what's the meaning of life? I wish I had something to die for. this is such a clowns world how does anyone wake up in the morning energized. why are the people around me so full of vitality ready to talk, do things and manipulate their environment to their will.
Will. why do they have will. why do i have nothing. I am nothing. I am a different species.

>>81615237 (OP)
>meaning of life
none

you've reached a fork on the road, anon
you can either head left towards bedrotting, festering, and decay for the rest of your life or you can head right towards a healthy, stable, and fulfilling life
>inb4 it doesnt matter
of course it doesn't, none of it matters - it's all fluff anyway

you were born, a bunch of stuff happens, and then you die
but for me personally, i want the stuff that happens to me to be enjoyable and fun
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>>81615299
OP, i cannot stress this enough
none of this matters; money, looks, fame, etc. all will be gone the moment you pay the ferryman his dues

but while you're here, you may as well make yourself useful and give the people what they want
>inb4 who cares about them
you don't have to care, and maybe you'd rather rot alone in your room and thats fine by me because i'm not your dad - but personally, i'm sick and tired of feeling like shit while waiting for Death to come knocking

and while Death is taking his sweet damn time, i'm gonna go do some shit - and I know the more I do shit, the faster he rides towards me

Godspeed, OP

>>81615237 (OP)
Because you are ill.

>>81615363
>Hey bro
>I just gave you some platitudes
>Just do it
>Yeah
KYS you braindead normie, holy shit
Sounds great in your head but it just comes across as juvenile and vapid

>>81615237 (OP)
there is no meaning and no reason to waste time thinking about it. instead of entering some recursive loop of self-referential thinking you should start to practice the art of abstraction and forced derealization. study mathematical thinking and approach your brain as if it was a biological computer running improperly configured software. subjectivity and identity are a humanist trap that will only pull you down

i think life has no meaning in modern times. before we arrived here, life was valuable because it was so easy to die. be it by disease, accident, drinking water from the wrong source etc. so just staying alive was a huge effort. nowadays, with advanced medicine, sanitation and technology just being alive its no longer a feature, and now you have to figure out things by yourself, something that still very recent for us. they dont want to admit, because its quite depressing, but its the number 1 reason for low birth rates in developed countries

>>81615237 (OP)
its all a big nothing, what makes you think you are so special
unironically just live to be happy, ezpz

>wahh I sit around in my room all day staring at a screen and jerking off why am I depressed
Because you're a slave to your bodies chemicals. Life has no meaning, you have the free will to be miserable or take the proven steps into tricking your brain into being happy. Get some exercise, take creatine. It's literally that shrimple.