection again. IFS therapy.

>>33908578
I was gonna tell them the same thing.

Now that I saw you again after the dust has settled, I don’t really miss you or want you anymore. You actually aren’t that good looking. I think I was just hurt and lonely at the time.

>>33908591
Raaaassssss, you gonna tell them that irl?

Bro, I gotta get into DC Comics in this day and age.

>>33908607
Just be into superheroes and comics in general, but yeah. Consoom, critique, craft.

>>33908614
I don't really fuck with Marvel too heavy. And I don't see Image being my main comic company. So I'll stick with DC.

>>33908591
I understand. I'm sorry. Glad you are doing better.

The Absolute Universe looks fucking crazy, man.

>>33908648
This does look awesome. It's like a return to superheroes that seem more grounded in their powers.

>>33908659
Yeah, that's pretty much that idea and goal. They're crossing over with the main Universe too.

>>33908664
Finally, something in this world is going right.

>>33908668
Guess who the god of that Universe is?

>>33908672
Who? No idea. I am realizing that as I get older all the best characters are went they started making greek gods IN SPACE! But I am less familiar with them.

>>33908679
It's Darkseid.

Who? No idea. I am realizing that as I get older all the best characters are when they started making greek gods IN SPACE! But I am less familiar with them.*

>>33908681
I should have guessed that but I was worried I'd sound basic. I might buy these with my grown man powers.

>>33908688
Dude, he basically absorbed The Spectre.

You have to be more direct with me....

>>33908767
I wouldn't know where to start. I've messaged you on Insta. I've even tried to ask for your Disc.

its been 7 months and i still havent seen my doves. no progress getting them back.

>>33908692
Alright alright im back in... comic books are probably like a bajillion dollars nowadays

>>33908812
Nice. I gotta fix up soon.

>>33906598
what do you do if you had bottom frame as your life but they took the chicken away

I gotta do the damn thing!

>>33908822
go somewhere unincorporated in the sticks where no one will stop you from having chickens for a long, long time

>>33908815
Huh. The DC comic subscription is only $12 a month. I might get a crunchyroll and marvel subscription and start trying to make my own comics as part of my next arc.

>>33908891
You're talking about the DC Universe Infinite? Yeah, heard it had some problems though.

>>33908767
Who?

I hope you don’t forget me

>>33908989
I won't ever do that.

I never thought about stress eating before. But seeing a couple girls do it in person at work through me off. Makes me sad.

>>33908993
I miss you

>>33909001
I always think about you. Yes, enough to miss you too.

>>33909007
I have a job again, and I’m making progress. I think about you all the time too

I gotta make the first move

I'm gonna break the cycle!

I want you so bad.

I have sciata my back still hurts. Fuck I wish I was a neet. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

>>33909093
Tell me

>>33909018
You took me saying that to heart, huh?

>>33909151
I don’t want to give up.

>>33909164
I know, that's good. Never kill yourself.

>>33909174
Please take care of yourself as well.

>>33909184
Have no worries. I will.

>>33908897
Tell me what kind of problems if I am not bothering you.

>>33909194
I forgot, I found the complaints on Reddit...

>>33909117
I can't, but I think you already suspect it.

>>33909231
You can, and I do, but you have to cancel out this tension

I know the answer is to take responsibility.

You promised you would

Strombolis are pretty good

No need! Don't disappear, I'll miss you.

wooof wooof tell me what a good dog i am

I took today for myself and did nothing but rest. I guess I needed it, but I don't feel good for doing nothing.

>>33909306
Yeah
>>33909197
It's okay. We need tentacles everywhere.

I am tarnished

>>33909456
OOOOOOOOOHhhHHhHHHhHhHhhHh

Alright. I'm gonna make an Elden Ring and New Vegas review.

>>33908389
I am confident. I know what to do and how to talk to you. You were the one deflecting. I took my turn. Now it is your turn.

I want a cat.

>>33909556
Do it.

>>33909569
Too expensive.

>>33909575
Even if you adopt from a shelter? Cat food and litter aren't that expensive.

