this student of the way of fish thinks its over

baka has been looking back a bit. somehow all interaction i had with le state is them acting like an indian scammer
>saar this is the fbi, you have some debts from 200 years ago. pay with gift cards or go to prison!!!!
>saar we cant give you any degrees. you are a stupid pig skin, not brahmin. its only for brahmins
etc. i will not participate in the game anymore. i quit. its over. all my offers to the state are off the table

>>81834559
Noo you have to show them your ebic astral katana and they will change their opinion of you.

baka has no reason to sneed about the mistreatment anymore. baka isnt part of le game anymore after all
>>81834583
my skin color is too white for that

>>81834601
So what are you gonna do when you are 30 Anon?

>>81834645
get the appreciation i deserve from china

>>81834663
Right. The country that kidnaps random people from it's own population for organ harvesting will appreciate some random guy from the west. You have to be realistic.If you aren't appreciated at home, you will never be appreciated anywhere else.

now the situation is le "imprisoned by a hostile tribe" for real. bakas only goal is to go back to his home, hyperborea
>>81834678
youre a victim of cia brainwashing

>>81834688
I get that Germany can be shit, bureacratic, competitive, socially shallow at times, but asia especially mainland china is that 100000x.

>>81834715
i didnt even get a starter kit. only former isis members get a worse treatment than me from the state. its over

yooooo come to my party

>>81834737
You literally have your own apartment now don't you? You know there are germans out on the street that are on drugs that are way more fucked up than you. In China they wouldn't give you shit nobody would give you shit if you weren't born in a country with welfare

>>81834775
>You literally have your own apartment now don't you?
it *only* took 5 years of begging X humiliations. they knew i was being mentally tortured and they laughed about it
>You know there are germans out on the street that are on drugs that are way more fucked up than you
unlike me they arent members of the hyperborean tribe so the state doesnt hate them X its their own fault
>In China they wouldn't give you shit
in china i wouldnt have need stuff

>>81834801
Right. You are the victim who can beg and get what he wants while other people who suffer more than you just choose to. You are so far removed from being a human you deserve no human rights. Just a disgusting leech that will squeal while they take advantage and hurts others. You disgust me. I hope the German goverment fucks you from now on since they clearly have spoiled you too much

>>81834822
why are you sneeding about me quitting the game?

>>81834828
I think it's reasonable to be angry to see someone who acts like a victim yet is spoiled. Nothing is more infuriating than seeing some daddy's spoiled girl throw tantrums while actual victims are suffering in silence

>>81834850
i am not throwing tantrums. i just quit. i didnt need the game anyway

>>81834871
How many posts have you posted where you bitch about the german state?
Holy shit. No wonder your parents abused you. If I had to deal with a shit like you in my life I would too

baka is just tired of all the mind games is all

the air fryer bread is in the tummy
>>81834889
baka needs sum rape correction...

this fish became 1 year older... baka will soon be at the creepy ojisan age...

maybe drinking sum sheng puer later

the heavens opened
and the brimstone was banished
thusly, baka smiled

>>81835278
is baka accepting boyfriend applications?

gib fan

maybe getting into warthunder to get a racist girlfriend

baka has freed himself from ze shackles...

this fish thinks epstein was working for mossad

probs stuff went like this
>naive rich baka gets invited to the island
>thinks le "nice free vacation X maybe making sum powerful friends"
>goes to the island
>gets offered intercourse, probs is normal for rich bakas so baka accepts
>"hehe she wasnt 18 and we have it on tape! now youre israels slave"
i doubt the actual pedophile elite would have trusted epstein

maybe sending sum pp pics to sum bakas later...

the warrior monk training has been completed for today X the rice is cooking. baka has been eating the same meal everyday and still thinks its bussin... maybe baka has the awooo

10 years ago this fish was yapping that the stuff thats going on in spain now would happen. baka got severely punished for that wrongthink. i think the spain stuff will deescalate but i think probs in 10 years something like that but very extreme will happen. by then this fish needs to be out of europe. not my problem

>>81834559
Ze only winning move is to not play

>>81835043
Baka is a summer child... Happy belated birthday desu

>>81836192
Gib

baka is being lazy and in bed
even though baka requires a trip to le shop

the neet meal is in the tummy
>>81835821
though something that makes no sense is if bakas were powerful enough to kill him in prison why did they not kill him before prison? i guess maybe epstein did le "le footage is already at ze mossad headquarters killing me will not change anything" and mossad, not the rich people, killed him so he wwouldnt talk about ze operation
>>81836500
>Happy belated birthday desu
t-thank you
>>81836571
baka is lazy...

baka is almost 40yo...

i dont want to be a black old man

Preparing the 14yo sheng puer... baka needs to order sum more tea

Gib tsumego hgame or chess puzzle hgame. This fish would become a master

>>81836699
>t-thank you
Y-you too

>>81836940
Baka keeps getting blacker each year...

