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>>24470473 (OP)
Nothing ever changes, nothing ever stays the same.

girlfriend doesn’t respond if she goes out anywhere now and respond at most every two hours. think it’s over and weirdly i don’t care even a little bit

>>24470473 (OP)
God wisdom is above all else

Ya know, it's kinda a blessing I completely fucked up my life and became a bum. Because if I ended up with money, power, a career with opportunities, and a family, I would have ultimately done some terrible things and probably ended up in prison. It's best if I don't elaborate what I mean. In a way, this means my current life is the best possible life I could have ended up with, the short-term selfish benefits of the other timelines notwithstanding. Maybe this is just cope, but knowing my dark impulses, it might not be too far off.

>>24470537
ok pedo

Is there anyway to untan myself without, y'know, outright avoiding the sun? As well as preventing myself from getting tanned in the future? Sunblock? A wide-brimmed hat?

>>24470553
Wear a burka.

>>24470553
suncream, hat, long clothes, staying in the shade, yeah

i wanna fly

>>24470563
>suncream
That isn't just for sunburns? It'll actually prevent me from getting tanned in the future?

>>24470570
yeah, just get SPF50 and slather that bitch on like you are greasing poultry for roasting and reapply every two hours whilst also following the other methods and you will be as a ghost

>>24470565
*pushes you off the cliff*

>>24470576
lol, alright, thanks

>>24470527
пиздocтpaдaлeц жe ты нaш

I wake up today.

>>24470527
She's my girlfriend now, sorry bud

>>24470608
unacceptable behavior

>>24470608
wake up in the morning feeling like P.Diddy

>>24470619
ACK

Every act of love and sexuality between men and women who sincerely love each other is a two-person mass in praise of all that is healthy, joyful and beautiful. Every act of tender romantic love towards someone you care about and who cares about you in turn is a slap in the face of Satan, a moment when the seemingly all-powerful snake hisses and cries out in rage and frustration that his corruption once again failed to take another root in Nature's paradise, and he is forced to realize that like a vampire, he can't help but be seared and turned to dust by the white-hot flames and incandescence of divine, natural harmony and order.

>>24470655
Very nice. The ending
>of divine, natural harmony and order.
could use some work though.

>>24470657
nta but you just have to add a the and be done with it

>>24470664
I didn't mean that, I meant "divine, natural harmony and order" isn't "incandescent" and full of "white-hot flames"

something should change. But hey, that's me

>>24470657
I didn't really mean it to be anything literary, it's just how I've been feeling recently, but thanks. We're so obsessed with the physical or social aspects of romance and sexuality that we miss out on just how incredibly beautiful and powerful it is in a symbolic or cosmic sense. It is by eros that we are created, by eros that we truly live, and by the lack of eros that we wither and die. By proxy, it is also the ultimate middle finger to everything loathsome in our world.

>>24470674
Well I enjoyed reading it, thank you. And agreed.

>>24470676
Thanks. I was never religious, nor am I religious now, but I feel like the perfect equilibrium of love and lust for the opposite sex is the closest many of us can get to something resembling a genuine religious experience. Insofar that we understand religious experience to be a time when everything clicks, the self dissolves temporarily, and in that moment of temporary ego death, all feels in accordance with the way things ought to be. I can hardly think of anything more fitting for that description than the union of two halves, already incredible masterworks of form and function on their own, into something far, far greater than the sum of their parts.

Perhaps Dante and Goethe were thinking about similar things when they said that "the eternal feminine draws us ever further onward", or that "love is that which moves the Sun and other stars".

>>24470473 (OP)
I want to read Norden's history of Classical Chinese Philosophy but the guy's a leftard and I don't want to be inundated with progressive horseshit reading his interpretations.

>>24470712
Have you ever witnessed a near death experience of a friend? Comes pretty close.

>>24470732
grow up

>>24470732
>I need every word to le align with my le ideology
do you lack the ability to not just absorb everything you read as gospel or so?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Ch4a6ffPZY

>Using em dashes and semi-colons are now red flags for AI writing.

>>24470784
no shit

I think I've got too much brainrot to read poetry, songs or anything non-prose in books. I really enjoyed the opening of Pale Fire but as soon as it got to tit titular poem I hit a wall.

>>24470818
i too got filtered by pale fire but it can't just be poetry cuz u can read lyrics of any song and not be filtered of course a song is three minutes long and written by some indie rocker doofus from the midwest who moved to brooklyn rather than a great poet idk t b h i didn't put that much effort into pale fire maybe ill try again

energy drinks with taurine in them make me so horny that's why i usually drink reign energy cuz it has a shitload of caffeine but no taurine but i bought some ghost energy cuz amazon had a bogo sale and so i've been drinking them this weekend and now i just want to goon all day and when i walk down the street i'm like male gazing into the eyes of the chicks who pass by etc. wtf it does give u good energy boost but any productivity gains are offset by all the extra goon time

Speaking of male gaze. I wonder what the average males' minimum age for male gazing is.

>>24470968
as i get older i find myself male gazing at older women more like sometimes u see an old chick who carries herself like she used to be hot and it's like hey it's not her fault she got old it happens to all of us, still would

>>24470968
For me? 10

>>24470528
>more suffering is good
Shouldnt people closer to God be more blessed?

I have a urology appointment on Thursday, they will be looking at and touching my dick, should I shave my pubes? I'm 22, and I've never shaved them before.

>>24471044
Unless you're going there to fuck your doctor, no.

>>24471044
I'm not joking here man, you need to shove your own shit down your urethra hole and then when the urologist whips your weiner out you have to push as hard as you can and produce a curly log of poo poo from the end of your dick like a sausage being pushed out of a sausage press, then look up at your urologist and start shitting in your undies which are around your knees at this point so you'll drop a big, impactful log right into the hammock that is your undies and it'll land with a hefty thud. Can you do that for me bro?

>>24470473 (OP)
kek

>>24471044
Nah. If they need your shaved they make a nurse do it

People seem very nervous at the ATM

>>24471052
>>24471096
But, like, I've never shaved down there before. Won't it be embarrassing?

>>24471114
No. Urologists aren't sexually interested in your junk, they only care whether or not there's something wrong with it.

>>24471114
>Doctors astounded that man grows pubes!
>Never before seen event, they all took pictures!

When I went to the penis doctor, two years ago, the doc complimented me on being straight and told me to have sex. Overall it was a good experience.

>>24471117
>>24471118
Look, I mean, I'm not embarrassed to have them look at my junk and shove a camera down it and everything, I don't give a shit about that, if women have to get their shit looked at every year then I can put up with having it done once or twice, I'm just embarrassed by the pubes for some reason. Oh well, I'll see what I do, thanks for the input and the laughs, I appreciate it.

every day is a collection of things I don't want to do.

getting in the habit of reading the moment i wake up instead of looking at my phone.

Flowers for Algernon was perfect for reading half-awake, simple words, simple plot, decent book. Any other easy lit recs?

>>24471145
I've been trying to get into the habit of:
>Wake up.
>Do half of my flashcards for the day.
>Think about getting out of bed and not spending a gross amount of time scrolling shorts.
>Stay in bed and spend a gross amount of time scrolling shorts.

>>24471131
You've been brainwashed by the pornojew. There's nothing embarrassing about not shaving.

My brother and I were watching Family Guy tonight. I was sitting on his bedroom floor and resting against his wardrobe. He was sitting on his bed. I was 4 beers deep, he 5. We'd finished eating dinner and watching The Shining about 30 minutes earlier. We were having a good time until I suddenly started thinking about death and getting stressed out. I told him about it, and he managed to calm me down really quickly. I'll never tell him that I love him, but I do.

>>24470784
>em dash
I had to give specific instructions to grok that it's not allowed to use them, it didn't take much time before it was using them again. I think it's pretty hard wired to use them.

On a sort of related note, I wonder if any of yous can check out this recently popular YouTuber, I suspect he is using Ai to write his script. I can hear the verbal em dash often. Although some of his recent videos seem to be less Ai generated, it's more his older ones.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WBPcLGeZBbw
(listen at 1.75 speed)

Women finally dropping the 'sweet and innocent' mask has had great ramifications for the arts, muses are no longer a thing and a great inspiration for me has been extinguished

When was the last time you had sex, /lit/?

>>24471196
muses were supposed to be deities, not real women

I don't like when workers smile at me. It feels like a lie, and I don't like being lied to. The checkout chick isn't happy to see me, she isn't happy to be serving me, but she acts like it anyway. And don't get me wrong, I get it, I've worked retail before, I know you have to smile at the customers and act happy and all that shit, but I still don't like it.

>>24471200
Never, lol. I got a blowjob when I was 14, but that's the furthest I've ever gone.

