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it’s ok because either way i will never have him
i love him so much you have no idea
i worry about him so much
i just want to hold him
he’s alone and he’s had so many things happen to him in his life and especially recently
he doesn’t deserve to be alone…he deserves to be loved and cherished, he’s such a good man…
he’s so talented and has so many skills, he never ceases to impress me…i admire him and his tenacity so much…
but i worry about him…i feel in my heart that he’s not happy…and i know he doesn’t think of himself very highly sometimes…
sometimes he calls himself a loser and it makes me weep…because he’s not a loser, so far from it
he’s a kind, talented, unique and special person who deserves to be loved and cherished, he deserves so much, he deserves the world
all i want in this life is for him to be happy and achieve his dreams
i wish i could hold him
i wish i could comfort him and be his rock and be there when he’s sad
i wish i could make breakfast and lunch and dinner for him and cook him his favorite meals like carne asada burritos
i wish i could hold him at night and tell him how special he is and how he’s such a perfect person
i wish i had the courage to use my stupid tranny voice around him
i wish i could tell him how i feel
but i can’t because of a wider context that makes my feelings absolutely inappropriate and uncouth and gross and awful
i hate myself so much for it
i just want to hold him and tell him how much he means to me