Thread 82838346

30+ thread.

No edition.
I'm tired.

Good morning everybody, 31. Another day of shitposting and possibly logging onto my game. I was thinking of visiting my parents but the urge to get drunk is stronger.
>I'm tired
Working too hard lately OP want a beer?

45. Just took a gummy of THC delta 9 and now i'm waiting for my parents to visit, after they're gone i will play detroit become human and chill.

>>82838346 (OP)
>I'm tired.
hi tired, im anon.
34 still no wife, sleep time soon.

>suspect since early teen I've been depressed
>never talked to anyone about it, despite some self harm, heavy alcohol use, etc
>"imfine.png"
>fast forward 20 years
>code monkey wizard by now
>burn out from overload last year
>20 years of depression and anxiety comes out at once
>family tells me I should speak to someone
>on pretty heavy antidepressants etc for 9 months now
>still want to swallow a bullet every day I come home from work
2025 has been one hell of a year, lads. haha. Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

>>82838346 (OP)
I'm just drinking. Hello Palantir!

I turn 30 in a few weeks and I will never post in here when I am allowed to

note to self: stop neeting

>>82838346 (OP)

32 i am going to fap and then waste my time with band practice, fml my workweek is more interesting then my weekends ;D

>>82838346 (OP)
34 here. I miss my teens/early 20s like you wouldn't believe. For a long time I didn't, but its hitting me hard recently. I lost so much of that time to anxiety and depression and in many ways felt like I didn't live it "properly", but there was a vitality and aliveness to me in those days that feels muted by age now. I keep thinking about old times, friends and places now lost to the relentless march of time. The bridges I burned because I didn't want anyone to follow me across them. You think you have all the time in the world until you realise it's been 15 years and time doesn't heal every wound.

There are things I must make amends for before its too late.

Im chic*kn am i allowed here :3

I'm pushing 30 but im 28 now

36 year old here, drinking my morning coffee and nursing a small hangover. I would still be asleep but there's a baby mosquito somewhere in my room and it kept waking me up baka. I can't locate it anymore so I can smoosh it.

How are all my fellow 30+ year olds doing?

turned 32 few days ago
I'm so tired of everything.
I have some escapist hobbies like cycling and making music but I have zero tangible desire to get my life together anymore. I simply don't believe it can get better. Every morning I get out of bed and feel like I've just been on a 3 day bender despite being completely sober. I'm so fucking cooked

>>82838816
>I grow to 50 feet tall
>I pick you up
>lick your head
>caress your scalp with my giant tongue
>you struggle in my hand
>I squeeze tighter so that you don't escape
>chicken completely delitized

>>82838816
No fuck off you ugly snaggletooth spic, you're so annoying

>>82838872
Are you licking me clean, anon? Lol.

>>82838901
Rude af. I am devastated.

>>82838862
>I have zero tangible desire to get my life together anymore.
Same here, I just want not to be bothered, that's all.
There is absolutely nothing I'm looking forward and every time I wake up I just want the day to end and the next one not to begin.
I'm a wizard and still living with my parents. Pretty much the only moments I enjoy are when they leave for a while and I sit in the couch reading with a cup of coffee.

>>82838862
You're hitting a quarter life crisis anon, when was the last time you picked up a new hobby? Learning new things helps with keeping life spicy.

>>82839002
If it makes you feel any better I'm moving back into my father's house for awhile until I can save up some money. This entire year has been ass for me as far as work is concerned, literally only worked 3 months so far and have to move out of my apartment.
Do you pay rent to your parents or help them with groceries or any bills?

>>82838944
>"Are you licking me clean, anon? L-"
>a steel blade pokes through the top of your shirt
>giant scissors
>*snip*
>clothes cut off

36 year old australian oldfuck. Spent the day with my mum and my nieces. I love them very much even if some of my nieces were misbehaved and spoiled. Kids are funny like that. God I'm lonely and wish I could have had kids of my own. It's too late for that though.

>>82838346 (OP)
Few months time, I'll be one of you. How does it feel being wizard?

