>>40968075
>one chance at life
>amab

I'm genuinely so insanely afraid of transitioning. Not because of anything that comes with it, but because of the smallest possibility that I might one day just completely change my mind, and realize that I actually prefer being a man. Or even worse, that I'll realize I'm just fine with being a man compared to being a tranny.
This genuinely cripples me with horrid dread.
I wish I had an innate sense of gender and wasn't completely depersonalized, so that worrying about this would be pointless

Every day I think about how I’m always going to look like a man, even w hrt, it’s immutable, I’ve been permanently ruined by testosterone and there’s nothing I can do to fix my face, my shoulders, my ribcage, my hands, my legs, my lack of hips… Sometimes I fear that the TERFs are right and I am essentially a man, and I can’t think of anything that frightens me more

>>40594988
i... i'm a hon? already? i didn't start estrogen that late

if i was skinnier i'd be happy 1200 is enough calories i love water and being fat actually i will never be a woman my bone structure is fucked up

>>40581135
i turn 25 in 2 months and am still a virgin. i made a thread on here where i posted my face and i was called cute and pretty, but still i struggle to find someone who will treat me like a human so i will probably die a virgin. finding a monogamous transbian.. she must be out there.

I want a man to own me and make me his pet! I want a man to collar and leash me! I want a man to make fun of my tiny penis! I want a man to do my shots and then make me give him head after! I want a man to make me walk around outside naked! I want a man to boyremove me! I want a man to bully me for being a failed male! I want a man to see through my boymode and just grab my tits and stuff with no regard for my consent! I want a man to get me really drunk and fuck me while I can't resist! I want a man to cuddle with me after sex! I want a man to wrap his hands around my neck and squeeze!

I'm still hung up on this girl I had a crush on over a year ago. Even though I was only actively in love with her for a week or so before my family moved across the country and I only got to touch her a little bit it feels like my brain was rewired to perpetually want her attention in the background. Now she's passing and making friends and stuff and I'm just stuck manmoding as everything in my life gets worse. I still talk to her sometimes but I can't ever tell her how I feel. To her we just fucked once and then I proceeded to make it weird by being in love with her. I wish I'd never told her I loved her. She was nice about it and I wish she wasn't.
She has a boyfriend or some kind of poly relationship with a femboy and his boyfriend now. Sometimes I'm in vc with them both and she'll tell him she loves him and without fail it makes me hurt. (I'm aware this is incredibly cucked but I can't bring myself to cut ties with her and move on). I should kill myself.