Thread 76486749

>Sunday
Another weekend another drink anon, how has your weekend been?

Just a cold glass of milk, please.
Another weekend alone scrolling down /fit/ and listening to music while being 10% bf shredded, I'm not even that ugly and live in a 3rd world country with men uglier than me, all I wanted was a gf or friends.
I turn 28 end of this year and even tho I've improved a lot and mog my past self it feels like I'm still in the same place, I guess I can atleast mire myself in the mirror with my abs.

I forgot to work out this weekend. Gonna go harder tomorrow to make up for it. Also gonna save up for better equipment at the home gym cos I'm getting close to maxing out the cheap babby's first weights set (I know I'm dyel but I'm trying to fix that)

>>76486749 (OP)
Went hard this weekend. Burned tons of calories, got a ton of yard work done I'd been meaning to do, repotted shit and cleaned up my garden and planted some trees that were long overdue for going in ground. Also chopped up and dug out some big ass stumps and shit.
Thinking about shaving my head and getting back into running later this afternoon maybe. In any case I feel fukken good got them endorphins on overdrive.

>>76486760
I know this feel, i'm 32 and have no friends or social life. It is so over.

>>76486749 (OP)
Drinking PBR right now and feeling fine. Just got out of the gym and will probs do laundry and take a nap after this post.

I'm coming to terms with the fact the only thing I am qualified to do is be an electrician. I don't mind the work but the people in the trades suck.
>tfw the whitest guy from suburbia is blasting ghetto trap rap and full blast with a cia brain melting bass
I've been looking for a good job now for 3/4 of a year and other than a few stints, nothing has kept me around. I'm tired of multi-round interviews where I have to pass the ick test for 3/5. I'm tired of walking into an office the first day and immediately realizing I got catfished. I need to be able to swallow my pride and ego and learn to get back into blue collar work but once you've left and experienced something better, it's like returning to fucking fat girls after getting fit after being a scrawny nerd.

Society is in a transition right now but it will be some time before it comes into fruition assuming that modern society can be saved from the darkness at this point. Yes, I do mean brown people and the ebonification of Western culture.

>>76486760
>>76486816
At 28 you can still make it, just get yourself out there

On other news I had a terrible weekend because yesterday I had an appointment with my vet for euthanasia of my dog. I didn’t really want to but he was suffering (paralyzed legs couldn’t walk) and he was very sick. I lifted really hard today in memory of him.

>>76486837
Sorry about your doggo, anon, he's probably in a better and peaceful place right now since this world can be painful. And thanks for the kind words, I hope I can make it or be in a better place in life before I turn 30.

>>76486749 (OP)
Need to fix my job situation. Doing sort of retail related work. It’s pretty chill but the pay sucks, I feel like I’m stagnating in life here. I’ve looked into some options but they all have the same root problem.
>trades
>IT (would be miserable)
Etc. The problem is the current job market. I need more money. I can’t even get a second job with how fucked up the market is.


I try to ask myself what I even want out of life that it matters and I really don’t know. The best I can come up with is pretty mundane nothing long lasting.
>get laid
Okay wow so I wanna fuck a thick busty Latina milf, fuck some petite thots, fuck fitness goes etc etc it just sounds like fulfilling coomer fantasy. I know from experience sex gets old fast.
>project car
Idk that I would ever have the money or space. I don’t have the space where I live so that means finding a place to store it which means more money.
>combat sports
Actually sounds fulfilling if I could do amateur but I’m pushing 30 already.
>start a family
See >sex I have to be in a position to meet women first and that means making more than min wage and also having a where/when/how to meet them


And that’s all I have. Idk the point. I literally don’t know what I truly want out of life and yet I feel like I’m stuck. It’s like I’m on a trail, I know there’s a path but I’m in quicksand but my feet hit the bottom at waste height so I won’t die, but even if I pulled myself out I still don’t see the path forward and I also don’t know what is even at the end of the path that I should work so hard towards it.

>>76486839
Well, at 10% bf and looking good you surely can make it. At 28 I was spinning my wheels myself and some months later after turning 29 I found a loving gf and life has been better since I gained confidence. You just need a win.

Anyone else struggling with facing the reality of all the years they wasted obese? I spent my entire 20's as an obeast and did nothing, i just sat inside and drank until i passed out and made no progress in life. I have no friends now as a result and no gf. Things are getting better but the mental battle of those wasted years is getting harder and harder.

I started lifting because of the Jojo anime, last weekend I got mired by a drunken guy, a month ago again by another guy, guess that the memes are real

I also changed my wardrobe by adding way more color to my clothes

>>76486774
You're a manic depressive

>>76486973
Not really. I did the same for my 20s but excluding a horrific accident or unforeseen tragedy, the years you'll spend in shape will far outnumber the years you were fat. You can either live in the past regretting the mistakes you made or you can live in the present to fix them and secure a better future for yourself

>Met this 22-year-old girl in my neighborhood a few months back. She’d been trying for about a month to get me to meet up.
>We finally went for a walk a few days ago.
>Whole time she had her phone on airplane mode.
>At one point I touched her arm, she goes, “no touching, I need my space, you touch a lot.”
>She thought I was 28, but I told her I’m 32.

After that, she got slow to reply and I thought she was ghosting me. Then she told me shedeleted her Instagram and gives me her phone number, tells me to call her instead.

