Thread 82152757

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

merry monday, or something..

Hello
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Hello
Here's a bunch of helpful links

>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

> wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>82152757 (OP)
>merry monday, or something..
eh. whatever.

>Hello
hey catbro! how are you?

>>82153037
Heyyoo
how's it going??
>catbro! how are you?
I was on a bikeride today and I found cool feathers :D

>>82153055
>how's it going??
i don't know. feeling sad and tired tonight. definitly a hiding-under-a-blanket kind of evening if it wasn't so hot.

>I was on a bikeride today and I found cool feathers :D
those really are cool :0 do you know from what kind of bird they come from? what else did you do?

>>82153490
>sad and tired tonigh
oww :<
sorry to hear this fren
Is there something that maybe caused this?
hope you feel better soon
>if it wasn't so hot.
noo can't even blanket property no w D;
>those really are cool :0
:D
>bird they come from?
pheasant probably
>what else did you do?
I chilled and download patapon 2
also on my bikeride I found a long train brighe with a scaffolding on the side of ot and I walked around there
now I'm watching some old tv game show ans also thinking about watching bumfights

hello everyone. so i didn't get switched to being a freshman yet may still happen tho. im definitely screwed if i dont tho they did a review in math and i got 5 out of 3 lol

>>82153665
forgot image like a dumb dumb

>>82153533
>Is there something that maybe caused this?
i think i'm just frustrated.

>noo can't even blanket property no w D;
i've got a thin sheet i use on hot days. not the same, but gets the job done.

>pheasant probably
true. is there a difference between male and female ones when it comes to their tail-feathers?

>I chilled and download patapon 2
so you finished the first one?

>I found a long train brighe with a scaffolding on the side of ot and I walked around there
found anything interesting up there?

>I'm watching some old tv game show
which one?

>thinking about watching bumfights
what's that?

>>82153665
hey gator!

>so i didn't get switched to being a freshman yet may still happen tho.
hope they'll make up their mind at some point. kinda annoying when you don't know what's up.

>im definitely screwed if i dont tho they did a review in math and i got 5 out of 3 lol
not sure what that means, but i guess you need some help in math? can you get some tutoring or something like that?

>>82153665
hey hey
how's it going today? are you back home?
>did a review in math and i got 5 out of 3 lol
what does that mean? that's bad?

>>82153731
it's okay :3

>>82153860
hey yuanon
>kinda annoying when you don't know what's up.
yea its super annoying i really just want a answer
>not sure what that means
i meant 5 out of 30, like questions sorry. but yea so i basically just guessed them all and got them all wrong
>need some help in math?
probably more then some desu, it was algebra 2 and i dont even know algebra 1
>you get some tutoring or something like that?
possibly, but i don't think so really. how are you doing btw?

>>82153926
hey cat
>how's it going today?
fine i guess. how about you?
>are you back home?
yea sadly cant write when im at school or even at the bus
>what does that mean? that's bad?
meant 5 out of 30 sorry like questions sorry. its horrible yeah. like f f f

>>82153860
>think i'm just frustrated.
by what if it's okay to ask?
>got a thin sheet
smart of your
I still use a thick one because I can't be comfy and sleep without it
>difference between
in some types yes in some no
>found anything interesting up there?
a nice view and that's it
>which one?
it's some old polish one with couples competing
it's cringe but that's the fun of it ig
>what's that?
some skater kids on the 90s were hanging out with local homeless guys and heard there's one who'd do anything for booze so they decided to record his stunts on tapes and then sell it and it unexpectedly became really popular

>>82152757 (OP)
very sexual image

>>82153953
>fine i guess.
by the sound of it hope you get better though
>how about you?
I was on a bike ride and found feathers >>82153055
and a big bridge
>sadly cant write when im at school or even at the bus
yeah that sucks :<
>even at the bus
are there people watching? also you have a school bus :0
>meant 5 out of 30 sorry
oooh
math sucks >:C

>>82153953
>i really just want a answer
at least you'd know what to prepare for.

>i basically just guessed them all and got them all wrong
i see. maybe it's better that way so you actually get a chance to learn it properly.

>it was algebra 2 and i dont even know algebra 1
if it makes you feel any better, i don't remember any of the stuff i learned in school, either. ^^'

>possibly, but i don't think so really.
hm. that's too bad. maybe there's some youtube vids on the topic you could watch?

>how are you doing btw?
not well. i just feel sad tonight.

>>82153998
>by what if it's okay to ask?
because i'm lonely. because i'm unwell. because i don't like my job. because whenever it seem like things are improving, something even worse happens. just can't take it anymore. it ok for you to ask, but i just don't see how things could improve right now.

>I still use a thick one because I can't be comfy and sleep without it
yeah. i tend to use a cotton blanket at the moment when i go to bed, but even that can be a bit much at these temperatures.

>in some types yes in some no
interesting. didn't know there was more than one type of pheasant.

>a nice view and that's it
i'm sure it was worth you trouble. :>

>it's some old polish one with couples competing it's cringe but that's the fun of it ig
i see. it probably was the appeal back then as well. ^^

>they decided to record his stunts on tapes and then sell it and it unexpectedly became really popular
ah. i guess that's where jackass came from. have fun.

