this sweaty student of the way of fish will not *do* anything today

baka still hasnt received the manga yet

posting in the fish thread

maybe drinking sum aged white tea later
>>81709514
*kisses your cheek*

>>81709475 (OP)
Enlighten me with regards to this way of feesh that you speak of. I wish to hear your teachings.

>20c outside
>28c inside
why
>>81709664
blub

where did the other german go

>>81709475 (OP)
Bigu ist too poor to afford le Klimaanlage and a Eiswuerfel Maschine
Sucks to suck i guess

>>81709475 (OP)
Can this sea monkey ask why you are not doing anything?

>>81709703
who knows...
>>81709751
baka needs sum correction...
>>81709754
wu wei

>>81709770
This old man cant do anything to me because i have a rifle loaded at Home
so dont even think about stealing my Klimaanlage

>>81709779
i just have to break into your haus without you noticing it to be able to correct you X steal your Klimaanlage. le stealth mission...

>>81709770
>wu wei
What does it mean?

probs too risky to do that when baka owns a rifle though... damn... this old man needs a better correction delivery strategy...
>>81709871
wu wei

>>81709877
>wu wei
Wu wei?

not *doing* anything and taking it ez with ze fish

>>81709823
>>81709877
I could literally Choke you Out of counciousness though with Wuergegriff
I cant be catched Off guard because im highly Aware of my Situation at all Times (for better or Worse)
Bigu needs to get a real gf so He wont be so frustrated anymore

>>81709902
Lazy fish will get drafted soon for Not having a job

>>81709896
wu wei
>>81709902
hello fellow not *doing* anything baka
>>81709909
baka wouldnt battle me irl because baka knows it would end with correction

this virgin old man needs to learn ze art of seduction...

>>81709944
Wu weii

>>81709944
I could Take you down albeit it would need to be surprise
I can only Not Take down big man Like 190cm and 135kg big
>>81710005
This man missed Out on everything in Life

maybe watching sum vr jav tonight
>>81710049
baka is strong... this weak old man neet doesnt stand a chance...

>>81709944
hewwo
hot day today, isn't it? would you like sum aisu cream?

>>81710134
gib aisu cream, feet posting baka

Bigu and aisu

>>81710157
they say if one wishes enough for it, the aisu cream will magically appear

the warrior monk training has been completed for today X the pizza is in the oven
>>81710281
the aisu cream hasnt appeared yet

the dishes have been cleaned... sum air changeroooo and then tea time

>>81710331
anytime soon...
no pwomises doe, this is experimental dark magic

baka is so heckin sweaty
>>81710910
maybe it needs to be charged like chaos magic...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yna1R-diDDg

this middle school dropout old man deserves intercourse

Maybe I will get the manga tomorrow...

>>81709695
Maybs incelation? Stuff makes a big difference

>>81709877
This boy doesn't own a rifle and requires correction too

>>81710331
>pizza
Baka hasn't been doing much cookerooooo lately...

>>81709475 (OP)
When are you going to graduate and turn into a fish?

>>81711574
>Baka hasn't been doing much cookerooooo lately...
I do the neet meal every day but it would suck on Fridays
>>81711587
A master of the way of fish would turn into a dragon

There are no new vr javs worth watching...

Maybe trying to figure out how 2 use Godot instead later

>ask for the bare minimum from le state at 18yo
"Nooooo how dare you?????? You are a privileged white boy who is doing well at school (dropped out of middle school already). How dare you ask for anything???? What else do you want????"
>ask for helperooo from the state at 21yo
"It's over already. You're too old and messed up. It will never get better for you. Just go back to the abuse Haus and kys. If only you had asked for help when you were younger...."
>somehow manage to get out at 22yo and improoov X go my own way
"Akshually we were just joking teeheeee, here pls have the bare minimum pls accept this good goy deal. What???? What do you mean you won't accept it????? Nooooooo how dare you???"
This is kind of how it is

This fish kind of thought about why he wanted to go to university. Stuff is probs too slow to be fun X there are other better ways to be around bakas my age. I guess younger me kind of liked the idea of going to uni X baka somehow held onto that but then realizing it's impossible baka sneeded. Now that baka is free from le idea baka thinks kind of le "unless it's MIT or Berkeley or any other university like that id probs hate it"

This fish kind of likes his middle school dropout status

the tea time is over... eating the ice cream... sleepy...

>>81711606
>I do the neet meal every day but it would suck on Fridays
Baka wants to *really* *do* nothing...

>>81711760
Baka wants to learn ze tranny engine...

>>81712527
>sleepy...
Me too

the ice cream has been consumed. stuff was bussin

trying to use ze pipe cleaner... idk if i did it right

the pipe has been cleaned. stuff was heckin disgusting

>>81713298
>>81713642
Baka coomed into the sink too much...

>>81713298
yaaaas we will!
goal is to get a full game up and running within 2 weeks and have some multiplayer online play to boot.

