Thread 82454322

>links
erowid.org
getmonero.org
psychonautwiki.org
psychedelia.io (Canada ONLY)

caffeine edition

>>82454322 (OP)
>erowid
>>82454322 (OP)
>caffeine

>>82454322 (OP)
>caffeine
explain the meme please. how does it feel to get high on caffeine and how do you ingest

>>82454463
>high
Boost in mood (more easily happy/cheerful/extroverted) and more quick/ready to initiate physical work. The boost in mood makes tackling mental challenges easier, too, but that's more so from the mood boost making me feel comfortable putting in effort.
>ingest
Personally using 100mg capsules. It's very cheap ($20 for what would have been $300 worth of drinks) and easier to manage while I'm actively working (or in a hurry).

As a side note it's easy to withdrawal from if you keep your doses below 200mg. Personally, at 200mg I get terrible headaches when I reset my tolerance which makes me have to do nothing for a few hours and feels like a waste of a day.

There's an incest general.
There's a cutting skin general.

But this general is dead.
That's interesting.

What would 600mg of Pregabalin do on someone with zero tolerance?

>>82455367
Ironically there's fewer incel neet losers in the drug threads, since many of us have a job, a family, etc.

When you're a teen and talking about cutting yourself or having sex with your mom you obviously have nothing to do with your time except post.

>>82455367
drugs are just a boring topic as is most of the things on this board. bunch of college aged beta males crying about being forever alone.
Wait till you become a wizard.

how much oxy would kill a 60kg male? I need to touch the void
>>82455472
enjoy your tolerance whilst it lasts because preg becomes boring after. I enjoyed taking 150mg with no tolerance way more than I ever have taking a high dose with high tolerance. I miss how it used to feel and wish I could go back so badly. less is more. too much just makes you twitchy and faded (not in a good way)

>>82456033
I've always done 150mg once or twice a week, I don't have any tolerance and don't plan on developing any. I use but don't abuse.

>>82454322 (OP)
First time doing DXM, what am I in for?

>>82454594
I just time my reset of tolerance with a day where I've dedicated time off work to chill or watch things. Then usually I don't even need caffeine the day after to function. You can avoid the headaches simply by ramping down from 200 to 100 to 50 then 50 every 2-3 days and avoid as much of a fatigue and headache crash

is stim fapping ok if it's to your imagination instead of porn?

God I fucki g hate benzos, gabapentinoids at least kept me sane, fucke me I do not like thus

>>82458348
How are benzos compared to alcohol? The only time I've ever done them was in the psych ward for alcohol detox. I don't exactly remember feeling "high", just sleeping all day and spinning around in a wheelchair. Ironically I didn't need them at all since I was far from the point of withdrawal being fatal. What else is funny is that I found a full bottle of prescription Xanax when I was a janitor at the airport but I turned it in anyway because I didn't want some poor soul to be freaking out on their flight.

>>82456494
>First time doing DXM, what am I in for?
https://m.psychonautwiki.org/wiki/Dextromethorphan

>>82457297
It's not as bad but it's still gross. Your mind will go to the nastiest place it can find and make you think of things you never thought about, those thoughts won't leave you and will turn you into a more disgusting version of yourself.

>>82458505
Dissociation sounds kind of terrifying. Even a puff off of dispensary-grade weed has me utterly questioning reality and existence. Should I just stick with second plateau or go further?

>>82457297
>>82458509
My best friend (former "girlfriend") trooned out because of stimfapping and acid. Even after getting clean it took him two years to snap out of it. It's a dangerous road to walk.

Smoking bth from foil snorted a lot too but my nose is clogged now, I can't really feel it I'm just not sick

I took 600mg pregabalin over the course of an hour but I think it's fake, I haven't found real in the UK since last year

>>82458558
nta, but if cannabinoids had you feeling like that, then just trying out the low plateaus first would be good. Increment slowly and take your time, as always.

>>82458569
why did u date ur tranny friend anon

>>82458785
It's a long story. Suffice to say our paths happened to cross at very confusing points in our life. We tried to make it work and it gradually fell apart, but our friendship has only grown stronger in spite of it. We both regret it to this day.

>>82458823
I don't think I could be friends with a dude whose butt I came inside of.

SSRIs fucked me up, that terrible feeling of emptiness is gone but I'm not able to cry anymore

>>82458603
Some rc opiates pressed into mbox 10s arrived, snorted 1 and Still 0 high but not sick, brutal
>>82459309
Me too bro, damn near 10 years ago I just quit cold turkey no withdrawal thankfully

>>82456033
>how much oxy would kill a 60kg male? I need to touch the void
if you are gonna kill yourself in minecraft use herobrian instead

>>82455472
You're going to feel dizzy as shit and wish to not have taken as much, go up slowly anon, just 300mg is perfect and more than enough for someone with no tolerance, shit it's been almost 2 months since the last time I pop some good pregab, might buy some more by october

>>82458950
You'd be surprised
(also I never technically did that)

>>82459309
I was on SSRIs for a year (and they did help) but they made me so numb and actually suicidal at times that I just decided to quit.
I got dry mouth all the time, I put on like 10kg, my face got all fucked up by acne and it's still there a year later.
Withdrawals fucking sucked, I had dizziness and became even more suicidal and desu the only reason I didn't kill myself was because I had a cat and I was living abroad and getting my body shipped back home would've been a pain in the ass for my parents. Still worth it to not be using it anymore because I can actually fucking cry without being one bad decision away from killing myself.

I was going to relapse on weed just now.
Then I realized, smoking weed isn't worth it because I've done enough for the cannabis economy.

Heil Hitler.

Psychiatrist and my job are saying I can not smoke weed anymore. What the fuck is life without it?

>>82460770
You'll grow out of it or get tired of it. Weed withdrawal is nothing compared to alchohol, opiates or stimulants. I've been there so I know what your feeling but its not as bad as it seems. Get some rest, try to eat decent, hell even smoke a cig if it will help

>>82455367
Everyone is too high to post, when they're not high they're not worried about posting but instead getting their next fix...

>>82460770
Time to vape instead for a few year

may have overdone it on the benzos today and got sent home from work 3 hours early cause i kept fucking shit up, my supervisor is my friends and covered me with the storty that i was actually just exhausted, got some fake piss just in case they try to test me so i should be okay, still feel like shit though,god willing they buy the lack of sleep narrative and dont put under a magnifying glasss, i do really hope i can job i really need it

>>82460126
what did u do and how long did u stay together ?

>>82459586
whys that? swear its so hard to get hold of anything not cut to shit now

>>82462208
because with heion you dont even care your dying

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OyCFSNHjGQI

Came back from a trip to the Netherlands.
Ate an entire space cookie on my way back.
Shit was so strong, 0.5g for an entire cookie.

10/10, I don't ever wanna smoke again

>>82458603
>>82459560
why not just good old heroin. i love it. high rn

>>82462433
just say you went to Amst*rdam. You didn't go to The Netherlands.

>>82461337
people making a whole big deal about weed "withdrawals" make me cringe so hard

>>82462349
tiny bump. yeah no shit you're not gonna feel much. take a fat line and you'll be nodding fast

on a theew day benzo boys witha healthy mix of alcohol in between
cant wait to get some opiates
i actually got sent home from work for being too fucked up todsy, but i blamrd it on lsck of sleep and ill have the piss test to prove it lol
god willing i will weather this storm

tested my adderall on a whim and it tested positive for meth. should be fine cause i only took like 5mg but whew

>>82463444
brother youre so fucked up you posted twice lmao
>>82461634

I think I'll implement A special container that will only have a gram of weed in it, the reason being that once I get down to only having one gram left, I'll know to restock instead of having to conserve weed like I am now.

i've been trying to stimfap on ritalin for the past 6 hours and ain't getting anywhere. mind keeps on racing to specifics of the fantasy or other topics. the second i switch tasks, full mind is back to sex. how do i fix this? i just redosed 10mg oral and 20mg nasal. done like 70 nasal over the past 12 hours

>>82455472
II hate my psychiatrist for being a narc and my other one for kicking me out, no pregabalin yet still on the benz.

It's funny if they gave me lyrica it would've been less destructive

>>82463248
I went to all kinds of cities and in Amsterdam I did not get high

It was Rotterdam

There's nothing better than being lightly high on cannabis and heavily high on opiates simultaneously

havent really taken drugs in some years

any recs for something light outside of weed that you could do on weekends without too many drawbacks?

gonna start selling joints to make back some of the money i spend on weed... any of you have trouble limiting how much you spend on your favourite thing?

>>82464816
If you want an alcohol alternative (that isn't toxic or as disgusting) then phenibut could be a viable option. And obligatory: make sure to check your local laws.

Here's the erowid experience report list to read about it: https://erowid.org/experiences/subs/exp_Smarts_Phenibut.shtml

>>82462349
surely it would feel the same on any other strong opiate?

>>82464816
Downers:
Pregabalin, GHB, Phenibut

Uppers:
Amphetamines

Psych:
LSD

bumpin dat

she M my D until i M her A

Please for the love of god let my package arrive tomorrow before the weekend so I don't have to wait two extra days until Monday. Had my last two pills of oxycodone 20mg insufflated, feel comfy but no where near nodding, I just want my bloody clonz already. As soon as I get a hold of the bottle I'm popping 2mg to get started (haven't had benzos in months so luckily no tolerance)

>took 30 mg of ambien and journaled for about an hour
>have some 7ho to take in the morning
>don't have to think about work for a whole day

>>82454322 (OP)
Dammit bros. I enrolled in a trade school and I just don't know if I can do it. I smoked weed daily 4 times a day from 20 to 25 and binge drank on weekends. These days I can barely retain information or focus. I was once good at note taking and studying but now my mind is just blank. Should I just drop out before it starts? I have a job already but the pay is shit and the trade school seemed like a decent route.

>>82468332
Wow you really fried your brain by abusing drugs while it wasn't mature.
Stop doing drugs and relearn to focus on stuff. It takes time but it's doable.

>>82468332
>weed
>alcohol

stop being a fucking pussy. stop and just do it.

Happy 911 junkiebros

Happy 9/11
Even though some of you were probably not alive/aware when it happened.

Do two lines to celebrate, then do another one for the WTC7.

>be me, 33
>stop smoking weed
>erections return to normal
>morning wood every day
whew, I thought I had ED. I forgot how huge my erect penis is and what it's like to have a half chub on a regular basis.

>>82469465
Doing some morning dabs in honor
Never forget

>>82469481
It's the opposite for me. Weed gives me a hard on.

Been on a benzo binge for 48 hours, taking roughly 8+ mg a day, I got so fucked up yesterday they sent me home from work, I'm preparing for a pink slip as we speak, God want a guck up thr high isn't even worth it, between thr confusion and blackouts I think I'm fucked

>>82469481
>>82469754
As for me I don't do cannabis because it just makes me feel bad, and I still have erection issues and almost never morning wood.
The best of both worlds.

>>82469800
You know what's fucked? The HR's pussy you're going to go hard at she's going to let you keep your job.

>>82469829
Just look at her. Women are so cute when they pretend to be important and like they know how to behave professionally and all, makes me want to put her back in her place, as a heavily pregnant woman at home.

good morning bros
can't wait to have some mdma this weekend

>>82469906
Man I remember the good times on empathogens. Deep loving conversations.
For a while I thought it would save my relationship, but things aren't so simple.

Now I'm just in a miserable relationship and no amount of drugs seems likely to fix that.

has anyone ever tried
pregabalin mixing with cafeine or modafinil
??

forced to update my jewphones ios so i can download zelle for monero
kill me

>>82470404
Google Pixel + GrapheneOS

>>82470404
I had to look up what Zelle was.
Just use CakeWallet and buy Monero with a debt card.

>>82463467
It should be balanced so the amount of meth is equivalent to the expected dose of amphetamine, but it's good to keep in mind so you're not up all night. Also try not to use it more often than every other day. From what I understand, meth has a long half life and can build to neurotoxic levels with daily use

>>82469754
weed has this weird effect on me, it makes me wanna suck dick so bad.

Last time I smoked weed was on Aug 11th.

Today is September 11th.

2x 10mg valiums and a nice fat line of H and a beer. evening starting out quite fine

>>82471104
Update: not going to smoke weed.

>>82471230
why not? its what the 911 firefighters would have wanted

>>82471814
>its what the 911 firefighters would have wanted
kek

>>82471814
>>82471818
I just can't.
Fuck Canada.

1.5 liters of vodka in storage and that's my psychoactives for rest of the month because I just don't have money for anything else
Probably going to down third of that today but whatever at least I'm fine today
Cheers

I have no connects and I want meth

Is heroin really that bad? I mean as far as I know the damage it causes comes from the stupid shit you may do when addicted but the thing itself isn't that toxic, you can damage your body if you shoot up but there's other ways of consuming heroin that are way safer, does all the horrible reputation around it comes exclusively from the potential that it has to make you do dumb shit when addicted? if so I don't understand why is it worse than say a meth or cocaine addiction


It's genuine curiosity and I want to know exactly why it is seem as some of the worst shit out there because I really don't know

I'm finally gathering the courage to do it. I feel a sense of relief and inner peace I haven't felt in a long time

>>82473707
opioids are actually quite gentle on your body but the problem is that opioid addiction is one of the worst things you can do to yourself and they program your brain to consider them as number 1 priority over anything else
the way they work make you ignore all your previous principles and make the opioids your priority
i'm an alcoholic and while this garbage destroys my organs and has horrible withdrawals i still wouldn't do opioids because i know i wouldn't even have the ounce of self control i have with gabaergics, if you are a worthless piece of shit with no hope like me opioids are worse because they are better than anything you can ever experience with a brain like mine and how the fuck do you get rid of something like that?
i will get back on opioids when i know i'm going to kill myself in a few months but before that i can't because i know i don't have the self control to use them even somewhat functionally

Psychs are the only drugs that aren't for junkies. Maybe weed and oral amphetamines are fine, too, but those aren't worth doing regularly. There are potheads, crackheads, alcoholics, all of that has a negative connotation for good reason. Not many people out there are "shroom heads" (a term you never hear) and even if they are it hardly matters if they have an otherwise healthy lifestyle.

>>82474203
theyre called hippies

31 days, no weed.

>>82475152
>Captain's log
>31 days, no weed
>The men are starting to mutiny
>They say nothing is as funny and they're bored all the time
>They say if they don't get a joint and taco bell by midnight they're burning the building down

>>82473520
You don't need "connect" in the era of darknet markets Anon.
Just buy what you want online.

man fuck benzos, theyre nice every once ina while but when i binge them i go fucking insane, i almost lost my job and now im getting kicked out of my house
opiates are the best drug on earth hands down
fuck benzos

the one good thing about benzos us that it turns me into an irredeemable monster who deserves to be killed

>drug tolerance
>no catgirls
>life is boring
what a shitty world to live in. I'm just tired of this bullshit at this point

>>82475707
I wonder what kind of man I'd be and how I'd behave on benzos.
Is it influenced by your character or is everyone acting the same?

Knowing me I'd probably just crash my motorcycle and rape my wife.

it's finally over
I finally made the edibles, I don't have to cook anymore thank god
I wish my mom didn't annihilate my interest for cooking by criticizing every single thing I was doing wrong until I gave up
Because something as minor as spilling flour on the counter makes me panic and yell at everything even when there is no actual punishment waiting for that.

>>82476129
Man, you need to take some empathogen like MDMA and talk/write about what happened with your mother, it still affects you daily and will for the rest of your life if you don't digest what happened.

>>82476298
I just gotta get fucked up before making edibles next time, I have too many active braincells and they hold on to bad memories.
My long-term plan is to lobotomize myself with drugs anyways, my intellect only serves to remind me about how retarded and hopeless I am, with less IQ points I'd still be retarded but at the very least I'd be blissfully unaware of it like all other normalfags.

>>82476418
If you think becoming brain damaged through drug abuse will help you reach bliss and not hate yourself and your life, you are sadly mistaken.
You'll simply be a depressed retard.

Experience with DXM(mostly hovering between first and second plateau), then been going for counterflipping these past few months(150/150). Curious, how would one venture about to look for LSD/shroom if one was to get curious? What should I expect coming from mostly DXM?

>>82477028
LSD is the easiest thing to buy online on a darknet market, it's just paper so they send you a letter, can't be detected.

found out i wasted $20 on 7-OH tabs that were bunk. bought a diff brand today, and as an "opioid virgin" this shit slaps. if you don't wanna get scammed like me just buy the big brand stuff.
smokeshop/ gas station drugs are pretty awesome btw

I've had it with psychedelics, and amphetamines to an extent. I feel like a psychotic schizophrenic manic on them and talk and have ideas that are completely delusional and ridiculous.

Oooh, i'm so happy i'm tweaking, lil nigga! Just figured out a way to make palladon (hydromorphone) capsules injectable, without having to use a mortar! I mean ofc a mortar helps, but yeah i've developed a method for extracting drugs from pills as well as microbeads containing hypromellose as well as similar binding/gelling agents. All you need is smth to crush the pill/microbeads with (two spoons or a bag and a hammer is enough, this method doesn't require pulverizing them), and then you need citric acid and baking soda.
You basically crush up the pill/microbeads as finely as you can with those spoons or hammer, then WITHOUT ADDING WATER, mix in like 200mg of baking soda, and a little more citric acid, so that the solution remains somewhat acidic. Then you add your water, and mix it around until bubbling stops.
Then you add a little more baking soda to neutrallize the excess citric acid. Once the solution is neutral (you can tell by taste or just with enough experience), you can bang and shoot that shit. This has allowed me to make excellent use out palladon as well as mst continus morphine pills. I am GEEKING hard, lil nigga

>>82477886
Addendum: remember to filter. But even a shitty 10um filter is good enough for filtering the palladon microbeads

>>82475914
It is influenced very much so by your character, yeah. Like, i'm a depressed asshole and benzos just make me more depressed and think about suicide and so on. But there are also people who have nothing really wrong with their character but they get super violent on benzos despite not being violent otherwise, so yeah, it's about character + neurological sensitivities

>>82477886
You're in the deep end, huh. For how long have you been using?

>>82477915
Yeah, I WILL wrestle naked on the street with the cops.
The issue is that I'm a purple belt BJJ, I will subdue several of them before they immobilize me.