>>24471122
>he doesn’t know that women want Captain Hook

>>24471206
In my country no one smiles unless they actually mean it.

>>24470784
this video is actually pretty decent for knowing what to look for.
>it's not x, it's y
>analogies
>groups of three
>em dash (of course)

any more tips?

>>24471206
The checkout girls where i live all have resting bitch faces

>>24471218
>it's not x, it's y
Every now and then I let deepseek write a story for me and it really does do this a lot.

>>24471206
sometimes I can sense the self-check out machine is smiling at me

>>24471226
>

I'm with a "polyamorous" girl who has a bf or something like that in another country. She showed interest in me and I said whatever, but the fact that she is like this has confronted me in ways I've never been confronted before. I don't know what a relationship is anymore, since I've always entered "relationships" or amorous things with the supposition that it's going towards building a future or at least that there is a degree of stability in the emotional landscape, which I know with this girl is kind of a moot point since she is so "free".

Anyways, I really don't know what to believe anymore. I'm just feeling confused within myself and with my relationship with the world and what I really expect and hope for in others.

What do I do? What do I read for this?

>>24471218
man, I like using descriptive triplets in my writing. we're so fucked.

but:
>impersonal 3rd person pov/no personal anecdotes
>empty intro sentences: "fishing is a good and popular pastime to have!"
>overly clarified points
>metaphors that feel uncanny and forced

Question for anyone who has experience with this...
When a girl approaches you, is the chance of a match higher than usual( when you approach her) and is the chance of her being better quality( no nagging, entitleness, bitching and complaining) than when you approach her?
I mean obviously the main bottleneck is her refusing you but if she actually approaches you means shes interested so that wont happen.
Is it worth taking a shot and not refusing a woman when she approaches you, even though in general you gave up on women cause of multitude of very bad experiences?

>>24471236
my answer is that you overthink way too much to have any success with women. just say fuck it we ball

>>24471234
>polyamorous
It's not real. she uses you as an emotional tampon while giving you nothing in return; exclusivity is what makes relationships and sex worth anything at all. i would rather be single.

>>24471247
>while giving you nothing in return
she gave me a couple of blowjobs already, I would say that's something

> exclusivity is what makes relationships and sex worth anything at all
that's the crux, negger, I used to think that, now I'm not so sure... I don't really know why people are together anymore. This little fact has sunken me in deep societal reflection that has ended in a form of existential marasmus. I see my life and the future a bit different now and I don't know who to discuss it with.

It's really interesting.

>>24471256
Do you think any woman would be polyamorous if men were the sex that could easily find sex partners? it's one sided.

>>24471236
I wouldn't say the chance of matching is any higher than usual. But it takes care of that initial question of whether or not she has basic interest in you.

One thing that I never see on all of the relationship advice is probably the most simple but hardest for some guys to "get" (em dash) it's what girls call chemistry. Do you not have to struggle to say something to each other? Do you both chuckle/laugh/giggle at simple things you both say. Do you feel natural when she touches you, does she lean in when you touch her?

If you are interested in getting back out there, this time try and focus on what your gut is telling you. Do you click? It can be a very simple method once you understand it.

>>24471236
Me mum always told me that women who approach men are whores and that I should stay from them.

>>24471258
That's a weird take my hombre, as if there were no men that can have sex with many females. There are. And I'm not sure I'm following the point you're trying to make. Even if we accept that it is one-sided, that doesn't answer the questions of amorous association. We look for someone only for support? to ease the pain of existence? a solace? a loneliness-pill? Not for who they are? what they can be?

Oh brother, I see the seeds of the earth spinning.

>>24471259
Yeah i think this is a good advice. Im asking because a girl approached me about half a year ago and i just wasnt that interested. So my gut told me theres not much chemistry there. Maybe in the future someone whos a better match will approach me, who knows....

>>24471271
yes... i don't follow but i'm sure you're cooking something

I don't think women quite understand how incredibly privileged they are when it comes to dating. Society expects them to do absolutely NOTHING whereas men are supposed to do everything,

>>24471288
They will tell you they make all the effort for wearing makeup and shaving their legs howeverbeit

>>24471291
Being able to put on make-up is a privilege and I'm tired of pretending it's not.

>>24471211
that counts

>>24471301
No, it doesn't, lol. I'm still a virgin.

>>24471307
some people didn't even have that experience

>>24471309
Me, you're talking about me.

>>24471288
wtf is that image/filename

>>24471309
So?

>>24471314
It's a gachaslop (Limbus Company) reference. I don't blame the game anymore because it's become bad but I still have lots of art saved.

>>24471288
kinda an incel mentality desu

>>24470473 (OP)
I think I now have all the data necessary for grappling with the problem of the life and death of nations; and I can say positively that a people will never die, if it remains eternally composed of the same national elements. If the empire of Darius had, at the battle of Arbela, been able to fill its ranks with Persians, that is to say with real Aryans; if the Romans of the later Empire had had a Senate and an army of the same stock as that which existed at the time of the Fabii, their dominion would never have come to an end. So long as they kept the same purity of blood, the Persians and Romans would have lived and reigned. In the long run, it might be said, a conqueror, more irresistible than they, would have appeared on the scene; and they would have fallen under a well-directed attack, or a long siege, or simply by the fortune of a single battle. Yes, a State might be overthrown in this way, but not a civilization or a social organism. Invasion and defeat are but the dark clouds that for a time blot out the day, and then pass over. Many examples might be brought forward in proof of this.

If figured out an easy way to use my typewriter and have my iphone scan it into text form, but I am finding my motivation to write at the same level (low)
I might type on it, scan it, and post it here since you can't stop me.

It’s Bloomsday. Should I go performatively read my cloth-bound 1950s copy of Ulysses at a local cafe?

>>24471347
That's fair.

I have masturbated 7 times today

>>24471234
Since you faggots aren't answering nor giving me advice I'm going to add another thought to this.

So this girl is the first "new" girl I've had in around 8 years. During this time I've been on and off with girls I've met a long long time ago. Most notable one of the first gfs I've ever had that I met like 15 years ago. We were together until recently after breaking up for many years

Anyways, I've forgotten how it's like to connect with someone new. We can speak a lot, she is an artist and she is kind of interesting. But I have the lingering sensation that we're going to become bored of each other or something. It's also very draining sometimes, on a spiritual level. I don't know. How can we make sense of ourselves facing the boundless otherness? Is it in the end something of a mirror into ourselves so am I afraid of being with myself?

Maybe being an "introvert" means to avoid facing yourself by avoiding other people. Since they would remind you of yourself, since you define yourself by confirming that which we are not.

Oh brother.

>>24471288
Give women a break, they were housepets for ten thousand years and they're about to be housepets for another ten thousand years because their owners "freed" them out of guilty conscience and let them run around and behave exactly as everyone predicted they'd behave

Let them enjoy their five minutes of "freedom," especially as we're in the last few seconds of it now. Look at what they've done with it, they've just made themselves neurotic and psychotic. They don't even enjoy their beauty or their youth, they squander it on men who abuse them and agonize over the one way in which they are imperfect physically rather than enjoying being beautiful in all the other ways. They are deeply unhappy confused people. Just let them tucker themselves out, they're already starting the first phases of begging to be re-enslaved for their own good.

Today is the tenth anniversary of Trump going down the escalator. Just imagine.

>>24471424
and? did you enjoy it?
seems a bit excessive desu

>>24471432
> polyamorous relationship
Huge red flag. She's just flat-out telling you that she is a total slut, basically asking you to give her a free-pass to cheat on you whenever, wherever, with whomever. You should appreciate her honesty and if she's generous you may have her permission to do the same as she does. However, if you are looking for a real loving relationship, run away from her.

>>24471433
>They are deeply unhappy confused people.
They're just like me fr fr

>>24471447
Yeah kind of. Weird part is I'm still horny. Usually I just do one big goon every other day and that's that. But today I decided to do very quick faps, it doesn't really seem to be working, hmmmmmmm I don't know what to do. I don't really have any other vices so it does not bother me that much but still. One would rather believe they were more in control of their appetites.

>>24471461
No, after her telling me that I've placed my boundaries within myself and I know I will not get from her a "loving relationship" as you put it. I'm just enjoying the moment and living since it's also nice to have company. If I find someone else I will not hesitate to give the dick.

There's just many questions that this girl has made me pose to myself and my ideas.

>>24471424
I tried masturbating today but couldn't get it up even though I was so horny precum was leaking out of my dick. Then I took a cold shower and pat myself on the back for continuing my nofap streak.

