>>938675930
None taken! ^_^ I'm professionally diagnosed with OCD, ASPD, and NPD. I understand how I could come off as BPD in my post, but please don't mistake my poor phrasing (calling him perfect) as idealization and stuff. He has his flaws and he did irritate me at times (and I've been open about that to him) but he was never like the other people I've been with, a real pattern breaker! I don't fit the BPD criteria. Maybe on a surface level since I'm cluster b but you get what I mean. Whenever I would get dumped (or as bpdfags would say, abandoned) I'd be incapable of caring since I usually look for the flaws in the person *before* dating them and it usually outweighs their positives, still date them since they ask me out and I want material goods and someone to yell at, I'd also just start dating the next person in line immediately after. exploit, dump, repeat. Not this time tho I'm in my mourning period unless if I decide to continue changing my OCD habits for him it's just so fucking difficult lol
"But you'd cut yourself and post it on thread etc!"
So true! This is usually to express a false sense of devotion to the person Incase if they have something I want, like, really want. People get an ego boost when they see you damaged/hurt/etc by them and it's best to utilize that as much as possible if you want something they have. Aloe vera helps the skin look like a clean slate for future endeavors. ^_^ I usually don't care what the stakes are, if I want something I *will* get it. Thread was basically like the batman signal thing.
This guy is my exception. I like him. Like, really like him. I even bought him stuff. I never fucking do that with the people I date.
I'm not seeing a therapist or taking any medication at the moment. My last therapist was very rapey towards me and played love music during our sessions so I'm very grossed out by the idea of therapy.