>>82475707
>>82475914
>>82477915
>>82478365

wtf are you people talking about. I take benzos daily as part of my prescription. You're acting like it's some kind of demon drug when all it does is chills you out and stops anxiety attacks.

>>82473876
Hmm I see, so indeed the addiction is so bad that the fact that it's not that damaging by itself doesn't matter as much, still I think it's just too demonized, buy maybe it is in fact that terrible, hmm

take care of yourself anon, alcoholism taxes alot

>>82463467
>tested my adderall on a whim and it tested positive for meth
Why do people do this? Isn't meth more expensive than amphetamine is? That's how it is in the market here, you'd be more likely to have amp in your meth than the other way around.

>>82479707
Brand amphetamines like "Adderall" have a huge markup.
Kids want Adderall but are afraid of speed or meth so they want the "brand", even if it's just pressies with speed or meth in it lol.

Also not sure where you live but if your country doesn't have easy access to Arabian speed paste, meth is cheaper than amp.

>>82463731
>i've been trying to stimfap on ritalin for the past 6 hours and ain't getting anywhere
I am never able to stimfap. I get overheated and sweaty and go soft, it's actually a nightmare. Worked for me one time only on MDMA and I fapped so hard I bruised my dick (also took like 5 hours cause I just couldn't cum. Also a nightmare scnario imo, being deperate to cum but not being able to no matter how hard you try). In my experience stimfapping is a meme and not really that fun.

>>82465197
>any of you have trouble limiting how much you spend on your favourite thing?
I did overspend a little on meth and speed (I like to go a bit overboard on new things), but as long as I only use my money for bare necessities, my bank account will rebalance itself in 2 months, currently in a slight minus, to a fair plus; the be
benifits of being on disability is that your bank account always recovers so long as you don't go full retard. To combat overspending I also try to get into DNMs, which are wayyyy cheaper than the local market, I can buy 3g of meth for ~57$ insted of the local 195$ for one gram. Sounds too good to be true, but the vendor has a lot of good reviews. (I'm only paranoid that the packages will be cought in cuatoms and get my house raided, and I won't do good in an interagation at all :p I hear that drug-sniffing dogs don't learn to smell DMT, and LSD is safe as well, but it is said they can track trace amount of methamphetamine easily, so, paranoid. Even if they don't check all packages, I might just lose the lottory and have my package sniffed-out)

>>82479311
you obviously have never taken 6mg alprazolam and tried to go to work stumbling around like a drunk or gottrn blackout drunk and told your family you want to kill yourself

>>82479916
Sometimes I think about going through the whole disability welfare thing by whining to doctors until I get the retard/gimp paper allowing me to have money every month but it feels dirty.

>>82468332
Stick to the education, anon. Your abilities to focus and such will get better over time (especially in a learning environment where you keep training those mental muscles over and over again), as long as you don't take anymore drugs and keep friying your neurons. Trust yourself and your mind's ability to regenerate.
Goodluck!

>>82454322 (OP)
>psychedelia.io (Canada ONLY)
/\
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honeypot

>>82469465
>Even though some of you were probably not alive/aware when it happened
I was about 5yo and we were at my grand-grandpa's (R.I.P) place and I sew it on the tv but didn't understand what had happened and why everyone were so worried.

>>82469875
>Women are so cute when they pretend to be important and like they know how to behave professionally
I was at the Army and there were famale commanders and officers who were super hot, but you wouldn't want to mess with. They were all professional all the way; they had power and they knew it. They developed a though skin from being in a male domminant environment and took no shit from no-one, even from those at the same rank as them. Had been on my best behavior around them, that's for sure. Sometimes though the though act gets old, and they get annoying when they pull rank just to show their gravitas. Couldn't imagaine myself impragnating any of them (they were basically gruff men in a hot woman's body), let alone have a casual conversation with. (apart for the few cool ones who always shared cigs and had fun stories to tell on the cig smoking area, you could sit near them and they wouldn't take it as a personal offence)

>>82469800
>I'm preparing for a pink slip as we speak,
And that's why you should always keep drugs and work separate. No if or buts. Just don't do it. I could never get the guy getting high off weed or meth while in work saying it makes them better workers, it's insane to me. Find some alone time and indulge as much as you like, just not in real life. Real life matters more than a high, always.
Hope you've learned your lesson, anon.

>>82470230
>Man I remember the good times on empathogens. Deep loving conversations
Same. Had some amazing conversations while on MDMA with friends (that were themselves on LSD, and kept deepening the subject of convo with acid interspections). No such thing these days, though.
>Now I'm just in a miserable relationship
If it's that bad, leave, anon. While a couple's trip on MDMA can get you a bit closer together and trusting for a while, drugs can't fix everything.
Human relationships are a comlicated muddled mess and there is no fix-all cure for it. Better end it asap, insted of suffering cause of it everyday imo (even if you're tied down with kids/house).

>>82471104
>Last time I smoked weed was on Aug 11th
Good for you, anon. Weed is looked at as a light drug, but can definitly get you tangled up in a web of your own failings. It might just be psychological dependence, but man, it creeps up on ya and you become a useless, forgetful, dull stoner that's high 24/7 in no-time. I quit myself after not being able to stomach it anymore (been ~6+ months and never looked back).

>>82471218
>2x 10mg valiums and a nice fat line of H and a beer
Sounds like a bit of an overkill but very comfy!
Have fun, anon.

>>82472712
>1.5 liters of vodka in storage and that's my psychoactives for rest of the month because I just don't have money for anything
1g of meth is my psychactive for the rest of the month for the same reasons. Remember to learn to enjoy what you have, conserve and have fun!
Cheers for drugful days in the near future!

im at work and this fucking shampoo is giving me flashbacks of when i was on meth. heart rate spike and shit. jesus christ

>>82480353
The shampoo reminds you of all that smell-wise?
I'm guessing one of your co-workers must be using a cheap-ass shampoo that you used to use when you were a methhead

>>82473520
Search the clearnet for local drug-related groups on telegram, from there you'll probably find links to dealing advertisement groups (maximum, ask around) and join those. Find an ad for a dealer that looks fine and reasonably priced and contact them. Also, in some ad groups there are review bots you can check to see if the dealer is for real. There might be a verification stage where you will be requiered to send the dealer an image with a timestamp and/or a pic of you with a drug (only reason I keep weed around) sometimes an ID to compare against exposed narcs lists that they have so it might be a bit worring at first. But once you find your guys it's worth it all and you've got access to a whole lotta drugs you didn't a sec ago.
Or like another anon said, use DNMs; I'm learning it rn and it's not that difficult, and the prices are wayyy cheaper than what you'll find on the local market (the only downside is the paranoia of it getting cought in customs and getting your house raided, but it's minor to the comfort DNMs provide, supposedly, I mean).

>>82480515
i am never doing xanax again, i think i may have ruined my life

>>82480515
>send the dealer an image with a timestamp and/or a pic of you with a drug (only reason I keep weed around) sometimes an ID
I NEVER had to do any of that shit, Infact, I'd never send my fucking ID to anyone on telegram with the intention of buying drugs (which are illegal)
But what that anon said does check out, find reviewed vendors, figure out how to buy crypto, and only spend the money you are willing to lose, as you're not buying shoes off ebay.

>>82473707
>Is heroin really that bad?
Met folks on here that were responsible heroin users with a list of do's and don't's. Most of the bad name it gets is definitly from abusers of the drug since it's really easy to get addicted to (one guy said he starts getting withdrawals after 3 days of use, so he limits his sessions to 2 days, max) being a drug that feels really, really good, and the withdrawals are hellish, so it always pulls you back to it one way or the other. As far as the actual risk profile if the drug, it's not toxic or damaging to organs afaik, there are some risks with street heroin cause you don't know what's it cut with. The real danger is ruining your life cause of it which is relatively easy compared to other drugs. Some people can get into the most pitiful states while addicted (also, IV can be physically damaging, and is a preffered way of use with addicts), it's not a pretty sight, and should act as a warning to only get into opioids if you've got your shit together and will be ruthlessly strict with it's use; otherwise you'll open a whole can of worms you won't be able to deal with and take the one-way ride to ruin-your-life town; which is why the drug is so demonized.

>>82473850
>I'm finally gathering the courage to do it. I feel a sense of relief and inner peace I haven't felt in a long time
I don't know exactly what you mean, but please be safe, anon. Don't do anything you might regret or will cause needless pain to those around you. I assume you mean suicide.
I had suicidal thoughts for a long time and the thoughts of offing myself gave me a lot of comfort and peace at the time, but I grew passed it and never looked back. I'm glad I didn't do it; though, I had a noose hanging in my room for a month waiting for me to get the courage and I got close a few times, even wrapping it around my neck a couple of times, but never jumped; and now my life is a lot better, and I don't wanna kms anymore (though threre are still challanges and hardships, I've become strong and optimistic in their face. Doing drugs once in a while helps a bit and priscribed meds help a lot, the APs and the benzos as well). I mean, it's your choice at the end, and you are entitled to do it at anytime as it is your god-given right. Hope you take care, and things will look up soon, anon!

>>82474203
>Psychs are the only drugs that aren't for junkies
Psychs usually leaving you *not* wanting more after a proper trip so they are the opposite of addictive.
>Maybe weed and oral amphetamines are fine
Weed and amphetamines are good at modarate doses and amounts but they have an abuse risk as well. I've been doing meth once a week and don't get withdrawals and can stop whenever I want, if, for example, I want to reset my tolerance, or for health reasons. There are people, though, that will find a way to ruin their lives with whatever escapism and/or feel-good inducing activity you'll present them with; they are just wiered like that, and will not stop when the red flags start to rise, but double-down and go deeper into that activity (be it gambling, vidya, internet use, porn or drugs). They will invest all their savings and time to that activity untill they've functionally ruined their lives and have nothing left. There are no junkie drugs, only junkies, who happened to ruin their life with that specific drug (ofc some drugs are easier to ruin your life with, and every drug has it's own rules of safe-use and a risk profile to take into consideration; like addiction risk, toxicity, dosage, etc.).
Even psychs can have detrimental effects on the mind (and maybe even body, temporarily) with prolonged use. Ime, LSD can be very physically tiering and straining as well as mentally. It has it's effects, some good, some bad, and can definitly lead to dark places, wrong choices and laps of good judgement; and building bad mental habbits that can spiral you down to a very bad path in your life (despite being a supposedly "safe" drug to take).

>>82475190
>They say if they don't get a joint and taco bell by midnight they're burning the building down
Drown them in alcohol (responsibly) as a temporary control messure and it'll be easier on the "everything is boring" front. Taco bell sounds harmless enough, though. Don't give in to temptation, anon! You can do it! (Unless you don't really want to, I suppose)

>>82454322 (OP)
Does taking SSRIs affect how well benzos and similar drugs work?
Specifically I'm taking Effexor, but I don't wanna take it if it's gonna ruin the experience of everything else.

>>82475489
>man fuck benzos, theyre nice every once ina while but when i binge them i go fucking insane
I am prescribed a ton of benzos and use them as-needed, for sleep or anxiety managment. They're just not that fun to abuse, and only makes me sleepy and dull, not even euphoria or a sense of internal well-being. I didn't have withdrawals yet but heard they are hellish; also, I don't compulsively redose or take high doses (except for the few times I tried to abuse them and was underwhelmed as to the effects)
>opiates are the best drug on earth hands down
The problem with those is the easy addiction risk that can bankrupt you quite quickly and leave you with nothing to show for it. As long as they are taken once in a while it's fine, I suppose, but prolonged use will only lead to damnation and ruination; many such cases, some right in your streets, which are a warning call to all opioid users.
I only tried 100mg of tramadol and felt a bit warm and relaxed, I can imagaine it getting better on higher doses, but I keep my hand on the pulse when it comes to opioids for the aforemantioned reasons.
Be safe, dependence free and have fun, anon!

>>82475707
>the one good thing about benzos us that it turns me into an irredeemable monster who deserves to be killed
Dude, I don't think it's the benzos, it's just you; maybe uninhibited a bit, but still you.
I take benzos daily (on low doses) and have no such effects. I can see it happening with stims, though, fo sure.

>>82475907
>I'm just tired of this bullshit at this point
Commit to the long t-break, anon, it'll be worth it in the end. Trust.

>>82475914
>Knowing me I'd probably just crash my motorcycle and rape my wife
NTA. While driving under influence of benzos can be really bad, I don't think it'll make you that violant. It just chills you out a bit and makes you sleepy and dull-sensed. Not the level of inhibition that alcohol can bring, for example. If you can handle a drink or two, you'll be able to deal with benzos just fine, without turning into a rape monster, guaranteed.

>>82475707
>>82481083
Yea I disagree as well they make me chill and people come up to me in public all the time.

Off benzos I'm way more asocial and withdrawn, while on them I'm chill as can be.

I don't understand people blacking out on them or doing crime, like it's just your subconscious bad personality surfacing due to inhibition.

>>82476129
>something as minor as spilling flour on the counter makes me panic and yell at everything
Those are some deep seated issues. You should make the most perfect batch of cookies, give them to your mom and confront her about shuting you down in the kitchen in such a harsh way.
I love baking and make pies from scrarch and give them to familiy who give me a lot of compliments; sometimes they don't come out right, but that is fine and part if the fun of trial and error until you get it juuust right and have a tasty treat to show for it. I like making lemon-bars, too, they're easy to make in large batches and tasty (and addictive) af.
Hope you'll work through that properly, anon. Goodluck and I hope you'll refind your joy in cooking again!

>>82478351
Sorry for responding so late. I've been IV'ing opiates for maybe 4.5 years at this point. I mostly do it bc it helps distract me from my mental illness(es), especially 'cause i have the anhedonic variant of severe depression.
I usually go on a week-long binge once every 1-3 months, depending on how bad the depression gets. I guess the only thing that has saved me from actually destroying my life is the fact that i'm not addicted in the sense of being unable to stop, don't got the genes for it. Rather it's just that, on a really bad week, i need something to distract me from the suicidal thoughts. Something to look forward to. And opiates help. They help me forget how much i despise myself and my life.

>>82479933
Lmao good to know i'm not the only one

>>82481452
Actually the reason why i started doing drugs in the first place was that i had been depressed since i was 12, and the idea of "treatment" that the social services had in mind were gaslighting me with psychologists who did not give a fuck about my problems as long as i kept them to myself. They didn't care about my psychological traumas and the fact that i was being treated like trash both by my parents and at school. This went on until i turned 18, and a few momths before my 18th birthday i had decided that i'm gonna start doing different drugs, and then i'm going to purposefully overdose and kill myself, and in order to OD effectively i learned how to IV opiates, though i never really gave a fuck when people said it was dangerous either way. I wanted to feel something.
And all of this is to say, how much bitterness, anger and damage is caused by neglectful and cold parenting, as well as when social services have anything to so with kids w/ mental health issues. I am so much less than what i could've been, and it makes me wanna disappear. But then again, i wouldn't be able to get high every few months. So i keep trying. At least i gotta decent therapist for once in my life now that i'm in my early-mid 20s. Took those pathetic bastards long enough.

>>82477028
>Curious, how would one venture about to look for LSD/shroom if one was to get curious?
Search on the clearnet local drug-related telegram groups and from there find links to dealer advertisement groups which consist only of ads for various dealers (like what drugs they have for sale, how much they cost and where-to they ship items by courier/dead drop). Find one dealer that sells what you want and in a good price (some of those ad groups have review bots so you can check reviews for the dealer) and contact them. There might be a verification phase where you'll be required to send a pic with timestamp and/or a pic of you with a drug (like a flower of weed or a baggie of something); beware, they might also ask for social media links and an ID pic to run against known narcs lists that they have to make sure you're not a known undercover cop/narc. After all of that, you have a new dealer, congratz! Just tell them what you want, how much and where to send it and you're set.
Also, as anon here said, DNMs are really useful in buying LSD since it has virtually 0% chance of getting picked-up by customs; being small sized and no scent. It take a bit of learning, but by some anons here, buying on DNMs is easy and convenient.
>What should I expect coming from mostly DXM?
A racing mind, closed/open eye visuals of things melting or colors and shapes. Patterens move and art gets a life of it's own (once looked at an art piece depicting a village and the villagers looked like they moved about their daily lives on the paper). You'll be functionally crippled as things like fine motorics go out the window (like rolling a cig, you'll make an abomanation of a cig) and you might burst into uncontrolable bouts of laughter and everything will seem funny. Bad thought patterns might happen and loops, also; that you'll learn to control. You'll also get psysically drained and mentally overworked close to the end of the trip so it's nice to mellow out with some benzos at this point.

>>82477319
>talk and have ideas that are completely delusional and ridiculous
That's very common. You *are* on drugs, you know. I have a lot of vain/crazy thoughts on LSD and I just mark them as acid nonsense and move on with the trip insted of fixating on them. You need to know how to self-sooth to avoid a bad trip on psychs, and learn to detect an acid thought and dismiss it as such. If it's too powerful for you to control/navigate through, maybe it is a good idea to stay away from psychs and amphetamines (as those can also cause a surge of thoughts that are not all not-crazy or some kind of drug-induced nonsense). But in my experience, it gets easier to navigate the nonsense and keep a clear mind (as much as possible on such drugs, of course) with time and experience, and not feel like a total schizo (and I am an actual schizo btw, and can take 250ug of LSD without getting a psychotic episode or voices or anything, really). Having a mantra can help too, for example, to ground you and your thoughts and let the trip take it's course without getting backlash thoughts or get stuck into bad thought-loops.
Goodluck with whatever you choose, and don't forget to have fun! (That is the most important part hehe)

How fast do phenylethylamines degrade? I have some pills with 2c-e, 2c-b-fly and methallylescaline that were lying at room temperature in an airtight container for slightly over a year, how much less potent should I expect them to be? Also is anything unusual going to happen if I mix them, or will it be more or less the same as taking corresponding amount of one of them?

think i've posted this here before but was browsing my drugs folder and figured i would post it again
it's accurate, saved it from 420chan years ago...god i miss that place

I wish my parents forced me to become a child star, I'd get to do premium coke at illuminati parties or some shit.