Shoot your shot, they say. All I got was a "?" How do I even recover and reply. I think I'll just never respond back

>>33909588
Maybe, but I want to give them proper care. Cheap diets are bad for their health, and vets charge a fortune.

>>33909592
So you weren't her?

>>33909603
I don’t think I’ve ever spent over $100 at the vet on mine before, but I realize even $55 isn’t chump change, and you probably don’t live where I do.
Do it someday, at least!

You don't seem to want it enough to try

>>33909362
Who's a good boy? You are!

>>33909643
She may want it more than anything else but is stuck. For whatever reason.

Happened before. If she remembers how easy it was before it can be that way easily again. Take a single discord saying hi

>>33909636
I'm considering it. But in my area, it's not uncommon for people to spend $500 or more. Maybe not for a general check up, but any sort of medication or health problems will absolutely skyrocket.

The internalized ableism in me is strong today.

I feel like it was because of me that she died.

I will die.

I'll commit suicide

I feel like I'm taking other people's lives

>>33909838
Why?
>>33909851
Why?

I'm sorry for posting so much about killing myself and never following through. I promise someday I'll do it.

>>33909866
What makes you think anyone wants that?

The shit

>>33909869
You should want that, I'm a bad person.

Why, yes, I am the bitterest bitch in all the land. I've been Queen Miserable, Resentful Bitch for years now. I love trying my absolute hardest at everything I do, having it never be enough, and watching people who care not even a fraction as much as I do get rewarded for it. I love being a failure. It feels so good. :)

>>33909838
Please don't

>>33909877
The fact you see that you're doing bad means deep down inside, you don't want to.

>>33909878
What are you working on anon?

>>33909878
You'll get there someday

>>33909878
What made you say this?

>>33909857
I think that if I took someone else's life through my own fault, then my death will restore the balance of the Universe.

>>33909945
Killing yourself would be a negative feat.

>>33909857
I am once again convinced that people with mental health issues shouldn't be interacting with the internet. This was my example, and I'm scared that I can no longer remain silent about my problems.

>>33909950
Do I deserve to live?

>>33909878
why? this is not true. you're not like that. you're better and deserve better.

Why won't I go to jail after what happened?

This happened when I was a teenager and I didn't know that my mistake could change people's lives.

>>33909956
Of course you deserve to live.

I've been nothing but failure and everyone feels like a burden because of me

I will never be able to wash away this shame.

>>33909984
I'm not going to ask you what you did. I will ask you not to kill yourself.

i had psychosis for a long time and i understand that i am just psycho.

We shall take away dignity; and then what? We shall take away your comfort; and then what? We shall torture you; and then what? We shall take away your life. Then what can you do to me that I an honorable man cant do for myself?

We are going to see how this all goes down

I'm not asking you to give me more love.

>>33910003
Then what are you asking?

Alr here I go!

>>33909950
Good thing feats hardly matter when you're dead

The endless yearning

>>33910048
On the contrary. There is life after death.

>>33910059
I have no legacy, and I don't care for my legacy after I die. Nameless will be my future.

I dont care

>bro, you've got to have a degree for the job
>did you have to?
>my relatives gave me a spot and went up the ranks from there
>I didn't get a degree btw
4 years down the drain even without debts.
I hate networking so much.

>>33910064
Why does your legacy matter?
>>33910070
Why? What's wrong?

>>33910072
Nothings the matter

>>33910072
>Why does your legacy matter?
I assumed that's what you meant by life after death.

>>33910076
Okay.
>>33910077
>I assumed that's what you meant by life after death
You have your mind on these things and it seems to be causing you pain.

>>33910050
why are you endlessly yearning?

>>33910089
What did you mean by life after death? The afterlife?

I fell for a woman that was only using me
Just like she used every other man she met

>>33910095
Yes, the afterlife.

>>33910103
And how are feats relevant?

>>33910106
Negative feats will count against you if you're trying to accomplish things like becoming a Universe Creator, Plane Creator, Dimension Creator, Planet Creator or other things.

>>33910102
how did she use you?

>>33910117
I see.