A bit later she reaches out again, invites me to meet up. I thought about saying no but ended up going. She opened up a little bit more but i didn't ask her anything about ex boyfriends or something and again no escalation, just walking the dogs. A day later my dog died, I called her and she was actually compassionate about it. Since then she’s been more open and available to talk, but she went camping with her friends this weekends and we only talked yesterday.

She also told me she is on birth control on the phone.

So far I’ve only seen her twice in person, talked on the phone and texted a bit, but it’s been inconsistent—sometimes she’s into it, sometimes she’s distant. Mixed signals all the way.

Do i just ghost?

>>76486749 (OP)
I've spent the entire year drinking and doing coke every single weekend. This week I decided to take a break and I actually feel noticably better than usual. I might extend it another week.

>>76486749 (OP)
>Touching grass for once
>See cute girl
>We make eye contact
>She smiles
>Drive back home while imagining the rest of our lives together
Why?

>>76487009
>Do i just ghost?
Not yet. Wait until you find out wtf she's playing. If you leave now you could have regrets about what might have been. If you keep going and find out its not gonna work, you'll be able to leave with no worries. There's also the small chance it'll work eventually but I wouldn't count on that. She seems a bit too conflicted herself about it but you never know

Just had a 4 day weekend and wasted it doing basically nothing. Feels bad.

I started bulking last week. I'm already bloated from the water weight. I still do regular cardio; I run about 2.5 miles 5x a week.
Gf and I might break up. I love hanging out with her but I know I can do better. If we split its for the best but I will miss her.
I am talking to another fine young woman just in case so ill be ok.
I hate my job and the market for a new one sucks. Hopefully ill get something b4 the year is over.
Thanks is for reading my blog post

>>76487009
My opinion is a bit biased but I think just go with the flow. If you feel negative about texting her, don’t.
If she doesn’t want to hyu or seems uninterested, then let her go stop replying.
Ironically this would probably pull her back in. But mainly my point is I don’t have time to fucking waste getting my hopes up on some bitch who doesn’t know wtf she wants. I’m close to your age. Have had dealings with a chick a few years younger than me all through my 20s. Met up with her a few times, fucked a bunch on those meetups. But ultimately she’s a flake. Acts similar to how you described. Last I spoke to her she ghosted me for a couple days so I just never replied, been a month. Couple weeks before that she was all on board to come see my new place and hang and then last second had 1000 excuses. A week before that she had hit me up for the 30th time claiming to have totally open schedule, no job no school. Lo and behold when push came to shove she couldn’t come through. I’m 29. There’s no time to waste on this bullshit.
Stop playing the game. Let her figure out if it’s you she wants or whatever other dudes she’s talking to. Until that happens, she isn’t your problem or worth stressing over. Honestly though just randomly ghost her for 2 weeks then reply like nothing ever happened, if she gets pissy just hit her with “whatever” and stop replying.


If you ignore all of this, the SINGLE thing I have found to be true in life with people and women is that when someone genuinely wants you in their life, wants to be in yours, you will not question it and won’t feel confused about them. This push pull bullshit she’s interested now she’s distant crap is insufferable I literally said “damn this dude met a clone of [girl I mentioned above]”
Maybe at ages 15-25 we had time to deal with that. Not anymore. Fuck that shit man. I’m sorry to hear about your dog bro, RIP

>>76487025
Don’t forget that I’m 10 years older than her and in a different stage in life. Also so far I’m playing on her terms
We walked in her park
2nd time we walked her route
I didn’t even take her out properly yet but to be honest im hesitant aswell because I see some redflags and I’m passive in general. Also we live 2 mins from each other.

Btw if she was getting fucked would she put all this effort going for walks with me etc?

>>76487025
>Wait until you find out wtf she's playing
Can you elaborate? Because to me it’s clear she IS PLAYING. That push pull crap where anon is just confused is reason enough in my opinion to cut it off. Why would it matter WHAT she’s playing? No bitch worth anyone’s time will do that. And in all reality it falls into 2 possibilities. Either she’s not sure which guy is the best option, or much less likely she’s just not sure about getting close to anon

>spend entire life dangerously underweight
>was 6' and 110lbs when I was 18
>eventually decided enough is enough and started hitting the gym
>struggled to eat over 1600 calories a day, had to basically force feed myself milk
>eventually got the hang of it and started eating anywhere from 2500-3000 calories a day
>3 years later, actually at a healthy weight and my body looks considerably better with the bit of muscle I've gained
>decide I want to cut
>now I'm struggling to lose weight
fuck

>>76487057
Nigga yes women love attention and options. Idk this bitch so I can’t say with absolute certainty but a bitch will go on walk dates with one guy, be texting another guy during that date, and then go home and fuck a different one. In all likelihood she’s vetting multiple guys and you’re one of them. Your appeal is older guy with experience and maturity and whatever assets you have. Either be okay with having competition and play your cards or ghost. Regardless you need to become unbothered by this shit and just decide what option leads to your happiness the most.
She’s 22. No fucking shit you’re not the only guy man. I’m sorry to come off like a dick, I just hate what dating has become.

>>76487057
>would she put all this effort going for walks with me
You live 2 minutes from each other, that's not a lot of effort anon. They'll go on a date with one guy for dinner and fuck another one that same night, walking isn't shit. She's probably talking to more guys, you can't expect them to be exclusive at this point.