>>82481883
I'm somewhere on stage 5, however I'm really trying to stay the fuck off anything more than that.
I go through oxy pills way too fast for my own good, and I can't afford that shit.

>>82482072
Sacrificing babies drinking the blood of fetuses and having orgies

>>82481580
NTA. I have mental illness , too (plain schizophrania), and a weekly meth session helps me fix a lot of the pain and stress I have accumulated throughout the week from my symptoms (though suicidal thoughts have disappeared completely, so that's a huge plus), so I kinda get it. Though I understand you're in a not-caring state of mind, IVing is really dangerous and can lead to addiction and tolerance issues later down the line (though you seem to avoid it by some sort of miracle or indeed winning a genetic lottory. I heard from a regular heroin smoker that three days of continuous opioid use already start to cause dependence issues and withdrawals so I can hardly believe you can binge a week with no after effects, but I'll take your word for it, fwiw) I feel I must also say IVing can also be harmful to the body so be careful with that (but I guess that by now you already have the experience to mitigate harm properly). I think if you keep it under control and it gives you a reason to get out of bed in the morning and helps with mental issues, then what's the harm?
I also think it's neat you develop methods of extraction, and prefect the art, as it were; ingenuity is always nice to see.
>At least i gotta decent therapist for once
Glad you found a psychologist that gives a fuck and works for you. I avoid theraphy since I don't think psychologists are at all equipped to deal with actual mental illnesses and intrusive thoughts, and just try to say the right thing at the right time to dupe you into being happy with what you got (which is the principle of psychology, essentially) insted of helping you confront the issues and proccess them in a healthier way, like they should. A private psychologist/psychiatrist will obviously be more effective than whatever social-services offer, and I recommend forking over the money to get the better treatment, as it improved my life immensely.
Goodluck with your mental difficulties and use-control and don't forget to have fun!

>>82479741
>Brand amphetamines like "Adderall" have a huge markup
Oh I see, that makes sense. It happens here, too.
>if your country doesn't have easy access to Arabian speed paste, meth is cheaper than amp
I've never heard of Arabian speed paste, but meth is definitly more expensive than plain speed here(a gram of meth is 195$ and a gram of speed is 135$); the branded aphetamines are wayyyy more expensive than meth, though, and than pharma prices as well, obviously (60$ on pharma is 270$ or more on the black market. Luckily, I have a friend with a script that sells me at base market-pharma value, so I never needed to fork in that much cash for a bottle of 900mg "medical-grade" amphetamine that will be gone in a day or two anyway (at my pace of use), and if I have to, I just buy speed; which is dirtier for sure and oddly chemical-tasting, but much, much less expensive than brand-name amphetamine and lasts longer in my stash, at my pace of use, that is).

ok bois, how do I get my hands on some adrenochrome

>>82454322 (OP)
Can a good LSD trip fix a prior bad LSD trip?

>>82482152
My condolences on the schizophrenia man, my father has it, so i have some idea of the struggles you may have to endure. Though i will say, i'm curious how meth is able to help you? All i've ever heard about stimulants is that they tend to worsen the symptoms of schizophrenia, even if a person may be medicated? But either way, it's good that you've found something to give you relief, and it's fantastic that your suicidal thoughts have disappeared. I mostly got rid of mine once they finally stopped pumping full of xxRI meds and gave me a MAOi. Granted, i got the weakest MAOi (moclobemide), but unlike everything else i've tried, this is the one that allows me to get out of bed in the morning lol.
I'm not completely uncaring these days, thankfully. I used to be those 4 years ago when i was actively suicidal. You could tell i was in a bad way because i was doing literally any and every drug, whereas nowadays i have a refined taste and nothing else will do lmao. I'm also not immune to physical withdrawals, but since hard drugs are so goddamn expensive where i live, i can't afford a high tolerance either way. I guess the part where i'm lucky is that, instead of absolutely needing to be on an opiate 24/7, even like methadone or bupe, i just rawdog the withdrawals for a few days, instead of like stealing from people to afford more.
The closest i've ever come to that was when i was doing oxys. Which also shows that i'm not immune to addiction, since even though oxys didn't really feel that good, the urge to do just one more all the time was literally uncontrollable. But after stealing 200 bucks from one of my parents, i looked at myself with disgust, and managed to permanently stop using oxy. Also i secretly paid my parent back the 200 bucks once i was able to. No other opiate has ever given me such an insane urge to do more at any cost, not even heroin, but i was able to stop before things went too bad.

>>82482152

> I think if you keep it under control and it gives you a reason to get out of bed in the morning and helps with mental issues, then what's the harm?
My thoughts exactly! If a person's using drugs to cope with mental problems that would otherwise cause them undue suffering, and if the person can use drugs without *that* causing them undue suffering, then it's not the worst coping mechanism.

> I also think it's neat you develop methods of extraction, and prefect the art, as it were; ingenuity is always nice to see.
Haha, thanks a lot man! I admit i'm kind of proud of it :D

Also regarding therapists, i'm really sorry to hear that shit, cuz sounds like your experience with them was indeed pretty similar to mine in a lot of ways, and nobody deserves to deal with that kind of bullshit. It can really fuck somebody up badly to see that these filthy fucking hacks don't actually care about one's problems, but only about reading off their generic platitudes from a script. I have so much hatred for these people, it's unreal lmao.
But thanks for the tip, me and my treatment center (dunno exact translation) have been considering what kind of therapy would be the most helpful, and i found out that my country's social serivces will be able to cover most of the cost of a private psychologist if i commit to it. Either way, the private one can't be any worse than the ones i had as a kid! lmao

But yeah, thanks for the kind words man, seriously! And good luck to you too with your difficulties and with controlling your use as well. May the future only get better for you, friend :)

>>82479950
>it feels dirty
If you have actual problems, it's definitly not dirty, but a necessity. If you don't have actual issues then, yeah, it is dirty. It is also hard to get without the proper paperwork and examinations/diagnosis. I had a private psychiatrist letter noting I am ill enough that I can't work at all or finance myself, which is true, and it was a huge help in getting the disability. Also being on active treatment helps to your believeability. In my country, the amout of disability money you get corresponds to the precentage of your inability to work (a 100%, in my case. So I get the max amount) and not how crippled you are (50%, in my case, since I have my own place and can function semi-normally like getting groceries or cooking for myself and cleaning the apartment and so on).
Anyway, having disability coming in every month is a life-saver, and covers housing, food, and some drugs as well. If you have an opportunity to get it, I say go for it. Whining to doctors won't help you as much as you think it will. A proper diagnosis and being on active treatment is the way to go in my experience. I whined to general doctors and public psychiatrists and hospital psychiatrists (when I had bad episodes and went to the ER) a lot and they didn't diagnose my illness or helped in any meaningful way; they gave me a generic benzo and called it a job well done, a private psychiatrist will do whatever they can in their abilities to help you, guaranteed, will it be proper meds that actually work with minimal side-effects (insted of the generic APs they gave me at the hospital which had a lot of bad side-effects), or paperwork you need to pass the medical evaluation committee at the national-health/disability office.
Goodluck with whatever you choose, and I hope I gave a little insight and prespective, too.
P.S. Sorry for the blogpost

>>82480353
>this fucking shampoo is giving me flashbacks of when i was on meth. heart rate spike and shit. jesus christ
Interesting. I heard of psychs flashbacks as a caution tale of useing them, but never stim-related flashbacks. Good to know it exists, the sense of smell is very memory-connected so it's not a far-fetched idea. Hope you get through it alright and it won't bother you too much.

>>82480567
>i am never doing xanax again, i think i may have ruined my life
Sounds rough, that is why I am careful with benzo use. Out of curiosity, in what way did you ruin your life? Like fried your brain kinda bad, or did/said something wrong while blacked-out kinda bad?
>>82480593
>I'd never send my fucking ID to anyone on telegram with the intention of buying drugs
I was hasitant and paranoid at first as well, as it seemed excessive and dangerous, but all of the vendors, with no exception, (unless you're talking to a casual who grew his own shrooms and tries to sell them) use it to run against a known narc/cop list they have updated regularly (and some of it was leaked to the media some years ago, it was a whole story, and showed how far dealers were as opposed to the police force at recognizing possible narcs/undercovers) and to avoid selling to minors which is a worse offence than selling in general, and they will not serve you without a valid ID and a timestamp (but they will turn a blind eye to no social media links if you don't have them, like me). You can delete the pic from the both of your chats on telegram after it checks-out (and hope they didn't copy it somewhere else...) and you gain the dealer's trust as a safe costumer to sell to and send their people over to you without worring they will be arrested on the spot for holding/dealing. It's an excessive measure but very prominant in the telegram scene here, and is partly understandable from the prespective of the dealer's safety as they have reliable and reputable tools to weed-out undesireables and avoid getting cought altogether. Dealers are always the overly-paranoid types in my experience, and for good reason, too.
So far my ID did not get leaked or doxed anywhere I know of, or leave the dealers chatbox at all fwiw; it's a fairly simple but a very important check, in my country, and consumers just accepted that as the nature of the telegram black-market as a whole.
Sorry for blogpost.

Ye ik fed fed fed but how do u find a plug in a rural area can I get someone to come to me i havent a car

>>82482932
>in what way did you ruin your life?
i pretty much blacked out for 4 days, apparently i was so fucked up my boss sent me home on wednesdy and today i woke up 2 hours late and my boss told me to not bother coming in, he covered for me claiming i had taken the day off since were friends but still, also apparently wednesday night i had gone downstairs and told my family i wanted to kill myself to the point they almost called the police, my dad ended up clearing out my room and gave me two weeks to move out or he would call the police
lucky for me they didnt know it was xanax so they emptied the house of all the alcohol, id rather be known as a drunkard than a xanhead

bottom line compulsive redosing is very real, i never took more than 2-3 mg at a time but within 4 days i had gone through 90mg

>>82481139
>I don't understand people blacking out on them
While trying to go to sleep after a meth session, I took 4mg clonazepam and didn't fall-asleep, but blacked-out completely for 4 hours before regaining consciousness, and was still under meth effects, just very, very relaxed in addition to it. Blackouts can happen rather easily if you don't manage/underestimate your dosage and the potency of the drug itself and pop them pills like candy; which is very easy to do sometimes by mistake, so I understand people over-dosing and blacking-out not on purpose. The rest of that, yeah, I agree; it's their subconcious playing tricks while uninhibited, similarly to becoming violant and aggressive with alcohol abuse.

I'm on zuclopenthixol(an antipsychotic) you think I will be okay if a take some black market "acid"? I've had dreams where Im taking acid again and it never really kicks in.

Snorting fucking cum

>>82482486
>All i've ever heard about stimulants is that they tend to worsen the symptoms of schizophrenia, even if a person may be medicated?
I am medicated and doing stims and psyches don't aggravate my symptoms at all for some reason. The voices are in check and quiet to non-existant and the intrusive thoughts go away with the rush of the drug.
>I'm not completely uncaring these days, thankfully. I used to be those 4 years ago when i was actively suicidal
I'm glad you're past that. Once you clear that hurdle, life becomes a bit more tolerable ime.
>i just rawdog the withdrawals
Oh, so you do get withdrawals. I was confused as to how you managed binging so long without getting 'em, hehe. Would have been cool if you had a mutation that prevented you from experiencing withdrawals tho.
>the urge to do just one more all the time was literally uncontrollable
I had this with retalin and have this currently with meth. I go through 500+mg a session (half a day or so) and compulsively redose every 40mins to 2 hours until the beggie rans out. Now I devide a gram into two baggies so I can limit myself to one a session.
>But after stealing 200 bucks from one of my parents, i looked at myself with disgust
Had an ex who stole 600$ from her parents to buy drugs, and I could not believe her daring to do it; luckily I didn't get to that point, though my funds are low at the moment from compulsive buying of drugs. It'll right itself in a couple of months if I don't overspend, so it's all good. Disability ftw ig, hehe.
>managed to permanently stop using oxy
An anon here recommended oxy to me after saying I tried trams and I'm really considering getting like 2 pills and do them day after day just to say I did a big-boy opioid. But your story is a warning, I think, I'll have to consider it some more.
>i was able to stop before things went too bad
I'm glad you got it under control in time. Now I wonder wether or not try oxys. Thank you very much for the very insightful info!

>>82483219
no way this can backfire whatsoever so fuck yeah anon, do it!!

>>82483784
Hey I just want to make sure I don't waste any money (acid is expensive here). The psychotic reaction is of importance to me, if there's one I'll just take the meds I have been already prescribed. So you don't need to be sarcastic.

Tbh man I just want some non addictive stimulant so I pull up all nighters every once in a while, not really looking to get trippy. Oral meth sounds optimal but again, i don't want to waste my money. The stories of people who have destroyed their lives by using meth is something I have on mind, that's why I ask about acid.

life is fucking ruined so i might as well have a dxm trip, hopefully it will make me forget how fucked everything is

>>82483596
That's weird, but definetly good weird, lucky guy lmao. I used to have elvanse (european vyvanse), but after a year of usage + those new MAOi meds, the amph just made me jack off for hours, gave me horrible anxiety and the crashes worsened my depression. Guess stims ain't for me. Though a stim that doesn't cause anxiety could be fun.

Thanks man, i appreciate it, and you're defo right. I still have a lot of actual healing to do, but the upside is that healing feels plausible nowadays. And i'm happy to hear that stuff's more tolerable for youbas well. Mental illnesses truly are the worst, because even a terminal cancer patient can rely on himself, his mind. But i suppose it could always be worse, eh?

ACTUALLY, interesting thing i read a while back, apparently opiate withdrawals as well as tolerance happen due to a genetic mutation that humans have which causes opiate receptors to dysregulate themselves when exposed to exogenous opiates. Something to do with the spinal cord iirc. And iirc scientists managed to reverse that mutation in mice as well, which is pretty fascinating.

Yeah, that defo sounds familiar lmao. I'm assuming you're able to space out the sessions throughout the months as well though, right?

Ooof, 600 bucks is actually insane, though i guess i'm not one to talk lmao. Actually, you can probably imagine just how bad the oxy urges were, bc i *also* get disability payments, and quite generous ones at that. The 200 bucks i stole though, i know for a fact that my parent (of undetermined gender, to assuage my paranoia) would've lended me that money had i simply asked, as my parent keeps a bunch of banknotes that i pay into every month to live in my childhood house. But obviously i didn't get permission so it was still theft. That shit scared me even in the moment, lemme tell ya lol.

>>82482578
>If a person's using drugs to cope with mental problems that would otherwise cause them undue suffering, and if the person can use drugs without *that* causing them undue suffering, then it's not the worst coping mechanism
As long as strict control and discipline is exresized, I agree. Never let a drug control you, is what I say. At the end, the goal is usually fun, and addiction is not a fun experience in any way.
>I admit i'm kind of proud of it
As you should. We can always make things better or more efficient, as much as we can; and as we should, imo. You deserve a pat on the back :).
>i found out that my country's social serivces will be able to cover most of the cost of a private psychologist
That's really great! Ime, private practitioners will always go the extra step for you since they're working for their bread session-in-session-out, are evaluated regularly by the costumer, can be replaced easily, and don't get paid a set amount anyway by some higher general office for solely their time alone.
But I still am reluctant to try therapy, private or otherwise, since I am possitive my issues are way over the ability, education and/or pay-grade of most practitioners out there. I figure, some things you need to learn how to handle and navigate by yourself, and no-one can help or even comprehend the magnatude of the suffering and it's intricate way of operation, to be able to help even a bit. The meds are working wonders, though, so I keep visiting my private psychiatrist regularly for check-ups and adjustments to my scripts (last time she gave me a 30mg (overall in the boxes), monthly clonazepam script I was verry happy and excited about, it's my first big-boy benzo, and I use it as-needed only and try hard not to abuse it. That is, apart for a few times I intentionally tried to abuse it and was undewhelmed by the effects so I stopped without withdrawals, by grace).
>May the future only get better for you, friend
Thanks! You too! We can only do our best.

i made it 5 fucking years being an opiate addict and the second i switch the benzos my llife goes to shit, i fucking hate myself i wish someone would just come fucking kill me
if anyone lives in sothern mass i will give you a knife and make it look like sefe defense just please fucking kill me i cant take this shit anymore

>>82482371
>how do I get my hands on some adrenochrome
Just chew on someone's pineal gland and be done with it. The trick is to find a willing participant and the medical know-how to extract it whole, safely (try asking ChatGPT). After that, you're golden. You only need a bit, a little taste.

>>82483596

>An anon here recommended oxy to me after saying I tried trams and I'm really considering getting like 2 pills and do them day after day just to say I did a big-boy opioid. But your story is a warning, I think, I'll have to consider it some more.
Oh yeah, nah dude, don't do oxy. I mean, the urges get worse the more you do it, even if you don't have the hardcore opiate addict gene. But on the other hand, you'll only figure out if you have the hardcore opiate addict gene once you try it, and at that point you might be cooked. Though i suppose that's true of all opiates. If you wanna try an opiate, i suggest first conaidering the possibility that you could get addicted to them. For some people it's instant, for others it builds over a few months or years of usage. Some never get addicted, and for others it's just a matter of time, and you have no way of knowing which one you'll be. If you really want to though, i suggest definetly *not* doing oxy, i recommend codeine, or oral morphine if you can't get codeine. Codeine gets metabolized into morphine either way so it's more or less the same thing, tho codeine tends to be cheaper. If you do decide to give it a shot, then i hope you enjoy it, but not too much ;)

And you're very welcome, i'm glad i could help! Yeah, i don't recommend doing oxys if you can get codeine lol.

Meth make life feel real and I'm no longer numb but after a while it becomes more scattered and irritable. My imagination becomes really vivid so stim fapping feels very real and cumming is way better especially if you haven't in a couple of days.

>>82483219
Just from wikipedia:
>Zuclopenthixol antagonises [...] 5-HT2 receptors with a high affinity.
This means it will be blocking the primary sub-receptor responsible for the function of psychedelics. Whatever serotonergic drug you take will have strongly diminished psychedelic effects, if any at all. You should read about the pharmacology of your medication and then check the primary pharmacological function of the drugs you want to take.
>>82483922
>The stories of people who have destroyed their lives by using meth is something I have on mind, that's why I ask about acid
Anon, if you have mental dysfunctions which are bad enough to warrant the use of anti-psychotics, then almost any drug use could be a potential problem. This applies very strongly to hallucinogens which can warp normal people's minds very strongly. Tread very lightly.