Pissed off rn. My fathers playing the concerned dad and how hes praying for me and goody two shoes. I just can't forget how I would get beaten the fuck up and berated from kindergarten up to college. I've wanted to kms since 6th grade. There's so much shit I can't even post. Now he's concerned. I'm just doing the bare minimum because then I'd be the bad kid and someone who abandoned his parents. I left this shit to pursue my own life but this it has followed me here.

Idk what to do. I just want to be left alone

I love that woman like you wouldn’t believe.

>>33910135
marry her and have babies

>>33910139
She’s already married and she’s on another continent. I’m okay with posting here about it.

>>33910142
what's her OF?

>>33910143
Doesn’t have one. Just someone I connected really well with. Not a parasocial thing, just one of those star crossed lovers.

>>33910147
you love a married woman in another continent. Wtf?

I dont talk about politics, I dont talk about religion

>>33910154
Yes. Life is strange.

>>33910093
I don't know

>bad shit happens because u deserve it
A pessimistic rule of thumb I hold sometimes. Another thing that shouldn’t be my problem if u took personally.

>>33909963
Why does my pee pee make yellow color?

My GF is only her true self when she's not on birth control but her body doesn't agree. It's difficult to get a taste of what things could be like for the brief moments she's off of it. You wouldn't really think the change would be so drastic but these hormones are like a modifier that apply to her entire life. Things become... miserable to be blunt. That said they're the best option she has. Her life is better for taking them even if it eviscerates our relationship which is why I convinced her to go back on them. It's astonishing to watch how quickly she changes when she gets back on them. An injection and over the course of driving home she goes from talk of being excited to be able to not use condoms to silence and discomfort. Our usual enthusiastic cuddling replaced by constant discomfort, agitation, and mere tolerance. That's just what I have to look forward to now while she feebly tries to pretend that everything is normal. Slowly building up resentment over time invariably leading to fights...

It's tiring.

it's good to be skeptical but a lot of people are only skeptical until it fits their worldview.

Looking back doesn't help. I check in on mine sometimes just to make sure they are okay but it's never easy. The worst I was at was always when I was sitting here ruminating about my thoughts and memories of them. It's too easy to let it consume you. To try to find meaning in the randomness. Reality is unfortunately never so romantic.

I will never understand the pride you seem to take in your obsession. You failed to respect their boundaries time and time again and yet still you wait for that message in a bottle. Be kind to yourself, Anon.

>>33908807
Dove anon did you ever move out of that shitty apt.
I'm sorry about your doves I hope there okay

>>33910300
Thanks for the support, I'm not sure you were trying to cheer me up, but you did lift my spirits.

>>33910300
Even though you didn't mean it in a positive way, i feel so much better. I'm truly tired of carrying this burden and pain.

i feel like i grew up an imperfect person. i had so much potential to be a good person, but i didn't.

I'm quitting tomorrow. I don't care if your father in law is dying; that's unfortunate, he's a good man, but my pay is late again today and I just can't do it. I need to buy food for my cat and I have an automatic bill payment coming up. It's your FUCKING RESPONSIBILITY TO MAKE SURE I GET PAID. THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME.
All employment is just ferrying some jackass on your back for crumbs. You people live in a completely different world and it sickens me.

>>33910331
You don't drink enough water

My parents always raised me with love. They always supported me, but I still became ungrateful.

>>33910351
if you feel like that it would be best for the both of you to dump her, she probably senses your resentment

>>33910424
>>33910429
I was venting

I run away from all the problems I create.

>>33910488
Same.

I think the girl committed suicide because of me. I sincerely didn't want to raise such a terrible, imperfect person, but I never received support from my parents. They always avoided me and were cold to me. I never had any friends, and everyone I had in my life judged me and put pressure on me, which eventually led to my breaking. I also bullied a girl in the past, and she's in terrible mental health because of me. She also lost a case that was important to her because of me. But for some reason, these problems haven't come back to haunt me.

Nothing has ever come back to me like a boomerang. I don't understand why everyone else is worse off than me lately. They probably did more bad things than I thought. They weren't supposed to break me.

It's true I was treated badly, but I don't hold a grudge. Why would anyone feel the way I do?