>>82838364
31 too and been cutting down on alcohol during the last 2yrs. I'm eastern Euro so despite some alcoholism I look 25 but I figured I should cut down on it for the sake of my future. I get drunk every 3-4 months and everytime it feels like an extended orgasm.
I live with my mom, no debt, no rent, working a pretty good job. My only goal in life is to retire as early as I can afford it. I didn't have a job until 28 and I got used to being free and now I can't be happy as long as I work 8h a day.

>36 yo wizard
>balding noticeably, thinking of you shaving/trimming and giving up
>no longer work out, beer belly making its appearance
>work as programmer, burned out
>150k in savings, no real desire of anything
>friends getting married and having children, can't relate to them anymore
>zero interest in having a gf
>live with parents
>spend my free time reading, watching movies and playing old video games to avoid thinking
>daydream about quitting my job and moving to the countryside

How does one deal with loneliness? Not in a way "Im 20 and my life is over" but when pushing mid 30's and a turbovirgin.

>>82838816
you're fat and ugly and poor, which would usually qualify you to post here but you're also a dumb annoying woman who begs for money and grooms kids. go die

>>82839269
I'm fat, ugly, and poor. But not a woman.
I spoke to this chickn woman once and she was very uninteresting.

>>82839050
I have no drive to do anything. I bought a synthesiser (I do play guitar) and I just let it sit there and rot, I don't have the drive to go and practice the mechanical skills of playing it. Every day is a grey mess and I can't sleep even though I do everything I can to healthmax. Life is utterly brutal and the only thing I can really think is causing my health issues is pure loneliness and isolation.

>>82839252
>150k in savings, no real desire of anything
You could wait till your parents die, inherit whatever they have, sell it and move to southeast Asia. Find a 20-30 SEAgirl who probably likes you for your money and become picrel. I also have a lot of savings and that's what I'm aiming for if I'll feel lonely after my parents pass.
>friends getting married and having children, can't relate to them anymore
If it helps, none of the people I know in that situation is happy. Marriage and kids are both a scam from which only the ultra-rich benefit. Raising kids is annoying and expensive and your wife won't give a shit about you after she gives birth. Men who have kids also lose testosterone significantly faster than those who don't.

>>82839287
I have witnessed this happening to my brother. He was the ultra chad to end all ultra chads and having a child has slowly stripped his test away and made him quite effeminate in behaviour and temparement. Its unusual. He's a great parent though.

>>82839287
No gold digger is ever going to get my money, I'd rather put it on a pile and burn it.

>>82839304
>my brother is less sexy to me after having a baby
Lol men are so fucking weird

>>82839277
It might be the lack of sleep desu.
My sleep has been fucked since I have been stressing over money but I started taking mid-day naps in order to get atleast 8 hours of sleep each day.
Lack of sleep leaves me tired and unmotivated.

>>82839304
>slowly stripped his test away and made him quite effeminate
>He's a great parent though.
Yes, it's an evolutionary mechanism. You lose your test, become more effeminate and in turn you become less violent, less driven and easier to be exploited by the needs of your wife and child. It's utterly depressing to see. Like seeing someone's true self die. One of the reasons I never want kids.
One of my coworkers is like this too. A weakling who swears and complains about his problems (all a result of marriage/kids) but does nothing to solve them, because his willpower is gone and he's been reduced to a wageslave and servant for his family.
I asked my other older coworkers who have known him for 10 years and they told me he wasn't like this before. He had hobbies and was more optimistic about life. It all went downhill a few years after he married and then had his 1st kid.

>>82839366
Nobody wants to have a baby with you nigger

>>82839276
awww okay anon I understand I'm uninteresting...

>>82839317
You don't have to spend all of your money on her and remember, life SEA is MUCH cheaper than it is in most other places. And the women tend to be more trad and less gold diggery. Feminism isn't that widespread over there. Having money will give you an advantage, but they'll also appreciate the fact that you're white and likely taller than the men in her country.

>>82839321
I don't want to do that and I don't respect him any less for it, I just have observed it happening.

>>82839386
You must be a brainlet if you meant that as an insult. I really do hope nobody wants to have a baby with me. I don't want to be a poorfag.