>>82483988
Definetly, hard agree on that. There's no point making your life worse if you're doing drugs to have some extra fun.

Hehehe, thanks, i appreciate it :D Especially since i still come across threads of people being absolutely mystified by the time release mechanism on the different kinds of opiate pills. I can finally say that i achieved something of value in my life, eh? Lmao

That's good to hear, thank you :) I've been a little hopeless when thinking about therapy since most seem to be CBT or DBT -based, both of which have done jack shit to my autistic ass except giving me more anxiety and things to ruminate over, but then again i've only ever been to public therapists, so that's encouraging to hear!
I definetly relate to that, yeah. Though try not to lose hope. Even if some issues are too great or unusual for the average dumbfuck therapist to understand, i'm still a firm believer that someone somewhere must have the answer. I've heard enough miraculous success stories from people to know that this must be true, although obviously the right kinds of therapists become rarer and rarer the less mild your mental illness(es) are. Fucking posers. And even things which you must face alone, can be better processed with the right therapist to guide you, even if you can face them on your own, yknow?
But yeah, great to hear that you've got a working med regimen too :D The right meds really do save lives. Also the part about benzos being underwhelming, same here man lol. I tried abusing them when i was at my worst, and i only ever got mad that they barely did anything but make my spit taste like water. I guess there is such a thing as a benzo addict gene, and i don't got that either. Though it would be nice if benzos at least worked on my anxiety, but i guess that'd make my life too easy. Go figure lmao.

Thanks as well! And yup, very true. "We've gotta live the best you know how to".

>>82482478
>Can a good LSD trip fix a prior bad LSD trip?
Depends, but theoretically, yes, I think. I had bad experiences on LSD and had rebound trips afterwards that helped me deal with and proccess whatever bothered me in the bad trip in a proper and a more rational way than when I was deep in it in the bad trip. It's kind of a gamble, though, since you risk falling into the same thought patterns as before, re-experiencing the bad parts again; a loop. But than again maybe you'll come through the other side better adjusted. It has a lot to do with your mindset at the time, set and setting, and the dosage (if you go way out of your mind on acid, you won't be able to guide/control the experience in the way that would be most healing and benefiting to proccess the past bad trip properly, and might get distracted by the trip or too overwhelmed to to anything functional mentally at all; which is not a complete waste, having a strong good enough trip may be the right cure for you, but won't actively work towards a goal you may've set beforehand, so, yk). LSD is finicky and hard to control especially at higher doses, but relatively easy to do right and get a good enough result if you are in a fine place in your life, are good at self-soothing, peptalk yourself out of a funk and dismissing nonsense acid-thoughts as what they are, navigating the experience properly, as you may already be aware.
>TL;DR:
Yes, you can retcon bad experiences with another, better trip; but it depends on the goal you set beforehand (deal with the bad memories head-on or just having a good time in general to offset the bad time you previousely had), current mindset and setting in general.

Goodluck! Don't put too much faith in acid and its abilities tho, as it sells you gold-plated lies usually; which can be pretty and fun to indulge in, but r still lies, nontheless. In the end, we only have real-life to deal with issues the right way even if drugs can give you a good push in the right way, impo.

>>82454322 (OP)
Drinking and thc have fucked me up beyond comprehension. I unlocked latent psychosis last year, after years of nonstop smoking and the occasional shrooms trip. Since then, this psychosis deluded me into committing to a terrible career path, led me to recklessly spend almost all of my money, and has given me ridiculous delusions and occasional terrifying hallucinations. I've been drinking and taking zyns to cope, but now I'm seriously starting to notice a lack of sensitivity in my fingers and toes, and I know my brain isn't working like it used to. I've also gotten myself hooked on nicotine, and that, combined with the drinking, is slowly but surely eating away at what little money I have left. I've even started taking thc again, despite knowing how bad it is for my mind, just to distract myself. I'm really tempted to off myself, but I know my family will be upset. I just can't see a future for myself after how badly I've fucked everything up.

I really need to stop heroin but it feels so gud

>>82483033
Either I have a tolerance that is way too high or I'm just naturally immune.

But I drink and do benzos daily and never blacked out once

I'm starting to think that eating of stimpowders and typing of auto-erotic fiction on drug forums is finally totally passe now. This doggerel can be found in many such places

You see there's no effort, it's too half assed and unoriginal to even maintain any suspension of disbelief - this fap fiction is so feeble it makes choking the chicken seem like a chore.
Makina bungle after bungle of bashing the bishop really says to me "I don't even care about being serious when it comes to slapping the salami". Very much quantity over quality.

But, thinking about it, jacking off was always going to jump the shark eventually,as the idle mind of the stimposter eventually unable to resist the path of sloth.

But maybe, Carpet Surfing will be a new fiction? Carpet surf and all zany such permutations of it may be a new caprice instead of pocket pool and powder for once.
At least carpet surfing requires a sense of adventure. Ofc it assumes anyone can "pull" themselves away from from pulling their pecker
2bh

what are some essentials for a rockstar drug stash?

my current list is
>LSD
>Amphetamine (NOT METH, REGULAR AMPHETAMINE)
>Weed edibles, wax, and flower
>Ketamine
>Mushrooms
>Benzo
>A couple RC's like 4-ho-met for example
>Steroids
>Dutasteride

FUTURE ADDITION ONCE RICH:
>cocaine


Did i miss any essentials?

>>82484580
heroin. the ultimate rockstar drug

i wanna try ketamine but my friend is asleep

>>82484597
i know... but i was already addicted to heroin once, so not tryna do all that again. or..... am i...... yea i purposely had to take great pains to leave that one out lol

>>82484598
do it alone silly. ketamine is awesome. basically has lots of the benefits of a psychedelic headspace but without being as much of an actual "trip"- pretty casual desu

>>82484659
very, very fair enough then. please leave it alone forever. i'm trying to quit at the moment

>>82484659
do it for the clout rockstaranon, you'll relapse eventually anyways. might as well get to the point and relapse before you fade away

>>82483007
>i pretty much blacked out for 4 days
Damn, thats long! Must be a really high dose!
>he covered for me claiming i had taken the day off since were friends
At least you have that going for you, you won't be laid off prolly, which is a good thing all things considered.
>told my family i wanted to kill myself
Shit, that one is hard to get out from easily. Just lie and say you were black-out drunk, had a depressive spell come over you and didn't know what you were saying, is the best option, imo. Be very careful of a psych-ward visit against your will, anon, that can be a bad experience all-round and your family can make you go if they think you were real on the whole kys part.
>gave me two weeks to move out or he would call the police
That sucks. Will they really just leave you homeless, tho? Better look for a cheap place to live in asap that is in your budget. Having a place of your own is better anyway so theres a big motivator to make the switch, if you look at the half full part of the cup.
>lucky for me they didnt know it was xanax
Yeah, better keep that tidbit to yourself. Alcohol is more understandable to normies anyway, so you got out easy, reletively.
>compulsive redosing is very real
I had that with retalin but I always have my finger on the pulse when it comes to benzos and hard drugs in general. You need some will power to avoid the trap tho, and it can be dificult to stop at the right time, for sure. I feel your pain, anon.
>within 4 days i had gone through 90mg
That's a fucked-up amount and way too big a dose, man. When you want to abuse a drug, make sure you have alone-time with no responsibilities whatsoever, so you can enjoy it safely, and without causing the massive fallout you have. That should be a lesson for you that I think you already took to heart, so I wont put you through the shphill again, so to not put salt on your wounds.
Be safe and responsible with your drug use, if you take anything from this experience, that should be it. GL!

What am I in for having only done weed coke and benzos?

>>82484006
Why's that anon r you going though withdrawals

>>82484698
cant tell if this is evil or true
>>82484694
thanks i try. its been 4-5 years now of no opioids, so i think im abput past it. good luck with quitting yourself. its really fucking hard man. especially if rehab isnt an option.

if you do go to rehab, just try to remember that its not the program that really matters, but being somewhere without it for a long period. also, the comaraderie. meeting othjer people struggling with the same thing can be helpful, but stay away from aa/na. very culty, and they will have you wanting to relapse with how pushy and lame they are.

>>82484698
shut the fuck up fucking retard nigger
>>82484659
do not listen to this moron. you and i both know the drug. it's just too good to be true

>>82483000
>how do u find a plug in a rural area
Find a telegram dealer through local or close-enough drug related groups and pivoting to vendor advertisement groups and choose your dealer who sells what you want, cheap, from the listings, preferably a cendor with a widespread delivery service and with actual dedicated couriers mobile on bikes and such, they will get into any hole, if it's within their operation's coverage, in my experience.
Or you can order on the darknet markets as an alternative, they send everywhere there's mail service, afaik; and some anons swear by them, rather loudly and repeatedly, for quality of products, high discretion, low priceing and relative comfort of use, among a lot of other things, as well. Those are your two best solutions for a remote area, that I can think of. Goodluck! I wish you a future full of some good, cheap drugs, fren.

>>82484673
hes sick D:
gonna try lyrica instead and do ketamine next weekend

>>82484714
shit is less fun than weed or benzos. It's very sedating but the euphoria is significantly lessened compared to normal opiates.

>>82484957
I've done odsmt with benzos a couple of times

Relapsed on weed award.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lZclSusVHDQ

>>82484559
>I drink and do benzos daily and never blacked out once
It can depend on a lot of things like tolerance, body-weight and dosage of both drugs (or maybe you are a super-mutant that is immune to blacking-out, that's a pretty neat option in and of itself). If you got used to a certain dosage on the daily, you won't black-out where others will, obviously, and build tolerance quickly, to both drugs. I, myself, would black-out from a moderate dose of benzos pretty predictably as well as a few good, full shots of alcohol (about 5-7 knock me out, good and hard. But I almost never drink; don't like the high that much to spend hard-earned money on it. Maybe a nice craft-beer once a while to complement a good meal is comfy, tho), since I'm relatively a lightweight and have relatively low tolerance to both drugs, to boot. Be careful not to over-estimate your tolerance though, you can have a surprise coming, and that won't be nice or welcome, either; and do be aware that those two drugs potentiate eachother and make blacking-out as well as other health risks, like respatory-depression and organ damage, more common and likely to happen in the long hull. Best practice is keeping tolerance low, and avoiding dangerous drug cocktails, imo, but you be sure to have fun! (which is the whole point, in the end, I think). Also be mindful of withdrawals when quitting for whatever reason, since they won't be pleasent, most assuredly; each of those drugs on their own have a bad rwputation of having hellish withdrawals, so both at the same time feel like overkill.
Be safe and as moderate as you allow yourself to be, anon. Much luck to you as well as good highes and short-lived lows!
Cheers.

>>82470368
Pregabalin goes great with caffeine, you get all tingly and euphoric, the more caffeine the better

>>82484957
No way it's less euphoric than benzos

>>82483219
>I will be okay if a take some black market "acid"?
I'm a diagnosed schizo on two max-dose atypical APs and can use psychedelics fairly freely within a reasonable dose, without aggraveting or further manifesting my symptoms or getting a psychotic episode or anything close to it at all, and can have a pretty good time on them, generally speaking; also, and the APs don't seem to dampen the strength of the experience at all, I have full-blown trips with all that that entails, the good and the less good parts. But your milage may vary, by a lot, to say the least; and I can't in good conscience recommend you try to do the same as me (though the first time I tried acid while officially mentally ill, it was a "fuck it, if I get a psychotic episode, I'll just eat it raw and hope to god not to go totally insane" kinda vibe, so not very responsible of me in the first place. Good thing that things worked out well like they did for me in the end, tho. I consider myself very lucky, surviving an objectivey bad decision such as taking acid as a bonafide schizo person with a lot of active annoying, mentally-crippling symptoms). So be careful, but know that there is a *slight*, anecdotal, case-study of a possibility that everything will be just fine and there's nothing to worry about. Idk the limitarions or magnatude or severity of your illness and the extent of your active symptoms, so I can't say really, if you should attempt to take any psychoactive drug, especially a psychedelic, let alone risking LSD, which is very long-lasting and can cause an awefully uncomfortable experience for longer than is manageable to you, sensibly.
Take care and beware of doing something you might regret greatly later. And don't forget to have fun, whatever you choose! When in doubt, don't; is the right term to use here imo.
Goodluck with your illness, hardships and whatever option you go with, I hope it'll be kind to you. May your future be full of great highs and short-lived lows.
Cheers.

>>82485396
>the euphoria is significantly lessened compared to normal opiates.
I would think you were mentally retarded if it weren't for the fact that you're clearly on benzos right now.

Just here to vent about how unimaginably pathetic it is that in Finland, the opiate of choice for the druggies is buprenorphine. These pathetic fucking junkies take replacement therapy drugs for fun. Only in the last 3 years oxycodone has entered the market, but these greedy fucking pieces of trash are charging people 1 euro per milligram... so an 80mg pill costs you 80 fucking euros. I fucking hate the drug scene in this country. I wish the russian and swedish mafias would start importing heroin from sweden, or even nitazenes from estonia. These fucking subutex junkies are pissing me off real fucking bad. They inject actual replacement therapy drugs for fun, and then get hopelessly addicted to them. Fucking weaklings.

>>82483972
>lucky guy
I consider myself very lucky to have things work out so well for me while making an objectively bad decision on paper.
>those new MAOi meds
To my knowledge, MAOIs have a lot of dangerous cross-effects with plenty of recriational drugs, so I'll read up on potential drug-mix risks and thread lightly.
>the amph just made me jack off for hours
Same, stimfapping is actually a nightmare where you can't cum as hard as you try and sweat a whole lot, overheating. I usually overheat and go soft no matter what I try, so stimfapping is just a meme for me. It only worked kinda well once, I fapped for hours on end since I couldn't cum, and injured my little fella a bit. Don't recommend the experience.
>gave me horrible anxiety and the crashes worsened my depression
Not fun at all. I never got anxiety on stims, myself and can bearly feel the comedown since I redose at lower and lower doses to ease into the comedown comfortably.
>Though a stim that doesn't cause anxiety could be fun
Consider mixing a stim with benzos to take the edge off, I heard anecdotal tales on here of anons that did the same for that exact reason and it worked fine (apart from building high tolerance to two hard to quit drugs, that is).
>the upside is that healing feels plausible nowadays
Its reassureing to hear, man. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel is my point of view nowdays, that I don't have sui thoughts anymore.
>But i suppose it could always be worse, eh?
Rn my symptoms are very gentle and manageable and the voices are quiet and rare to hear,
but at their worst, it litterally is a living hell I must endure mentally for, sometimes, a few days in a row.
>scientists managed to reverse that mutation in mice
Very interesting and maybe a future cure to severe opioid addiction? Cool.
>you're able to space out the sessions throughout the months as well
If I'd want a proper t-reset, then I could, easily, sure. I have no withdrawals or psych cravings through the week, sober.

>>82483972
Cont.
>you're able to space out the sessions throughout the months as well
But I, personally, like the slightly higher tolerance since it makes meth much more manageable and gentle while still being potent and give me a real good time while at it.
>Ooof, 600 bucks is actually insane
She never paid it back as far as I know. But she already had a criminal record, and her family were insane in the head; having constant arguents and threatening eachother with knifes and shit. Not a nice enviornment to grow up in, definitly. So it's not far-fetched she'll dare to do something like stealing from them.
>though i guess i'm not one to talk
You've had a temporary, drug-induced lapse in judgement and you know it was wrong and repaid the debt in full, no reason to beat yourself up for it anymore, imo. All you can do is try to be better in the present and future, and it seems to me like you do know better now.
>you can probably imagine just how bad the oxy urges were
I've experienced psychological dependence before from a carious number of drugs to varying degrees of severity. Prolly not as severe as you are describing, but I could definitly imagine the sheer compulsion of the urges quite accurately, I'd wager.
>i *also* get disability payments, and quite generous ones at that
My disability payments cover housing, food and a modest amount drugs fairly well so I'm not wanting, tho I went a bitty bit overboard with the drugs this month as I might have said, so low on funds rn but will bounce back quickly, I believe. Still have a bit more than 500mg of meth to carry me through next week's session, and I'm optimistic of my ability to commit to a longer than usual break this month, and buy more the next one, with no issues. As far as things went so far with me taking breaks in the past, I had little dificulty staying sober ecen tho it's a bore and uninteresting at times. I have certain faith and exp that it'll go smoothly as can be!
Cont.

>>82480251
Telling someone to leave when he has kids with his wife is close to suggesting child abuse, Anon.
Better to have two parents that don't have a great marriage than to be a child of divorce.

>>82480515
Jesus, this guy sends his ID to random telegram dealers.
The lengths some people go to just not to open Tor is crazy.

>>82481136
What if she's very rapeable?

tips on consistent dxm use. ik the one week/plat. but even with that, potentially WEEKS of sobriety between uses, I still always begin to detach after consistent use. then i worry about hallucinating again

>>82482072
That's an unwise thought. Look at the lives of child stars, they're all FUBAR. You don't envy them.

>>82484039
Can vouch for this method, it's easier than it sounds.

>>82482596
Thanks for the long reply Anon. Here it works a bit differently but I won't bother with it. Even if I have issues, talking about them for hours and identifying with them would tarnish my soul so I won't.
And I don't need money anyway (I'm good at crypto), I was just being greedy.

>>82483000
Just buy on the darknet and the drugs will be delivered to your doorstep.
Safer, cheaper.

>>82486366
You knew it was going to be gross and not worth it, why did you do it anyway?