>>82154398
>hope you get better though
well thanks that's very kind of you
>was on a bike ride and found feathers
Ooo very nice and pretty long feathers :O
>are there people watching?
its kinda just hard to and i dont want people to see me on 4chan yk lol
>also you have a school bus :0
oh yea i take a school bus to school and to home
>math sucks >:C
it truly does

>>82154445
>you'd know what to prepare for.
yea I don't know if i should prepare for being and freshman and how that awkward thing will go or try to study stuff i need for my current grade :/
>actually get a chance to learn it properly.
yea probably, i do almost definitely need it
>don't remember any of the stuff i learned in school, either. ^^'
hehe well good thing you never needed it then
>there's some youtube vids on the topic you could watch?
i guess i could, I'll probably have to if i stay in my current grade
>not well. i just feel sad tonight.
oh im really sorry to hear that, that sucks. hope you feel better <3

>>82154790
>i should prepare for being and freshman and how that awkward thing will go
might be for the best since it seems you'll need to relearn some basics anyway. :/ and don't give it too much thought. your parents tried to homeschool you and it didn't work out that well. that's all there is to it.

>hehe well good thing you never needed it then
i suppose

>I'll probably have to if i stay in my current grade
you should probably do that anyway. if you don't get anything, it's usually because your teacher is bad. i was stuck with those assholes, but now you can just go and look for someone you can actually learn something from.

>oh im really sorry to hear that, that sucks. hope you feel better <3
thanks. me too. (^-^)

>>82152757 (OP)
>>82152757 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
Tired
>Any plans for today?
Just putting out job applications
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
Today technically.
>Why did you hurt yourself?
I had a metal wire get stuck in my leg yesterday and asked for some pulled in out with tweezers. My boss got made at me for asking anyone and told that I'm paid to stay in the pump room. So to satisfy her, I couldn't look at it again until today. I wasn't sure if any metal was still in my leg so I tried to reopen it with a knife today. I kept it as small as possible but I don't think I anywhere. It's either small enough not to worry about or I just need to make a bigger cut. If it bothers me again, I'll cut it tomorrow at this point.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Yeah, my boss telling me that I can't be upstairs asking for tweezers. It's such a small thing but the way she handled it was completely over blown. What happens if it's serious? Am I not to report that? What happens if someone else is injured? Am I not to report it?

>>82153490
Hi yu
> definitly a hiding-under-a-blanket kind of evening if it wasn't so hot.
Yeah. It kind of is that way.

>>82155072
>you'll need to relearn some basics anyway
yea i definitely sadly will have too :(
>didn't work out that well. that's all there is to it.
still just feels like my fault in a lot lf ways
>should probably do that anyway.
yea i guess so
>because your teacher is bad
my current math teacher is extremely chill, like insanely.
>stuck with those assholes
that really sucks then, sorry to hear that :/
>look for someone you can actually learn something from.
yea learning is the most important thing after all
>me too. (^-^)
<3

>>82155138
>metal wire
that sounds pretty scary, be careful and everything. and your boss does sound really rude

>>82155138
hey cynic! :>

>Tired
i feel you

>Just putting out job applications
well done! o7

>I had a metal wire get stuck in my leg yesterday
ouch. how did that happen?

>My boss got made at me for asking anyone and told that I'm paid to stay in the pump room.
she sounds like a cunt. here you have to report any kind of injury that happens while you work for insurance if nothing else.

>It's either small enough not to worry about or I just need to make a bigger cut. If it bothers me again, I'll cut it tomorrow at this point.
maybe have a doc check it out?

>Am I not to report that? What happens if someone else is injured? Am I not to report it?
i'm sure you are supposed to do that.

>Yeah. It kind of is that way.
sorry you're in that mood as well. :/

>>82155288
>yea i definitely sadly will have too :(
poor gator. :<

>still just feels like my fault in a lot lf ways
it does feel like it, but you didn't put yourself in that situation because you felt like it. or at all.

>my current math teacher is extremely chill, like insanely.
but they're not the one that tought you before, are they?

>that really sucks then, sorry to hear that :/
eh. it's been ages at this point and, in the end, didn't matter anyway.

>>82154445
>because i'm lonely. because i'm unwell
yeah makes sense :/
>just don't see how things could improve
I'm not sure what you could do either fren :c
ig you can vent some more if you wanna
>even that can be a bit much at these temperatures.
ooa how hot is it in your room?
>didn't know there was more than one type of pheasant.
I think there is a couple and some have nice green ones
>was worth you trouble. :>
it was fun I'll probably go there again some day soon
>probably was the appeal back
I'm not sure but maybe
the host was very disorganized and did know what to do
>have fun.
won't watch it today but maybe tomorrow

>>82154790
>thanks that's very kind of you
you're welcome ^^
>very nice and pretty long feathers
yea :D
I took them with me home
>dont want people to see me on 4chan yk lol
understandable
>truly does
yeap I failed a math calss like two years ago qnd had to re do it