>>24471433
It sucks to be a low-value male during the brief period of women's liberation, though. I wonder how many generations will have to pass before we repeat this era of insanity. How many hundreds of years, hopefully thousands, before people forget the lessons learned and decide to give women the same rights as men? I think that we failed some kind of civilizational test by allowing feminism to spread. It's a cancer that kills society. There are ways to give women respect, protection, and freedom without empowering them to destroy civilization.

>>24471469
You've given in fully to the hedonist lifestyle. Questioning things at this point, will only turn you into an old, dull and boring man. Real wisdom is harvested from long streaks of abstinence.

>>24470712
Due to your usage of self-dissolution, “hardly think” something that should [ought?] to be felt and this symbolic expression of death - I’m trying to better understand why there seems to be a link between Eros and Thanatos, which in turn also appears to encapsulate almost all transcendental forms of astral [cosmic?] experience.

Maybe corruption is a satanic tendency towards a descent that brings us closer to understanding how contrast helps with the connection of emotion to reason and influences what we value (erotic aspect) in terms of wanting IT to be impervious to the fires that consume the essence of it (thanatotic aspect). Death as the beginning to all ends, it happens that when we’re at Wit’s End and all fire extinguished, all light has been put out – it gets hard to see that all we did was long for what used to be. A longing for an era of omnipotence back in Eden, symbolically meaning the creative womb.


Lucifer comes from Light, by illuminating Sin - it guides our vision in some sense. Just as our perception obscures aspects of reality without relevance - so as to not overload the function of attention, the lack of Light is just as important to the truest notion of what is worth being sought after. One can still have or yearn for a heart of gold, despite the Darkness of their soul. Zeroing on the most selfish (not lying to oneself), purest form of desire consists of an universal law that allocates magnetism between two poles towards synergy, facilitating emergence of the cardinal aspect operated by the cycle of energy and the renewal of beings, through the program that makes DNA birth, mutating in a higher degree of harmonic[al?] response to the pressures of an entropic system of Becoming. Only god knows if this deed is the Doing of an Intelligence beyond this realm [dimension? Dimension implies distance, which implies speed and time. Perhaps time was of the essence all along].

>>24471469
The mere risk of venereal disease would be enough to discourage me from a polyamorous relationship, but then you factor in the emotional ambiguity from who knows how many people and its a recipe for drama nobody needs in their personal life. I believe women only engage in this kind of thing because they desperately wish their life was a soap opera.

>>24471424
I envy your stamina. Even in my heyday as a serial masturbator 2 times a day was my normal limit, and if I went beyond it to 3 times my dick was often too sore to do anything with it for days afterward. I truly don't know how you manage it. Maybe I'm just built soft.

>>24471473
>You've given in fully to the hedonist lifestyle
tf? from fucking one girl?

>Real wisdom is harvested from long streaks of abstinence.
that might be true

>>24471480
yeh, I'm being emotionally cautelous, if the "soap opera" affects me I can just leave and start masturbating again.

>>24470968
Depends on what she's wearing. Certain clothes invite the eye, others deny it. If she's wearing yoga pants stretched over a pert bottom with nothing else to cover it, she wants me to look. She probably wishes I was less circumspect about it so my gaze would boost her self esteem, as is she'll have to settle for merely intuiting (correctly) that I'm coveting her ass. It's a silly bit of mutual facade. She pretends she's not showing off, I pretend I'm not appreciating.

>>24471497
Does this mean you look at 12-year-olds in yoga pants?

>>24471138
If you don't have a clue on what you want to do in the most analytical sense of the expression, then you're headed for metaphorical hell. When we're guided by not wanting to do stuff, we succumb more easily to pleasant endeavours - which in turn become more and more egregious, non-conventional, extreme and damaging to the psyche. As our tastes are bent, they twist our perception of reality - making everything else that doesn't send pleasant signals seem like hell.

It is of utmost importance and essential to surviving knowing yourself enough to know the things you actually want to do beyond what gives out good sensations and provides artificial, orgasmic output. The self needs to express, it's non-negotiable.

>>24471487
> I'm just enjoying the moment and living since it's also nice to have company. If I find someone else I will not hesitate to give the dick.

>>24471472
You aren't a low-value male. I always think of the guy who runs the Outdoor Boys Youtube channel, he's notably ugly, he looks like some farmer you'd see in a photograph from the 1920s, but he has a family. He's very successful, entrepreneurial, multiple business founder, outdoorsman, clearly very smart. How would he do if he hadn't married his wife and been content with the family life? Where would he be if we rewound his life 10-20 years (to make him younger, but still "the same guy" with the same success and potential for success), and plopped him down in the middle of LA, Chicago, New York, Miami? He'd be an "incel." Super smart, successful, interesting guy, tons of skills and hobbies, yet somehow an incel.

What women value is utterly meaningless. It does suck to be low value on THEIR radar but we should disaggregate that from real measures of value. Most men for the last several thousand years managed to "earn" a family in the same way the Outdoor Boys guy did: not by being an attractive faggot popular kid in high school chad archetype and metrosexual into his 20s and 30s, but by being an ugly lanky yet skilled and intelligent man and a diligent worker. Women used to value security because they realize they produce virtually nothing other than children themselves, and thus they can be traded like playground pogs.

The only difference in modernity is that women are riding the male-created Enlightenment and its political values: universal equality, humans are all the same beautiful creators of meaning, we should all have equal political rights, etc. But this sort of equality is a beautiful fiction. It was created as a noble dream and aspiration for MEN, specifically European men: can we create states in which everybody is equally a citizen, has equal opportunity and equal rights, but ALSO has an equal DUTY to use these rights well and live up to them?

When you throw women and exploitative foreigners into this mix, you have to degrade the original aspiration (and its reciprocal obligation: this is hard to maintain so you have to live up to it) from a "noble fiction" to a total farce. Women are basically enjoying all the noble/dreamlike parts of the Enlightenment, the "everyone is equal~ the world should be a beautiful fun fair place~" parts, while not even having a thought about all the hard parts, the "you will have to maintain republican virtue and be willing to struggle to make your place in this noble society and defend it with your life if need be" parts. Just read the first few chapters of Montesquieu's Spirit of the Laws or Rousseau's short Discourse on Political Economy. These aren't charters of rights.

This can only go on so long. We are happily at the end of it. I have the most pity for men who had to live smack in the middle of it.

Look at it this way: at some point in human history this joke was going to be made, this farce was going to be tried. The body now has immunity to it. It will never happen again.

>>24470473 (OP)
I gave at least two women the ick today. Every time I go out in public I'm reminded of just how freakish my proportions are compared to everyone else, I always feel like Frankenstein's monster.

I'm torn between The Remains Of The Day, White Fang, Lonesome Dove and The Goldfinch for my next read. Im giving myself until tonight to choose

>>24471520
This is like saying "a fat black person said I wasn't 'fly' today, so I'm very upset."

Who cares what a worthless retard thinks?

>>24471520
If you live in the PNW I'll hangout with you. I'm pretty good-looking and I promise I can get you laid by some hanger-ons if we go to a bar or something

>>24471521
THe remains of the day, hands down negro. I r8 8/8

>>24471508
You must be a monk or a retard if you believe that would constitute "hedonism" on modern society.

>>24471472
If you think you have it hard nowadays you wouldn't even had a chance under patriarchy. My parents still tell stories about how their grandfathers would receive death threats, and were attacked with an axe by their future father-in-law, or angry bands of cousins, after asking out their would-become wife.

>>24471502
I wouldn't know cause I don't go around asking the ages of girls I ogle in public. Seems a bit forward, no? I can't say I notice many younger girls dressed that way, but that's also revealing to my own tastes. I don't claim to possess an eidetic memory thus what I am able to recall is only what I bothered to notice in the first place. I present to you my dearth of remembered preteens cavorting in skintight leggings as proof of my innocence, such as it were.

>>24471527
You're just saying the type of things guys with a bodycount of 30+ would say and do say a lot of times, do you not consider those men hedonists?

>>24471497
>She probably wishes I was less circumspect about it so my gaze would boost her self esteem, as is she'll have to settle for merely intuiting (correctly) that I'm coveting her ass. It's a silly bit of mutual facade. She pretends she's not showing off, I pretend I'm not appreciating.
kek well said

What's that Tolstoy quote?
>“He stepped down, trying not to look long at her, as if she were the sun, yet he saw her, like the sun, even without looking.”

>>24471533
I'll take that as a yes.

>>24471522
Women are retarded but they aren't worthless, and it's my biological imperative to impregnate one so I kinda have to care what they think since some faggots passed the 19th amendment 100 years ago and I can't just by a wife from a poor rural family anymore.