I give up. I will think less. I will train harder. fuck

>>76487057
You might as well find out if you really want to pursue her at all since it sounds like you're just as unsure as she's showing she is. If you're already getting red flags, you'll probably get your answer soon enough anyway
>>76487064
>Either she’s not sure which guy is the best option, or much less likely she’s just not sure about getting close to anon
This is basically what I meant. She definitely is playing but imo knowing why changes how to view it. If she's got multiple guys she's considering then yeah, cut her loose. If she's hesistant cos she's not that sure about you, might as well also leave. If she's taking it slow cos she doesn't wanna rush things or if she's a bit retarded on how these things work, that's manageable. I'm not a fan of games like that either but most of the time you gotta play games to some degree to have any success picking up women, either sexually or romantically.

>>76487097
based. I have only just now come to the realization that I need to stop thinking and trying to be smart. Not in the eastern mysticism or buddhist sense. But in the alpha cave man sense.

>>76487097
Unironically thinking is a curse and unga bunga brain is the way to live life. I just stopped thinking about it all, i wake up, i go to work, i do my work to a high level, i come home, i work out, i eat, i watch tv and i sleep. Repeat. I just do things now, i don't spend time agonising about them.

>>76487099
>it. If she's got multiple guys she's considering then yeah, cut her loose. If she's hesistant cos she's not that sure about you, might as well also leave. If she's taking it slow cos she doesn't wanna rush things or if she's a bit retarded on how these things work, that's manageable
It hasn’t given me total clarity, but you saying this has brought sort of a sense of calmness. These were the exact situations I was wondering with the girl I mentioned. Technical ex but we never really dated. To this day no fucking clue what her game is and it ultimately became easier to say fuck it. If she wasn’t a hoe, then she was incredibly immature a little slow and to be honest a bit selfish/entitled. No clue if she was taking it slow because first few attempts to date her didn’t work, so I cut her off and she chased me for years, then one day gave her a chance and she came and stayed in an air bnb and let me fuck raw for 2 days.

>>76487097
Made me think of this video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v8ly0meBr0c

>take an incel walk this evening through the city
>girl with her boyfriend by her side walk towards me
>she starts to walk slightly diagonally towards me without looking at me but almost bumping into me (probably a meter away from her boyfriend)
what am I supposed to make of this?

>>76487255
Retardmaxxing is the truth.

>>76487262
Nothing

Honestly fellas you should try dancing. I know it sounds stupid but I started going to salsa and bachata classes around two years ago after being a loner and met a few women and made new friends after cutting ties with old high school friends.

I am only 5'8 with maybe slight above average looks and just by smiling and having fun a lot of women started giving me attention. Having that 1o1 interaction is miles better than any shitty dating app.

Just my 2 cents

>>76487303
Can't it be something less gay instaed?

>>76487308
I get it, its not something I usually talk about but honestly after getting nowhere with dating apps this was the only thing that actually worked. There are some really good looking women there as well.

>32 yo KHV with loose skin after dropping 190lbs
is it over for me? Kinda gave up on love or anything. Just want to move somewhere new and start over

>>76487332
It's probably over but not because of the loose skin.

>>76487308
dancing is a pure chad activity if you don't give a shit about what others think

>>76487338
probably the unending depression and wasting my 20s with alcoholism didnt help

>>76487350
Yeah, probably.

>>76486749 (OP)
Finally decide to reconnect with mom and not even 2 weeks in and I already fucking regret it.
Only reason why I'm not fine with completely cutting ties with them is that if I'm not there my sisters wouldn't have a single responsible adult with a working brain around them and it's not even as if I am a super responsible person.
God fucking damnit.

Good thread

>>76486749 (OP)
As I child I had these nightmares of this shadowy figure with a clock for a head. He would walk through the front door and would kill me just by looking at me. I remember telling my parents about it, and my dad figured I was being molested. In an attempt to get a confession, he told me there were plenty of those figures outside and locked me out of the house for 3 hours. I had no idea at the time a confession was what he was looking for, and he never apologized either. I think it kind of messed me up. He was a rather angry man, he'd often cuss me out, or hit me. I remember he slapped me at dinner with my grandma because I didn't eat over my plate. It's strange now though, since I've gotten older, he's been nothing but nice to me. I don't even have anyone to hate now.

Give me a cold beer. I need one.

My life has gone crazy this year. Completely off the rails crazy. I don't know how to make it short - it's an entire fucking book. So i will skip to the latest chapter instead. I wrote it in the previous thread but it got deleted.

So i accidentally pulled a goth gf. Not an egirl goth, but an actual tradgoth. I don't know how. It just happened. She chose me, she decided to keep in contact with me, she decided to try and add me to her social circle, she doesn't decline my advances but tries to set boundaries, she saw right through my 'tism and deliberately said to explain what i mean and she takes extra time to explain shit she wants me to understand. She wants to see me again for some reason. I don't know what's so special about me to recieve such treatment. She wants to see me on the concert next week in the best fucking goth outfit i can pull off and i've been scrounging through like a billion thrift stores for clothes because i lost like 30 fucking kilos in the last 6 months so all my clothes are so fucking baggy and ugly i just HAVE to replace my wardrobe because even if i look hard enough i don't have a single fucking piece of clothing to build the rest of the outfit on. I fumbled like 10 times already and she still has patience for me, i just don't understand. I was just a guy who went to a concert alone and danced went non-verbal on the dance floor.

That's good news. The bad news is that my brain is completely fried due to self-hate so it REFUSES to believe such a thing could happen. I've been having random anxiety attacks and panic attacks again just thinking that i can fuck it up somehow and she leaves. I've been obsessed with her. I have dreams about her. I have to check my messenger to check if she was real and our conversations were real or it was something i hallucinated. It's honestly insane.

