Thread 40743166

Whenever I remember what I look like it makes my mood worse instantly. I’m incredibly envious of femboys and twinks, and just looking at a picture of one creates this feeling of anger/sadness/jealousy in my chest. Sometimes when I’m laying in bed I remember my appearance and get so upset that I start crying or thrashing around like a fucking child.

I try my best not to think about it but obviously it’s impossible to avoid thinking about it completely.
I can’t deal with it at all. Please help.

>>40743166 (OP)
pic is me ong frfr but i stopped crying or thrashing after the first year of hrt and now i just have extremely vivid fantasies about myself being gored or otherwise killed slowly
i dont know how to help because im in the same situation though

>>40743166 (OP)
Same. Idk what do do about it. Sometimes I think well at least I'm not a quadriplegic or whatever but it only helps slightly

I feel like this might be kind've a universal thing, at least among people who aren't 8/10 or up

>>40743529
That can't be true. If I were close to average I wouldn't care. And most people do not seem to care that much

>>40743166 (OP)
peel your face off. steal someone elses.

You're unhappy with yourself, why do you think there's an answer to your unhappiness?
What's the point of asking?

Every day I think about how I’m always going to look like a man, even w hrt, it’s immutable, I’ve been permanently ruined by testosterone and there’s nothing I can do to fix my face, my shoulders, my ribcage, my hands, my legs, my lack of hips… Sometimes I fear that the TERFs are right and I am essentially a man, and I can’t think of anything that frightens me more