>>82484875
lyrica got me feeling retarded

>skullcap leaf
>1 7.5% beer (maybe another coming up)
>2 shots of vodka
>1.5 alice b toklas haschich fudge (majoun) cannabis edibles
>fuck you

>>82483972
>The 200 bucks i stole though, i know for a fact that my parent would've lended me that money had i simply asked
That's a tough thought, for sure, but I say don't dwell on it too much; what's done is done, and things were resolved as well as they could've been in the end. You were understandably under the spell of the oxys and didn't think straight, it happens to the best of us, and often comes with the territory with recreational drug use from time to time. The things that matter are, one, you stopped the addiction from advancing any further in time with proper resolve, and two, repaid the stolen money in full when you could've, which is more than some people will do, and is more than enough to fully redeem you of all related guilt, shame and/or regret, imho. The fact your parent would've given you the money anyway is just a depressing, useless thought, that may or may not be true and just gives you utterly needless, meaningless pain you really don't need to carry with you anymore esp for the aforementioned factual reasons above.
>bunch of banknotes that i pay into every month to live in my childhood house
One of the best things that happened to me since reciveing disability is that I could afford my own modest one-bedroom apartment. I strongly recomment moving out as it gives you a different prespective, privacy, independence, healthy responsibilities such as cleaning and maintaining the household and will change the nature of your relationship with your parents considerably to the better, ime (suddenly, you have to make an effort to keep in touch with them and/or see them in person, and that shows genuine caring and goes a long way into strengthening the relationship and the meaningfulness of your connection. Absence does make the heart grow fonder in this case).
I pay my mom with direct bank transfers for rent since I don't own a checkbook to write-out checks for the landowner, so we have a sort of a symbiotic relationship in a financial sense.
Cont.

>having good harvest
lots of weed

just wondering, has sasha grey done heroin? im 3+ years clean and considering relapse.
>*cracks beer*

>>82483972
>bunch of banknotes that i pay into every month to live in my childhood house
Definitly a quality of life improvement to move out and have your own place, can't recommend it enough.
>But obviously i didn't get permission so it was still theft. That shit scared me even in the moment, lemme tell ya
I can tell it left a bad impression on you, for sure. As I said, do not dwell on the well-resolved past and mistakes you've made while being compromised and suseptible to temptation and urges beyond your control at the time, which, again, is not uncommon and is a risk when playing with drugs for pleasure. What is more uncommon is having genuine regret and acting to settle the score and making sure it won't ever happen again in the same way as it did. Give yourself a break, man, we've all made miscalculations of judgement at one time or another for whatever reasons that seemed woth it at the time and all we can do is accept it as what it is and move-on, unburdened by guilt, shame and regret for good reasons, not because we are unfeeling, selfish psychopaths, but because we fixed it rightfully and honestly, in good faith.
>>82484041
>Oh yeah, nah dude, don't do oxy
I am seriously considering it rn with your story in mind. I mean, restricting myself to only two pils by only buying two from a DNM and doing those two alone won't be *that* bad or habbit-forming, right?
>the urges get worse the more you do it
It'll only be twice, tho...
>you'll only figure out if you have the hardcore opiate addict gene once you try it
I necer encountered a drug that develops addiction as fast as you're making it sound like oxys do, even with a predesposition to opiate addiction. I just find it hard to believe that 1 or 2 times of trying a drug can pull me in this deep, this fast.
Cont.

>>82486517
i dont rlly understand depressants
why do ppl like this

>>82486880
pregablin has more going on. idk ive never tried but its more somehow. kept in the lockbox for a reason

>taking meth tolerance break
>1st day normal, hypersomnia
>i can feel my brain thanking me
>2nd day end up more hypresomnia and sweats
>oh no
>3rd day (today)
>more hypersomnia, this time explosive diarrhea and dehydration (dont worry, mitigated with water already)

songs for this feel geekers

IM DWUNK ON STOUT AND VODKA, JUST ATE MORE WEED EDIBLES
>tomorrow im gonna smoke a maduro get stoned eat benzos and dwink at san genarro festie

>>82484041
>i suggest first conaidering the possibility that you could get addicted to them
I am against that mere notion on principal. I will not let drugs control me, full-stop. I mean, I can see myself likeing the feeling a lot and wanting to experience it again and even have a small psychological craving for it after a few uses, but not a full blown, uninhibited dependence and uncontrolable urges. I resist the very idea that I will be swayed by a drug like I've had happen to me before with various other drugs, on a wide range of intensities. It's not in my playbook, not in my dictionary. I won't fall to a drug's pull no matter the appeal or temptation. That is a law I have. Being free is more important than a high and always will be. I will not consider that idea for a second. Tho I am only human, so keep in mind.
>For some people it's instant
I find it hard to believe, honestly. It can't be *that* powerful, can it? I think it's just hearsay.
>you have no way of knowing which one you'll be
I'll be the one with stricts use-control and harm reduction messures to minimize the unwanted and addicting effects as much as possible.
>i recommend codeine, or oral morphine if you can't get codeine
I'll look into it. Oxys are just pills tho, it's such an easy method of consumption. Is oral morphine as easy to use? Does it come as liquid you need to messure and mix with water? Liquids are harder for me to dose right and I often mess up. I have zero experience, honestly.
>then i hope you enjoy it, but not too much ;)
That's the plan. In the end the goal is to have fun; as harmlessly as possible.
>you're very welcome, i'm glad i could help!
It's always insightful to hear from a person with experience!
>Yeah, i don't recommend doing oxys if you can get codeine
I will keep that in mind moving forward. Thanks for the advice, I know it comes from hard-learned lessons.

>>82483922
NTA.
>The psychotic reaction is of importance to me,
If that is true, then stay away from psychedelics as they are notorious for causing psychosis breaks on the regular for susceptible persons like you.
>if there's one I'll just take the meds I have been already prescribed
Don't count on your meds to act as trip-killers efficiently, that's from personal experience. It will be more effecient to take a benzo and calm down from the psychotic episode and intrusive thoughts that way.
>Oral meth sounds optimal but again, i don't want to waste my money. The stories of people who have destroyed their lives by using meth is something I have on mind
If you do it moderatly, and only once in a while, you should be fairly safe from most of the harm of meth addiction and abuse, easily. But it does have a bad risk profile, to be sure.
>that's why I ask about acid
Stims can counter-act some APs effects and can cause psychotic episodes, but psychedelics are way more likely to cause a break than a stim; on a normal effective dose with both, that is. If you want to pull an all-nighter once in a while and are afraid of meth and it's bad reputation, do speed (plain amphetamine); it's risk profile is way better than meth's and is less addictive, physically harmful or toxic and is cheaper in some places, though might be cut with addetives if it's low-grade street stuff. You can do all-nighters relatively worry-free on amphetamine for sure, and can dose low enough to mitigate the risk of a psychotic break while still being effective as a stim.
Goodluck.

>>82486890
it was mildly stimulating earlier i was playing overwatch and it was kinda fun but now i just feel sluggish i only took 300mg so maybe 600mh would be more euphoric or whatever

ive also never had much euphoria from benzos which ppl compare this to so maybe its just a thing with me idk

>>82483925
>life is fucking ruined so i might as well have a dxm trip, hopefully it will make me forget how fucked everything is
Stay strong, anon. Things will turn up when you least expect them to. Don't fall into a self-destructive trap of not caring anymore, it won't fix anything and leave you worse than you started. Be safe and keep a leveled mind, anon.

>>82487149
i dont like the stories of xanax amnesia. im always fake mature face in public or work. terrified of being amnesic totally uninhibited

>>82487190
ive never had the super uninhibited thing where ppl go do a bunch of crazy shit normally it just puts me to sleep the one time i had amnesia i took 2mg xanax on a flight and looking back i have literally no memory of picking up my bag but apparently i did cuz i have my bag

>>82486517
That's the whole point of Pregabalin.
You're functioning at a lower level for a few hours, so things don't bother you as much anymore. It's good for low stress and anxiety.

>>82484104
>Meth make life feel real and I'm no longer numb
It sounds a bit worrysome to describe it that way, like you'lll get hooked on it or something. Have you tried plain amphetamine first, or jumped right into meth?
>after a while it becomes more scattered and irritable
That's your brain being drained of it's resources for too long a time and getting tierd, anon.
>My imagination becomes really vivid so stim fapping feels very real and cumming is way better
Stimfapping never worked for me as hard as I tried, I would just overheat, sweat beads, go soft and give up :(. Glad it workes for you, though. Keep having fun, anon.

>>82486758
Sasha Grey had sex with niggers, I wouldn't follow her example on any matter.

>>82487218
i did have a pretty relaxing night playing overwatch and i am not seething as much talking to this girl that always upsets me i think this would be best combined with something more euphoric like weed

overall gabaergics have been a pretty disappointing drug for me but i could see myself doing this again if i wanna have a relaxing night being retarded

>pick up coworker for business trip
>coworkers brother is a friend
>gave me a goodie bag which was supposed to be weed
>turns out it was a small amount of bud, plus edibles, plus what looks like shrooms and some mysterious pills.

What the fuck do I do? I want to ask him if these are shrooms because I don't really do them, but I feel obliged now. Gotta ask what the pills are though because I aint taking anything I don't know what it is.

>>82484479
>I unlocked latent psychosis last year
The answer is simple and should have been done when the first symptoms came about- go to a pstchiatrist and get meds as they will vastly improve your life quality and ability to manage your symptoms.
It's sad to gear you are deciding to take the self-destructive path as opposed to seeking professional help that will actually make a difference.
I am very sorry to hear of your hardships and hope things will get better for you. I am a schizo (which is just chronic pstchosis) and my life changed for the better the last 3 years as opposed to my self-isolating, suicidal thought ridden self of 4 and more years ago. Life will get better, guaranteed, as long as you act actively to make it better and won't give-up.
Goodluck!

>>82487324
Don't give up on GABAergics until you've done a big dose of GHB/GBL, or a big dose of Phenibut.

>>82487279
i concur. im dwunk and shtond, and i concur.
>time for chickn pot pie
fuck me

>>82487363
>I feel obligated to do psilocybin mushroom
You're not obligated, if you don't want to do them, don't.

>>82484531
>I really need to stop heroin but it feels so gud
Anon, freedom will always be more important than a high. If you can help yourself, please do so before it's too late. There are proper ways to do h without getting addicted and getting high-tolerance.
Goodluck and keep safe, anon.

>>82487392
I'm mixed, I sort of want them, but just need to.. I don't know, clarify with him that's what it is and the dosage I should be taking...

Shrooms make me sick and then I feel good, but the times I had them, I was with people I didn't like in really dirty places... so I've always wanted to try them like... differently. I don't know.

I don't like the nauseas.

>>82486351
>Better to have two parents that don't have a great marriage than to be a child of divorce
It is most definitly not like child abuse, anon, you're over inflating it. I am a child of divorce and turned out just fine and had a stronger relationship with my parents as a result. If anon is miserable, he should take action to fix that, and that can involve some hard choices. Being in an unfulfilling relationship sucks your soul out and leaves you a husk of a person with no happieness in life ime. Don't over-react.

>>82487641
Divorce is not the proper answer to an unhappy marriage.
What do you even think a marriage it?

>>82486364
>Jesus, this guy sends his ID to random telegram dealers
It's a very common thing to do in my country and drug consumers have accepted it as a rule of the market in the telegram drug scene. As I said, the dealers have an updated list of narcs/undercover cops that they check the ID against to ensure you are safe to sell to, and they don't keep the pics, but delete them after it checks out. No dealer will serve you without proper varification. I agree it's excessive and worrysome but it's just a fact of the market and is unavoidable in my country.
>The lengths some people go to just not to open Tor is crazy
I am actually trying to learn how to use DNMs safely, but there are no domestic vendors so I have the paranoia that my package will be sniffed out by dogs at customs and my house will get raided. I'll prolly still give it a try in the coming months when I have more money, tho. Hope everything will go well as it's very cheap to buy from darknet markets compared to the local market here and will do wonders to my wallet.

>>82487756
>you can't buy drugs without KYC
Lmao you street people are priceless

>>82486382
>What if she's very rapeable?
Well, then it's out of your hands, really, doesn't it?

https://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=52907

Anyone have any more cozy erowid reports like this? I want to know this guy in person. Seems like all the 'older brothers' silently present in the background when visiting friends in elementary school.

>>82487769
True, when you think about it she brought it onto herself didn't she?

>>82486437
>talking about them for hours and identifying with them would tarnish my soul
The option is always there for when you're ready. I did it when I was at my wits end, so hopefully you are better off than I was back then.
Cheers.

>>82487755
Haven't you read the updated vows?
It's "until I think I can find something better" instead of "until death do us part".
Then the priest says "May Science and Fauci our Lord and Savior bless this union unless they must be six feet apart".

>>82486894
I usually get a functional first day off it and the rest of the week I feel lathergic, out of energy and sleep for most of the day. After a week or so I am back to baseline. But idk in what frequency you used, so your milage may vary.
Goodluck with your break, anyways.

40mg 7-OH, some beer, and a pack of amanita muscaria gummies(1200mg). Will try to update when mushies hit, because I couldn't find a reliable dosage online, package just says 1 gummy and you'll trip. I took 4 but whatever. I already feel really good and im house-sitting for my sister, so I get privacy, free beer, and some cash. This should be a job, id be really good at it

>>82487755
>Divorce is not the proper answer to an unhappy marriage
It most definitly can be. I'm sorry I'm walking all over your notions of the sanctity of marriage, but it's just a meaningless social formality. Of course, if the relationship matters to them (or for the sake of the kids) they can go to couple's therapy or do some MDMA together and work on their problems; but sometimes it isn't fixable, and the best way is to seperate. That is a very reasonable thing to do when you're unhappy.

I hit a bong for the first time in a long time and I got really fucked up to the point that weed became a psychedelic.
it's probably less efficient than using a vaporizer but it hits so much better.

>>82487761
>you street people are priceless
Buying on telegram is way safer than street dealing (which I tried and disliked a lot, it's very shady and the nigga selling is definitly duping you and might rob you for the heck of it) and more convinient since the vendors have nation-wide availability and get to you in 45mins or less. Laugh all you want, DNM elitist, it workes. Not too different than giving your name and home address to a DNM vendor imo. Plus, in DNMs there is no risk of getting arrested in the street for dealing by undercover cops, in telegram and in person dealing, it's a daily concern. Just a fact of the market, life goes on just fine.

>>82487839
i hit a vitamin/protein shake for those nutrients, helped massively. mmm, calcicum, magnseium.... also got some probiotic yogurts to boost the absorption.... helped a lot

using meth to fast is ironically probably good for an overall detox in some weird paradoxical way, i feel 100% better

>>82487973
Glad you've got a regimen that works for you. I just eat the lethargy raw and sleep it off. Still try to keep hydrated and well nurished, tho.

Thank you all for all the fun and interesting convos tonight, anons. I will be going to sleep now as it is very late for me. Goodnight to one and all, and don't forget to have fun!

>>82487938
first time weed is psychedelic exp imo. i got legit out of body exp first time. never again tho :(

>>82487908
In that case marriage is worthless, it's just a free union, vows don't exist anymore and it's just all a sham.
There's a reason marriage is a thing, and people don't simply have a roommate and fuck until they get bored.

>>82487969
On a DNM you could give anyone's name or address, it doesn't prove anything so the cops can't go after you for it.
Hearing stories about people giving their ID to a drug dealer on telegram as if he was a banking app is crazy to me. Don't you get identity theft issues?

>>82487854
I'm starting to think I also got scammed on the amanita muscaria gummies... I don't feel anything more intense than I would after 4 drinks. Fell for it again award goes to me

>>82488109
You don't get it, the shady drug dealer has ZERO intention, and wouldn't even benefit from selling my information to other people!! Sure he only cares about money, but we're like, best pals and he wouldn't do anything bad to me. Plus, everyone else is doing it!

no job living at home trying to get high. I never thought it would get this bad. Gonna wreck my credit and buy a ton of 7oh and bulk kratom after my new card ships in a few days.

Its so over past 25 sneaking around your parents to get high just so sad, the euphoria of completeness is completely gone

How do I get over the paranoia of having a heart attack every time I do speed/coke? At some point I always focus on my heart beating fast/hard and I can't focus on anything else. It's just annoying because I know I'm not gonna die (yet).

>>82489022
find a different drug to do

>>82489022
Educated yourself on drug use and heart health, learn what's safe and what's not, how a drug attack happens, what signs to look for, etc.
Then you won't have to be afraid of a possibility, you'll know what is what.

What scares you is the unknown. Conquer the unknown.

>>82485373
may i know the ratio
300 pregab + 200 mg

di nothing to me
am i doing it wrong

>>82489022
do ketamine, opposite effect

getting a second weed to drink, destination Mars

Why do I feel like I have an MDMA/GHB hangover but I haven't done any drug? It must be something serotoninergic I assume, what could it be?
Man I feel like shit.

>>82488109
>Don't you get identity theft issues?
I think I addressed most of your points in previous posts and I don't want to be redundent; go and read my last few replies on the matter.
But again, I agree it's outrageous and potentialy risky (like importing meth from a DNM through customs, all black markets carry some amount of risk to them). But for the most part, the dealer just goes through the motions to verify you as quickly as possible and deletes the pics afterwards, so unless he copied it, which, why would he? There's no mess to clean up. So far there were no leaks of consumers identities talked about in the media or at all on groups, and I don't see my dealer keeping or selling my ID pic to anyone, he is just a business man looking for safe customers to sell to. And as I said, it's just a fact of the current local market; risky? maybe if you fall on a doxing, blackmailing, id thieving scumbag (which is easy to avoid with reviews and group mods banning predators and scammers), but an inseparable part of the biz nontheless.

For the record, I only verify with reputable vendors with good reviews and planty of sales, and shared my ID like, 3 times total in the last 3 years (I did share it a bit reclessly as a stupid 18yo teen tho, for quick and easy acid and weed); a guy for weed my close friend recommended, a guy for psychs I found by chance on an ad group that was cheap and had good product and a guy for all of the rest, like stims and stuff, that you won't find on ad groups, as he is "exclusive", that I was refered to by another dealer who didn't sell what I wanted (speed) and helped me out just cus he was a nice guy. I don't worry about my identity being stolen; there is a small chance, but unlikely in the grand scheme of things. There are most likely tens of thousends of ID-sharing customers in this country, and nothing major happened yet. And still, undercovers and narcs are being doxed on a monthly basis, keeping the black market safer to use for all.

>>82486366
When I was off my meds I'd be like on speed 24/-7 gaming sessions of 7+hrs and stim fapping and butting stuff up my butt.