>>76487303
THIS. The dancepill just works.

>>76487433
I know you already know and it's not helpful but just try to chill out and go with the flow. Enjoy spending time with her and don't obsess about it. She's been patient but try not to keep pushing it. Congrats anon

>>76487433
>She wants to see me on the concert next week in the best fucking goth outfit i can pull off
honestly good opportunity to go shopping with her

>>76487483
I will definitely suggest it later on, right now she trusts that i can do it alone to make an impression on her.

>>76487433
Try not to talk yourself down bro, like she's better than you or something

>>76487383
I've been no contact with my parents and family for almost 2 years now and occasionally I want to reach out and reconnect but this is what I'm afraid of the most. I remember at the very start I asked for no contact whatsoever for the first 6 months of 2023 and they couldn't even respect that.

>>76487081
>In all likelihood she’s vetting multiple guys and you’re one of them
Pretty much this.

>Either be okay with having competition and play your cards or ghost
I'm actually ok, I just know that I bring more to the table than the competition because i'm in a good spot and she knows it but in terms of proximity and her cycle I do believe the zoomer competition has more chances now because of events/summer. She isn't living a stacy lifestyle where everything is expensive but she was in a private school and her friend group aswell so they are really active going around the country this summer, basically when friday comes she is gone until monday.

> I’m sorry to come off like a dick, I just hate what dating has become.
No you are a chad for telling it how it is and to be honest she is my only option right now that's why she got in my head.

>>76487092
>You live 2 minutes from each other, that's not a lot of effort anon
That's true, on friday tho she called me to go with her to sign some papers in another city in the afternoon that was around 30 min drive, i overthinked there and skipped because i thought i would appear a simp and too available, i probably should have gone but it is what it is. I should stop thinking so much and start acting

>>76487056
>I’m sorry to hear about your dog bro, RIP
Thanks bro, and good insight aswell

But to be honest, I'll just be more distant from now on until she wants to come back or pursue me. Not worth chasing otherwise.

>>76487433
have you done anything remotely intimate with her yet? kiss? hold hands?

My girlfriend has been texting me less frequently and this is the first weekend we haven’t seen each other so I’m on the dating apps looking for a side piece

>>76487591
She gives teethy blow jobs so I’m not that crazy about her sexually

>>76487589
Not yet, we just talked before, the concert next week is going to be our first date basically

>>76487433
How tall are you?

>>76487620
work your way up brother while you’re there. greet her with a hug to break the physical touch barrier

>>76487586
>i probably should have gone but it is what it is
Nah you made a good choice. Play it cool, don't chase too much, and see what happens. Have an abundance mindset, don't let her think she's your only option

I really wanna fuck around and sleep with tinder hoes but im steady with a really good girl who likes me a lot but she could be hotter/better and its been depressing me badly for like two years now. I never had problems picking up chicks, no I dont know how I officially got into this relationship but shes really good and sweet and not a hoe and likes me a lot and I feel extremely guilty about wanting to fuck around but that guilt doesn't change the fact that I should but I know I shouldn't because shes a good girl and aaaahhhhhh

I hope my sacrifice will be rewarded in the end

>>76487081
you could avoid all this cynicism simply by not dating whores

>>76487661
What if sleeping around with hoes is what will keep your relationship happy?

>>76487665
Most of 20 year old girls are like this

>>76487661
>im steady with a really good girl who likes me a lot but she could be hotter/better
Then make her hotter and better anon. Nudge her. I'm sure she'd want to do it for you.

>>76487661
2 years bro you’re so fucked

>>76487661
i’m in a similar situation. i mean, i like her face, but it took seeing her naked to make me feel that way

>>76487555
As much as I hate it don't let my negative experiences prevent you from reconnecting with your family.
Worst case scenario they just reaffirm why you cut ties with them.
I have to do it as much as I hate it, because of my baby sisters who are suffering under their retardation.

>>76487665
Thats how they all are anon. Especially younger

>>76487726
that’s not something you’ll notice if you’re the best option

>>76487736
>if you’re the best option
Good luck with that.

>>76486749 (OP)
It was kinda shit. I turned 25 last weekend and spent it sick in bed, then spent this weekend sitting around my place doing nothing.
I hope I figure out this socializing thing soon. It seems like every year the urge to marry a nice girl and have kids gets stronger, while my prospects get dimmer. I really, really do not want to sleep around or chase hoes or anything like that, but sometimes it seems like that's the only way anyone even gets into any kind of relationship these days.

>>76487051
>I am talking to another fine young woman just in case so ill be ok.
You’re a pussy

>>76487661
Don't fucking do it. The amount of women that I found "good enough" only to get rid of them haunts me to this day. Also, dating apps are dead and only full of the most generic copy and paste IG/TikTok whores you've ever seen. It's the equivalent of saying you want to ditch your old 1920s house for a McMansion because the McMansion has more sqft. The catch being that your 1920s house can be upgraded and the McMansion is a cheap piece of shit that is a money pit both in terms of fixing and monthly payments.

>>76487383
Tell your mom to fuck off and only talk to your sisters.

>>76487016
i wasted a lot of time drinking and doing coke on the weekends for a while. haven't done that in about a year now. don't really regret it, felt like a necessary phase of my life and i had a lot of fun, but make sure you cut it out and act right and move on at a certain point.

no surprise you're feeling better than usual. keep it up dude

>>76487433
I dated a based trad goth chick once. It kinda sucked. Now I enjoy being with my based Muslim wife who isn’t into all of that satanic witchcraft stuff.