I always thought I was a terrible person who didn't deserve anything, but lately I've been thinking that I was always good and perfect. I was a good person. People keep telling me that I'm fine, but I'm not.

I feel hurt. Why could I never be like other people? I think I'm flawed as a person.

>>33910544
I'm flawed as well. It's okay to be imperfect. You are still loved.

I get this feeling sometimes that anon tries to convince me that a girl killed themself even tho they didn’t and it’s supposed to be my fault but even if they did it’s still not my fault. Perhaps the only thing I can do to make it stop is post this so there u go.

I have to take responsibility

>>33910616
What do you feel you have to do to take responsibility?

>>33910636
The answer is always to take responsibility. I better control myself and do my chores.

>>33910652
You don't seem okay.

stop fucking telling me about all your friends you get to play Peak or whatever with it's like you want me to become a mass shooter. What part of "i have no friends and i get jealous and bitter" do you not understand?

I don't know how to express my grief, but forgive me for what I did. I really thought I wasn't to blame, but I was very much to blame.

Now I don't want to seem like a good person, which I'm not

I'm so sorry it was so hard for you. I was so stupid that I didn't think about what I was doing. If I could rewind time, I would. But what if I could prevent these consequences?

Do I need to take responsibility? I'm scared

I can't come to my senses. I can't come to my senses. Am I in a reality where a person is dead because of me?

Her mother misses her so much. What can I do about it? Should I tell the whole truth? I'm scared of what this has become. I was just stupid.

I don't need support and self-pity anymore. I want to admit my guilt, but I'm scared. I want to hear the truth about myself

Tell me what I should do if a person died?

>>33910666
Responsibility!

I can't handle this on my own..

A person died because of me, but no one believes me

>>33910743
>But what if I could prevent these consequences

I wrote a letter with our compass

I try not to worry about it but I do. I should have been more mindful when I talked to myself. I did say some things to them wondering if they ever listened and I made sure to say their name when I did. Then one day I was talking to myself and I said some really rude things toward someone I encountered in public that day. I stay hopeful that they’re ok. Arrogantly so at this point. But sometimes I can’t think about anything else for long periods of time. It happened earlier today. More often lately. I start wondering if I deserve to die. I don’t want to worry about it anymore.

>>33910785
letter?

I made the mistake before January of 2023 when I discovered that I was in fact being monitored by people and reconfirmed it with frequent reminders since summer of 2023. I typed an abundant amount of notes about them in an endearing then gradually therapeutical manner but did my best to be more mindful in a positive sense. I still have a habit of saying distasteful things while driving. Anyone monitoring me any day would be aware of my habit that I never broke.

I'm really sorry to hear that.

>>33910785
I've had an inkling of some way (that would be extraordinary) but external evidence points otherwise.

From what i've noticed I feel bad when I try to talk to people, I feel bad when people dont talk to me, but I feel best when people try to talk to me and I don't answer. And that's why I have no friends. Because I'm constantly trying to set it up so people try to talk to me and I don't respond. What does this mean?

>>33910777
Is this post about me?

conversation with you feels like life, and with him I might survive on muted, temperamental warmth that comes only when he's ready. I am so proud of you. Why does it feel like normal?

Makes me remember
>you're the air I breathe

I have both the carrot and the stick so it's time to go now.

>>33910909
Bye

The entire point was that you've had the carrot and the stick this whole time, you've just been misusing them. Pottery never was your strong suit, but at least that you admit.

>>33910914
Oh you’re larp battling, how embarrassing for me

>>33910406
Hey you remember me, Anon. ...No, I havent gotten out yet, not from lack of trying. I was told 4 were already adopted. Drove out to where I was told they were held, but it was a dead end. I also really really hope they are okay, because they are good birds. Absolute fluffballs.

I like you so much that it's clouding my judgement. I think you know it too, but we can't help but be drawn to each other. I want to go back to that night and feel your hands wrapped around me again.

>>33910828
who are u? ex friend? leave me alone please

>>33910804
I’m so tired of u. You are my past, go away. I feel disgusted with you

>>33910828
In any case, I don't love you anymore

>>33910828
you are…

>>33910828
familiar
I've already forgotten you. I didn't think you thought about me.

