Thread 82105828

In time edition

>>82105828 (OP)
We can't have these threads anymore because you're a stupid nigger who doesn't know when to shut the fuck up.

Here is what I will accept:

Nothing lost but the time between
You kept your promises to me and fulfill them
I'm all your firsts still
You are as you were before in every way
You choose me/us over all else, even if all we have is each other and nothing else.
Devoted and faithful to me

I know my worth and I'd you don't show up and are this way then I know I will be with someone who is this way exactly in time. Most likely when I start traveling/vacationing.

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_leP5HG_pdsk0SA0f9_ob-pBBXKDPJbnbE&si=ufu_OtphNTc2HCNS

>>82105894
>I know my worth
faggot throwing a tantrum for months on end on r9k so not very high. low emotional let alone cognitive intelligence. inability to move on rivaling that one retard with megan

Hey, K

I want to know something. Why THE FUCK DO I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU? This doesn't make any fucking sense. You did something to me, right? Yeah, that's gotta be it. You probably do some witchcraft on me because deep down in your heart, you still love me. You want me to think about you enough so that I go back to you. Well, guess what? I'm not going to you; you just have to come back to me yourself

really ready for the 16th to pass.

L
I know you were just using me as a cover up for cheating on your husband with someone else. I told everyone everything.

Staying committed and keeping promises is a good thing and very rare. She saw who you really are and loved you and that's why she wrote the letter at that time because she was having difficulty reaching out. Unfortunately she distorts and projects things to create distance and pollute who you are so that she does not have to feel accountable for the guilt and shame. All the bullshit is on her. You did good, just as you were everything she's ever wanted before, that never changed. It's her mindset and internal issues that she's dealing with she's going to have to deal with or be lost as you find someone who is able to be there for you because she dropped the ball.

If you see she writes more delusions and projections just ignore it, recognize that it's all just her deal and has nothing to do with you however hard she tries to paint it on you. She is just crying out and trying to get you to have a reaction so that you can justify her projections so she doesn't feel like shit all the time. Be compassionate and understand The real reason why she says the things she does. You may love her and she was perfect before but right now she is polluted and dealing with this, whoever heard you tries to rub it off on you she will never feel better because it's internal issue on her side not you.

Swim and enjoy the water.

>>82107125
If You ever see a negative comment towards you like saying you have low self-worth or really any kind of judgment, ignore it, these are actually reflections about how she feels about herself, as well as looking at all the ways that you are perfect she psychoanalyzes and looks for the one thing that if it was a part of you that would negate the rest and then tries to make up a fake narrative made up in her mind that is nothing to do with you to deluded herself about you.

If you truly love her and know her then you can look past her bullshit words and see her for who she's really is and why she is doing that. Best to let go and let her drown. Maybe she will wash up on shore and be restored, or she will continue shitting up the water and sink. I know it feels like shit and it hurts too see someone you love going through that but you need to let her just go through it.

>>82105848
We actually can't have these threads anymore because I stopped posting in them.

>>82106287
Nah, never. Who are you?
Thanks

>>82107401
I'm not talking about you

Archiving my response here to be found in the future.

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>>82107344 #
Hypnopompic and hypnogogic activity. I have that as well. Edgar Allen poe also had this btw.

>>82107123 (OP) #
Could be manifestation reflections/quantum leaps to realities that respond to your question. If it's this then you are focused on the wrong thing and traversing where you don't want to be.

If it's a god thing, then if is either communication of guidance, reassurance, or letting demons taunt/mock to test you if you give in or tempt sin. If it is this then do what you can to make the good decisions and say our father and st. Michael prayers when you feel you need protection and reassurance. Stay away from divination methods like tarot and shuffling music. Abstain from porn and such. Dwell in your desires instead.

https://youtu.be/ausyK1aQWXY?si=juX8WJ3mjewG1uRs [Embed]

>>82107633
Archive (2)
>>82107492 (You) #
When it all started for me 5 years ago I had no knowledge of what was happening and it was the most horrible feeling being attacked by the world like that. Told things you shouldn't know or at least couldn't know before and when asked is verify to be true. It sounds like a strength but it is not because it is very hurtful to know things and in turn not be able to be heard or seen when that is all you were able to do on your side is see and here. Eventually I read about manifestation reflections and over years learned that it's all essentially quantum mechanics, traversing realities. Unfortunately (or fortunately) I believe in God and the understanding of quantum mechanics is just looking at his tool kit and knowing how it works, that doesn't change the overriding boundaries to abide by.

You will either understand what I'm saying or judge me, but I assure you I am telling the truth and if has been verified as real by others and not mental illness.