Women mire constantly, but casual sex or intimacy of any kind is off the table because I'm broke and living with a parent in cognitive decline. I'm so tired bros. I don't know how to even type this without sounding like a huge baby, but I really wish women would give me a shot. It's a special kind of hell, knowing they want it, but can't justify an interaction with someone as low on the totem pole as me. I could be out there punishing these hoes but alas I am trapped by circumstance. I'm really sad I missed my youth and the possibility of casual sex. I still have hope, though. Going back to school in the spring.

Guys that have visited prostitutes, is it worth it? Do you regret it? It's been so long at this point I'm starting to consider it. Even just hand stuff

>>76487808
There’s truth to this. When I have doubts about my girlfriend, I’ll go on dating apps and I’m reminded by how much it sucks and the options are terrible so I end up appreciating what I have

>>76487840
i never understood the constant mires meme anons brag about but their sex lives / dating lives / success with women don’t corroborate it. not to single you out, but it’s a noticeable trend at this point

>>76487808
This guy gets it. I can tell if a man is going to crash and burn in life or do well based on if he has come to this realization. Tons of idiot guys waste once in a lifetime opportunities with good women because they’re brains are rotted by porn and they have this idiotic belief that they can find a woman who is both a good wife/mother, and incredibly sexy/slutty. The two don’t mix. Wife material women are always “plain” or “boring” because they are stable and loyal. This is literally the male version of the female stereotype where they marry the boring guy and are obsessed with the exciting bad boy. Both men and women who live like this are delusional and possess zero self control or ability to do anything other than act on immediate impulses

>>76487866
this makes more sense to me when i look at who my bros from high school ended up married even though i’ve seen them with hotter women when we were young, and they seem happy

>>76487866
So I shouldn’t cheat on my girlfriend who’s only been with 2 guys before me?

>>76486837
I'm sorry for your dog man. At least he didn't suffer any further. That's one thing I regret for not doing, as I took too long to make an appointment to euthanize my cat, and saw her last moments, one day before she was supposed to be euthanized.

>>76487884
>only been with 2 guys before me?
Basically a virgin in modern year

my social life has died since I got sober. Oh well, dropping weight and dont want to kill myself every moment of the day

>>76486749 (OP)
I had acute appendicitis and had a laparoscopic appendectomy last Wednesday. Recovery hasn’t been too bad, and while the pain is annoying, I am overall grateful for this experience. It has totally reframed my perspective on things in the world and in my own life.

>>76486749 (OP)

Girl I was told she had a crush on me is now ghosting me / playing games.

Women trying to set you up with other women are probably the scourge of the Earth.

>>76488084
was she at least cute

>>76486749 (OP)
Got shit house drunk
Cheated on my diet 3 times one of which was over maintence
Slept on average 6 hours a day because of the night heat
Changed my routine
Still hit weight goal, daily step goals, made consistent progress in my studies and in the gym.
Still feels bad because I know I could have done better and I'm still shit at nightreign

>>76487433

I wouldn't try to match her exact style, just go something along the lines of Peter Steele.

>>76486749 (OP)
6 beers please, all different from the tap
MY BUSINESS IS BEING EVICTED AND I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING WRONG, THEY JUST WANT TO DEMOLISH THE FUCKING BUILDING

>>76487303

Dancing is a mating ritual, learning is never a bad idea.

>>76488101
Even goths back in the day didn't go real big on trying to look goth. That's mostly the consoomer culture that came after. It's just the hair and being clean shaven for 99% of them.

>>76488118
back then people dressed for their personality. you meet a “goth” bitch today and get to know her just to find out she’s basic and dresses for the aesthetic. but what you’re probably describing is grunge

>>76488101
Peter Steele was 2 meters tall, bro.

>>76488093

I find her attractive, and I felt that "glow" from her that's felt when someone is into you, almost blinding.

I'm refusing to play games though.

>>76488126
That's Robert Smith from the Cure in that picture. This one is Bauhaus. Goth rock was almost anti-fashion, low level formal kind of like bare minimum of what you'd call "church cloths". Grunge is more casual lot of torn up jeans trying to look like west coast trailer people.

>>76488134
>>76488101

>This man wrote a song titled "I Don't Wanna Be Me"

https://youtu.be/LXIWRan3XGY

>>76488157
nigger was a Chad and he doesn’t want to be him

>>76486749 (OP)
Been good, doing my final project for engineering so I graduate at the end of the year. Ate a lot of protein today as we had a family bbq and I'm watching some videos on good shoulder exercises as I work on my excel spreadsheets. Appointment with a nutritionist tomorrow to check my gains or losses.

>>76487069
I feel you anon, When I was 16 I became really tall and skinny, so I started gym but my uncle convinced me to take hyper-caloric instead of Whey. I got a lot of mass really quickly but I feel like I never lost that weight again. Now I'm working on maintenance

>>76486749 (OP)
Strong cold brew coffee with a double scoop of vanilla protein powder please.
The rain just doesnt end, its dark and clammy and I cant go out much. I need to get groceries and walk to the gym. I'm lonelier when it rains. But more irritable. So I end up isolating more. I dont want to be in my 12 step group anymore, while im feeling down sure I dont feel driven towards ny addiction. I haven't for some time now. My sponsor keeps telling me its only the program keeping me sober, but I dont even go to meetings anymore. I ignore most check in texts and calls, they just feel so draining to answer. I dont want to talk about my addiction anymore especially when I've got just about a year and before that just about a year abd the one thing that broke my streak was something most people do and wouldn't bat an eye. "Oh noooo the alcoholic had one beer, yes just one, but clearly he's out of control and sobriety is a hard line!" I know why I did what I did. I understand why I tick the way I do. I know i can avoid it. I know i won't feel better anymore if I engage it. The joy there is gone. I dont binge eat to fill the void either. I long abandoned God. Thats another reason I feel disconnected from the program. Its fine they pray for me but I can't tell them that I've lost the faith, I know theyll hit the ceiling and say I'm in crisis. Sure I'm unhappy with my life but there's nothing to be done about that. I'm as proactive as I can be. The parts I hate are just stuck. And theyre also my consequences.

