>>40857740
that is okay nonny some candies are just like that

>>60850046
hi fren
i dont know what the fuck that shit is programming but i guess its based on some sort of moving average and mean reversion using a geometrical brownian motion to simulate the stock evolution, that is the most reasonable first approach when it comes to scalping, or anything related to stonks.
However, again, without even knowing what the fuck the parameters are i can make an assumption that the drift of said brownian motion is possitive and annualized (exponential growth of the stock over a long period of time), in real life stonks have local drifts (stonk can also go down or sideways) that might influence the outcome of the strategy and fuck you over.
I also assume this is some sort of montecarlo simulation, but running a montecarlo once is meaningless, you need hundreds of thousands of simulations, and way more than 5 trades per simulation to get enough statistics for this to make any sense.
Again, this is all assumptions since i dont know what parameters this thing is working with or the model, but the fact that you are running 1 simulation and you make 5 trades is a huge red flag for me and screams pajeet scam. Stay safe, fren

>>40760899
talking it out might help, if you don't mind sharing..lately it seems my whole life is just a concatenation of embarrassing episodes so i might know what you are talking about

i'm having this problem too :( sometimes a little comes out seemingly at random and it drives me insane. this has never happened while i have been out thank fuck but if it ever did i don't know what i would do. i don't have solutions but i hope other anons here do.

>>40735478
it's like you're in my head. thank you nona.
i wish i had greater control over my brain, though. i don't know how to just force myself back into that state everything i have felt or not felt in my life has been involuntary

>>82200486
>>82200494
I'll hug you guys, you both deserve more than you get.

>>40695068
i have written and destroyed/deleted multiple. the current version is very simple and, i hope, nonchalant enough that the reader will not feel worse or as though i for some reason sadistically intend for them to feel worse after reading. i want to offer closure and let everyone know i love them and that it isn't their fault, but not be too presumptuous re: i-know-you'll-blame-yourself or i-know-you'll-miss-me or i-know-it-might-be-hard. i don't want anyone to feel as though they should feel something they aren't, or possibly, if they actually hate me, then hate me more for assuming they love me (which i realize is insane and exactly the kind of thing that WOULD make someone feel worse, but that's why it's written making no presumptions. just i-love-yous and i-made-this-decision-myselfs). it has a little section at the end in which i've willed a few things and made last wishes (like i want my stuffed animals burned to free their spirits or i want myself buried naked and coffinless, if not thrown right out in the woods etc)
alongside it i have a few pages of just feelings i've vented out progressively whenever i'm sad and feel like writing. i dunno if i'll leave those or get rid of them when the time comes.

i feel like i should do the good thing and tell you that it really does get better, because i honestly, truly believe it does for most people, but i know how you feel. when does it get better? who knows? i don't know if i'm really willing to wait it out. but hang in there, nonny. as long as you can.

>>rogd or agp or mef or tocd or tim
idk what half of these are but that last one is just a slur used by people who would hate you regardless nonny...i can understand hating yourself but don't let awful people tell you what you are for you
i don't really have anything to say but i'm sorry things are so hard for you :( i wish i could give you a hug in real

>>213451469
That is fucking crazy, I can't believe someone could have it worse than us
Jesus man

>>511412972
It will be okay Brazilian-bro, femoids have no power here

>>40446133
it is hell i just want to know what i am to people
need nonny above to tell me how they deal with dysmorphia

>>40396387
i can't know, but i think if he's to come around he will come around on his own...that is what happened with my dad.
my two cents, not that you asked, is that it is impossible to know whether he will eventually accept you or not, and it isn't something you have control over, so you should do these things for you, not for him. it isn't your fault that things turned out this way and it isn't your responsibility to amend them. you already want a relationship with him and that is all you can do. keep loving him. he may or may not come around, but doing all of this for him seems like something that will only make you more sad as time goes on. i'm sorry if that is unwelcome advice. it's all i can think to offer in lieu of a real-life hug and a shoulder to cry on

i'm sorry anon. i don't know what to say except that this story broke my heart and you have my deepest sympathies. i wish i had more to offer.

>>212156715
kek
>>212157250
Sorry Brazilbro, if I spoke Portuguese you would be dark green.