>>18577771
I'd say you have a bad relationship with porn, but I know your type well enough to know that you would probably get off to being shamed for your "porn addiction". And thats cool and all, I don't care to shame people for their fetishes, but please stop bringing your fetish into sfw discussions and trying to pass it off as earnest racism.
I can't say its especially healthy to be jerking off to your own racist cuck anxiety, if you truly believe the premise of it all. The highs are gonna diminish, and the lows are going to make you suicidal eventually.
I'm into the whole Sissy/Force-Fem thing, so take it from someone who themselves is in orbit of that sphere of fetishes, your relationship with what gets your rocks off becomes a lot more stable and healthy once you understand that at the end of the day, its just kayfabe. No, there is no "Black New World Order", white women aren't cuckholding white men for blacks en masse, and if anything is taking away your chances to find a partner, its your own insecurity in your own sexuality. People can tell when it oozes out of you. Trust me, most black men resent the idea they're fetishized as "sexually superior brutes", and if you stopped indulging your racist anxieties and listened to their perspective on this, you wouldn't be so shamefully scaroused by it.
https://youtu.be/RP1YI6Wi6gs
Sure, I'm into being sissified, but not because I'm insecure about my masculinity or anything, I'm just naturally submissive, and genuinely just find the aesthetic of feminized males appealing. I strive towards beauty, I don't revel in fear of my own ugliness.
Maybe you could give it a shot too, if you don't feel the whole "being a manly bitch-fucking chad" thing is working out for you. Go on /soc/, find a dommy boyfriend, jerk off to femboy porn like a normal faggot. It's what got me out of the same shame-hole you're probably in.