I remember in le psych ward arc 2 where I was among the child rapists and poop on wall smearers, we had sum morning group talkerooo with psychologists once per week. One day they asked us if we could go to sum country where would we go X why. This xanned out fish did said "japan, because of the girls". The psychologists were shocked. They acted like I said "japan, to train molest sum JKs". Probs made them write sum stuff in my file

the tea time is over... when i was an abuse haus baka, baka got sent to the worst social workers and psychologists. they called me a subhuman retard etc. baka back then thought le "it sucks but i vill endure the humiliation and maybe if they feel like they have power tripped enough they will gib". it was a mistake. those bakas even said stuff like "we could gib the thing that would gib le paper one needs for university but we wont gib it to you subhuman". (it takes less to create terrorists) at best one doesnt get anything from them but usually they try to fugg up ones life even more. if the baka is a baka one should immediately quit and go to sumone else. the same thing applies to the state. bakas treat me badly so i quit

they chose the worst white boy to force into the "has to do the jobs WE dont want to do" class

removing ze anger i feel against germany doesnt mean i forget about what it did it me. i will forever consider germany as an enemy and a threat to my existence

getting rid of ze anger against germany kind of feels like i am betraying myself but its the opposite. the anger only harms me. every time i sneed about germany, germany laughs and is happy about it

>>81838787
how do you let go of the anger?

>>81838877
by quitting the game X not fueling the anger when it happens. after a while of this one stops caring

and i guess one needs to really want it

the most difficult part of it is to overcome the feeling of self betrayal. the anger is valid and justified. in cave man times bakas probs genocided caves over this kind of anger but modern times require modern ways of dealing with stuff and le anger just fuggs you up too much to be able to follow *the* path so it needs to go. clinging to the anger will just make one self destruct. letting go of it makes it possible to follow *the* path

for the past 50 mins baka has been sneeding. bakas head X heart hurt so much and the mind is very wild which makes it impossible for baka to do anything. baka could have drawn or sumthing if there was no anger

>>81839185
sexo pantsu

this fish was born as a very calm baka. baby me was a tutorial baby. baka didnt cry at all and didnt care about anything X would just play alone by himself. this baka feels very intense anger towards germany even though baka is calm genes maxxed. baka probs would have been a terrorist if baka was born without it. though on le other hand without those calm maxxing genes baka probs would have fugged people up as a teen which would have made the state gib probs
>>81839306
i agree

recently 10 bakas gangraped a 15yo girl here. they didnt even get a prison sentence. i think they got sum education stuff which means easy routes to university. how am i supposed to not be angry about le "THEY can rape and will get rewarded for it, YOU will suffer because for no reason"

stuff is so comically evil against me i cant really believe its real. i think its more likely i was a huge menace in the real reality so the real reality glowies put me into this suffering simulation to change me (probs is way more effective than locking someone up)

this fish does nothing
>"noooo YOU need to be locked up!!! how dare you not do the slave labor!!!! YOUR rights need be removed!! we will spend more monies on the harassment campaign against YOU until YOU break!!!"
some bakas gangrape a teen
>"wow THEY need to be in the universities!!!! get THEM every help no matter how expensive"

bakas who gang raped an underage teen got tickets into university. this fish went to prison for no reason. stuff like this is why it feels like i am betraying myself for trying to let go of the anger. its so crazy

>this fish feels too sick to go to school because of le abuse
"YOU have to go to prison!!!!!"
>10 men gang rape a 15yo girl
"wow THEY need to go to university!!!!"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=10Rlyhg2TV0

the funny thing is if id do something theyd call me a whiite supremacist loser who blames everynyan for his loser status so id get the book at me X it would be used by the propaganda machine to push sum agenda. its all just too funny

>>81839713
>id get the book at me
book thrown at me

le sneed has reached 2h. its the main reason why i want it gone. stuff is so stupid and wont gib anything. letting go of it isnt self betrayal but self love. but the lizard brain feels different