>>81709475 (OP)
>>81712807
>>81713298
>>81713642
Are you having a stroke? Am I having a stroke? What the fuck is going on here?

to sleepy to goon
>>81713747
>>81713766
meds

this fish remembers how it was at le beginning... baka thought he would feel the same as he did when he was 18yo. baka didnt notice how much worse baka got. it was kind of like getting drunk while sitting. one doesnt notice how drunk one is until one does sum walkerooo. ze external mental torture stopped but ze mind just continued doing ze mental torture. stuff was heckin crazy. now baka is fine

this fish kind of has 2 minds. ze mind of the beast and the mind of ze human. they both influence each other but they are mostly separated. ze mind of the beast gibs stuff like feeleroooos, sleep quality, mood etc. ze mind of the human is the conscious mind. this separation probs happened during the mental torture. its a huge advantage. for example
>mind of ze beast does paranoid sneed
>mind of ze human thinks its nonsense and doesnt fuel it
>over time ze mind of ze beast stops doing it
i guess this is probs the sekrit way of my healeroooo. normal loonies probs think le "the body is sneeding therefore i am sneeding therefore i need to sneed", while this fish does le "the body is sneeding but i am not sneeding". my mind of ze beast is still very fugged up but my mind of ze human is very strong

its not 2 minds in a schizo way. my thinking is just so disconnected from how i feel that the thinking and feelerooos may as well be 2 different minds

ze end goal is to get the mind of ze beast to be consistent with ze mind of ze human

also there are sum loopholes. usually *doing* stuff requires the mind of the beast to gib but one can avoid this requirement by doing without *doing*. ze art of wu wei...

maybe this fish should write sum comprehensive non meme language self help book after this fish is healed. having the conscious mind be in a good condition while the subconscious feelerooo mind is fugged taught this fish a lot stuff. stuff would probs mog therapists

i guess probs the thinking mind separated from the feelings because baka is completely aware of his body feels. knowing everything about it X it being always consistent with what i know took years. when one isnt aware of it, it will feel like the conscious mind is fugged like the feelerooo mind. but when one knows its separated. for example when baka was 18yo baka wasnt even aware that baka was anxiety maxxed so it completely ruled bakas life without baka being aware of it but after *knowing* baka unlocked the "the body is just being a baka, i dont need to listen to it" choice

when one talks to psychologists they tell one one has to cope with stuff for the rest of ones life and its just the kind of person one is. but when one disobeys the loony body the body will stop being loony after sum time. one doesnt need to cope then because there is nothing to cope about (because the body stops making one feel in the way that required le cope)

zis is my psychology hypothesis. it goes against modern psychology which is why psychologists hate me. i guess i will find out whether i am right about stuff sooner or later

i guess ze hypothesis summarized would be "to heal one needs to be aware of what is going on with ones feelings. when one is aware one can choose to not fuel the loony stuff. if one doesnt fuel the loony stuff for sum time the loony stuff brain connections get completely overwritten and then the loony stuff is gone. if one isnt aware of ones feelerooos one will always obey the loony stuff which strengthens the loony brain connections"

it also applies to stuff like the depresso
>feel fugged up because of depresso
>"damn, fugg the body for making me feel this way, i will just enjoy myself as much as possible"
>depresso brain connections get overwritten
vs
>feel fugged up because of depresso
>"damn, everything sucks, everything is pointless, its over, there is nothing i can do but rot i am too fugged up"
>depresso brain connections get stronger

when i told psychologists this stuff they made fun of me, laughed about it, insulted me, humiliated me in front of other bakas etc but i still believe its closer to the truth than what they like to yap about

modern psychology is le "ze root cause is le chemical imbalance but thoughts affect those chemicals too"
this fish thinks le "the root cause is the brain having made sum baka connections in the past which got stronger and stronger over time (because if its for example sum connections that make anxiety much easier to happen the baka will experience it for less and fuel the anxiety which just makes more anxiety brain connections and this loops) and to heal one needs to get the brain to remove those connections which one can achieve by not fueling stuff X disobeying"

>>81714188
>ze mind just continued doing ze mental torture
My mind does zis too... baka mind

>>81714300
I do le "I am sneeding but le mind isn't sneeding". This boy identifies with ze beast more than ze mind

>>81714685
>baka unlocked the "the body is just being a baka, i dont need to listen to it" choice
I hab zis choice too, but baka never takes it

>>81714970
Weird, the stuff in your summary is basically what all the psychologists I've been to told me. German 'rapists are loonies

>>81715038
>Weird, the stuff in your summary is basically what all the psychologists I've been to told me. German 'rapists are loonies
i dont really know what modern psychology thinks about stuff to be honest, when i sneed about it i just say what the psychologists yapped. maybe the psychologists i went to sucked because they were for the poor people X they studied low quality translated stuff. though its kind of hard to believe for me american psychologists would be different (probs because i went to like 10 psychologists and they all were comically bad so in my mind every psychologist is like that)

>>81714902
>"damn, fugg the body for making me feel this way, i will just enjoy myself as much as possible"
i guess thinking "fugg the body" would be too toxic though. just accepting that the baka body is doing its best and is just being a baka because of sum connections is better