Stay away from amphetamines

>>82489226
When do I have to be worried? I've tried to research it but I never find anything useful, that's why I'm turning to you guys (smart huh?). I think I just need some reinsurance. A gram of speed off the street spread out over 24-48 hours shouldn't kill me right? I just need to learn how to deal with the anxiety. I live in Sweden by the way

>>82489671
Open chatgpt, ask your question in mode deep research, let him read the entire scientific literature on heart and amphetamine health and give you a report ten minutes later.

>>82488093
>it's just all a sham
Well, yes, for the most part. A very tribal, socially approved sham, tho. It's just a piece of paperwork and ritualistic theater, which is very heart warming but means nothing in the end. What really matters are the facts on the field, the marriage life itself; if it doesn't work, get out. Simple as. It might involve some minor heartaches and the kids being confused for a bit before adjusting to the new way of things, but it is what you should do in the case of being unhappy/unfulfilled; it's your right and previlege to seek happieness in life unburdend by social POVs, judgement and ritualistic superstitions and "values". You have the Freedom to do anything you wish to do, as long as it doesn't harm others. And no, leaving the kids with mom and seeing them at weekends doesn't count as harming others, it counts as being an indipendent person with needs and desires, which is fine and valid.
>people don't simply have a roommate and fuck until they get bored
Many such cases. In fact, a lot of marriages (most of them are reckless) end up like that one way or the other as the intense love you felt towards your SO diminishes while the chemicals in your brain return to baseline level and you fall out of love. Simple and commonplace. I'm sure divorce statistics will prove me right; from a google search I just did, I found that the USA's divorse rate for first marriages are set at 40-50 percent these days.
Marriage is a primitive practice and an act of social theater that is just socially acceptable by many people, for some reason or another; mostly religious teachings and cultural tradition.
It don't mean shit.
Thank you for attending my ted-talk.

>>82489760
>divorce
>minor heartache and kids confused for a bit
Stopped reading there. You're either dishonest or grossly ignorant.

>>82489760
Nta but those 50% divorce thing is fake, it's based on a cohort of people studied for 10 years to see how the divorce rate in the first ten years of marriage. They then multiply that number by the decades of life expectancy left and get the percentage of divorce, but most divorces happen in the first decade, so it's absolutely retarded.

Ask why the media like to repeat that stupid bullshit so much.
God I hate jews, love from Asia.

i need one of you fellas to decide if i should take 1 mg or 2mg of clonazepam for this family gathering
1mg usually works but i want to be a bit more disinhibited
i have quite a bit of tolerance but it still works for anxiety
thanks

>>82489892
you wanna be more erratic?

>>82489907
not erratic just talkative i dont have anything else right now im kind of fucked

>>82489892
Take 4mg and ruin the whole event.
They won't invite you again. It'll be a difficult week but a good investment long-term.

>>82489942
good idea i just might do that

>>82489822
>Stopped reading there
It's a really insulting thing to say, and a shame as i put in a lot of effort to make my point understandable. Maybe I exaggerated a bit by calling the heartaches minor, fair enough; it can be heart-rippingly painful at times. The confused kids part I stand behind, they will need time and guidence to wrap their minds around the idea that mom and dad arn't together anymore, and they'll only get to see dad every other week or so. (depends on age, ofc, but I assume little ones). Please read the rest as it encapsulates my views on modern marriages and might provide a valuable insight; I pulled stats and everything.
>You're either dishonest or grossly ignorant
No, I just see your set of values as primitive and meaningless. We don't share principles, and that is fine. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions, as misguided as they might be.

>>82489876
>those 50% divorce thing is fake
I just pulled the statistics out from google and don't know the method used to determin those numbers; not to put you on the spot, but do you have sources? I seem to recall planty of other studies and graphs posted on this very board with similar numbers (tho it was mostly race bait). I'm sure a quick search will prove me right anyway as what I'm saying is a proven fact, globally.
>most divorces happen in the first decade
Makes sense and my point, I think. Falling out of love happens quick, and then you ruminate about it a bit, until you've had enough and leave. Simple.
>Ask why the media like to repeat that stupid bullshit so much
Maybe it's true? Idk, I don't watch the media anyway; they all have agendas to push, and ready scripts to mindlessly parrot.
>God I hate jews, love from Asia
I dislike (don't hate, per-se) some Jews as well, love from Israel :).

>>82488217
>You don't get it, the shady drug dealer has ZERO intention, and wouldn't even benefit from selling my information to other people
They are not as malevolent as you make them out to be, just business owners with people to protect and customers to serve. They're business-men, for sure, but they have a wide-spread business to worry about and a reputation to uphold. If there were any major leaks or even individual cases, we would've heard about them by now, for sure 100%; it will destabilize the market and trust relations between vendors and customers, prolly will put an end to the ID check, but also increase the amounts of arrests of vendors vastly, making the market unreliable.
>Sure he only cares about money, but we're like, best pals
We're definitly far from being best pals. It's more of an impersonal relationship focused on the service given, while being polite and friendly and casual as a nicety.
>Plus, everyone else is doing it!
Yes, they really do. Tens of thousends of drug consumers share their IDs on telegram markets regularly and are totally fine. As long as the vendor or you delete the files and there is no reason to think he copied it with intention to sell it, which is far-fetched for most of reputable vendors, there is nothing to worry about. I've never heard of a leak or ID selling-rings on telegram markets even in rumors. It's just a drug market like any other, with it's verification methods (that, again again, are a big ask, admittedly). Again again again, it's just a fact of the market and is here to stay, it seems, being effective at what it does, while at the same time being harmless for the vast, vast majority of cases.
Your sarcasm stings like a poison barb.

>>82489671
NTA.
>A gram of speed off the street spread out over 24-48 hours shouldn't kill me right?
Ime, about 700mg (on high tolerance, keep in mind) spread over 6-8 hours can cause minor heartaches (but I combine high doses of ceffeine as well) but nothing a few deep breaths can't take care of. Spread over 24-48 hours will be just fine unless you've got a heart condition already. Don't worry about your heart-rate too much; and worst case, you can lower it by taking a benzo to chill and take the edge off. As anon said, educate yourself about the drug and it's side-effects and signs of an OD to look out for. You've got me wanting to do some speed rn ngl lol.

>>82489892
>if i should take 1 mg or 2mg of clonazepam for this family gathering
If it still is effective as you say, take the one mg (maybe settle for 1.5mg if you're unsure still). Less unknown factors to deal with and less sleepiness. It'll deal with the anxeity all the same and make you relaxed enough to be social.

>>82490391
alright ill take your advice thanks

>>82490447
>alright ill take your advice thanks
No sweat, I'm glad. Goodluck on that family meeting!

What is the most functional benzo to use to get through stressful days? Ativan has been a godsend when I need it every couple of days but the doctors at the VA really don't like the idea of giving it to me for anything but acute panic attacks.

>>82486880
Depressants are really useful to give yourself a break from yourself, that's how I see it, i'm usually energetic enough and already kinda anxious and paranoid, most stimulants except mdma and maybe adderall just worsen these things, plus the comedowns of these are very shitty, and with psychedelics eh idk

benzos and alcohol are shit tier depressants btw, atleast for me they are usually not that euphoric and being an actual retard for some good hours is not something great

speed first timer, just found out my scale sucks. good scales too expensive. would it be a bad idea to put a tiny (<10 mg) chunk into my water every hour till i'm feeling it?

>>82490661
>What is the most functional benzo to use to get through stressful days?
My first thougt was Lorazepam as it's mild and won't interfere with your daily function, then I read the rest of your post.
>the doctors at the VA really don't like the idea of giving it to me for anything but acute panic attacks
Then they're stupid. Lorazepam is baby's first benzo(similar to Oxazepam which is also a good functional choice), and is relatively weak and short-lasting (4-6 hours max) and has very little addiction risk(as opposed to other, heavier benzos); perfect for a mild sterss relif or a minor panic attack, not an acute one; you'll need like 10-20mg of that shit to hit you enough to get down from a severe panic attack, if not more(and it's not tolerance-related with me, I did it on virtually zero tolerance at first and still needed to use 5+mg to get a tangable effect). Get better doctors(preferebly a private psychiatrist; they will go the extra mile for you ime, and will spoil you with meds as those are their only methods of treatment as is their profession) that will priscribe you with Lorazepam as a regular monthly med to always have on-hand, and maybe even give you a script for a stronger, longer-lasting benzo to use in emergencies, as-needed. I got Lorazepam as a regular monthly script in my first days at the psychiatrist and it helped a bit with social anxeity on bus rides and can help taper off from harder benzos well. I also got a script for Brotizolam which is a short-lasting (4-6 hours max) but very potent sleep-inducing benzo-analogue I sleep with. The last few months I was getting muscle spasms as a part of my symptoms and my psychiatrist prescribed me a regular monthly Clonazepam script(30mg overall in the box, which is more than enough for a month)which is a big-boy benzo(lasts up to 8-12 hours)that has a higher addiction risk, so I use it sparingly, as-needed.

So Loraz or Oxas are your best options. And consider switching doctors asap.
Sry4longpost!

1:41AM
Can't sleep even though I have things to do tomorrow
Thinking about my dead child, small bouts of crying
What drug would you recommend?

>>82491264
>good scales too expensive
Not true. I got a ~20$ scale from amazon. It has 0.001mg accuracy and workes really well for presice dosage. Here:
https://a.co/d/3IA9POx
Don't gamble on your doses, anon, it can be dangerous and leads to dosing more than needed/wanted and is a waste.
>would it be a bad idea to put a tiny (<10 mg) chunk into my water
When I had a shitty scale, I'd top it up to the lowest point it recognizes weight and dose from there (so like 0.01 or 0.02) so I'll have at least a vague idea of how much I'm dosing. Also remember to take mental timestamps of your last dose so you'll know when to redose effectively to prolong the high (every 1-2 hours), intensify it as-needed(every 20-40mins) and soften the comedown while dosing less and less as you approach the end of the session (every 20mins to an hour then two hours and so on 'till the end).
Be safe and have fun!
Hmm now I want speed.

>>82491591
oh, hm. that one isn't available at all here and others i saw were $60+. maybe i'll look around some more. my idea was to count by the threshold of 10mg like you say, but the issue was that the scale seemed too unreliable, sometimes showing what was 0.02 as 0.00. thanks for the other info, although it is kind of common sense that's also what i'm most likely to miss.

>>82491443
>Can't sleep even though I have things to do tomorrow
I've been up for more than 30hours now and can't sleep due to meth even though I am very tierd, so I get you. Trick your brain that you wanna stay awake and paradoxically it'll make it easier to fall asleep from what I heard.
>Thinking about my dead child, small bouts of crying
Damn, that's real though. I wish I could do or say anything to make you feel better but it's way over my pay-grade I'm afraid. I hope you mourn enough to come out the other side stronger, with resolve and a life-affirming attitude. I experienced bouts of crying in bed over the state of my life before, but can't imagain the sorrow of losing a child; I am so sorry, anon. Best wishes to you and goodluck with your struggle.
>What drug would you recommend?
For forgetting/easing the pain, downers like GABAergics such as alcohol, benzos, gabapentin and it's likes and maybe ketamine can help you dull the pain and make it tolerable.
For dealing with the pain and confronting it to reach a better and even an empowering prespective I'd recommend psychs like LSD or shrooms. Ime,LSD is very good with overcoming hurdles if you navigate it right, which can require some previous exp in tripping; and especially avoiding thought loops and bad thought patterns that can become a real bad habbit outside the trip, later on in real-life, so use with caution, hehe. But it can also help you proccess the loss in a profound way that will give you some sort of closure and empower you to move on, chin up; and make you better-tuned as a whole with life energy and wonderlust. It's really hit or miss with psychs desu and depend a lot on your state of mind, place in life(which is kinda bad rn imo)and set and setting.
For dulling the pain as a whole in one fare swoop, opioids are an option, like coedine, but maybe stay away from opioids when looking for an emotional crutch due to abuse risk and expected addiction and withdrawals that come afterwards.
Sry4longpost!

>>82491896
>that one isn't available at all here
It's a shame, it is a really good scale. I see they send to many countries, tho. There are similar scales of the same price tag, just look in amazon for a bit and you're sure to find one in your budget.

>others i saw were $60+
I think it's worth the money as it'll pay for itself in no-time by saving you product and enhance your drug experience, as you could fine-tune it to your liking with zero worries of waste or under/over dosing.

>my idea was to count by the threshold of 10mg like you say, but the issue was that the scale seemed too unreliable, sometimes showing what was 0.02 as 0.00
I had a scale like that and it sucked. To use it I dosed high so it'll register, so like 40mg a hit, but it might be too much for you and to much effort in general to keep track of your dose level. My advice, try to get a reading for 0.02 or so and eyeball it from there (keeping it on the scale for the chance it'll work) doing similar looking amounts until you feel the buzz and then redose 20mins later to really hit the spot. Then it's just doing maitenance doses every hour or two to keep it going until you're done.

Between you and me, I've got about 16 pills of 10mg medical-grade amphetamine waiting for me right on my desk in a bottle, but I'm afraid my tolerance will make them useless so I must wait for the Tbreak to end and even then I will have to dose 60mg to kickstart a session properly. The lesson is, don't reach high tolerance (which is easy to do with speed, that is how I started; compulsive redosing until I ate 700+mg a session. And have high tolerance ever since; even thought I quit it abd replaced it with meth, which has cross tolerance, so it never got down to baseline level in monthes, now. Beware the slope), it'll be a drag waiting for it to drop and is a wallet killer.
Have fun doing low doses and actually getting high off of them (not bitter at all, hehe).
Goodluck and may your speed be pure as fresh winter's snow.

>>82491260
thats kinda what i figure
pregab seems shit for that since its like a 2 hr come up time and ur stuck as a retard for hours
xanax is good for that but it just puts me to sleep so its not much of an enjoyable high
alcohol is probably the best in my experience because theres actually a feeling of euphoria from it its the only depressant that makes me feel good

i will try 600mg pregab in a few weeks and maybe that will change my mind

>>82492299
I feel bad not giving you much interaction back when you write so much and give apparently good advice, but I'm rationalizing it by assuming you're on something and that it's not too tedious for you. I appreciate the tolerance talk. Speed is absurdly cheap comparing to drinking (which is what'll do otherwise), so I'm kinda not worried about that, even though my income is low and unreliable. I did what I said in spite of what you said (and not very carefully) and now I'm sitting here and wondering if I'm going to selfdiagnose adhd cause I just feel like watching yt and falling asleep in my chair

god please dont let this shit ruin my life

does anyone know if 4-aco-dmt (shroom gummies) has a tolerance like shrooms that needs 2 weeks to reset?

I'm feeling so empty I just wanna die

>>82492753
same anon, everything on earth is nothing but pain, i dont have the balls to kill myself i just wish i could piss someone off enough that they beat me to death

trams dont hit like they used to, i think im going to switch to heroin and fucking die

those full spectrum cannabis extract disposable vapes hit so hard. I member the shitty distillate vapes but this is in another league.

Like a bong rip x 5. My tolerance is so fucked now, big bong rips or big joints of flower barely get me high

>>82492315
You know, you can always turn to opioids for an euphoric downer experience. Just don't over do it and you'll be fiiiiine. For sure.

In my experience benzos just make you dull and sleepy and dont give euphoria except for that one time I ate 2mg Brotizolam with a glass of boxed wine and it was pretty good ngl, if you could resist the urge to sleep, that is; was kinda like pleasurely floating through the sky with no worries tho I made some mistakes texting people I souldn't have, saying some pretty crazy stuff I shouldnt have said; never experienced a laps in judgment that big under influence ever, so that was a first.

Never messed with pregabalin or the likes (or heard of them before discovering drugfeel) so idk anything about their effects but sound kinda like a less sleepy benzo experience with a bit of alcohol effects thrown in. And the dosages are flipping me out, like, 300-600mg sounds excesive for any drug ik, but ig that is the normal dosages for those drugs, it just looks like a lot at first glance compared to all other known drugs.

>alcohol is probably the best in my experience because theres actually a feeling of euphoria from it
I rarely get euphoric from alcohol and avoid large doses since I'm a lightweight. All it does to me is make the room spin and blacking me out tunnle-vision style. Tho a thermus of hot hand-made mulled/spiced wine on a cold winter day is perfect, though; and there was a winter where I always had a thermus full by my side(would cook it in the morning and it lasts the whole day of slow sipping, enjoying the flavor); but the euphoria (or rather, inhibition and care-free feeling)deminished the longer I drank leaveing only the annoying side effects around so I dropped it. Nowdays an alcohol high doesn't deserve my money compared to other, better drugs I can buy with the same money; like meth and speed and maybe some LSD tabs, once a blue moon, if I'm up to fucking a couple of weeks up tripping balls.
Sry4longpost!ty4read<3

>>82477282
gas station shroom gummies (4-aco-dmt) are awesome

everyday im slipping more and more, i just want to talk to someone please, my despair brings me physical pain im not joking
>>82492789
tramadol is shit anyway, should have switched sooner

>>82492767
At least we have drugs, I guess

>>82492976
why are you in despair? I found out my gf I loved but also lowkey disliked was lying to me about some dumb stuff to my face all the time so it was the perfect ticket to leave her and still be the good guy

>>82493078
its hard to described, but all my live im filled with such a strong melancholia i cant shake away, atleast on my own. But im very lonely and cant connect to people. My whole life was a waste and will be continue to be, my biggest dream is just to belong. On some evenings the loneliness hits me especially hard and today is such an evening, one of the last warm summernights. I was driving home on piublic transportion and all i saw were people going somewhere, meeting up with friends connecting. Through my open window i can hear people having partys in the apartmentblock. I spend all my life consuming media and playing guitar, but lately i feel very sad that i cant discuss the books i read and the movies i watch with anyone, or cant play guitar with people. Im doomed to do my stuff alone , live alone, cry alone. But i cant even cry. It just feels like someone is twisting my heard all the time. Atleast i got opiates

>>82492542
>but I'm rationalizing it by assuming you're on something and that it's not too tedious for you
Yeah, I'm on meth, stimposting, so I talk a lot. It's fine, I don't expect interaction, just hope to share some good vibes and have interesting convos with drug anons.
>I appreciate the tolerance talk
It's a trap you can easily fall into, yes.
>Speed is absurdly cheap comparing to drinking (which is what'll do otherwise)
Good it's that way, alcohol is a shit tier drug that doesn't deserve money being spent on it. Stick to speed, man.
>I did what I said in spite of what you said (and not very carefully)
So eyeballing<10mg of amp down the hatch? If you're moderate about it you can reasonably dose until you reach your sweet-spot, but you said not carefully, so I guess you over-dosed your shot.
>I'm sitting here and wondering if I'm going to selfdiagnose adhd cause I just feel like watching yt and falling asleep in my chair
In high enough doses, speed has a very robotic-type high so maybe that is what you're experienceing. It happened to me many times where I just fixate on one thing and go numb for a while. Amp is not only tweaking and rushes, sometimes it's a very streamlined, slow kinda experience. But idk, maybe my speed is cut with stuff, maybe yours is cut with stuff, so I can't quite explain those effects, man. With the supposed dosage you took, you should be confortably tweaking rn, maybe relaxed but not sleepy per-se.
Still, hope you're having fun! (which is the goal in the end). Enjoy what you got and make the best of it. Take me for example, I've been awake for more than 30 hours (never had meth impeade sleep so much I lasted into the second night, ever. So this is a first) and what did I do when gave-up sleeping? Dosed the last of my meth down the hatch. If I'm not going to sleep at least own it and have a little pick me up while at it. Though since tomorrow I start a strict tolerance break where I don't touch anything for at least 8 days if not more.TL

>>82492546
>god please dont let this shit ruin my life
What happend, anon? Do you wanna talk about it? Ruining lives has become a common motif in this thread the last day or so, so I assume it can't be worse than what I already heard the last day from anons like telling their family that they wanna kill themselves, while under influence of xans and got evicted for it. It might make you feel better to share...