>>76487724
My biggest issue is that if it really is over and I am cutting them off for good, then it will be a massive blackpill. The idea there is no higher meaning behind "family" besides blood and whatever I ascribe to the word.

>>76487840
Don't. Unless it's a matter of you killing yourself or not, there is nothing cool about paying a literal whore to have sex with you. It will be a never ending gnawing feeling in the back of your head assuming you have any sense of right or wrong and how it will feel if/when you meet your future wife.

>>76486749 (OP)
Shot of rum

Just got banned from Hinge today which means I'm banned from Tinder also. No idea why, wouldn't even give me a reason (maybe some chick I ghosted reported me). I'm in a relationship anyway but goddamn Bumble will be my last line in the sand before I have to go out socializing the old fashion way.

after living like a completely pathetic loser for the past 33 years of my life, last week i finally snapped and had a meltdown to my mother. the dead end job where i've wasted a decade of my life pulled some shit and it has made me not want to go back again, im just going to go on medical leave and then say that i'm in too bad of a state to return which is true due to severe depression. now that im gonna be unemployed and truly a complete bum, this was the straw that broke the camels back.

just told her how miserable i am, how much i hate living and want to die. she keeps saying how theyre going to get me help that i need either at a hospital or psychologist, how they dont want to bury their only child, how me dying would end their lives too. also had to include my father as well.

its been such a horrible week. i never even talk to my parents, and this is the first real conversation weve had in many years, maybe ever, and its about how i want to end my life. regarding a job, im sure i wont get anything else given the job climate, my lack of skills, and my terrible personality. but at this point theres nothing else i can do because the job has had a big hand in driving me to this point. i cant possibly go back.

i might as well try to be a blank slate, maybe try to get medical help, and maybe if i get therapy or antidepressants ill get some motivation and try to do the ridiculous amount of things that i need to make something of my life. its almost unbeleivable how far behind i am and how many things i need to accomplish. socially, job, life milestones, i have nothing. i doubt i will have any success with it and im assuming im dead by suicide by the end of the year, but i guess i need to try something.

Lemon iced tea Monster plz.
I recently applied for a loan at the bank to start my buisness and I got denied. The worst is that I'm not even close to qualify. I'm disapointed, but I'm not giving up. I need to raise something around 40k worth of assets, which is a lot for me because I'm very low income (33kCAD$ per year). The choices I got right now is either grind for 3 years doing overtime or doing it for 5 years but actually live life. While the first option is faster, I keep in mind that 80% of buisnesses fail after 5 years and I don't want to look back at my life and realize I've wasted 8 years for nothing. If I enjoyed my existence while raising funds I won't be pissed if my buisness goes bankrupt. So I'm currently planing a travel to North Macedonia. After that it's probably going spearfishing wherever is the cheapest.

Pussy wise I'm stuck in a 5 year dryspell. At the moment my mind isn't even there, I got to many money problems to start chasing pussy actively.
Plus I stink because my microbiome is fucked. I'm fixing it through yogurt, kombucha, kimchi and dipping myself into bog water.

>>76488353
hey man, this might not be such a bad thing after all. since you've been working for so long i presume you have some money saved up?
maybe you can reset for a while and focus on lifting or any other pursuit you have, take a break and find some better job that will make you more happy

>>76488306
>i dindu nuffin!
Come clean, anon. What did you say/do?

>>76488391
Didn't say shit to anyone. Also none of my dates were disasters so I kinda think the system thought I was a bot since I didn't do the whole face verification shit and deleted and created my account 3 times in a year.
Think its for the best tho, I got good matches but 90% of my conversations there went nowhere.

>>76488405
it’s definitely someone reporting you. that’s how i got banned

>>76488391
He probably gave a girl the ick so she claimed he raped her.

>>76488405
I’m kinda proud that I haven’t had an unsuccessful date in over 5 years and ultimately it’s been my choice if I wanted to see them again

>>76488428
I haven't even been on a date in 15 years

>>76488435
I have never been on a date

>>76488447
I threw away my 7 year old pocket pussy to dedicate my life to NoFap

>>76488386
yeah i have a lot of money saved up but it doesnt matter or mean anything when im so far behind in life. and it isnt like an impressive number saved up either. but ive wondered for a long time if i need to just go as i call it "blank slate", like i need to just have nothing at all to do and try to attack everything. but i fear that what will happen is just like what happened last week when i didnt go into work, which resulted in me doing liteally nothing the entire time. and the same thing happened back in january 2021 when i was told to not come into work for an entire month when covid burned through our workplace. i had literally an entire month as a neet, and did nothing.

I was the runner up in a contest yesterday. Grand prize was essentially a $200k grant. Feels pretty good to even be a runner up, the competition was fierce.