>>33910828
Leave me alone. It was January of last year, not 2023.

>>33910828
There is no need to try to contact me. You don't even D

What the fuck

>>33910828
you are another person. I think I don't like you because of what you did, but if you don't take into account the situation that happened, you were nice and good people, but I didn't like our relationship.

>>33904361 (OP)
It's the weirdest thing I genuinely feel over her, but I suddenly remembered her smile, her face, her tits, her frame, her perfect little pussy and think fuck I wish I was able to fuck her properly, she was funny and pretty and witty and everything I loved.
I swear God is a comedian, knowing I've been at the victim of circumstance so many times.
Amber I know you'll never see this or read this but, I loved you and I think you knew that too well, I know I wasn't perfect, neither of us were in I guess, but I still wish I acted better, knowing you made your mind up, adding all that distance, adding all that pain, I felt like I had to run away or leave my heart to ruin, and it was cowardly, I wish I confronted you told you that I love you, stood my ground and maybe it could have been different.
There's still this glimmer of love in my heart for you you know - this silent wish that I wish I was still with you. My little soul mate.
What a terrible fool I am. But at least I understand things now with a smile in search of better days.
You gave me such an adventure

I just don't understand how people bond, man. And I know it's not as simple as people disliking me. People like the fuck out of me. On the surface. But I don't know how to get any closer than that. Every significant relationship I had with another human until I was like 10 years old was abusive in some way, ways I'm still only just realising as a grown ass adult. I never learned what a normal human connection is supposed to consist of. I feel like I just full on skipped so many developmental milestones that most people take for granted, the same way I might be baffled by someone my age not knowing how to read or do basic addition. How the fuck do you come back from this? I'm not even half way through my natural life, god willing, am I really supposed to live the rest of it like this? Even if I fix myself up, what then? Live the last half of it playing catch up? It all just feels like a sick joke some days.

Another day of soldiering because my schizophrenic mom believes it's totally normal to have your mom as a dependent and send them thousands and thousands of dollars each month. Can't wait for her to die.

I sometimes hate myself for being a racemixer. I failed to attain a mate of my own race (the most coveted race) and ended up with someone else.
But it's not like that at all.

I'm so sorry, baby girl. I’m so sad, baby

you are deserving everything! You deserve the best, the greatest love and understanding. I love you. I'm sorry I couldn't help you.

Thank you, S.

I'm a fool I'm a fool I'm a fool I'm a fool I'm a bastard I'm a bastard the earth like a cloud to the girl who died. I’m scum. She committed suicide. She died because of me. Please forgive me.

I don't deserve anything good, I didn't even know that someone would suffer because of me.

I didn't mean anything bad, I ruined everything :( I was a terrible person and my daughter, now I understand why they hated me.

>>33911438
why? for what

>>33911438
Do you hate me?

Fight the future.

>>33911138
>>33911125
Why bother asking when u aren’t the one who made the post?

U play too much

>>33911474
What did you do anon?

Bf assured he loved me yesterday and outlined a timeline for our enagement and marriage, me getting a new job, selling this place and moving out, etc. I feel a lot less stressed about everything but I just wish I could fast forward through this hard part to our wedding day with the click remote. I know we can get through this but I just have to keep a stiff upper lip and buckle down and stop being a spastic. He's doing great at work and I really don't want to stress him out with my anxiety. I just want us to be happy

Been with partner for 7 years, married for 2.
When we were together for like 6 months, we were sitting on the couch at my apartment playing video games. Then out of the blue she asks me "Have you ever cheated on me?"

I laughed and said "No, why have you?" in like a sarcastic way
She giggled and was like "Welllllllll... kind of but not really I guess?" and was smiling like she was telling a naughty story to friends or something. I put the controller down and was like, what?

She, still smiling, told me that after our 2nd date she went to a music festival and made out with some random guy while there. For context, we met on a dating app then had our first date, I asked her to come back to mine, she was a virgin and didnt want to have sex but did everything else basically. Her condition for staying the night was "I dont want this to be a one night stand, I really like you and wanna keep seeing you".
Second date was going to hers like 4 days later and repeating, then that weekend she was going to the festival. I already organised with her to pick her up on sunday and go back to mine after.