>>82493137
Yeah, I got this pretty specifically for activity and wakefulness. Wouldn't say I'm feeling active but I guess I'll see how it went later. It's almost certainly cut with caffeine but probably not very much. Thanks mate

>>82492753
>I'm feeling so empty I just wanna die
Hey, stop that moping rn! Things will guaranteed get better if you act to make them better! Even if better means getting high for a while on your drug of choice. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, as long as it might be. I used to wanna kms on the regular, but now things are marginally better! I have a place of my own, income, food, enough money to buy some drugs and a cute silly cat to take care of. Your emptiness will be filled most assuredly with sunshine and rainbows, anon. As long as you keep trying and are not afraid to seek help if needed, things will get better and your sorrow will be a long forgotten memory. Trust.

On the other hand, if there's really, litterally no way out at all at all, it's your right to off yourself whenever you want. It might be one of the only few true freedoms people have left in this world and is your god-given right. I just hope you're not that far gone and trapped to resort to it.

Chin up, buddy. There is ALWAYS a way out. One way or the other. And that's a good thing.

Or keep doing your own thing, I'm just some guy on the internet, what do I know?

>>82493373
You're so nice, anon, thank you for cheering me up

>>82492315
It's weird that you mention xanax only puts you to sleep and pregab makes you a retard, in my case pregabalin is intoxicating obviously but it doesn't make me a complete retard, it just makes the world around seem idk more chill and it makes my body feel kinda light, the onset sucks yeah but it lasts for a good while and usually doesn't have a comedown so I guess that balances that, on the other hand all the times I took benzos of any kind I just feel sluggish and dumb, you don't even realize you were a dumbass until it's over, not really a fan, if you don't have that much of a tolerance I would recommend you to try 450mg max, 600mg with no tolerance will make you feel very dizzy and uncomfortable

and like >>82492833
said, opioids can be very euphoric downers, just beware because they can fuck you up if you get addicted, the weaker ones say codeine or tramadol are usually pretty safe, if the urges get fucked up with those then you know you shouldn't mess with stronger shit, plus those first codeine highs can be religious experiences and shit

but be safe anon, and all that

>>82492767
>everything on earth is nothing but pain
Objection! What about cute kittens and comfy fuzy slippers or the sound of music you knew from long ago? There is good on earth, anon, you just need to be open to finding it!

>i dont have the balls to kill myself
I had a noose hanging in my room for a month ready for me. I got close a few times and wraped the rope around my neck a couple of times but never jumped; and I'm glad I didn't, cus then, how would I be able to enjoy drugs and listen to rocking music and have interesting conversations with druganons? Not having the balls to do it is a sign you're not whole with the decision imo. Hang on to that spark of life that keeps you moving and keep trying, anon. Good things will guaranteed to happen as long as you keep going and find the good in life insted of being a doomer defeatist and rotting your years away in loathing of the earth.

>i just wish i could piss someone off enough that they beat me to death
That sounds like a painful and retarded way to die. There are other, painless options out there, anon. Just search senctioned-suicide's forum methods mega thread to find out easy, mess-free, pain-free ways to end your life. Heck, if you're an american you can look at a cop the wrong way and dash towards him and get shot and die that way.
What I'm saying is there are a lot of options out there that are better than getting your ass kicked to death by some pissed nigga.

I believe good things come to those who seek them and are open to change and new things. Goodluck, anon, with whatever you're going through and your suicidal thoughts as well. Consider a better way, either by improving your life or end them with the dignity and grace you deserve as it is your god-given right.

Peace!

>>82493635
>There are other, painless options
i dont want it to be painless i want it to fucking hurt, i want to suffer the way ive made everyone who has ever loved me suffer, i deserve to get my teeth and finger nails pulled out with pliers

why do so many people love me?
my family loves me three of my friends love me what possible reason is there on earth that couyld possibly make any normal person give half a shit about me? its all too much its too much responcibility, how can i destroy myself completly when there are so many people who care about me? i wish i was alone so i could die and no one would care but because people care all i have to suffer through living a fulfilling life and i fucking hate, drugs are the only things that make me happy and everyone who cares about me wants me to quit, fuck this shit i wish i could just fucking disappear

>>82493136
NTA.
>im very lonely and cant connect to people
Being social is a muscle you need to flex and work on until it's strong enough to carry some weight on it's own. I would start practicing on dating apps (as I did myself after 6 years of total self-isolation), it doesn't matter who you match with, try to talk to them and make some new friends and pen-pals you can pass the time with.
After precticing, join an activity group, I chose LARPing and there were a lot of nerdy guys like me as well as girls and a sense of camaraderie building sets, prefecting props, writing characters with connections to eachother and training in sword fighting; after a while we started hanging out outside LARPing sessions and became a proper social group. You like music, so why not joining a music club then? After you've precticed enough you'll be a natural!
>all i saw were people going somewhere, meeting up with friends connecting
I had an era of intense lonelyness in the past and seeing people connect just ruined me, hence the self-isolation; it made things more manageable and less lonely for me.
>i feel very sad that i cant discuss the books i read and the movies i watch with anyone
There are boards on this very site just for discussing those things, anon. Go there and start a convo, who knows, you might find some new friends or at least interesting stories there.
>cant play guitar with people
Join a comunal music club and amaze them with your skills! You might find people who are down to play with you after a while of knowing you.
>Im doomed to do my stuff alone , live alone, cry alone
Don't be a defeatist, anon! There are a lot of ways to aliviate lonelyness. Sure, most of them require you to go out of your comfort-zone and try new things but that's a good thing. Say yes to life and experience it all. You prolly won't want normie relationships, but there are a lot of like minded people out there waiting to be found by you.
Cont.

>>82493136
Cont.
>But i cant even cry
I know that feeling all too well, anon. Things will get better as long as you actively try to make them better insted of imploding into yourself, furthering your pain.
>It just feels like someone is twisting my heard all the time
I know that feel also. It does gets better, from experience, you learn to navigate your inner world wether you want to or not and start to crawl out of the pit you find yourself in. It takes time and pain, but it's worth it; I promise.
>Atleast i got opiates
I'm gad you have some source of happiness in your life but be careful not to get addicted or ruin your life before it even began, anon. Opis are very tempting but prolonged use and using them as an emotional crutch will only lead to damnation.
Use responsibly and never let a drug control you. Stay free, anon, as it's one of the last things we've got left. I have a lot more to say since I felt exactly like you 8 years ago and it hits close to home for me; but I think I blabered enough for you to get the point.
Goodluck, anon.
There is ALWAYS a way out.
One way or the other.
That's the gospel truth.

>>82489296
I used to do 600mg of pregabalin with a full coffee maker, I don't know of many mgs of caffeine does it translate to, sorry
Make sure to drink the coffe as quickly as possible, let it cool off
Also, take all of it on a empty stomach

>>82492789
>i think im going to switch to heroin and fucking die
I think you've missed some steps, anon. What about codeine or oral morphine? Heroin is not all that great from what I've heard from heroinons around here. It's way less euphoric than what people claim and it's hard getting the good shit on the streets. Take the proper steps to becoming a bonafide opifiend, don't just jump to the last step. You've got so much more to experience!
But seriously, don't die to heroin, anon, that's retarded. There are many more drugs to try and life to live.

>>82494004
>>82493864
thanks for the kind words, but my music is pretty specific and i searched around and there isnt anyone in my near vicinity who enjoys playing flamenco, but i will keep on searching. How did you find your larping group? What were the first baby steps you took to be a member of society again?

>>82492803
The west opened pandora's box by legalizing cannabis and got spoiled on it. You guys have too much access to too potent a stuff. You will never learn moderation and keep getting fat on your industrial "freedom".
>My tolerance is so fucked now, big bong rips or big joints of flower barely get me high
Maybe consider giving your brain a rest from violantly raping it with thc extracts and learn some self control when it comes to weed, for health, and pleasure.
Lowkey wish I had one of those pens when I used to smoke weed constantly, tho.

>>82493580
>the weaker ones say codeine or tramadol are usually pretty safe
I tried tramadol 100mg and felt kinda warm and relaxed. A druganon here recommended codiene or oral morphine to me and I'm actually considering it rn. I just hope to god I won't get withdrawals as I tend to go full-force with whatever drug I'm curently doing. I will fight dependence at every corner of my mind and will never let a drug control me, but you gotta be super-responsible when dealing with opies.
I manage a meth habbit quite easily using it once a week at a certain dosage with no exceptions and haven't had withdrawals or psychological cravings at all so I'm kinda confident I'll be able to get my shit together with opies, but who knows...

How long should I wait after eating to maximize the effects of a pill? I had lunch like two and a half hours ago but I want to get high on Tramadol

>>82482072
>I wish I got touched by a TV show hosts when I was little

>>82494124
>there isnt anyone in my near vicinity who enjoys playing flamenco,
You can spark interest with your skills and draw them in to trying it themselves.
>How did you find your larping group?
To be clear, I joined the LARPing group before my dark years. I found them on a roleplay forum looking for new members they also had a facebook group. We met at a forest once a week to train and create and went for a beer after the sun sunk down and it was to dark to do anything. I've met a lot of good people there but lost all my phones contacts and have no facbook to keep up with the group's activities so I'm kinda cut off from them at the moment. Who knows, maybe they still meet at the same spot in the forest every week but I'm too scared to go and find no-one.
>What were the first baby steps you took to be a member of society again?
When it comes to the LARPing group, I associated myself with the production guys, a lot less acting characters and a lot more logistics and camping on-site of a game a few days before it starts to set up scenery. There ware always things to do like making fires and building an operational brick-oven to make bread in. And the alcohol flowed like water. We always had good stories to tell and fun times were had for sure.
When it comes to my semi-return to society after 5-6 years of self-isolation, I started with dating apps and prefected the art of writing a frofile that will deter undesireables while attracting one type of girl (most people try to attract all girls and stretch too thin, the trick is looking for one type and cater to them) and eventually I got matches (esp on Boo, a dating app marketed to geeks and weebs, where I found my current gf) some convos went nowhere as usual but some girls stayed for a while and were fun to pass the time with while precticing socializing. I would try the most off-the-wall stuff and sometimes it worked. Eventually I found my current NEET shutin gf.
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>>82454322 (OP)
>>82454322 (OP)
Alright I have 30 300mg pregabalin tablets. How much is needed. I've never taken it before but I have used gabapentin and phenibut

>>82494124
Cont.
We went to a sushi place and were both very awkward but had a ton in common, too. After eating we went back to my apartment and made-out a bit and that's when she asked me to be her official bf, and I said yes. We've been together for more than a year now and are way less awkward. We game together, watch anime and talk shit in general. Having to meet her made me take public transport which gives me anxeity but I got past it with some help from benzos.
Now it's a good time to mention I started to visit a private psychiatrist 3 yers ago(~7 total yers of NEETing 5 out of which were in total isolation) that diagnosed me with plain schizophrania. I am on two max-dose APs meds and have a bunch of benzos. Getting on disability changed my life, having my own place and income is amazing. The meds helped a whole lot with going outside and socializing when I need to. As of today I don't have a social group like I used to but I don't share your need to belong as much; I like my own company and maybe one more person I trust. Once a week I go out with my mom to do errands and eat-out and that's it; gf and mom are my only social activities and I'm happy that way.
To become a part of a social group, all you need is similar interests and being preasent in the moment. Maybe start a convo or join one, ask people about themselves (people love to talk about themselves) and learn about them. That builds report which is important to initiate a relationship be it friendship or otherwise.
Get into activities people do together to have a natrual way to start a relevant convo. Use your pluses like playing the guitar, in your case, and dazzel the audiance with your skills. Some will approach you and compliment you or ask for advice for sure. That's that. You build friendships little by little as you get to know those folks and get invited to events outside of the activitie's meetings. Smoking weed also opens a lot of doors ime. Stoners flock to eachother.
Toolong :( lotstosay.

>>82493222
>eah, I got this pretty specifically for activity and wakefulness
Clean ampheramine will do just that. Tho you might fixate on one thing and forget the rest.
>Wouldn't say I'm feeling active but I guess I'll see how it went later
Goodluck.
>It's almost certainly cut with caffeine but probably not very much
Prolly, street amp is a joke these days :(.
>Thanks mate
No problem. Remember to have fun! (and avoid dependence).
Cheers.

>>82493411
>You're so nice, anon, thank you for cheering me up
No problem :D

>>82494757
>>82494425
thats a nice story anon, im glad that it worked out for you and you found your people, gives me hope, i will start to mingle with more people. tried dating apss too, once but it made me even more cynical, so i think i will stay clear of them mostly.

>>82493673
>i dont want it to be painless i want it to fucking hurt
That's odd since suicidal people usually want to end suffering not have more of it.
>i want to suffer the way ive made everyone who has ever loved me suffer
I'm sure it's not that bad and they wouldn't want you to suffer, anon.
>i deserve to get my teeth and finger nails pulled out with pliers
See? That kind of self-depricating attitude leads you to the wrong path of self loathing and suffering. Say something nice about yourself, for once. Don't fetishize your misery as it is a trap, overcome it insted. I'm sure you are a lovely person inside, anon. Let him out to breath a bit, huh?
Laugh, and the world laughs with you, weep, and you weep alone.

>>82494283
Three hours post consumption of any meal is typically enough time to empty the stomach of most food, and that's assuming it's a large meal. You'd have been fine even at the time of your post here to have taken it.

>>82493707
>my family loves me
Family will always find a way into yur life while saying they love you, but it's just cause you're related by blood.
>three of my friends love me
It's your fault for veing a good friend, I suppose from social pressures.
>what possible reason is there on earth that couyld possibly make any normal person give half a shit about me?
Your personality, I assume and the way you make yourself behave in social situations are green flags that you are open to being loved and ve in a relationship such as friendships.
>its all too much its too much responcibility
You can communicate to your enviornment that you are feeling overwhelmed easily.
>how can i destroy myself completly when there are so many people who care about me?
Why is self-destruction a goal? And it's your life, do whatever you want; if they don't like it, though titti.
>i wish i was alone so i could die and no one would care
Don't cut yourself on that edge.
>i have to suffer through living a fulfilling life and i fucking hate
Then don't do it, dummy. It's your life to live as you see fit, no-one else's. You have the freedom to choose what kind of life you are after and then go chase it.
>drugs are the only things that make me happy and everyone who cares about me wants me to quit
Shoulda kept your use a secret, now, didn't you? Ofc they want you to quit, drugs were demonized by society for a long time, now.
>fuck this shit i wish i could just fucking disappear
Must be so hard having a functioning social life and a social security-net. My heart goes out to you, anon.
Learn to communicate your wants to your friends/family and sort things out before commiting to a path you don't want to take cause you're too loved by people.

>>82494833
>thats a nice story anon, im glad that it worked out for you and you found your peopl
there is a whole lot more i cut out but I can ramble on and on forever so better stop me now, hehe.
>i will start to mingle with more people
That's great to hear! Goodluck.
>tried dating apss too, once but it made me even more cynical
If you use them right you get some gems. I once had a greentext as my profile and got in touch with a 4chan girl that was funny and fun to talk to. It's all about your profile. But I can see it making you more cynical it being a meat shop for people to flex and flaunt their lifestyles for the most part.
Again, goodluck! And be careful of them opies, man.

>>82454322 (OP)
Not really a recreational drug, but anyone try any SSRIs?
Which ones work best without causing the stereotypical apathy, anhedonia, and fatigue SSRIs are known for? And which ones to avoid?

>>82495190
>anhedonia
Hello rebbit. Grow up.

>>82495190
Sorry to reply unhelpfully, but what for? I've had 3 that I can't remember the names of, or I think 4, tested on me but I never felt anything on them I'd care to reproduce

>>82495388
abloo bloo
>>82495399
Just anxiety and depression is what I'm being prescribed them for. I just don't want to start an SSRI and get the aforementioned affects.

>>82495427
You have anxiety and depression because you have a meaningless unfulfilling life.
You don't need drugs that will harm you, you need to fix your life.

The only case SSRIs are needed is when they will prevent you from killing yourself and thus give you the opportunity to fix your life.

>>82495427
Well, I could be wrong, but from what I remember of all the psych care talk, they used all the different types basically because some types don't work for some people but do for others. Don't know if you can research your way to an effective and side-effectless choice there.