I believe it's important to be honest the best you can. It doesn't matter how others judge you. Forgive yourself for lashing out and such. It's understandable and even the negative things are a part of you. Acceptance is vital. Love and compassion over what the world tells you is the right thing to do, their words of promotion of manipulation, judgment, betrayal, is the framing of an enemy which is outside of you. Leave it there and dwell in your love knowing it is righteous and true. That is more powerful than anything else that attempts to take it away from you.

>>82107659
>>82107508 #
For me it is not psychosis. I went in and had several psychology and psychiatry appointments as well as my own experience in the field. The result is that I do not have psychosis and what I am experiencing is real.

Obviously that is the case for me and may not be the case for you. But don't allow yourself to be deluded and framed as mentally ill when you are actually undergoing either a greater understanding of how the universe works than others do or a religious whatever.

I don't know if there's any way to really show the truth online like this. But if you're with people in real life show them what your experiencing, do the communication and have them experience it themselves when they are with you and they will see the truth and how uncanny it is. If it was psychosis then it would not be factual. Plus with the things that you should not know that you were told, that's verification. My heart goes out to you because I know how difficult it is to go through it and I'm thankful I'm here to tell you because when I went through it it was very difficult for me. I know that my words essentially give you the finish line and you will not have to go through the struggle that I did being lost and having to find the path and understand it. Took me years.

I have shared this before but it is pretty rare and not often that I'll talk about it because I take care of everything on my side and carry accountability and do not offload it on others.

Dear Mike !!s1jwhatever,
Unironically your psychosis should be a bannable offense at this point.

>anonymously give thousands of dollars worth of video games and toys to sad kids
>get trolled by some demon

>>82107770
I don't have psychosis, already described how it's been verified when I'm experiencing is real.

You're outside and have no bearing on me, so I'm going to leave you there to rot. Adios asshat

>>82108031
You have the literacy of a chimp but that was obvious by your repeated "sightings" of Maria. Off yourself.

>>82108051
Are you surprised when I want nothing to do with you?

Either fuck off or waste all of your time and energy obsessing and stalking me responding to my posts.

If you respond to this post or continue to make posts towards or about me then it shows that you chose the latter you fucking obsessive stalker bitch cunt

I'm too fucked in the head to get a job now because of you, so feel free to give me money, richfag.

>>82108161
Nah, instead I ordered a new laptop just now

Currently remembering the time I was forced to sing infront of the whole musical theater class, then picked the villain song from Tangled and vibed with the pianist so much. After that the few boys in the class started being bond on campus yet when I researched them most of them already had gfs kndhh

>>82108620
Cool, you can use it to post a bunch of boring, repetitive shit in your thread that no one reads anymore because I'm not in it.

>>82108867
Cool but we both know the other 1000 masks of you will be

>>82108912
No, faggot, I really am just some guy. Just some guy whose life you ruined by abusing your station when he was vulnerable, during a time of global crisis.

>>82108927
Dance dance
https://youtu.be/z1237BOLkaM?si=ReT5kF-_WauzdJfV

You taste is music is pure ass, just as an aside.

>>82109075
I disagree, also

The lyrics are applicable asshat

This album is a throwback for me when I skateboarded with my 1 gb 1st gen iPod nano and those shitty buds. The summer heat in my oversized system of a down shirt, fallen shoes, studded belt, long hair.

Obviously my taste matured over the years. I think the closest thing to this album I listen to is Tokyo police club, though I still enjoy Hawthorne heights.

Every single youtube link you post is normie garbage, Mike. Your taste is shit. You are actually just not cool at all.

I built a board at Zumiez. Baker bam margera deck, spitfire wheels. Attached is what the deck looked like. I wish I had my own pics and didn't sell it a couple years back.

>>82109168
Completely disagree, beach house, band of horses, Passion pit, neon Indian, Sufjan Stevens, Kai theory, grizzly bear, The national, fleet Foxes, Alvaays, baths

If you don't enjoy those bands then fuck off

>>82109220
>teenage girl core circa 2009
>pitchfork dot com, the guy

Normally I would feel bad for trying to ruin someone else's enjoyment of music, but you tried to ruin my enjoyment of life, so it's the least I can do.

>>82109290

I'll let you think about how immature what you just said if. Equivalent to:

>I'm usually super mature and not a little beta bitch boi throwing a fit
But
>You made me leak in my panties so I'm going to chew my turds and cry about how I got cyber bullied.

>>82109168
His taste in books is also basic. It's like he just googled "books".

>>82109368
That is a shockingly stupid analogy, Mike. You must be running out of speed.