>>24471523
I live in the Deep South so we can't feasibly hang out. My mere presence would scare women away from us, everywhere I go I notice women just instantly becoming uncomfortable in my presence. They'll never sit next to me even if it's the last open seat but instead stand around until there's an open seat that's not next to me. I would regularly get called weird in school even when I was just minding my own business, and have heard people talking behind my back and calling me creepy within earshot several times before. I'm tall and thin so I don't have the body time of someone that would usually be derided but just something about my proportions, posture, face, and/or style just seems to put people off. It must be like some serial killer or autistic sperg phenotype.

>>24471471
That doesn't sound normal isn't precum a sign of extreme arousal, not being able to get hard seems like a problam..

>>24471547
Since your mind was made up before asking the question I guess I'll just leave you to your happy preconceived conclusion.

Told my brother today that sitting at home all day sucks. He told me to get a job then. I told him that having a job sucks even more. He told me to shut up. Well, what can you do?

>>24471560
Well, I had done the usual, taking a "glimpse" at the nsfw subs on 4chan for about 10 minutes and then getting extremely aroused at the thought of seeing something arousing, without really seeing anything at all. Then I looked something I rarely do, I looked into an e-hentai gallery for another 5 minutes without really looking at anything at all. Then I went to the bathroom to piss out the precum. Then I realized the precum didn't stop leaking, so I spent about 20 minutes in the bathtub trying to get rock hard, but the arousing memories had ebbed off. I could think of 100 images at the same time, without being able to focus on one. Then I got bored, and cold-showered for another 30 minutes. I was happy that no precum managed leak into my pants. After that I took a three hour walk to the city center.

>>24471569
Try to get out more, even if it's for walks or reading at the local coffee shop.

>>24470473 (OP)
I just learned that there are people that practice "performative reading" outside to impress chicks or whatever. I hope they're just trying to yank the pizzles of autistic guys because this can't be true, can it?

>>24471574
I also think leaving the house sucks. It seems like I'm all out of options. I really am a failure.

>>24471580
Shut up then.

>>24471579
>this can't be true, can it?
Oh boy.

>>24471579
That thread itself is a joke. That said, as someone who reads in public often, am I reading for the love of literature first and foremost? Yes. Am I also aware that it's an attractive hobby to the opposite sex? Also yes.

>>24471569
Stop complaining, for one thing. If all you have to add is "everything sucks" then the least you can do is to find some way to make it insightful or amusing to others. Unless your goal is to drive people away from you, in which case continue what you're doing. Being persistently miserable is a fast track to total isolation in later life.

>>24471519
So when do you reckon the feminism and hoeflation will end?
Id like to have a kid but in this societal climate i dont stand a chance. Im introverted, not very social though i look normal

>>24470553
But why? Don't you want to soak up vitamin-D? (no dick joke, I mean the actual vitamin). I know Japanese people see tanned people as plebs but that's retarded nowadays.

>>24471592
I've been getting too tanned and I think I look better paler.

>>24471519
I'm speaking about the world I live in, rather than the one I wish I lived in, or could have lived in, or might live in. In the world I live in, I am a low-value male, because women are the arbiters of male value. I try to maintain a realistic view of myself at all times. Because I spend so much time reading and writing fiction it's easy to lose myself in daydreams. I know what my status is in this world I live in, and it gives me very little reason to hope for my romantic prospects. I've had a long time to come to terms with this, though. My epiphany that I would more than likely die alone arrived over 20 years ago and I have been slowly trudging toward the forgone conclusion of my eternal bachelorhood ever since.

It's nice to imagine that I will live to see the fall of feminism and this depraved society, watching it topple like a rotten tree in eroded soil, but I do not live in the end times. I am now old enough to recognize this fact. The urgency of youth makes one impatient for great change, and so one starts to see omens and portents of impending doom which are nothing but figments of desperate hope. I do not deny the end is coming, that I am witnessing the cascading effects of social decay spreading before my eyes, I simply have attained a longer perspective due to advancing age. I will be dead when the rotten tree bears its rotten fruit, more than likely, and in truth I think I will be happier for it. What is coming is not for old men.

>>24471583
Can you guys maybe stop joking for a minute and tell me that there are no people that ACTUALLY do this? And I'm not talking about reading out of interest and chatting someone up by using a book as a conversation starter. I'm talking about people that are not at all interested in learning something new by reading and are just using a book as a prop to manipulate others. This doesn't actually happen, right?

>>24471626
>using a book as a prop to manipulate others
>This doesn't actually happen, right?
It's been happening for the last 2,000 years, it's called organized religion.

If I was a girl, I'd troll men here by responding with my voice on vocaroo.

>>24471626
People do all sorts of whacky, desperate, vapid things, anon.

>>24471626
>d are just using a book as a prop to manipulate others. This doesn't actually happen, right?
Are you familiar with booktoks and booktubers? Ever spend 5 minutes on instagram looking at the 'book' or 'reading space' tags?

>>24471601
Maybe your partner thinks you look better tanned? Maybe he likes you independent from your current tan-status and cares more about you getting enough vitamin-D?
All this seems a bit weird because females are usually pretty aware of skin care and you not knowing about sun-screen is a bit sus.
I'm a curd soap using neanderthal and even I know about sun-screen. Very, very sus, indeed.

>>24471634
AI is almost to the point you don't have to be a girl to do this.

>looking for jewelrymaking lessons
>contact a guy recommended to me
>bla bla bla classes are x times a week and costs y money
>"btw, you should bring 100g of silver for the first class"
>ask him if he can point me towards a few suppliers
>"Oh, you can buy it directly from me :^)"
>ask him what kind of silver he's selling, its format and how much he will charge
>guy ghosts me
I fucking hate living in the third world. Everyone is always trying to con you. Oh, well, I ended up finding another place which is slightly cheaper and closer to my home so maybe it was for the best. If this second place also tries to swindle me I don't know what the fuck I will do tho.

>>24471637
I'm a g-g-guy...

>>24471642
damn, best of luck

>>24471634
based. Next time I have a gf I will enlist her help in such an endeavor.

>>24471424
That's my record

>>24471636
>booktoks
TikTok gives me the ICK and I lose all respect for people that use that shit unironically. I installed it once as I was sick and bored out of my mind but then I've noticed that I got addicted to it and started to scroll whenever I had to wait for a short while, got scared and deinstalled it.
>Booktubers
I always assumed that people that recommend books on yt have actually read them. I guess I'm retarded.
>Instagram
I had some creepy experiences with some nosy dudes so I minimize my smartphone usage, so no, no instagram for me.

I'm so pissed that libgen is down again.

>>24471569
Stop bitching and get a job or learn to be a quiet parasite

>>24471634
AGP behavior, be careful anon. You might fall down the rabbit hole

>>24471635
I think my misanthropy leveled up again. Maybe WW3 is not such a bad idea. The good times lasted too long and people lost sight of what's good and important.

>>24471644
Sorry, I got thrown off by your effeminate way of posting. Sorry, bruh.

>>24471644
>stutterposting
You're fat.

>>24471677
We are overdue for a major war, or some other catastrophe to cull the global population. There needs to be a realignment of priorities. People have had it too good for too long. A massive wave of suffering is coming to balance the scales.

>>24471668
>>I always assumed that people that recommend books on yt have actually read them
You spend time on /lit/ and actually think this?

>>24471696
I'm pretty new to /lit/ but I guess it's similar to my suspicion that most people on /v/ don't actually play vidya. I think I might have to stop using 4chan and search for a better forum on the dark web or something.

>>24471679
>>24471682
If I wasn't 5'8, 130lbs, I'd beat ya'll up.

>>24471693
I don't look forward to it but I think it's time for another purge.

>>24471706
We're all pussies so let's not pretend that we would actually have violent, physical contact even if we were standing at an arms-length.

damn...wish I could go to that nin show...

>>24471705
If I were to make one of those iceberg tier list images to represent obscurity of internet websites 4chan would be in the uppermost layer of it. You don't get more highly visible than this place, with its lack of paywalls or authentication to view content, and publicly indexed boards. Far from dark web, 4chan isn't even deep web, it's straight up clear net.

And /lit/ is full of pseuds desperate to be taken seriously. The number of people I see on this board who take what other people read very seriously makes me feel like I'm a college freshman again, surrounded by posturing teenagers.

>>24471711
nin nin!

>You're gonna carry that weight.
Truer words have rarely been spoken. I faced myself and stopped repressing my urges in favor of acknowledging and dealing with them honestly, but I'm not sure if trading the burden of repression for the burden of desire changed much in the end. There is a whole host of fucked up shit that I want on some level, stuff that the average person would recoil in disgust or even fear from, and now I'm stuck with it all until the end of time. None of it is good, all of it would have disastrous consequences, and still my inner voice babbles about it all without ceasing. No wonder people used to flee to the desert and become hermits.