>>82495190
Never taken SSRIs but with my experience with psychotic medicine and it's side effects is that it is mostly trial and error. I've had people on here having vastly different experiences on same meds I tried and rejected cause of the bad side effects anons here didn't experience at all. Every person is different and meds especially psychotic meds effect everyone differently. So you'll eventually will have to go on trial stages with each med and evaluate the benefits against the bad side effects, communicate with your psychiatrist to change a med for that reason or that other reason and make the choice of the med with the least/most manageable side effects. While some meds have that reputation or the other it's mostly a personal journey to finding the best med suited for you and your condition and body/mind. Everyone will have a unique opinion on their favorite med and it will lead nowhere helpful.
Hope this helps!

>>82494613
I never messed with those drugs and only heard of them since discovering drugfeel but from what I read on here, 300mg with no tolerance will do you good. Afaik, 600mg is for more tolerant people but can also work fot you recriationally.
I have zero exp but hope that helps a bit since I see no-one replyed to you yet.

>>82473707
The fact that heroin doesn't seem that bad is what gets people addicted to it. Plenty of people try it and think it ain't all that, so then they try more on occasion and next thing they know they're a full blown addict, with physical and psychological dependence preventing them from getting clean.

The only physical danger heroin poses is respiratory depression, where your brain basically forgets to breathe. Oh yeah and like the other poster said, IV is harmful mainly because of impurities AFAIK, but poking your veins frequently also isn't great

Any good drugs for combining with alcohol at the bar? My friend says Adderall but it masks the depressant effect of alcohol, and nicotine sucks in general imo. Drinking on other depressants is too dangerous for my tastes, I don't wanna have to think about not dying. Weed and psychs make me overthink too much to socialize. What other types of drug even are there?

>>82496706
imo a low dose of benzos or gabapentinoids are the best with beer, as long as you keep the dose light you should be in good shape, i do understand your reluctance tho

>>82496706
As anon said, low doses of benzos potentiate the alcohol and causes a slight sense of euphoria and is comfy ime. Just don't under-estimate your dosage and you'll be fine, if a bit slower and more inebriated.

>>82496722
>>82496784
How low is low? I have some low dose xanax but I really have no idea how much it takes to black out or pass out. I guess potentiating isn't all bad since it'd require less of each

>>82496547
>your brain forgets to breathe
Not how it works, it's a muscular relaxant, and your lungs are muscles. Look what happened to George Floyd, he overdosed on fent and his lung muscles slowly stopped working until he died of asphyxia.

>>82496706
It's so bothersome to mix depressants, always have to worry and be careful.
Just have some vodka in a flask and drink in the toilet so you can get drunker faster and cheaper.

>>82486894
I get latent suicidal thoughts the day after a binge and on traditional psychedelics. I worry about the psychological effect of decreased happiness for a short time causing me to self harm but resist with weed and cigs and porn. Strung out and need to pull it red bull it.

i'm gonna run out at this rate mate

>>82496905
Thanks for the info, that does make more sense considering breathing is automatic by default. But you at least have to admit that your brain doesn't realize it's dying because the heroin is flooding it, you just drift off

>>82497897
Did George Floyd looked like he wasn't realizing he was dying? He was crying like a bitch because he couldn't breathe.

Most opiates deaths happen while the person is unconscious yes but if you're too tolerant or doing uppers at the same time you stay awake and conscious, you just slowly suffocate to death as your lung muscles stop responding.

>>82498153
I'm amused as fuck at the weird racist dog whistles for seemingly no reason in the midst of giving drug advice. I can't help but wonder what most of the anons in this thread would be like if they were forced to have a conversation with a stranger in public lol

>>82498460
A dog whistle is a whistle only dogs can hear.
Saying that you hate niggers and jews isn't much of a dog whistle now, is it.

Fun fact: babies' organs can barely eliminate caffeine so when you're a bad mother and drink coffee while breastfeeding the baby is caffeinated for days, so your daily cups actually accumulate in his system.

On /drugfeel/ you learn about drugs AND parenthood.

>>82498460
It's just that for most people, George Floyd (fent be with him) is the only opiate death they actually witnessed.
Before that people had no idea what it could look like.

>>82498575
Yet another reason to be glad I can't get pregnant.

>>82498655
Of course you can't, you're a man.

>>82498722
>you're a man.
Yup, and it's wonderful
here's more reasons why I'm glad that I'm not a cuntoid, because if I were one:
>I'd be arguing based on emotions exclusively.
>In dangerous situations, I'd be screaming instead of actually doing something to help the situation
>I'd be screaming over dumb shit in general.
>I'd have degenerate femoid sexual preferences like wanting men to degrade me
>I'd be able to get pregnant (and all the drawbacks that come with that)
>Brown immigrants would be 10 times more dangerous to me
>I'd have to bleed out of my rotten crotch on a monthly basis
>I wouldn't have a penis, and therefore wouldn't be able to pee in a sink or pee outdoors
>To add to the "not having a penis" point, I wouldn't be able to jerk off like how I'm used to aswell.
>I wouldn't be able to be friends with most men.
>My actions would be controlled by pussy tingles, and I'd put myself in dangerous situations because of them.
>I'd unironically vote left and sign petitions to let dangerous criminals out of prison because they're "attractive"
>I'd be reading "dark romance" novels and treat them like amazing pieces of literature.

>>82498900
You know, you could've written "I'm an undesirable incel" a hundred times instead of typing all that, the message would've been the same.
Not that anyone would read you anyway.

>>82499036
You cannot say
>Not that anyone would read you anyway.
when your white knight ass was clearly interested enough to respond anyways.

>>82499044
Imagine having that type of video saved on your computer.
No wonder you can't find a woman.

>>82498900
>>82499036
>>82499044

ooh, bot fight. nice, cool, hypermodern. this will be tedious. which flowchart riposte is coming next? place your bets folks. is it "you don't fuck" or "you can't fuck"? the tension is doing nothing for me. i can't wait to never find out and hide thread

>>82455472
cutting on shrooms was fucking great best euphoria ive felt

>>82496881
>How low is low? I have some low dose xanax
I have no experience with xans, but I'd say 0.25-0.5mg by what psychonautwiki tells me.

>>82499049
That'd upset me but here's one issue
Your average cuntoid nowadays is way too degenerate, annoying and useless for my liking, if I fucking hated myself I'd chase them.

god damn I just recently remembered when I edited pictures of people I didn't like when I was a kid, and it was fucking amazing, I'd draw blonde hair, makeup and tits on the people who bullied me in school, and also write some text to have them say stuff like "I'm a massive slut, fuck me please"
picrel is the american dad scene that reminded me.

>>82496881
like the other anon said anything at or less than 1mg, and when you drink with it take it very slowly, one of the sticking points with benzos is delusions of sobriety, you might not feel high but you might actually be super fucked up so pay attention to your own behavior, imo its easier to tell how intoxicated you are with pregabalin or gabapention while drunk tho

>>82498153
he was crying because he was being murdered by a faggot pig cop you moron

>>82499901
Wrong, stalker child.
He died of fentanyl overdose, as explained by the coroner.

>>82499901
he was crying because they didn't take his fake 20 dollar bill to buy bananas lmao retard junkie nigger

>>82500031
>>82499997
i hope a cop kneels on your neck until you fucking die bootlicking cowards

>>82500199
>you refuse to repeat the lie that the criminal nigger died of anything but a fent overdose?
>you're a coward bootlicker, I hope you die
You're low IQ and low self-control. What's your drug of choice?

I am once again drinking the weed
thank you for your attention

>>82499894
What dose of pregablin or gabapentin would go well with alcohol? Everyone here always raves about them so I wanna give em a shot at some point.

>>82498575
>babies' organs can barely eliminate caffeine
That *is* a fun fact. Interesting. It's probably very common to have happen since caffeine intake is a daily ritual for a lot of people.

>>82498900
>Yup, and it's wonderful
Yeah, I like being a man, too. Not having PMS is a great plus (there are also usual daily secretions of fluid without PMS so it'll be gross most of the time anyway). But I would like to try being a young woman for a few days, though. Masturbation and female whole-body multiple orgasms would be cool to explore (I'd just shove anything I can find in there), admiring my body and having life on easy mode and people being nicer to me in general would be neat, too.

>>82481841
I do this thing where I think I've had the most amazing idea while high, but I can't articulate and communicate it and put it into any sort of medium.

>>82500373
>I am once again drinking the weed
The cannabis industry boom is amazing with what people invent to get you high these days; though, sometimes I feel the market has products that are needlessly potent and are destructive to the populous at large.
What dosage are you drinking, anon?

>>82502036
3 half grams of weed

>>82501979
>I've had the most amazing idea while high, but I can't articulate and communicate
Yeah, ime LSD cripples you hard, like, having no fine motoric skills (like not being able to roll a cig properly and winding up with an "acid cig" that is uneven and monstrous) or impeading your ability to communicate your thoughts coherantly or even move at all during the peak. Those are definitly negative side-effects that the drug has. I also can't talk right when under influence as every thought is overwhelming and I couldn't find a solution for that yet, with all of my experience and knowledge; it is what it is, as far as I can tell, for now.
>and put it into any sort of medium
It can definitly be frustrating, but don't let it funk your vibe. You know you're high, your friends know you're high, so they/you shouldn't expect you to have high functionality at the time and just let it be what it is. Just enjoy the ride insted of trying to fight the drugs' effects, I say; you'll have better trips that way, guaranteed.

>>82502125
>3 half grams of weed
Damn, man, hope you're tolerant enough to tank it. That's what I was talking about with the high potency of products available on the legal market. You're fucking raping your brain and system hard with THC and other cannabinoids. I hope you enjoy it, of course; but damn, that's overkill. What happened to doing an 0.2-0.5g mix of flower and tobbaco and clearing bong hits with friends? The industry've gone too far imo. Have fun, anon, honestly. And may god have mercy on your soul.

>>82502383
I make my own tincture from my own crops

>>82500273
my DOC is beating the shit out of pussies like you

>>82502414
Picks or it didn't happen. Let's see your "crops" here is a picture of one of my girls

>>82502569
wheres the need to be the cooler guy coming from man

>>82502569
Here is a portion of it

>>82502414
>I make my own tincture from my own crops
Well, that put me in place in regerd to my tirade about the cannabis industry.
Then depends on how hardcore of a grower you are, the potency should be much lower than professionally grown weed and professionally made extracts; and necessitate much more flower, I assume.
Also doesn't sound very tasty drinking extract; do you mix it with some orange juice or something?
Anyway, I take back what I said about raping your brain (tough could still be the case).
Have a good time, anon.

>>82502569
>here is a picture of one of my girls
They look healthy and full of resin; good job, anon!
Had a friend who grew his own in his closet; the product was very low-quality but he was proud of it. Got his house raided and his father took the blame and went to jail for a very short time.
Gosh, I can't wait for legalization in my country, but it seems very far away; what with the current political climate and all.
Getting a medical permit is impossible for me as well, as I don't have any problems that could get me one.

>>82502712
>wheres the need to be the cooler guy coming from man
I think he is just proud of his work like many growers do, and wanted to show it.

THC(A) kinda sucks, but if you have a low tolerance and compliment it with a zyn, it honestly feels like regular weed

>>82504384
Grow your own weed. It's cheaper and you put the weed businesses out.

>>82502546
You haven't been in a fight since grade school and have never seen the inside of a fighting gym, grow up incel.

they should give oral morphine for depression goddamnnn this shit is the bomb

>>82505681
post your address faggot

>>82505990
110 W Main St, Freehold, NJ 07728

>>82504384
>THC(A) kinda sucks
Don't you need to just cook it for it to be psychoactive?
>and compliment it with a zyn
Zyn is a tobbaco product(googled it), yeah? I am unfamiliar with the term... (sounds like slang to an opioid or benzo desu)
>it honestly feels like regular weed
Isn't THC-A non-psychoactive at all until you decarboxylate it with heat? Can you even get high from THC-A? How do you even equire THC-A to begin with? As it's useless to sell as-is imo. And if from a dispensary, then why not get regular THC insted?
So many questions. I never encountered THC-A on it's own. Maybe you could do make some order to the mess for me.

Datura cottonmouth sucks

>>82505732
>they should give oral morphine for depression goddamnnn this shit is the bomb
I've been debating on trying it since an opioidanon recommended it to me as a starter, relatively safe opi to try. How does it come? In pill form? Liquid? Is it more or less habbit-forming than codeine in your experience? Is it more or less euphoric than codeine or oxy? What is your dosage? Am I asking too many questions and you have no experience with the aforementioned drugs?
Anyway, be safe with dependence when it comes to opies, anon; as you already know.
And I'm glad you're having fun!

>>82506348
Especially if cottonmouth is the name of the hobo that's raping you in the mouth while you believe you're eating a sandwich.

>>82506348
>Datura cottonmouth sucks
I can't understand people who willingly take deliriants. It really dangerous and can fuck with you in a serious way and make you do and say stupid and destructive things.

>>82506453
>Especially if cottonmouth is the name of the hobo that's raping you in the mouth while you believe you're eating a sandwich
lol, my thought exactly.

>>82506348
>WEW LAD
hope you did not actually dose up on that shit, datura is to grow, not to eat. grew a nice one this season myself, but only doing n2o and smoking ground scored weed roach for the night

I had a really strong case of the munchies one time and only one kebab shop was open, however when I got there no one wanted to serve me so I took a fistful of hard candies.

>>82506532
>smoking ground scored weed roach for the night
That's low, man. Why not buy a bit of weed insted of junkieing it up?
I mean, even I at my poorest smoked leftover joints but it was from an ashtray of an old lady with a medical license (and were pretty long since she didn't smoke much, as the weed was very strong) but a gram costs a pittence these days. Treat yourself, buddy, have some pride.

>>82506710
>one wanted to serve me
That's a crime in some places, anon. Just how high did you act?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s__rX_WL100&list=RDs__rX_WL100&start_radio=1&pp=ygUVbWFkb25uYSBsaWtlIGEgdmlyZ2luoAcB

>>82506746
I don't think you visit many kebab shops anon

>>82506936
>I don't think you visit many kebab shops anon
What does that supposed to mean? I go to shawarma shops all the time and no matter how high I am, they will serve me. You must've acted like a total retard if no one wanted to serve you, man. The kind of retard that runs away with a fistful of hard candy.

>>82506739
you act as if it hasnt been almost 20 years of this

https://strawpoll.com/61gD9X8QAZw whats ur sign
https://strawpoll.com/BJnXVN2rjZv are u northamerican or not

>>82507041
>you act as if it hasnt been almost 20 years of this
Then maybe it's time for a change?

Geez, a slow day on drugfeel today, huh?

>>82507075
any ideas?

>>82491402
thank you. this is good advice, i'll try to implement as best I can.

Is there a functional difference between gabapentin and pregabalin?

>>82507412
Highest doses of gabapentin will feel like lower doses of pregabalin, pregabalin doesn't potentiate off of fatty foods in the stomach like gabapentin does, gabapentin lasts way longer.

>>82506746
>>82507036
>Just how high did you act?
I stood in front of the counter for a few minutes waiting for the zoomer working there to take my order.
Fair enough that you assumed I was tweaking out though, I didn't provide context.

>>82506444
Well, shit nice trips and to answer all of your questions
>safety
I'd say codeine is the safest one, it's possible for codeine to not do shit to you, in which case yeah morphine would be the safest since neither trams would get you high in that case, plus morphine is THE opioid, but my recommendation, start with the weaker stuff and then test yourself, beautiful substances but the addiction potential is real serious and they're also kinda dangerous, plus it's hard for me to think I got actual morphine pills since most shit it's cut with fent or something, which is not the case with codeine that you can get over the counter in lots of places. and my dealer is anything but a pharmacist so that kinda checks out :/
>presentation
I took it in pill form, 30mg in form of those nice blue tablets but cmon you know there's morphine in IV form and also in oral solutions afaik
>addiction potential
it can be dangerous, codeine is a beautiful thing, much more manageable still risky but more manageable, something similar with tramadol but that one is kinda different in the whole experience so if you want that warm feeling the morphinan opioids are the ones you want afaik, morphine can become a problem if you're not careful.
>vs opiates
I haven't tried oxys but those are probably more euphoric, and it's way stronger than codeine obviously, the peak of a codeine high is kinda the start of a direct morphine high, atleast the first times, pretty similar since codeine turns into morphine once it goes through your liver.

btw there's this cool page called psychonautwiki.org , you can find this kind of information there, and from more reliable sources.

>>82507831
kek, I still got the name from the other thread, was writing shit a while back

gas station anon here. i drank feel free for the first time. as a GABA fiend this stuff is subtle but nice.
wonder if there are other kava products out there. wish it was more intense for $8 a bottle.
its INSANE that normies get addicted to this and want it banned.
btw does anyone know if there's there any subjective difference between real psychedelic shrooms and 4-aco-dmt?

>>82508440
It's subtle, but yeah.
Read the psychonaut wiki pages differences for 4-ACO-DMT and 4-PO-DMT (psilocybin).

>>82507036
i was NTA but at least where I am they're infamous for being run by people who'll refuse you over any minor gripe

>>82509537
Yeah it's common for kebab shops that are actually fronts for money laundering.
Which is standard since sandniggers are running the drugs in most European cities.

>>82509551
It would explain why there's atleast 3 in a nearby small town with *another one* opening up.
I simply thought pajeets had a really crappy grasp on the concept of supply and demand.

>>82509798
well, that happens even when they're not fronts. but you can usually tell really easily whether it is one just by looking through the windows walking by. also, you get your kebab from indians? so sorry bro

>>82509874
>you get your kebab from indians?
Ew fuck no I get it from the one white-owned shop that's been around for almost 2 decades.

>>82507831
I see. Thanks for the insightful information!

>>82507321
>any ideas?
Buy your own weed, for start.

>>82503720
I like mixing it with grape soda

>>82506348
I'd be more concerned with my eyes on datura, can make you blind. On good doses I always had difficulty reading anything, because it in fact dries your eyes.

I can't believe I bought a PCP shirt from Hamilton Morris

>>82511292
NTA but wow i never knew it actually dried out ones eyes. it definitely really dries out the lungs and throat.

>cheeks: flushed
>hands: tingling

Yep. Its nice yall.

is it normal for mdma to make me tired

>>82513700
No, it's laced with fentanyl, you are dying

>>82513787
sweet about damn time