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H47ow4_Cmk0

baka sneeds about the oppression every day for hours. baka is tired of it. id rather goon instead but the anger is too strong

what am i even supposed to do? the country i live in hates me and i have no means to leave. id harakiri immediately if id catch myself considering doing the slave labor they want me to do after taking away everything from me

doing what THEY want me to would be the biggest self betrayal i could ever do. id cut open my stomach with a wakizashi. they say le "hehe stupid slave we took everything from you. do the slave labor now!". this fish hears "kys already". doing what they say would only lead to my death after all

all this fish can do is to wait for the puzzle pieces to come together... which is a pain because the lizard brain wants a solution now but there is none

soon ze fever dream will end... until then this fish needs to endure the oppression and harassment

>>81838166
Baka did le
>girls
>girls, Japan
meme

>>81838521
>"we could gib the thing that would gib le paper one needs for university but we wont gib it to you subhuman".
Damn...

>>81839325
Baka has take it easy genes...

>>81839592
Ze angy is righteous, baka should channel it towards something. But I guess that's a lot harder so maybes it's easier to just let go of it, at least for now

>>81839882
Baka is contributing to ze ghetto neighborhood atmosphere...

>>81834538 (OP)
You're having a schizo tantrum again aren't you!

le 3rd hour of sneed... baka feels so heckin sick because of le sneed and its all self inflicted. letting go of le anger feels so wrong but it needs to happen. i hate germany so much
>>81840353
>baka should channel it towards something
channeling le anger is a meme. one cant do anything when one is angry but one can do everything when the mind at peace
>>81840364
i deserve to be spoiled and pampered

this happens every heckin day. its heckin valid but its destroying me

>>81840464
I understand not being able to work, living through abuse, being a neet. Yet you show zero gratitude for the things you do have recieved and you only want to be endlessly spoiled by everyone. That's the impression you are giving me. You aren't working now, you have a place to live, you don't live in a shithole. Are you grateful for those things or not?

>>81840653
you didnt even read my posts if thats the conclusion you got. wow thank you germany for letting me live in poverty after having me go through half a decade of mental torture. thank you for letting me be a no opportunities old man who has missed out on everything because i am a subhuman who didnt deserve help when i asked for it. yes the gang rapists deserve everything but i deserve nothing

Just become a girl at this point and live under the physical and financial protection of a successful man.

>>81840704
>Poverty
You are blogging about you enjoying tea on 4chan every other day
>No opportunities old man
You had plenty of oppertunities, but instead of dedicating yourself for school, career, hobby anything you just wasted years of your life deluding yourself into thinking you are special. All you have is a bunch of mediocre skills in various things that you just casually did throughout your life.
You are the sum of all the choices you made and now you are paying for it.

>>81840769
>You had plenty of oppertunities
nice bait

>>81840797
Right, you atleast had the oppertunity to goon with vr headset despite being in poverty. People are starving around the world despite working because they have legitimate people who thinks nothing off them. The neet office atleast gives you money just for exsisting yet you can't be grateful for that fact.

snaccing the night eggs
>>81840838
you will never be white

>>81840854
Keep being dishonest, keep disassociating, keep pretending. Because reality doesn't give a shit and one day it's going to slap you out of your daydreams. You could have spent your years dedicating yourself to something, but now you are just a worthless talentless old miserable man.

>>81834538 (OP)
Hey is that Bigudigu from /bant/? Long time no see dude. I thought you would be living in Japan by now. How good is your Japanese right now?

if the state was like this with everynyan id accept it but its like being in a big family with lots of siblings. the state, the parent, chooses sum bakas to gib everything to. also one has sum siblings who rape and murder and the parent gibs everything to those bakas too. but one is a good boy who gets abused by sum siblings and the state takes away everything from one X rapes one everyday. yes other families (countries) are much worse by default but this would fugg you up regardless
>>81840889
hello, its good enough to goon to jav

>>81840938
Thats very impressive! I remember you learned thousands of words so fast. Did you ever end up visiting Japan at least?

>>81840938
>if the state was like this with everynyan id accept it
No you wouldn't lmao.
Bigu, I see right through you. You are a dead man. Your suicide is confirmed, you will never change for the better it will only get worse from here on out. Your fate is sealed

>>81841006
there is no way an oppressed baka like me would have the monies to visit japan

>>81841018
you deserve to be oppressed

>>81841018
"Oppression"
Spoken like a true black independent woman.

