>>64106095
i am actually drinking way way way less then i did before and i am trying to stop completely
there is just so much going on and so much pressure from every single side right now its hard to just completely stop right now
i am changing my whole life and lifestyle and doing things i have not really done and at the same time my family is collapsing and a million other things aswell it is just to much all at once right now
but i am hoping to just be done soon and never drink again until i get out of the military
>>64106123
all the mixes in that series are probably some of my favorite mixes i have ever listened to
really almost all nightcore and hexd remixes are extremely good but these specific mixtape playlists are extremely good i listen to them alot
www.youtube.com/watch?v=uVoqIP4M9Gg
>>64106127
>elaborate on this?
no
i only said that because i dont like that it seems like people are implying i am totally unable to get Night Vision or something like that which is ridiculous
i am not rich but i am able to make money here and there for the things i want to buy
it is just the point that atleast for now i dont really want to invest in NV or Thermals for 1 because i will be in the military soon and not have a use for them and 2 i already spent a ton of money on NV in the past that didnt work out so i dont really want to buy it again
when i have alot of disposeable money after the military then i will spend 8-20k on a nice setup
>are you going to try out for sf?
that is the hope to try out for atleast some type of SOF or Airborne and that is what all of the training and everything else i am doing is for
i definitely have a long way to go but i have a decent bit of time before i would be joining and i feel i am making good progress
if that doesnt work out i will just be normal infantry
if that somehow doesnt workout i will just settle for a support MOS
>>64106131
this
>>64106168
you think i expect sympathy from anyone?
i just dont want to cause drama