>>82155138
Helloo
>Tired
have a restful day :D
>putting out job applications
best of luck
>My boss got mad at me for asking anyone
that's so infuriating
you should report the injry somewhere
it may seem like not much but record of that are pretty important
What i had an apprenticeship somewhere I had a talk with a workplace safety guy and he said to report everything always because if you have a boss like that and you get actually hurt they'll do everything to avoid responsibility or if you for example just feel a bit off and later it turns out when you're at home that you inhaled something dangerous at work but without a report you can't prove it
>any metal was still
what if you used a strong magnet?
make sure to patch yourself up well fren
>Am I not to report that
well I feel your boss only cares about herself
man I can't handle people like that, they make me so angry, especially that their behavior gets rewarded

>>82155348
> how did that happen?
I was cleaning a hair basket. It needs a metal brush to work. A metal brush on a power tool to work efficiently.
I walked around with metal in my leg for three hours before noticing.
> she sounds like a cunt
Yeah sometimes she is. I'm giving it one more day before I decide to put in my two weeks. Odds on my transfer are still good.
> maybe have a doc check it out?
I don't think it's that bad.
> sorry you're in that mood as well. :/
I just don't like that I have to quit this job. I use to love it here.
>>82155288
Hi gator
As someone who went back to school later in life, I wouldn't sweat these grades to much. You get a a lot of chances to recover depending on the school.

>>82155374
>yeah makes sense :/
well, thanks fo acknowledging it. ^^

>I'm not sure what you could do either fren :c
all good. i didn't expect you to come up with an solution.

>ig you can vent some more if you wanna
i think that was enough, but thanks for listening.

>ooa how hot is it in your room?
i don't know, but this week it's supposed to get to 38c at some places. going to ve unpleasant. :[

>I think there is a couple and some have nice green ones
hm. have to look that up.

>I'll probably go there again some day soon
don't let anyone catch you and be careful.

>the host was very disorganized and did know what to do
sounds like and odd concept for a show.

>won't watch it today but maybe tomorrow
there's always another day. that said, time to call it one.

good night, everyone!

>>82155348
>poor gator. :<
I'll be fine, i always am right.
>didn't put yourself in that situation because you felt like it.
i guess, still hurts
>they're not the one that tought you before, are they?
well i never had a teacher or anything before.
>in the end, didn't matter anyway.
well still is shame I'd say

>>82155374
>took them with me home
smart would look very nice and cool to have
>failed a math calss like two years ago qnd had to re do it
oh that sounds pretty annoying having to re do it again

>>82155525
hey cynic.
i guess so, doubt I'll do any better anytime soon desu

>>82155525
>A metal brush on a power tool to work efficiently.
i think i see what could have happened. D:

>I'm giving it one more day before I decide to put in my two weeks. Odds on my transfer are still good.
let's see how it goes. and don't forget to tell us all about it.

>I don't think it's that bad.
ok. i trust you on that.

>I just don't like that I have to quit this job. I use to love it here.
just quitting a shit job can be hard enough. sorry you have to quit one you actually enjoyed.

>>82155637
>I'll be fine, i always am right.
i hope so.

>still hurts
it does.

>i never had a teacher or anything before.
so they're not the bad one.

>well still is shame I'd say
true. maybe it wouldn't have soured me on education as much if i did have better teachers back then.

anyways. my last post for today. see ya!

>>82155602
Goodnight and sleep very well !!

>>82155637
>would look very nice and cool to have
yea
>sounds pretty annoying having to re do it again
ar least I managed to do that one
I have another one I have to redo and I'm not sure I'll manage

gonna sleep
goodnight thankk u for being

>>82155720
>they're not the bad one.
yess cause I've never had one before
>soured me on education as much if i did have better teachers
yea people really can make of break stuff like that
>last post for today. see ya!
well goodnight and sweet dreams

>>82155886
>another one I have to redo and I'm not sure I'll manage
oh well best of luck you got this!!
>goodnight thankk u for being
goodnight and sleep well. and everything would be better if i wasn't being

employed finally, but I dont remember if I already said that here. im more tired at the end of the day now obviously, which means I want someone beloved to keep me accompanied in bed, when im at my weakest mostly. also I cannot sleep for 12h when im feeling down anymore which adds up. some money for my family though. I think I would work harder for a different kind of family, not just parents. its just not possible now

Came across a short video comparing getting over someone to having to amputate a limb. maybe im too narcissistic, comfortable, or scared to eject sections of me like that. maybe i dont want to forget how divine she was. it could be impossible for all i know. I dont like thinking because it hurts. it hurtsssss

it has been a while since I cut and I wish i had the drive and passion for it like in spring

>>82156574
kissing your loved one is the best time in this world, but only if they were attractive to you before you even got to know them. I always knew she was too good to be true for me, I tried to be at peace with it since the first day I realized it (first month of our interaction), and I tried to make it count every time.

hm, now that I think about it, cutting my sides did satisfy some of those love urges

>>82156630
Damn, I have wanted to cut on my sides so bad recently, but it feels strange to cut there because it seems out of reach.
How long have you been apart from this girl? Hypothetically, would you want to get back with her, or do you want to stay away from her for any reason?