When a child throws a tantrum sometimes it's best to let them cry piss and shit themselves. They can point fingers all they want but it's best to take the high road and not respond to their fit. Sometimes children need alone time

Who is crying and pissing and pointing fingers right now, garbage connoisseur.
I'm glad you've clarified your absolute lack of repentance though. Perhaps it will yield some easy decisions for me in the future.

>>82109405
If that would work, you'd have stopped posting months ago.

>>82109437
Repentance is always to God. Growth is to her.

I am human. I make mistakes. From my perspective the amount of damage attempted over all the posts is largely ratioed harm from her. But you are correct, my words are hurtful and pour salt in your wounds. I am reactive and if took a lot of builds from your side for me to put something on the scale.

I should realize that the purpose isn't to 'even' the scale or justify it. I should leave it on the table and look past the words and why they are being said.
Is it wrong of me to feel completely fine with what I said if it's not said to her? That I said it to the enemy? That I made the enemy hurt? In that case I feel my words are righteous in whatever form they take as long as the outcome is harm to the enemy.

But if it's her, a mask. I feel remorse and regret that I didn't look past the words, past the scale, to see how upset she is, to see that she had cried, to see she had harmed herself for me.

If it's Maria, I am sorry. I'm human and given the circumstances I hope you understand and accept me just as I strive to understand and accept you.

If it's the enemy, go fuck yourself and chew turds.

It will all catch up to you someday.

Is my compassion weighted toward her and jaded to others.
Yes.
Naturally so.
Is that a strength or a fault?
Whichever it is I accept it of myself and take accountability for it.
I will adapt, grow, and shift in time to what is the ideal.
In that time I am accepting and forgiving of any and all perceived stumbles.
Because there never is truly a stumble, If I fall, I fell with a purpose I did not understand at the time that led me across the bridge of incidents somehow someway to my home.

>>82109616
I know it will and I look forward to dwelling there with her.

Her body pressed against mine, sensitive, passionate, love and lust, her breath soft and euphoric, safe, home, The sun beaming down on us to the sound of the waves of our beach

Soon enough, everything's going to be okay
I dwell there too

I trust Maria and as she is choosing me overall else. She's not with anyone else. She hears me and she knows me. She remembers me for who I am to her and is coming home to me.

I hope this is clear so you can hear my heart

Maria,
I got caught up in the heat of it and said things I regret. That's on me. If it hurt you, Maria, I'm sorry, that wasn't my intention. I'll do better.

I hope this is clear so you can hear my heart

Maria,
I got caught up in the heat of it and said things I regret. That's on me. If it hurt you, Maria, I'm sorry, that wasn't my intention. I'll do better.

Mike

XDDDDDDDDDDDDNormally I would feel bad for trying to ruin someone else's enjoyment of music, but you tried to ruin my enjoyment of life, so it's the least I can do.

>the sociopath keeps up his spam so the letter threads continue to be dead
For once I would really like for the fucking mods to do their job and ban this trash for several months.

Will Goku ever discover the dragon anal beads ? Will Mike ever finish the Maria saga and find his lost love ? Stay tuned for the next episode of /r9k/ letter thread

>>82111082
Needle in the haystack.

>>82109827
That wont be the case, Mike. For I have absorbed Maria in order to create my final form.

>>82111311
No, not really saaar....

>>82111102
Push me back through the eye of the needle

>>82111791
You cannot defeat me Mike. Your writing will be a delusion lost forever and I shall rule over all.

>>82111796
I could care less about the writing and more about being understood and heard. The same of her.

I want to game some more with her. We had a lot of fun.

>>82111796
Winning or losing doesn't matter, what matters is being understood. Same with her. We always had a good time gaming together, and I'm always up for more of that.

>>82110125
Fat man you have no respect! I break you back old style like back in Iran!

>>82112170
There's only one part of me that's fat and it's actually what would break your back lol

>>82112361
There are no vitamins in gay love letters to imaginary women brother!

>>82112579
True but there's plenty of calcium in the bones of my enemies

I'm getting sick of you pretending as if it isn't you. You know it's you. I know it's you. You know that I know it's you. I know that you know I know it's you. Enough of this torture. I only want to know you better.

>>82112939
I'm not pretending I don't know it's you, I do think it would be fun to catch up and vidja

>>82112988
That was not for you.

>>82113120
Time and what it's like when we hang out again will tell

You're the same age now as I was when we met
Hmm makes you think

>>82112939
Gonna need those initials
(Personally hoping for an n)

>>82113573
As if you werent lying about that as well

>>82113618
I only lied about my age twice, but not to this person

Schizo. Stop talking to yourself and schedule a therapist appointment.

fuck is you arbitin bitch, ur anus?