>>24471722
nine inch cocks

I always feel like I lack a core education to fall back on, which means I dont seem to learn anything. Then im craving some kind of rules and structure to help me learn but at the same time im supposed to break rules I dont even know and just find out stuff my myself. Is this learned helplessness or low confidence?

>>24471647
Thanks.

>>24471756
If it's sexual, then AI probably could help you with that, somewhat.

>>24471756
Have you tried therapy? Ruminating distorted thoughts while being isolated does not seem like a good thing to do.

>>24471762
I am like you and I think it's both, since they are related. Do you want help? I'm not saying I have the answer to all of your problems, but I can tell you about the results of my own experiences.

Stacy wanted to hangout but Im loyal to my image board gf

>>24471768
No thanks.
>>24471772
No, I really do not want to discuss this with another human being in real life.

>>24471792
Well, you could give Buddhism a try, since it's all about desire and detaching yourself from it. You could also research about historical figures that struggled with similar thoughts and how they coped with it. That being said I really think you should talk with someone or at least with an ai.

>>24471786
3dpd is never worth it, I think one of my aunts redpilled me when I was younger when she mentioned she named her son after a chad she crushed on, she was still in a relationship with her baby's daddy at this point I mind you. Women are so bizzare, they could literally fuck someone for years and have a baby with him but still not love or find them appealing.

Hope is the most important thing and the funny thing about it is that hope itself is always within reach, no matter the circumstances. It's always easy to feel hope when reality favours it, but at the end of the day the capacity for hope resides deep inside us. From our first breath to our last.

>>24471810
I'm almost sure I have seen you mention that story about your aunt a couple times before in here and maybe on /fit/ too.

>>24471820
Hope is cope.

>>24471835
I don't post on /fit/ so doubt it, but I might have posted it here before can't remember. It's eerie to know people actually remember my posts like this, I post quite frequently so I wonder what other posts of mine random anons have in their memory...

I dare give voice to this thought of mine
this dweller in the mind's deepest chambers
this tremor of the heart that quickens
when summoned in loneliest solitude.
It reveals itself only when I sit untouched
by lesser worries, by fleeting anxieties.
A thought that demands sharing
to lighten its crushing weight
this spectral metaphor that turns hostile
haunting when I speak its name.

>>24471706
>5'8
>130 lbs
>wants to look pale
You're not a man, you're a boy. You're lucky you live in a gynocentric, otherwise you would be one of my concubines on my harem

>>24471857
I understood that reference.

>>24471634
https://voca.ro/1oQ14hED5fvT

>>24471912

>>24471912
AI

It's raining, I'm reading and I'm comfy with my cat by my side. You jelly?

>>24472096
No, I'm bones and meat.

>>24472096
I'm a cat enchanter, I can literally command them like other people command dogs.

The word facesitting is gradually invading other words. It started with reading fascinating as facesitting, then fasten as face sit, then facebook as facesitbook, then fascist as facesit. What words will turn into facesitting next?

>>24472119
Facetious. Facsimile.

>>24471858
kek

Had a very vivid dream last night where a dog of immense proportion, similar to kerberos, kills me while I am praying in a cave deep underground for guidance. After he gnashes me to bits in my jaws I am reformed in the underworld, a formless place that is made up of multicolored fog as far as i can see in all directions. He commands me, in what is a low growl that I somehow understand, to take my woman and when I attempt to grab at an image of my girlfriend I am denied over and over again. Then he starts chanting the name Karina over and over again and tells me that Karina is my woman. When I woke up it was uncharacteristically foggy in the middle of June.
I don't know anybody named Karina.

>>24472192
Anna Karenina

>>24471392
>Me using Google images translate to make the typed transcription of hanzi

If you're a loser and you can't self-improve changing your perception won't help you to be or feel better.

>>24472241
"I'm a loser" is an excuse for making the daily choice to spend the day on vidya 90% of the times.

At least AI likes my writing...

>>24470473 (OP)
--- Solaria ---
10017
--- Reply to Marianne Moore's The Fish ---

Oceanic music and views
Are so familiar to me

That my eye dotes on towering cottonwoods
As rare arrangement

In the intentional sense
As it disappears.

>>24472192
It sounds like you don't like her anymore.

>>24471236
The chance is both higher than usual and that she is more emotionally developed than the average girl. She knows what she wants from you and is going to demand it, do your best.

Was I wrong to have trusted you

>>24472252
If they can manage only gaming, it's not an excuse, but a fact.

>>24472296
You cannot trust anyone, specially yourself

wow i just made out with a super cute chick for a second. she gave me a ride home and when we hugged as i was getting out she kissed me on the cheek so i kissed her cheek back and she looked at my with this cute smirk so i had to kiss her on the lips.

>>24472321
*especially

>>24472345
I want to physically hurt you after reading this.

>>24471857
True, but the upside is I still get to attract and sleep with 16-24yos, so hey, you do you and I'll do me

>>24472096
For sure, including when it comes to adequate domestic cat requirements, which is top tier suburbs, for instance Munster IN or certain equivalents in Germany. My favorite cat was a big heavy American Wirehair that regularly leapt into and slept in my bed, just where my right arm could ensconce him just so, and his big head face mine for closeup looks.

>>24472096
>mfw

https://waynesworld.neocities.org/

It would take a lot of luck, hard work, and intelligence, and all this predicated on certain trends that are subject to rapid change, but I see a theoretical path to becoming an insanely powerful and influential individual before me.
Of course, anyone could be powerful with all those things I mentioned, but this is a clear, concrete path open to a relatively small subset of the population that I happen to be a part of. The issue is, I don't think I have the work ethic or intelligence to actually succeed in going down this route, but I don't know anyone else with a morality deserving of such position.

>>24472428
I can't imagine what it would be like to want power, once living in a standard of luxury in which quiet privacy is assumed.

>Chinese embassy in Israel urges citizens to leave
>Trump to leave G7 summit early to focus on Israel-Iran conflict, White House says
oh shit, things about to pop off? It's happening confirmed?

>>24472469
yeah trump is even calling one of his most loyal supporters in the media a "kook" rn cuz he's not on board for the war. looks like it's about to go down.

The amount of pages they give you for the free sample of a book on ibooks is quite generous. I often get my fill of literary satisfaction simply by reading these.
t. phone reader

If trump starts a war with iran and the big if they reinstate the draft america will implode.
You will see some shit, you will see chapo trap house, hassan, nick fuentes, and ron paul marching hand and hand against the war

it would be the end of trump, zionism, and jews

>>24472511
I just pirate books.

>>24472522
>If trump starts a war with iran
Likely
>and the big if they reinstate the draft
Very unlikely. Iran won't require a manpower surge beyond what the all-volunteer force can handle. A war with China might if it lasted beyond a week or two, though.

>>24472529
you idiot, have you ever seen a topographical map of iran? its nothing but mountains lol.
we are so fucked.

>>24472455
I don't want power for power's sake, but to correct injustices and hopefully bring us closer to world peace and prosperity. Of course, many men have used words like those as their justification for their own seizure of power but have turned out to be dishonest or corruptible. I do not think myself infallible in those regards, either. But in this plan, I will be assisted by something that should not have the same failings as men do. Never before in history could this have been done.

I know what I'm saying sound very megalomaniacal and fantastical and needlessly vague, hopefully something comes and knocks me down out of this apparent manic state soon. It's just that I'm caught up in this theoretical scenario I could fulfill if I was an ideal man and circumstances don't go terribly awry but I can't even discern if it's a genuine desire for the best of humanity or if it's just my own ego and desire for greatness that keeps me infatuated with this plan.

>>24472522
they're already saying anyone who opposes war with iran is anti-semitic. even the bush administration didn't stoop that low when people opposed the iraq war. watch the mainstream media fall in line just like they did with bush and iraq. sure five years later the nyt will discover critical thinking, but long after we're neck deep in it.

>>24472529
iran has one of the biggest standing armies in the world, and they're going to be dug into the mountains like the taliban (who iranian intelligence was supporting). iran is ranked top 20, sure that's not world power status, but it's a lot tougher than any of the cans the us army has been smashing for the last 25 years.

>>24471776
>Do you want help?
Yes please

>>24472546
>>24472535
>>24472522
at the very most, US planes will be used as airborne gas stations for Israeli "coalition" bombers.
US is not going to "start" a fucking war with Iran.

As my dad usually says, loudly and with force, relax.

btw if they take iran out, pakistan is next. then russia and china would be frozen out of the middle east. iran is also where china gets its oil.