So she tells me "I guess it wasnt really cheating because we werent official yet? So technically it wasn't." IIRC I asked her to be my girlfriend like days after the third date and she said yes.

She told me the reason she got off with the guy was because she was telling all her friends about me and how much she liked me, but didnt want them to think she was super hung up on someone after just two times meeting me.

At first I was like, well yeah I guess it wasn't technically cheating, but... why are you telling me this now? She was like a bit taken back and didn't give an answer, no longer smiling. I thought about it for a moment, and felt shitty enough that after we had a small argument about it and went back and forth for a moment, I told her I think she should go home.

>>33911879
Is there any way we can contact each other

Although maybe you don't need to. You won't want to.

>>33912513
CONT.

I dont really remember what happened after that for a few days, I think she was trying to call and text me and I just told her I dont really wanna speak to her while I think things out.

It was a few days until the weekend when she had to go to Tokyo for a work training thing all weekend anyway. The more I thought about it, the more I got upset about it and the less the "technically it wasn't cheating" mattered to me.

Like all I could think was why tell me? Genuinely if she never told me I don't think I'd care at all because we'd only been on two dates. But in telling me that she completely changed in my eyes as this sweet innocent super loyal girl (She had previously been very jealous over me talking to other girls, even coworkers, so I thought loyalty was important to her). Now she was some wild slutty girl that gets off with randoms at festivals days after being in bed with me, then goes on a date with someone and sleeps with them probably hours after she was doing bits with a guy at a festival?

I told her when she was in Tokyo that I didnt know where we go from here, I felt like Im not sure if we can continue as a couple, coz if she had told me at the time I probably would have called it on us and asked to just stay friends, so not telling me kinda feels like she just tricked me into 6 months of being together.

She told me in tears she only told me that story because she felt like we were drifting apart and wanted to make me jealous to get my attention back. I had no fucking idea what she meant she spent 5 days at week at my apartment, we had sex every night and we were cuddling on the couch when she told me. Like who tf was drifting apart? I thought we were happy.

That same week I told her I had just been told I was effectively losing my visa that week and had to go back to europe. We were devastated.

>>33911726
I can't change the situation

I guess everything I wrote was just for attention and to make people feel sorry for me.

I can give you contacts

>>33912547
I would accept them.

it's pointless?

>>33912537
>>33912513
FINALE.

So that weekend, at one of my last shifts, I told one of my 10/10 gorgeous students (20yo, I taught adults english) that I had to go back to the UK. We had always had a bit of a vibe despite her limited english and she always paid extra to have 1on1 english lessons with me. But I never did anything because loyalty to my girlfriend and it was against company policy. But I was about to leave the country so who cares at this point??

I asked her out on a date, and somewhat ironically we went to the same aquarium me and my wife went to on one of our first dates. I felt a bit weird, I was still sad and depressed from having to leave, from my relationship imploding, despite being on this date with this gorgeous girl that spoke like 50 words of english, I felt like I was in a bit of a daze.
We even went in a Ferris wheel and kissed, which is literally what me and my wife did. What the fuck was I doing it felt so weird.

We ended up going to the train station, I told her I had a great time and I'll miss her, I hope we can stay in touch. She said in broken english "I... dont.. want to.. go.. yet? Daijobu??"

And insisted she come back to mine. We put one of my wifes favourite movies on netflix, still on her account logged in on my laptop, and then ended up fucking. After I felt like I couldn't even look at her but tried to keep up the facade and be sweet to her because it wasn't her fault I was in a mental funk. In the morning I was flirty with her and kissed her goodbye as she went to work. Felt like shit, wouldn't be able to see her, felt like I had betrayed my sort of gf. All bad.

I ended up calling my girlfriend and asking if she wanted to come see me to talk. We did, she was shocked I let her back in my apartment and assumed I was going to dump her.

We talked it out, and decided to try and move past it. She never found out about the other girl, I didnt want to hurt her like that. We got married 5 years later. Still bothers me to this day

>>33912551
You have them, don't you?

In fact, I'm just a terrible person and a coward.