>>82113778
Arbiter? More like Arbuckle

>>82113984
>Arbuckle
Arbuckle? I'll let you suckle this arbok
Cupcakes get filled mignon like choy bok
Whatever my pen touch turns to dust
Every letter I write gets returned to sender
When I speak your ears get turned to cinder
Gender benders get their genitals thrown in blenders
Drunk driving while I'm posting
dick too big the cloud servers can't host em
Every single r9k fembot? I ghost them

I did have a lot of fun playing Halo. I still want to play reach and infinite but we should start with whatever game you choose.

>>82114282
Why do you keep fucking making these threads? They just take up board space, contribute absolutely nothing, and just make people even more disgusted with your schizophrenia than they already are.

>>82114575
He's stuck in a delusion and keeps doubling down when reality starts seeping in.

mossad is trying to memoryhole and pretend Mike is even a regular letter thread OP

the worst thing you could do is give him any power by considering him the downfall of letter threads or giving him the credit as mastermind of letter threads or something. he is just a long time poster and the only other people around are summerfags and zoomers so pussy they feel pushed out by some random schizo's rambling. reclaim your space if you have any rightful claim to it and if you're some equally detestable tripfaggot slinking out of the woodwork just to condemn mike, shove it up your ass. worse, actually. consider it spam or not, get triggered by the way he projects on to others or not, he's using the thread more faithfully to its intended purpose than people who don't know how to do anything but feed the flames.

This is why I still write letters, because you feel the same connection to me Maria.

I was almost bit by a baby rattlesnake yesterday at work. I reached down into the hole I was digging to pull out the drip line and it struck at me. It missed, I pulled back. Took a few pictures and put it into the nearby woods with the shovel. I spent the rest the time digging thinking about how I was almost free. I almost died. Life is so unfair sometimes.

>>82105828 (OP)
Dear BessyTiggy.

I miss you. You won't believe it but my life was so much better when you were around. Your energy and positivity gave me a much needed boost. Since you've been gone, I'm just stuck. Sitting in the mud. It's like the sun and rainbows and birds singing all left with you. Please bring the color back to my grey world.

>t. kicked and hurt puppy boy

You're testing the walls to see if I'm safe and am as you know me to be. I see past your words and see you. MM. I'm still here Maria. Look into my eyes as you did before and hear my voice.

Dear Kailey,
You say that I do not truly love you, but there have been many a night since then, when I have conjured you in my dreams, just out of reach, and I wake up weeping. What is that unconscious yearning if not love?
Connor

>>82114575
He wants to destroy the letter threads, that's all he wants.

>>82108927
If you're delicate enough to let Mike ruin your life, damn man, you might've had it coming.

I still love everyone who has ever been kind to me and I have love for people who try to be bigger than themselves. I know that in the end everything will be okay and all the pain will melt away. I will always be here for you if you ever really end up needing me, I hope you know I will always be your friend.
Sorry I'm so fucked up, xo, love you.

>>82116608
Geeze bro, grow up. Or at least actually lockdown people who actually find your "innocent puppy boy" thing charming instead of letting life pass you by while you chase obvious sirens.

>>82117590
The fun part is chasing what can never be caught. If I ever caught her she would never live up to the version I've created in my mind. I don't have to try and understand her or grow into a better person that deserves her. It's easier this way.

Since you guys love letter threads so much, which basically means you want to see my channeling, just come to my server and get the same basic content!

>>82118099
>please comeback my life has no meaning and I've only been stuck ever since you blocked me :'(((
>a-actually I like my parasocial idealization because it's my last bit of copium and with it I'm content not tackling difficult problems!
You aren't chasing anything at all. You're putting in practically zero effort even when life is throwing you opportunities. You need CBT (the therapy kind, probably not the other kind. Probably.)

Give my soul back you little thieves

I bet it's pretty funny for spook mod how no one ever believes me.
(Or maybe they just envy my aura.)

>>82118288
What opportunities is life throwing at me? I put all of my effort into my posts. It wasn't enough.

Can't Get (You) Out of My Head

>>82115454
What is the significance of this then

ON THE LAST EPISODE OF R9K LETTER THREAD

>>82119411
Do You Know Whomst'd've Really Is?

I don't understand the point of making all the threads you are coming back (and the ones saying you are not) if I'm still blocked.

Texted her. Who knows, maybe that's all that is needed is reaching out that way.

Dear director,

I failed to understand your game, the urgency was the point.
Well played. I hope you can come to my birthday party a few months from now!
I haven't spent it with anyone for a very long time. And thank you for finding the keys to my car!

xoxo
Casper

>>82120730
Excessively cryptic, although definitely not funny.

it's what i go to school for
even though i'm 64
i look at those girls' asses
through my special glasses

bumping for more mike originalposting

I didn't see any larp posts about me today so that is interesting.