>>81841018
Someone as smart as you would have no problem learning something like day trading to make money. I know people who are becoming multi millionaires in their 20s through it. I tried learning it but i was never good with numbers... but maybe you can

>>81841089
>people are becoming multi-millionaires in their 20s

Watching the goyim television joker...
>>81841089
I doubt daytrading is real. When I looked that stuff up it said one competes with Jewish firms that have a direct connection to le market. Even if they buy after you they'd get a better price because they'd actually buy it more early. It's mostly just gambling for wypypo. And the state would probs accuse me of hiding monies X take away my neetbuxx

>>81841144
I'm not sure to be honest. But might be worth learning and trying out juts to make sure. But you have to check with how you're allowed to use neetbuxx

why not take the free eu bachelor they give you and dip?

>>81841193
>less than 1% of day traders can predictably and reliably earn meaningful returns, after fees
It's not worth trying. The odds are higher bakas are just larping for discord rep
>>81841228
That one requires 10 years of humiliation rituals before youd be allowed to do it

>>81841228
He is incapable of moving out of germany. All his funds has been spent on VR headsets, VR porn, chinese tea and subscriptions to jav ntr porn

>>81841237
I can see because i couldn't understand it or make it work. A lot of people probably juts play it like a casino. But someone with your iq that can see patterns and trends might be different. I know most the people who i know that are profitable do forex or crypto. Never stocks. I wonder why.

>>81841237
>>81841266
i was gonna say crypto you can get into some niche communities where you're just competing against a few hundred retard gamblers. smaller pond compared to stocks.

>>81841266
Crypto could work. Bakas get into pump and dumps and try to sell before it gets dumped but one needs to feel when stuff is likely to dump X not be greedy. This fish would gib it a try but I'd have to go to Poland to get sum crypto which is too much of a pain

I think no one does stocks because stuff is very longterm. One keeps those for life. But bakas want instant buxx

>>81841327
>Bakas get into pump and dumps... blah blah blah
You have no idea what you are talking about lmao. Don't even bother.

>>81841327
>go to Poland to get sum crypto
huh

>>81841327
Bakas CREATE pump and dumps and already have a plan for when to dump by the time the coin goes live. All you need is to convince retards to buy your coin and you get the free money.

>>81841456
I created a cum and dump scheme with your mom

The eggs are in the tummy. Can one even trade shitcoins without kyc?
>>81841456
That would make one a real finance crime baka though. I'd rather be sum invisible profiteer baka

>>81841502
Oh yeah? Well, I ate your dad's cum. How do you feel about that, bish?

10 years ago the grifter meta was to sell "how 2 totes make passive income" courses for 2k usd

>>81841523
To be fair. I don't think you are intelligent enough to make a finance scam work. You seem a bit too slow for that

This fish doesn't even crave buxx. Baka craves studying the magic scrolls

baka ate dinner, smoked le zigar and then napped for an hour

Night snaccing sum sweets
>>81841849
Gib

Baka lost 5 hours sneeding... maybe baka needs to try to get into meditation again

Baka is being tortured by his own mind...

this fish remembers seeing loonies when he was smol. baka back then thought le "damn, how do bakas become like that". now baka is one of them. the state made me a loony. i will never forget this

i think they tried to force the schizo label on me to do le
>its all internal factors, youre not a loony because sum state bakas said youre a subhuman who doesnt deserve help

bakas told me at 21yo i need to go back to the abuse haus and just end it X there is no hope X its over already. its just all too funny

bakas life is a comedy...

>>81842906
Kurisu's armpits mmmmm tasty licky licky

did i ever even complain about the state during the mental torture arc. i probs didnt because i thought i was crazy to sum degree. turns out it was just the state trying to make me kys

this fish has sum secret cards up his sleeve which make everything be whatevs and le sneed is meaningless because of it (my brain is just being a baka) but if i didnt have them id be on the kys path. which is what i consider the state is trying to do with me. i will probs move on from the sneed but i will never forget this

this fish will go to sleep now. good night everyone
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SlbM-ThFe0g

>>81840414
>one cant do anything when one is angry but one can do everything when the mind at peace
I guess that's true

>>81840464
>its heckin valid
But is it cute?

>>81841327
Baka could go to America to pump and dump me instead :)

>>81842555
Me too. For this boy it's rotteroooooo instead of sneederooooo though

>>81843280
Good night, late night sneederoooooooo osakana

this fish doesnt really mean most of the stuff baka said. baka is just angry about the mistreatment i got. pls dont arrest me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=10Rlyhg2TV0

>>81843544
He meant every word he said, fed-chan