>>24472345
>she

>>24472546
So many people and things have been called "anti-semitic" at this point that those words don't mean anything. Everyone on the far-right wears the label of anti-semite with pride while pro-Palestine lefties quickly picked up on the fact that zionists just use that term to shame people into compliance. Only moderate conservatives will fall for the same old jewish tricks, but most people with those politics are far too old to be drafted.

Since the daily meds I'm currently on make me sweat like crazy, I finally decided to buy and try out some antiperspirant deodorant. There's some side effects involved with that, right? There's gotta be some reason why people opt for regular deodorant over this stuff, no?

It's always when I'm tired and wanna relax I lose the ability to write comprehseanbly so I stay lonely and isolated.

Oh, a second thought. If I write a lot and everyday what the fuck it's still hard? Am I retarded? You do the best what you did the most is kinda bullshit.

>>24472535
>>24472556
You're not understanding my point. Iran will not be able to inflict casualties at a rate exceeding the volunteer force's ability to replace them - far below that rate, most likely. It doesn't matter how big Iran is or how mountainous it is. And it's not like an attacking force has to fight Iran to the last man either - once the government is no longer in a position to mount organized resistance, the conflict transitions from LSCO to far lower-intensity COIN.
Reinstate the draft? For what? Even Trump is smart enough to know that would just fuck over his political ambitions without a serious benefit. That particular can of worms is for a no-shit WW3 situation.

>>24472574
they say the aluminum in antiperspirant could be linked to alzheimers, didn't read the papers, don't know if true but i still avoid it, also antiperspirant is usually is kinda of chalky and might leave a stain on ur clothes. i sweat so much in the summer there's no point risking the downsides since i'm going to be drenched anyways. just gotta deal with it.

>>24472582
oh no i think ur right there won't be a draft in the united states, i'm just saying, iran will be a much tougher fight than anyone the us has fought since vietnam

Why can't I have friends? What's wrong with me?

>>24472582
>Iran will not be able to inflict casualties at a rate exceeding the volunteer force's ability to replace them -
Iran has marched children into minefields to clear them for heavy vehicles, anon, you have no idea how Ho Chi Minh their attitude to casualties is.

>bernie sanders has introduced legislation to stop trump from "dragging us into an illegal war with iran"
ugh i guess the democrats are about to be the good guys again

there is no war left to win, guys.
us will just destroy all infrastructure, nothing more.

>>24472604
And you still don't get my point. It doesn't fucking matter if they're willing to sacrifice their entire population. They cannot inflict casualties on a level that would necessitate a draft. The level of industrial-military-societal mobilization and technological military prowess required is beyond them.

>>24472602
anon, (You) got a friend in me (us) (You)

>>24472624
>No it's fine we can win on a bombing camping that doesn't involve nukes
Uh, anon, that's never happened for the US
>>24472627
They are a nuclear power with whom talks have just shut down. Nukes cost very very little to produce and launch and they already have the material. You can be a country with the ability to obliterate the entire Pacific rim on NK's budget. You can do it with very large mites personnel. The current mutually assured destruction which stops that from happening involves it being mutual nobody's trying to destroy you. You take out too much of Iran and they do not mind taking out all of the eastern Mediterranean

>>24472624
yeah my guess is they're just gonna use a bunker buster to blow out what's left or iran's nuclear program and hope there's no further blowback, if they try to go full regime change tho that could get hairy.

>>24472639
Lol, I don't know how autocorrect got from "few personnel" to "large mites" but scrub that

>>24472639
>They are a nuclear power with whom talks have just shut down.
No they aren't. Israel launched its operation precisely to prevent it from becoming one. They have no test detonations, no credible deterrent.
>Nukes cost very very little to produce and launch and they already have the material
This is like the opposite of true. They cost a fuckload to produce because they cost a fuckload to develop.

>>24472587
Ah, that sounds about right. And yeah, just went for a walk after applying some and worked pretty well! Probably means I'm gonna have to be better about doing my laundry though as to avoid those chalk stains or whatever, hiaha.

>>24472646
Aye, the fact they cost so much to maintain is the reason why we haven't nuked each other to oblivion almost a year ago back when Kompot drinkers tried to launch one but it blew up inside the silo and did fuck all. They said it was just for testing but I would not be surprised if we narrowly dodged nuclear annihilation that day.

https://youtu.be/0yr-LaMhvro?si=30rnzE035obILI5A
Total war
Total madness
Total being

>>24472639
there's literally no reason to go there if they can't destroy nuclear infrastructure fast enough before it's too late. too late is too late. genocide or regime change is too slow.

>>24472652
Dawg they don't have nuclear missiles, that's the whole fucking reason Israel is attacking now. They have material that kinda maybe could be assembled into weapons with more R&D but no successful tests, much less a deliverable warhead mounted on a missile.

It is not bad. Let them play.
Let the guns bark and the bombing-plane
Speak his prodigious blasphemies.
It is not bad, it is high time,
Stark violence is still the sire of all the world’s values.

What but the wolf’s tooth whittled so fine
The fleet limbs of the antelope?
What but fear winged the birds, and hunger
Jewelled with such eyes the great goshawk’s head?
Violence has been the sire of all the world’s values.

Who would remember Helen’s face
Lacking the terrible halo of spears?
Who formed Christ but Herod and Caesar,
The cruel and bloody victories of Caesar?
Violence, the bloody sire of all the world’s values.

Never weep, let them play,
Old violence is not too old to beget new values.

>>24472646
>This is like the opposite of true. They cost a fuckload to produce because they cost a fuckload to develop
Most of the development costs that go into US nukes are to make them lower and variable yield. They're trying to make ones that don't cause the fallout of older models. On the other hand, it's very cheap to cause a nuclear disaster in Slovenia which takes out most of the neighbouring Balkan states. You are thinking about nuclear bombs that aren't developed like the original ones, as a last ditch attempt. The kind of nuclear power Iran has is much more the old fashioned kind where you're not holding back in the hopes of diplomacy taking over, you're doing one day of shock and awe.
It's unlikely the US will ever push anyone to that point. However, everyone near Israel should be hoping Iran does not ever feel desperate. One of the major risk is that Russia would like a reason for more contained nukes, and if Iran happened to find a nuke with the Cyrillic poorly removed on their front door and use it in a moment of desperation, that gives a lot of latitude for anyone wanting to use them on a smaller scale to pressure other powers

>>24472666
Devilish digits, mr. War Never Changes

>>24470473 (OP)
>Write your thoughts
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH
it just goes on like that

>Jews above spreading ZOG propaganda

Cyrus / Kourosh was the worst king out of all of history. Israel has been the most destructive nation. They are genocidal. They are number 1 in human trafficking and organ trade. They financed ISIS and Al-Qaeda (can give sources). They are genocidal freaks. They even targeted and killed prized Persian horse breeds.

Kourosh/Cyrus' tomb needs to be decorated in the style of The House that Jack Built. Jews exist as a people due to the mistake of my ancestors. Because my ancestors gave them existence, I can decide whether these reprehensible, disgusting, and ugly people deserve to exist. I hope Iran gets a nuke and sends k-s to hell.

I crafted coffee ice cream.

>>24471572
best to not jerk off for a month and get back in order. easier said then done, I know, but it works

Do genuinely cute adult women exist? Seems like the vast majority of them learn how to deliberately act cute and weaponize this to get attention. You know... giggling at strategically timed moments, acting ditzy or vulnerable to get guys to help them, decking out their rooms a certain way because they know guys think it's cute, that kind of thing. It feels very artificial and cold to me.

>>24471705
Same, but I'm tempted to just focus on reading without finding somewhere else to talk about it. That performative reading thread also freaked me out.

>>24472833
Why do men in these threads ask such fucking stupid questions?

500 Internal Server Error
Angie

>>24470473 (OP)
I have heart failure and now I can't see beyond the ambition of wanting life to end.

>>24472866
Looks like I struck a nerve.

>>24471579
Performative reading as in public narration or simply bringing a book along to read when you're bored? If it's the latter, then I guess I'm technically guilty, though I do it because I'm bored and want to read. The very few times women have ever asked what I'm reading (usually philosophy or sci-fi), I go turbo-sperg and scare them away with all the themes and styles and arguments and details. It's kinda pathetic how easily they are filtered by Tolstoy, Clarke, and Aristotle.

>>24472886
I’m not personally offended, I’m genuinely confused as to how it occurs to you to ask such stupid questions. It’s like you think women are an alien species.

I feel like such a piece of shit. A girl actually texted ME first which I never expected, and after talking to her for a few days she turns out to be a really sweet girl and pleasant to talk with. We have mutual interests and know mutual people which is how she found me. I don't mind continuing to talk to her as a friend but I know eventually she might get some romantic ideas and that's the issue. I just don't find her very attractive. Not ugly or anything but, no discernable beauty. The fact that she's an incredibly shy and private person with barely any social media presence just makes me feel worse about thinking this way of her, like I'm being an asshole even thinking of these things of a person who is clearly a bit lonely.