>>81715114
>because they were for the poor people
This kind of makes sense, I read on some bloooog that if one wants to get diagnooooosed one should go to a poor area and get the cheapest psych. Rich baka shrinks refuse to diagnose and always do le "You are heckin normal and there's nothing wrong with you :) Just do sum meditation and affirmations and you will be cured :)"

I guess it's still better than what baka went through but this loony doesn't like 'rapists who don't acknowledge my loonyness

>10 psychologists and they all were comically bad so in my mind every psychologist is like that
It's like this for me too, stuff is hard to ignore when your every experience tells you it's like that

obviously this stuff only applies to le depresso and anxiety and similar stuff (probs stuff like ocd, bpd, npd, etc). but it doesnt apply to schizophrenia, autism, adhd and other stuff like that
>>81715206
>I read on some bloooog that if one wants to get diagnooooosed one should go to a poor area and get the cheapest psych. Rich baka shrinks refuse to diagnose and always do le "You are heckin normal and there's nothing wrong with you :) Just do sum meditation and affirmations and you will be cured :)"
damn maybe i got le schizo diagnosis because of this. this fish went to le ghetto psych ward...
>I guess it's still better than what baka went through but this loony doesn't like 'rapists who don't acknowledge my loonyness
i guess it could feel like they are invalidating ones feeling and issues. if they really are the way you describe them and they say similar stuff to what i say then they probs assume its easy to disobey ze feelings if one knows one just has to disobey ze feelings

snaccing the night banan...

i guess i used anxiety as an example a lot but another one would be anger issues. when i was smol (probs 7-9yo) my mom and sister used to torment me for hours until i got le anger attacc X theyd record it and show it to other people and theyd just play it to laugh about it knowingid hear about it. that stuff gave me big boy anger issues. i hated having le anger though so at 11yo baka just calm maxxed and didnt fuel the anger when it happened and it went away at 12yo. when i was a midteen the teachers would sit me next to *the* annoying baka because i was the only one who wasnt bothered by him. i assume what happened is le torment X humiliation created sum brain connections which made it easier for the brain to get angry but then my calm maxxing X not fueling the anger got rid of those connections which made it much harder for the brain to get angry than before

>>81715270
>ghetto psych ward...
Baka got to meet le poop-on-wall smearers, at least

>i guess it could feel like they are invalidating ones feeling and issues.
They try to be validating but this special boy just needs to be validated in a very special way

>assume its easy to disobey ze feelings if one knows one just has to disobey ze feelings
Ze most frustrating thing about le hooman mind and beast mind being split is knowing ze beast is just being a baka but still not being able to disobey it

>>81715361
>torment me for hours until i got le anger attacc X theyd record it and show it to other people
Damn...

i guess with npd its probs le their life is entirely about receiving validation X its the root cause of their abusiveness. le validation craveroooo is making them big boy suffer. probs at some time in their life the npd baka got sum brain connections which made it easy for the brain to crave validation and it got worse and worse over time to an insane level. if an npd baka would do le "damn, i am sick of this fugg the validation" the npd baka would heal because the bad brain connection would go away over time. its probs similar with bpd
>>81715406
>Ze most frustrating thing about le hooman mind and beast mind being split is knowing ze beast is just being a baka but still not being able to disobey it
this fish hasnt studied enough hoooomans to know what one could do about this

>>81715514
Ze fish still needs to learn more about hoooooomans...

I use the Fish shell.

maybe i am good at disobeying the beast mind because i trained it in the mental torture arc. back then i onlz had 2 options: try to disobey the beast mind or certain death
so baka got good enough at it to deal with stuff when baka isnt under external mental torture
>>81715551
this fish is too lazy for that frfr
>>81715577
baka isnt leaving everything as is but is coooooostumizing...

ze night loony rant... maybe staying up late to watch sum hikki anime

i vill sneed if sum indian psychologist reads my loony rant X sells it as their own and becomes sum big psychology figure because of it

why pay for therapy when one can go on r9k and read fish psychology advice for free

i guess its what i think happens at the deepest level of ones mind. but if one is for example stuck with sum loony thoughts, resolving those would be an important step etc so there is a lot more to it than id feel like ranting about oday
>>81716095
baka owes this me 15 minutes of groping...

maybe making a more precise post about what i mean with the loony rant stuff someday. like not obeying the loony mind of ze beast doesnt mean one should do something like "no i cant sneed! if i sneed i lose" because letting ze sneed out can helperooo too. stuff is much more complicated but id have to write a huge amount to explain stuff X id have to think about what points are important that dont really seem important

this staying up very late fish will go to sleep now. good night everyone

>>81715617
>maybe i am good at disobeying the beast mind because i trained it in the mental torture arc. back then i onlz had 2 options: try to disobey the beast mind or certain death
This loony probs just had it too easy...

>>81715894
Baka wants to meet with Misaki late at night...

>>81716770
Goodnight, osakana

i miss the old bigu
straight from the wardu bigu