>>33912565
Wouldn't know, I never got a response like. I have a Disc that I'm not sure is yours.

>>33912571
It was mine, but I wasn't using there.

>>33912575
Okay. Then we'll get to it when we get to it. No rush. Have no worries.

I haven't used it much.

>>33912582
That's fine. No worries.

>>33912579
You better do with me as you see fit. I deserve some special attention, don't I?

>>33904886
I think theres lots of reasons why they'd unadd you that aren't "they got what they wanted and left"

They may have had a partner and liked you, and felt bad and thought they needed to cut things off. They could have been going through something, liked about something to do with themselves as the other anon said etc.

Dont take it to hard, it sucks but sometimes you just lose contact with people you really connected with. The positive way is just move forward, there are more people you can connect with just as well

>>33912586
>You better do with me as you see fit
I gave you my Disc, I think.
>I deserve some special attention, don't I?
Always.

>>33912595
no >>33912586
I'll give it myself

Hi [x], I've been thinking about what I did to you a lot lately and I genuinely can't express how sorry I am. I've fucked up a lot these past few years but neglecting you and smearing you as annoying to other people was probably the worst. I'm realizing now I had extremely strong feelings for you. I've tried the "intimacy without commitment" crap with other people and it has always felt wrong. I've been on dates with seemingly perfect women but they didn't make me as happy as when I was with you. You're the only person I've fallen asleep in the arms of, that takes a lot for a guy like me. I've been confused about so much this year and you were unfortunately caught in the crossfire of that. I had no idea what I wanted out of my life and what I thought I did want was dictated by society and my own weakness more than anything. Also when I called you annoying to other people, I was only talking about certain personality quirks you shared a bit with my ex that I wasn't super fond of. But I've now interacted with some actually annoying people lately and I realize now you were an absolute saint with some slight personality quirks. I miss you so much but I know I can't have you again. I really hope you get everything you want out of life, you're such an amazing and special person and deserve the best.

>>33912613
>Sike, that's the wrong person
That sucks.

>>33912563
So you cheated because you got butthurt? You're trash anon.

I know you are leaving him.

I know there is shit you have to deal with there because of that.

You don't have to make it difficult, just block and move your feet.

Whatever support you need, reach out to me and I'll take care of you

The Moon only has eyes for the Sun

Faith in each other over all else.

That empty space, the part of me where Mike resides,missing in everything and everywhere, my mind looks for him in that silence.

To be his, aching for those moments with him, dwelling in daydreams of home.
So fucking full. Complete.

My body pressed against his, draped over him, head on his chest. Feeling his breath calm and steady with mine.
Tremble and moan against him in pleasure, my skin touching his.
Looking up, mike moves my hair as my eyes meet his, I hear him say what I've always wanted to hear from him.

>Maria, I love you with all my heart, always

I love you more
My Mike

I hope this gives you relief. I love you

As you leave him, know that it does not have to be hard, easily block and keep moving your feet. Wash your hands of him.

Whatever support you need, reach out to me and I'll take care of you

>>33912628
I'm sorry I bothered you for nothing, I thought you were someone

>>33912595
Do you know about the tragedy that happened?

>>33913050
>Do you know about the tragedy that happened?
Which one? I don't know if you're her now, she's been silent lately.

>>33913057
DAMN! Sorry for wasting your time. I'm probably writing all sorts of nonsense

>>33913057
I was too sensitive to the news I saw

>>33913079
There's only two endings. In between doesn't matter

>>33913079
Is it the one about the Cowboys player?

That is a fact.

I'm very ashamed of what I wrote above. I was emotional.

>>33913086
noooo

>>33913094
Maybe you're mixing me up for someone else.

>>33913102
yes. I’m so sorry

>>33913109
It's cool.

I felt better, I let out my emotions.

The sun is coming up
The rain is coming down
The moon remembers
She comes to shore
In my arms

She thinks about what it feels like on top of me

>>33913115
good day

>>33913128
You as well.

>>33911487
Thinking of me, worrying about me, loving me.

>>33913302
Does s stand for sun?

I care for you Maria
I'm doing my best to be there for you