Are you from 10 I see?

>>24472922
Unless you're handsome that's not something a 4chinz user has to worry about LMFAO
The niggas on this threads man...

>>24472939
Incomprehensible monkeybabble

>>24472922
If she's not ugly give her a chance.

>>24472922
Once again these threads reaffirm my belief that men are incapable of genuine love.

>>24472972
You don’t know anything then. It has always been men who are the romantic sex.

I'm horrifically disinformed.

>>24472972
I love deep and hard

>>24472557
What you probably lack isn’t a core education but a foundation. In my case that absence came from growing up with neglect, apathy, and abuse during my formative years. A common symptom for people like us is that we seem precocious and unusually independent when we’re young but often crash in “failure to launch” ways. Many of us end up living as maladaptive teenagers well into adulthood, at least at first. One thing you gotta understand is that you can’t think your way out of your circumstances. At best, you’ll go in circles and at worst endless rumination will increase your suffering and self-doubt.
THERE IS LIFE on the other side of this. Your life can be so much more than your current situation. It can get to the point where you’ll have trouble even recalling how you feel right now. But that comes through small, constant action. Emphasis on small. Trying to rush things out of panic is a trap and you'll end up like a fat woman starving herself into a hospital after having a scare over her reflection. The way you are right now isn’t a day's result and transcending it will take more than a day.
What helped me the most was taking small actions and being in the world. What does that mean? Having little things in my routine that occupied my days and showed visible progress over time. One of the easiest ways to do this is by enrolling in some kind of educational setting. Maybe college if you don’t have a degree, or simply taking classes in something that you have an interest on, like an instrument, a sport or a craft.
These things matter not just because they help you beat inertia while learning something, but because they put you in contact with other people. Isolation is bad for your mind. Period. That being said, it's equally important to find a supportive environment. "Supportive" doesn't mean a place where people coddle you or shower you with kindness, just that they can’t be actively making things worse. Your self-image and confidence are fragile right now. People who aggravate them are poison. Having teachers or peers who constantly belittle you will set you back. Yes, the world is full of cunts and learning to deal with them is part of life, but right now you’re still building yourself from the ground up. You don’t need to subject yourself to unnecessary harm.
(1/2)

>>24472557
>>24473058
Also, don’t demean yourself. Even as a joke. It changes how people see and treat you. Yes, even nice people. Little by little, good and novel experiences and thought patterns will overwrite the old ones. This is your foundation. Consistency matters more than quantity. Balance matters just as much. Maybe even more. Don’t be too hard on yourself, but have expectations for yourself. Don’t wear your heart on your sleeve, but don’t lock it away either. Don’t try to do ten things at once, but don’t stay inert.
I think that’s pretty much it.
One last thing: talk to someone. Even if it’s ChatGPT. Even if expressing yourself is hard and you feel like no one would care or understand. Talking makes a difference.
Treat yourself as you would your own child. Have empathy and respect for who you are and never be afraid to walk away from situations that violate that.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Norah_Vincent#Self-Made_Man
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Norah_Vincent#Personal_life,_views,_and_death

There's a male loneliness vaccine. Sexbots.

>>24472922
Reminds me of this one time that I asked a girl for her number in high school. She said no at first but the next day she had a girl friend of mine pass along her number to me. We texted for a little bit, and she was obviously very interested in me, which, for some reason, made me feel very uncomfortable. It felt like I had butterflies in my stomach. I ended up blocking her but she later approached me and asked me in very mature manner why I did that and if I had any problems with her that I should be direct with her, but I couldn't step up and be a man so I just ignored her like an utter retard. Every single time I come close to forming a genuine relationship with someone, I feel like I need to get away and be alone. I have an idea of why I do it, but I don't know how to stop it.

>>24472400
what should i do with my site?

>>24472922
>>24473281
If a girl text you first, you're either a chad or (more likely) she's extremely desperate and/or a whore

I fuckin' hate the academia and those parasites' BULLSHIT

>>24473414
it's probably worse than you know

>>24470473 (OP)
I think it's very nice that the old Testament has, techically, prophetic books aimed at the Gentiles.

>>24473449
Three of them. Granted, one of the Prophets is a Jew, another one is only a prophet because of the Jew's edom hateboner, but Job's fully legit.

>>24470473 (OP)
I'm addicted to buying books secondhand. When I see a book on Amazon for less than £4 that I really want I will buy it under the rational that I would just spend that money on a beer anyway, so what's the harm? The books are usually like new in quality, as well. The only problem is my backlog is incredibly long. I have hundreds of unread books decorated about my room; and although I read a lot, I struggle to keep up. Particuarly as my purchases match my current fixation. Last month I spent around £20 altogether on a large assortment of Arthurain literature (The Complete Works of Sir Thomas Malory, Arthurian Romances, Tolkien's translations of the Green Knight Poet, and some other books) and this month I've spent about £15 on some collections of Greek tradgedy and comic dramas. As I read tailored to my current interests, it means books I brought years ago when my interests were of a different sort (for example, the Cosmic Comics by Calvino or Ridley Walker by Hoborn) have been neglected to gather dust.
Everytime I've put myself on a book buying ban I always find an absolute deal somewhere, whether it's online or in a charity shop, and I cannot help myself.

a hooker that I bang from time to time looks a bit like Sabrina Carpenter

>>24473544
As a repeat customer, do you guys form a kind of friendly relationship, in the same way over time you'll most likely get pally with the same bartender or waiter who serves you. Or is it cold and transactional? I suppose it depends on the whore as well.

>>24473058
>>24473062
NTA
I came to a similar conclusion a few times. Socialization can boost my productivity sometimes, but it's never enough. Just don't have enough people around me.
And I have so much friction in my life to your knowledge it was around 4 hours like I'm trying to get out of my bed. It's hard to do anything I need especially around my family, it's a lot of stress. No, don't ask stupid questions, if shit was so simple I would solve it and wouldn't be here.
I feel like I'm stuck in the hole without material to build a ladder. It's not about the first step is about the step number -3. Idk how to build my life out of here. I just don't know.

>>24473550
yes, it is kinda friendly, she stays a bit longer than the regular allotted time and gives me discounts from time to time

It's sort of interesting how of all drives, the sex drive is the least localized. Thirst can be localized to the throat and the mouth, hunger to the stomach, and so on. But lust is felt almost all over the body, and not only with the body, but with the mind as well quite vividly. Your mind is assaulted by intrusive thoughts of bodies and situations and fantasies, you feel kind of jittery, frustration ties an ever-tightening, dully pulsing, invisible knot right above your taint. Even the sensation of relief is reserved for the moments after stimulation builds the tension to the point of irresistibility rather than being granted continuously like with thirst or hunger. It is the least direct of drives, but perhaps exactly because of that, one of the most powerful as well despite technically not being critical to the functioning of the body.

>>24470473 (OP)
Doing anything is so hard, and the rewards are so meagre, and everyone is so much better than I am. Fuck my parents for bringing me into this world. Motherfuckers. Should have another child. Maybe you'd actually pay attention to that one, motherfucking niggers.

New level of social ignorance spotted
>Texting during a theatrical production from the second row

>>24470473 (OP)
Do any of you ever wish you could kill yourselves? Not as in suicide, I mean kill a copy of yourself. An exact double that is also a separate person.

>>24473641
Back when I was young and could pass for a girl I sometimes wished I could fuck myself but no, never kill.

>>24470473 (OP)

I can't get excited for new things anymore, and all the value and importance I can attribute to my goals is artificial, in the sense that I have to make a conscious effort to care.

Is this just me getting old? If so life is looking fucking grim.

>>24473635
It is amazing how addicted some people are. They really cannot go an hour without checking their phone. They cannot turn it off because it's like asking a crackhead to delete their dealer's number: even if they do, within an hour, they will regret it and hate you for it.
That's why nobody polices it anymore either. People aren't doing it to be simply rude, but because they're addicts and they're likely to respond like addicts.

I bust my ass every day in the hopes of getting 1% of the money/love/acceptance other people get with ease. I swear to God I did something terrible in a past life and I'm now paying the price.

>>24473645
I do, often. I can't physically discharge my anger on other objects because people get scared and I don't want to break anything. But I also unconsciously limit how much I can hurt myself. So I fantasize about murdering a double of me instead. In the end though I just feel powerless. Inconsequential.

>>24473677
What I don't get is why sit in the second row if you know you're going to text through the play?

