Thread 81738138

you ever miss someone

>>81738138 (OP)
yeah anon, i miss someone quite dearly
but i'm afraid of fucking things up again if i ever looked for her again
sooner or later i'll have to break the "one shot" rule and try it anyway but i'm still scared

>>81738138 (OP)
I used to

every day I would wish I could be by their side again

my love for them has faded tho. I can never imagine wanting to be in their life again.

I guess fear sits in the place of love now.

>>81738138 (OP)
Every minute of every second of every day.

>>81738138 (OP)
I miss my dog a lot

>>81738138 (OP)
yeah often but they don't miss me

>>81738138 (OP)
Everyday. I don't know how to maintain relationships or really be friends with people. Not how normal people can. I fuck everything up eventually. Always. I miss all the people that have gone out of my life. Even the ones that I barely knew. And there's a lot of those. Even though I'm sure they don't think about me at all.

even dreams are agony because i still see him :c

>>81738138 (OP)
You ever try reconnecting with someone?

>>81738269
three times and failure every time

>>81738269
we ended on not so great terms, i'm not rly too sure how he feels about me, but there's just life circumstances that get in the way of everything so i'm not rly sure how possible it is

what about you?

I miss fake internet friends..
I feel retarded for missing them

>>81738277
>what about you?
I have no way to do so, only they can. I really want to though, a lot. We also ended on not great terms, but I miss them a ton.

>>81738269
aye, everytime it failed
that's why i've been bashing my head against the one shot rule
>you only have one shot in friendships; once things get fucked up, they're forever fucked
but i want to break that rule anyway and reclaim one of my friends from the past
maybe i shouldn't, but i'm considering it

>>81738296
Go for it and try it out, if you don't have them the worst that can happen is you remain not having them.

>>81738285
no way to? surely there's some way to contact them even if it's through a new account or something ):

>>81738311
if only that was the worst of it, lol
there's a fair amount of guilt to be had on my end, and frankly, i'm not sure i want to go for another round of self-torture if things don't work out again

but i've matured enough so maybe the chances aren't so bad now
i'll try and work up the nerve, i have time after all

>>81738314
I mean... I could try but that might end horribly for me. It would be way easier for them to do so because I never wanted them to go and they never were blocked anywhere.

>>81738349
what's more horrible than no contact? i think that's the worst already

>>81738416
Yeah... I will tonight sometime.

>>81738516
Well early tomorrow morning, I hope it goes well. I miss them so much.

>>81738138 (OP)
Yeah I miss someone, it's ash somewhere now so I know it won't come back ever and many things were left unresolved, it's a tragedy but what can one do about it

im beginning to think i made a mistake cutting them off
i dont know, i think this time was the last and reaching out to them again wont just be the same
i want to move on and find someone else that made me happy like that again, but its hard

>>81739973
FUCK i hate this feeling
its not even there sometimes but it comes hard at night or just at slow times and it wont go away
like i could have said something different, or i messed up
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

>>81738138 (OP)
dont have anyone to miss lol

>>81739973
Burning bridges tends to be the worst idea, even if you don't wanna be with someone. It stops the nagging what if questions. You could try reaching out to them.

>>81738138 (OP)
I'm kind of broken, so I don't really miss anyone.
I'm too bitter and hateful, I feel like I never created a connection worth missing.

>>81740355
What if you did, and you didn't know it?

>>81740388
i reached out to them multiple times
For context, this is an ex
I enjoy talking to them even as a friend, but its emotionally draining and I find myself getting sad
But I'm also extremely lonely and I think cutting them off helps me drive myself to find other people better...

>>81738138 (OP)
I always miss many people but what can you do.

>>81738138 (OP)
sometimes but i'm letting go and i think they're relieved too

>>81738326
is it a friend

>>81740397
if i did, i'd yearn
but i don't yearn

>>81738138 (OP)
I still miss my BPD semen demon gf from like...8 years ago lol
That whore had a bubble butt and tongue magic like you wouldn't believe
She also psychologically destroyed me and took like 3 years to get over, not even fully

>>81738138 (OP)
yes but i can never let her see me now. she thinks im dead and thats for the best

Her name is Grace.

>>81738138 (OP)
yes, I miss my gf very much, it feels like she took my soul with her when she left.
she could've at least said good bye ;(

>>81738269
I banged my head on that wall for several months, to minimal result.
Then found them in a thread here by chance, and I received a friend request shortly after.
Banged my head against a wall for minimal result again, then both contacts I had access to were deleted. And then I found a derogatory term thrown my way by someone that's extremely likely to be that person.
Oh well.
I grew up a fair bit as a person thanks to meeting that person, I hope their path leads them to less pain and more happiness.

well i miss my boyfriend

>>81738622
I guess god hates me because the device with my ults is hosed temporarily. Truly I am cursed.

>>81738138 (OP)
There's was a boy in high school that I really loved. He was my best friend and we were incredibly close. I regret all the time not telling him how I felt about him. I really wanted to lose our virginities together but I was such an insecure teen that I was scared to tell him that. Now we haven't had contact for over 10 years and I can't find him on social media. He left my hometown and I have no idea where he is. Sometimes I fantasize about finding him again and kissing him like I should have done all those years ago.

>>81738138 (OP)
SOMETIMES. BUT I JUST REMIND MYSELF THAT THEY DESPISE ME AND THEY ARE MY MORTAL ENEMY WHOM I NEED TO KILL ON SIGHT AND THE FEELING SUBSIDES.

I WILL MAKE THEM SUFFER IF I SEE THEM AGAIN

>>81742710
Dudes are almost always willing to reconcile, go talk to him.

>>81738138 (OP)
i should beat them up. good grief, did they really.

I think I'm almost over her. I only am reminded of her name maybe once a week. It's been a few years so I am thankful for this progress.

I will always love her. But we could never work. And I accept that it's mostly my fault. Just being realistic that in any relationship it's a two-way thing of course. Though I've been tired of playing the blame game for a while now. In my heart I feel like I was the one who didn't deserve for it to work. I was the one worth leaving.

I haven't seen her face in a few years. I hope she is in good health and by now has found stability in everything. I know her life has been turbulent for decades. I want her to be good. And I hope she doesn't hate me or feel the bitterness anymore but that's less important than her stability.

I will never forget her. She was a Georgian beauty. We met in a rough patch when we were both under psychiatric treatment. She was the only girl who I could hold a conversation with. She made it so easy.

I just had to ask for her phone number, and I didn't because the thought never crossed my mind. I was so fucked up from previous rejections that I didn't even consider it an option.

I miss the man I once was.