>>76488873
haha nice man i was the guy right after you. that dick sucking contest was brutal but you proved to be the better man

>>76488550
How do you keep it soft and fresh? Mine go sticky and rough after a few washes. Corn starch doesn't help either.

>>76488904
Depends what you’re working with. I had a Tenga which was easier to clean. Fleshlights are a little more complex since you can’t split the inside open

>>76488891
You can't forget to work the shaft, man. Haha.

>35
>never held a girls hand, never been in a relationship, nothing
>furthest I've gotten was a no body touch hug
I think I've just gone full blackpill on relationships as I'm not even trying anymore. I actually just come on strong now just to justify them not being interested and am relieved when they DO say 'no.'

>>76489200
Literally me

>>76486749 (OP)
Cuba Libre with Plantation 5 Star.
>spent the entire last week pumped to go camping so I can start a new series for my YouTube channel
>day rolls up need to pick up some equipment from FB marketplace for my home gym first
>get the equipment and stop into a quaint little coffee shop with my wife for lunch on the way back
>the little cashier lady is about my age starts acting too friendly once my wife leaves the counter to get us a table and starts asking me about myself even with the long ass line behind me
>feelsgoodman
>ego stroked but I love my wife
>thank her for the service and get my lunch
>tell my wife she should beat Fallout NV (for the first time ever) while i pack our bags for the campout
>pack the bags
>like 3 hours later she's still playing
>ask her when she wants to wrap up so we can go
>tells me she wants to play vidya instead of camping
>end up not accomplishing anything so my wife can play video games
>worked out and enjoyed the new equipment at least
6/10 weekend, it certainly had its ups and downs. Next week I'm going innawoods wether she wants to join me or not because the cold is coming and I need hot weather to do what I need to.

Went to a stag party on the weekend and just did not enjoy it.
I really think I'm finished with alcohol and bars. There's nothing I like about it any more.

>>76489427
haha nice man my wife is fat and i feel like killing my self being stuck with her

>>76488571
You could do a course and change your career entirely anon. I was in your position and did a 3 month data analysis course which got me a comfy office job after years of call centre hell.

>>76489437
>You could do a course and change your career entirely anon
Don't you need years to get that? You can finish and course and just start working? I'm a filmmaker for example and i'm getting burned out and i wanna start doing personal training lets say. How do you do that?

>>76489434
My wife is also fat (she has at least 40LB on me while being 8 inches shorter) but she's working on it and that's all I can ask for

>>76489441
Well the more complex the role, the longer the course will be.
Mine had a guaranteed interview at the end, and I got the job. It was a government boot camp in the UK.
I would just be googling PT courses, lots of gyms will let you work for yourself out of there for a fee, so you could start immediately after qualifying, albeit finding your own clients.

Is this a tranny? I can’t really tell. We have plans to meat tomorrow

Had a nice weekend, went to some pubs with my mates.

I've completely forgotten how to get a girlfriend, my last relationship ended last year after 6 years and I have no idea what to do now. The world has changed massively since Covid

>>76489477
my nigger i hadn’t dated anyone in over 3 years and got a gf quickly you can do it too it’s muscle memory

>>76489481
thanks anon, I'm alright if I actually meet women, but these days I never find myself in that situation. Guess I'll have to start joining some clubs or something

>>76487433
I envy you. Goth girls are 100% my types

I go to tons of festivals and produce witch house but still no luck. I got a couple of normie girls attracted to me but just for my muscles and car. I hate it.
I got a goth friend who was the gym receptionist of the place I’ve worked as a pt and the break/after work talks were one of the best moments of my life. Hallowing parties in the gym and her birthday are ingrained in my memories for all my life. Still 0 luck and it’s breaking me apart to be honest.
Been to prague, neat place! A guy recognized my skalmold shirt and bought lots of stuff at the metalshop, I’m trying to change my outfit too. Armani doesn’t cut for underground scenes.
A part of me fears to never be able to find love and be loved.
I exposed my bc rich warlock transparent acrylic customized with neon purple strings and leds in a metal pub and made friend with the owner.
Started a pogo at an iron maiden concert last week and had a time of my life.
Still no gf but i’ll keep having fun and living my life.
Don’t waste the opportunity bro

>>76489538
how do you get no pussy looking like that?

>>76489541
His fit and post scream "inauthentic tryhard". The secret to getting pussy is not giving a fuck and being sincere.

>>76489541
Personal ethics. I don’t wanna stay with girls who are married/engaged or clients.
Also I don’t like normie girls. Probably autism or just too much niche interests full of dudes. Hard to find girls in mosh pits

>>76486749 (OP)
[spoiler]my best (only) friend died like a week ago[/spoiler]
idk what the fuck im even doing anymore bros
i just wake up and play drums or work out until i pass out again. i dont really want to do anything.

>>76489591
I might give that impression but because I’ve never been in the scene. I played in a band when i was young, i’ve been to lots of metal festivals and i’ve taught a friend how to play guitar. I got the entire Iron Maiden discography and listened to celldweller and 80’s metal religiously during my childhood. Still i’ve done all of this alone so I don’t know if there are some rules to follow to not be a poser but I don’t care. As long i can mosh and pogo while my ears melts i’m happy

>>76489631
don’t listen to him. no on can tell if you’re a poser. just keep being yourself and eventually you’ll land a gf

>>76489468
The jawline looks sus, ngl. Ask about her values? Like how she sees the world, and what's her take on the gender question. She might turn out based, or she might turn out a he.