>>24473686
>Why is the addict acting retarded in public?
Because addicts are retards who can't put cause and effect together to see the obvious consequences of their actions. There's probably some level of entitlement present too.

>>24473699
Idk all the other drug addicts who book second row seats manage to get themselves to the bathroom to do it

>>24473705
That's probably the entitlement and denial of consequences aspects of addiction.

>>24473680
This is going to sound very edgy and melodramatic but I had a dream sort of like that I can't shake
>I'm strapped to a chair on stage at an auditorium
>everyone i have ever met is in attendance, from family members to acquaintances
>the more significant figures in my life are sitting in the front rows
>eventually once everyone arrived they lament my life and all my sins
>I beg for forgiveness before someone off stage finally has mercy and ends my life
Sometimes I feel like I deserve stuff like that

>>24473724
Don't worry about that, the second row is probably too busy on their phone

>>24473727
I remember my best friend giving a toast at his brother's wedding and watching people autonomically default to their phones the instant his speech started going on a little too long. People are trash

>>24473738
People taking photos of the title card of movies is the one that gets me. If you're doing it to post to social media, you're advertising you are the dickhead who kept his phone screen lit up and hoisted to get a pic in the cinema. You're not showing how cool a lifestyle you're leading, you're showcasing that you're a terrible person to go to a film with.

>>24473745
The click between "I need to give this person my perfunctory attention even though they can sense I'm straining to listen to them and even though I myself have nothing particularly interesting or insightful to say about anything" and "ew, faggot, why are you still talking" is palpable with normies. I fucking hate the West. Glad I moved out

>>24473738
This is pretty bad but like with the play I don't understand how you don't have any fear the live person on stage who is mic'd will not call your bullshit out
>>24473745
Cinemas are a lost cause anyway. I've seen groups of kids I think are trying to be polite by texting each other their comments about the movie to not talk during it, like you are not passing around a light box in a dark room. I guess it's because how they communicate in school or something because I think those are the kids trying to be polite, unlike the ones who fully take calls or play tiktoks during the screening
I've never seen it at a play though

>>24473756
>. I fucking hate the West. Glad I moved out
I'd sit through the credits if it gave me Japanese cinema levels of polite conduct during the rest of it

>>24473760
>but like with the play
Good men are conditioned to take it because they're not social media conditioned zoo animals. not everyone has faggoty social mediagenic comebacks ready at hand for everything. if he called them out he probably would have stammered or the comeback wouldn't have landed and his normie brother's circle would have laughed at him.

>>24473768
there are western countries that aren't Western. you don't have to become a baka gaijin to escape it.

>>24473756
skill issue

>>24473769
>I've never been to a play before smartphones
Theatres would refuse admission during performances, so if you needed to pee, you weren't going back in to disturb everyone twice. Actors would stop the entire performance because someone's phone went off and it was pretty standard to find the person and declare
>He must be leaving now because he is a doctor or some other profession on call, so we will resume once he has left
Didn't matter you weren't really a doctor, they treated you like you had an emergency that forced you to keep the phone on
>>24473774
I need a list

>>24473786
>I need a list
the southern and eastern european countries that don't show up on any NGO surveys.

>>24473784
at worst, you download your personality from memes and current events and use it to wow zoomer girls. at best, you talk about strauss or schmitt or something. or, god forbid, guenon. nobody serious interacts with normals anymore, or uses zoomer slang on 4can

>>24473786
Pretending it's a doctor isn't as fun as pretending it's an affair and that they should let everyone who paid their money listen in on speakerphone.

>>24473793
people listen to you based on who you are and what you provide-- at that moment, or in general. rarely what you're actually saying. if you are attractive, women listen to anything you have to say; not to mention,
whatever subtext and body language is probably more interesting than anything you can regurgitate in from your books. have sex

>>24473807
the implication that my being unable to articulate myself to regular people is a skill issue, is actually a matter of not needing to articulate myself to regular people, as long as I'm attractive. I've had sex.

>>24473804
>No. No. Answer it. We'll wait
I love these ones too but I think I've seen
>We have a doctor in the house
More often

>>24473401
She’s not a whore and I’m not a chad I think she’s just lonely.

>>24473786
>Theatres would refuse admission during performances, so if you needed to pee, you weren't going back in to disturb everyone twice. Actors would stop the entire performance because someone's phone went off and it was pretty standard to find the person and declare
>He must be leaving now because he is a doctor or some other profession on call, so we will resume once he has left
>Didn't matter you weren't really a doctor, they treated you like you had an emergency that forced you to keep the phone on
In what imaginary fairyland do you live where any of this ever happened?

>>24473910
Kek, it's usual for theatres to have signs posted on their doors saying as much.
Strangely enough, people who have learnt a play by heart and have to perform it eight times a week for people who pay a lot of money are nonplussed when E7 starts playing The Final Countdown. Go to a play some time, as the audience is likewise invested and will turn to look at the kind of scum who doesn't know the rules of theatre. Some of them even know how to stage whisper.

>>24473927
>>24473910
Most still have
>No admission during performances
On the doors, that's why there's a gang of people hanging out by the doors when you come out for the intermission

>>24473927
You'll get a sign saying no phones and no admissions and that's it. Staff going in and pretending the retard who forgot to turn on airplane mode is a doctor, is pure fantasy.

>>24473970
>Staff
Some places still have ushers, and we were talking about how the actors will stop a play. They do tend to tolerate phones more now, depending on when and for how long they go off, but it's very normal for them to stop the play for an obnoxious distraction.
I don't think you're going to many plays because it is one of the few places you can still reasonably expect a response to keeping your phone on besides comedy shows.

>>24473970
>Staff going in and pretending the retard who forgot to turn on airplane mode is a doctor
It's a joke actors make, bro
I think >>24474036 anon's right about you not going to many plays. Audiences and actors for plays don't like that shit and they are hostile about it

Total Iran surrender

>>24474187
They have absolutely 0 reason to, never mind the fact that they're Shiite Muslim cultists who would literally rather be beheaded than surrender. We are heading towards a fucking catastrophe.

>>24473551
>No, don't ask stupid questions, if shit was so simple I would solve it and wouldn't be here.
You reminded me of something I didn't include in my posts: never justify yourself. Not when it comes to you. Low self-confidence people go around feeling like they have to justify their thoughts, behaviors and even their existence to others. That's internalized abuse. Cut off anyone who keeps trying to push for it. If you can't cut them off, at least never give them an inch.
>I feel like I'm stuck in the hole without material to build a ladder.
I used to relate my situation to being crippled right at the start of a race. I know it doesn't seem like enough, but taking consistent small actions is the one solution I found and it really makes a difference in the long term.

>>24474196
>Shiite Muslim cultists
Kys, Shlomo.
They literally fought ISIS & Al-Qaeda and protected Christian Syrians whereas Israel financed and armed ISIS and Al-Qaeda.
All Israel knows is illegal organ trade, human trafficking, genocide, etc. Cyrus/Kourosh was the worst king in human history freeing such hellspawn from Babylonian captivity.

realized my girlfriend isnt the one for me, going to have to move in with my friend and take the bus to work both ways for 2 hours

>>24474231
>Low self-confidence people go around feeling like they have to justify their thoughts, behaviors and even their existence to others.
Only a few people truly know the feeling of living in a beehive as a ladybird, and you know how bees treat aliens; I will never blend in, and society will never stop abusing me. I can run the race, but I can't run out of my skin and doesn't matter how consistent I am. Nobody's interested in me, my words. Sometimes I don't think like it's worth to say anything because how ignorant and self-interested everyone is.
It's hard to change your mentality when it's the reality.
Of course, I will try to be more positive and confident, thanks.

I'll get a stupid low effort job to keep my mind in shape, being neet was a gigamegakilo huge mistake.

I was sooooo raped
Just fucking kill me!
Oh Death!

>>24473903
She's just desperate bro

It doesn't matter how BAD things (and right now they're indeed pretty fucking bad), there is something, I don't know what, that makes me laugh in such a dumb way. It may be some side effect of adrenaline rushing through my body at the prospect of my own destruction, but it might be deeper than that. I believe, I know that despite the endless streams of shit I have to traverse through, even if every tide humiliates me and breaks my illusions, there is some ground I thread on, there is something objectively certain I, paradoxically, cannot conceptualise. I like to imagine it as a Swastika that spins eternally somewhere and everywhere, gathering and sowing the flow of things in its circular motion, powering the world, a thing responsible for the miracle of going to sleep and waking up the next day. Yeah... I only have to let the pain pass through me, it's as simple as that...

A full-blown war between Israel and Iran that draws in the likes of the US and China/Russia would be glorious. Too bad that's not going to happen.