Thread 41457543

i started hrt again about a year ago, and i feel like i'm just starting to wake up again after 7 years. i finally saw a psychiatrist and he says i have insane PTSD and have just been dissociating the whole time since i got detrooned. everything they say is right, the time literally does disappear and i keep feeling like i'm inside a bad dream. every morning i expect to be in my bed back home until i realise nearly a decade has passed and i'm not a woman and i'm not even in the same country and then i start crying.

>>41457543 (OP)
i'm sorry anon i hope things get better for you

>>41457543 (OP)
What happened?

>>41457543 (OP)
Solid rep fuel if not larp

i love you op. i hope life treats you more kindly in the future. good luck with your transition <3

>>41457659
my doctors said i couldn't get hrt when i was 14 and 15, so i bought diy instead. i spent a year being taken off it by my parents over and over, and fighting to keep transitioning. eventually when i was 16 i spent half a year in a psych ward where they made me detransition.

i got out a bit before i turned 17 and then the pandemic hit. i fell into really extreme traumatic disassociation and didn't restart until i was 21. i've done basically nothing at all from 17 to now. everything feels weird and wrong. i wanted to transition the whole time but didnt take any actions in my life.

i only just found out it's PTSD recently. i remember i told my doctors i thought it was at the time but got ignored. they said i just had ocd. i guess i gave up, i couldn't keep fighting.

>>41457773
it's not repfuel it's the opposite. don't let yourself get destroyed like i did. if i was still a youngshit, everything would have worked out

>>41458678
>it's not repfuel it's the opposite. don't let yourself get destroyed like i did. if i was still a youngshit, everything would have worked out

It's still rep fuel for me because I'm 27 and live with parents
I'm already destroyed maybe I start taking hormones when I become 40+ or rope