Thread 82403929

I'm scared of other people, scared of social situations, scared of women, hate conflict.

I don't understand how there are people who are also human but have zero inhibition or fear and are like soldiers or police officers who are fine interacting with hardened criminals and love fights and can aggressively hit on women

the real secret is realizing you don't have to care about such things if you don't want to.
i realized long ago that i hated interacting with people and i now only do it out of necessity when i can't avoid it. people who tell you to think otherwise just require social stimulation to live. nothing wrong with that, but if you don't require it then you don't require it and therefore shouldn't seek it if you don't want to.

>>82403929 (OP)
There is nothing to be afraid of, other people aren't worth worrying about. Imagine you're an actor on set and being paid to pantomime with them. That's all their doing. Fake until you make it.

>>82403929 (OP)
You seem to have a great deal of rage swelling within your stomach due to a lifetime of serial abuse. Youre about to explode on a crowd of strangers with your ar15, make it count. Do a busy shopping center, you can get thousands of them.

>>82403929 (OP)
Why are you worried about people who are going to be less successful than you? All they can do is bring you down and is subconciously what people who feel bad about themselves do, along with coming up with reasons to feel superior to others.

If thats how people treat you, you probably make them feel insecure.

>>82403929 (OP)
>The virgin "nothing matters" in a paralyzing depressive way
vs
>The Chad "NOTHING MATTERS" in a liberating, freeing, adventurous and indifferent way

>>82403939
I'm incredibly alone and lonely though, having zero connections or any other humans being sucks

>>82403943
Is there something to be afraid of, it really hurts to see people react negatively to me, whether it's because I said something awkward and they cringe, or because I'm boring and I can see the disinterest growing in their demeanor, it sucks and I've experienced it many times

>>82404051
I'm a total failure in life, also pretty much every other human on earth is by default more successfull than me because everyone besides me has connections to other humans.

Meanwhile I have zero connections to other humans, zero human relationships

>>82404061
I agree nothing matters and I've tried to kill myself dozens of times, but survival instinct wouldn't let me and now I realize I am trapped being alive for 80 more years of torture

>>82403929 (OP)
Funny, I don't remember making this post

>>82403929 (OP)
What worked (for me) was exposure therapy
I hung out with men, women, cops, criminals, prostitutes, pimps, the homeless, the ones with million-dollar houses, etc.

There's nothing to fear but fear itself
Those people are just that, still people
They still eat, shit, piss and bleed

People bleed, anon
They're still capable of death, and to me that gives me hope

>>82403929 (OP)
>how do I stop being bitchmade
You cain't. All those anxieties you had about getting shot and bitten by a comically large dog were fucking true. That isn't cowardice, it is the conscious refusal to be a retarded nigger and naively put your faith in a world that has constantly tested it since the beginning. Not saying that you never go outside, but that your neuroses probably developed because you were exposed to world of constant nonstop fuckery.

>>82404126
> it really hurts to see people react negatively to me, whether it's because I said something awkward and they cringe, or because I'm boring and I can see the disinterest growing in their demeanor, it sucks and I've experienced it many times
Me too, but the best thing to do is to learn that's their fucking problem and not yours. You're not their singing dancing monkey for their entertainment. If they don't like the way you said something -- they can kill themselves for all you give a fuck.

Other people are the enemy, never give them quarter by allowing any negative emotional damage to come from them. Emotionally damage them in return too, cringe at them and react negatively to their bullshit -- it works the same.

>>82404200
Sounds like you hung out with everyone except a cute wife. Thats cool buddy, youre really well experienced.

>>82403929 (OP)
>exercise
Lifting is an obvious one, but running is ok. You gotta be consistent is the key.
>reading books
non-fiction; preferably books about philosophy (like Absurdism) and so forth
>maybe consider a martial art
Muay Thai, BJJ, Taekwondo, etc. Just not Karate from a mcdojo.
>stop caring what other people think so much
and of course, if you're in a place that allows it:
>learn how to use a weapon, and start carrying

they don't think about it and then die gruesome deaths. do you really want to die a gruesome death?

>>82403939
But there is a difference between being antisocial and asocial. Asocial is bitchmade social anxiety pussy shit. Antisocial is high test gigachad lone wolf shit.

>>82404061
It all depends on whether you can enjoy life, the one meaningless stay on this earth, you're either a succesful rich handsome man getting to enjoy all the fine things of life, but there is the 5 foot indian janitor

>>82404353
>cute wife
The life I live, anon, I won't ever have a cute wife
It's a lonely, burdensome road