>>76489631
It's banter dude, if you like metal and play music that's cool, you do you, it's just that you zoomzooms look so goofy wearing brand new work denims with "stylish" running shoes (?) and shirts from bands that are old enough to be your parents, it's just so removed from practicality and from style at the same time. Good for you if you actually saw that band (which is the McDonald's of metal but that's another conversation), I just find your generation so weird, trying to be everything at once (gym bro/ metalhead/ hipster). The kids who were wearing Led Zeppelin shirts back in the day were turbo-virgins but they knew it, and they went full gear with leather boots and long hair. Seeing teenage girls with Metallica shirts and 200$ shoes is as baffling to me as seeing a 70 year old with a new era cap on backwards and a Lil Pump shirt would be.

>>76489719
hate to admit i took a girl to a Lil Pump concert back in 2017

>>76489468
Brah just look at the shoulders, man hands and jawline, you're in for a surprise

Bros… this girl plans to bring her sister to our first date at the museum. Is that a red flag? Should I go along with it and rizz them both up?

>>76489813
She doesn't trust you enough but i think it's a red flag yeah

>>76489820
It’s one of those optical illusions museums so it should be fun. I just feel pressure having to perform for 2 women. Mind you I have a gf, I’m just stepping out on her because she’s not giving me enough attention

>>76489840
Nothing gayer than adultery.

>>76489847
If you saw her naked you’d understand. She catfished me

>>76489719
I agree with you. Lots of times i try to connect with people who got band shirts but they dress just for style.
I listen to lots of subgenres, been to skalmold, siamese, ddead by april, ivan king, bad religion, edguy, bring me the horizon, amon amart, slipknot, dehumanizing itrariar worship etc… concerts and i’m planning if everithing’s goes smoothly a trip to america for a couple of more.
You’re 100% right on the fit. Those are 500€ armani runway shoes that i’ve now customized with chains.
I’m a bit of an hipocrite because i dressed armani for years and i’m now regressing to try to live again my youth.
Anyway if you have some /fa advice i’ll be happy to listen.
Also another benefit of being /fit is to have more stamina, strenght and presence in the pits.

>>76489863
I saw this guy wearing an Evanescence shirt. He tried to suck my cock so I get where you’re coming from.

>>76489719
>It's banter dude
>bro it's just a prank
Nah you're a miserable no-fun-allowed cunt. Fuck you.

>>76489719
>It's banter dude
Americans don't know what banter is. This isn't banter, this is just you being a dickhead

>>76489957
>>76489905
She was wearing a band t-shirt. I asked her to name 5 songs but she couldn’t. I laughed at her then proceeded to spit on her shoes and go about my way. Was I a dickhead? This was our first date

>>76489957
American banter is to just say what you really think in a cunty fashion then end it with "lol just kidding". Americans are such non-confrontational pussies it's no wonder why nigs are allowed to run around like they do. They act like they're superior to Brits atm but are just as bad if not worse. Like a bastardized version of British charm.

>>76490009
kind of like this right

>>76490021
This conversation makes zero sense. I still don’t understand what she means!

>>76490021
Yup. All you have to do is be straightforward in what you want and be willing to act like a cunt to someone being """nice""" to you and you can get what you want easily in this country. Not even trashy. Just call out retardation at face value.

>>76490021
She has already friend zoned you

>>76490021
It's joever

I was at 200 last week and 215 last month, I'm fucking shedding the shit and can feel such a difference

>>76490048
tell me how i should respond and i’ll send it

>>76490113
Dude I would cancel that date I'm not paying for that bitches sister too

>>76490107
>Those tats
lmao

>>76490021
Women do weird shit like this all the time, it's impossible to know what it means. Women could be in love with someone and do things that make one think the absolute opposite

>>76490107
disgusting nails

>>76490137
I'm a man, faggot

>>76490144
>fat
>man
youre not and we can tell by how fat ur feet is, it literally engorged all ur nails with the extra skin

>>76490155
I had to get ingrown nails removed on both toes, your such a faggot judging a man's feet lmao absolute faggot

its too fucking hot to lift
i got now energy
i sleep like shit
i sweat all the time

fuck sake man

>>76490021
>ok just vibe
The fuck does this even mean?

>Lifting heaviest i ever have
>Look best I ever have
>Acne basically gone
>Face looking better with less fat
>Making decent money
>Still not happy
Why can't I just be satisfied bros
>

>>76489614
god that pic takes me back

>>76490628
wheres the social or relationship stuff

>>76490645
Doesn't exist lol. The friends I have all have their own things going on now like kids.

>>76490113
>>76490115
Don't even cancel it. Just don't show. Cuntbags need to learn decent respect. Act like a dumb bitch get treated like a dumb bitch

>>76487627
i'm 6'2, why?
>>76487630
We're basically at 2 because she laughed at something i said and slided her hand on my shoulder, she's 100% gonna accept the hug especially after seeing my outfit

I have given up on life. I will just be alone, make more money than I'll ever need, retire at 40 and move in a woods. Fuck this world.

>>76491411
>i have "given up on life"
>oh btw im going to make a ton of money because ill have a great job, ive given up on life so much haha

>>76487308
nta
Bachata and LA/NY salsa is pretty "gay" I admit.

Cuban salsa on the other hand is pretty hyberbolic when it comes to appearing masculine (or feminine for women), if that's important to you. Hell, if you get far enough to get taught rumba guaguanco moves for use in Cuban salsa, one of the core moves is literally thrusting your dick (search "vacunao").