>>82839401
>And the women tend to be more trad and less gold diggery
lol if you think a SEA woman is looking at you as anything but a walking bank account.

>>82838346 (OP)
Pretty good. I am dating a chick and working out a lot. Working a little but dedicating my life to art (digital and physical) and making incredible progress. I ain't getting a corporate job ever again and I am not even trying.

its saturday night. got 99 thieving. working on agility now. went for 1 hour walk. time to brew more coffee.

there was cute painted cat stone

>>82839580
Gz dude
I am working on 99 crafting currently. About to hit 96 now. Lvl 3 cmb and lvl 1 everything else. Good shout on the coffee too, I need me some now. Sick stats too.

>>82839580
I should get back on OSRS today, it has been a few weeks.
I'm still pretty noob at it since I created my account a year ago, I just quest.
I have done almost all of the quests up until the 3rd tier, whatever that is.

>>82839655
i see osrs more like a lifestyle than just a game. i know its just coping mechanism but this game gives me meaning in life: i can set goals, see me achieve those goals and i have made online friends thru this game. osrs helps me stay sober and keep me physical in good shape for endure long grinds. if you are NEET i recommend osrs

>want gf
>try talking to girls on apps
>realize I really just don't talk to people too often, mostly like it if it's unprompted, but even then I don't really got much to talk about
>things fizzle out

>>82839810
>more like a lifestyle than a game
I can see that, I have made a few friends on it so far and they are way more knowledgeable at it than I am. I'm a normie but I enjoy doing the quests. I have completed alot of them so far thanks to the Runelite plug-in helping me keep track.I still don't know what im doing, how weapons and armor and all that work but im trying lol. Someone donated 10 mil to me and I use it to buy items to complete the quests since im scared of doing pvp or going into the wilderness.

Been eating SSRIs/SNRIs for close to a year now. Next appointment with the psychiatrist Im gonna tell him Im tapering off these pills.
Think Im gonna go back to boozing.
>inb4 that will kill your liver!
That's the plan.

Do dating apps work for any other oldcels here?

I can't stop thinking about kms I think about it every day I am such a fuckup and failure at life

>>82840225
chad only for the most part

>>82840225
It depends really. Be prepared for alot of immature younger women and immature older single moms.
Its kinda depressing seeing single moms with a literal toddler or pregnant belly looking for "the right man".
If you date younger women the be ready to do all of the driving because they want to be "passenger princess".

>33
>kissless virgin
>given up ever having sex or relationships
>never have sex dreams in my entire life even as a perpetually horny teen
>recently for whatever reason almost constant dreams about sex and women
>literally wake up feeling worse cause i'll never experience it
what in the fuck is this hell man. i never asked for this.

>>82840303
I've started dreaming about telling friends and family about sudokuing. Nightmares and shit I've gotten used to but these dreams fucks up you pretty bad until like lunch when you realise it was just a dream.

>>82840225
Never worked for me. Though I do set the age range to 18-25, since I want to start a family.

>>82840365
i'm too pussy to ever kill myself. i have no backbone and couldn't do it even if i end up homeless eventually. i truly believe this is the one shot we get at life and i'm too scared to clock out early. as shit as my life is at the moment there's too much i do enjoy to throw it all away.

i need to keep busy so i don't buy weed. what should i do? yes i am a low iq npc

>>82840485
Watch anime instead of weeding ^.^

>>82840523
if i stay at home i will have weed delivered

>>82838862
Yeah. I mean, what's the point? The country and future is fucked and there is nothing to compel me to do better.

>>82840485
Go leaf peeping

>>82840545
>The country and future is fucked
didn't you vote for this though.

>>82840548
I'm euro. There's noone I can vote for, they all want to fuck us over.

>>82840557
why did you say this country as a european as if that wouldn't default to people thinking america on an american site.

>>82840570
Because I got my threads mixed up, didn't realise I posted on 30+ until your reply.

>35
>single parent
>turned out a lot of my lifelong problems were unmedicated ADHD, got on a prescription for that
>stopped using weed since a lot of the stuff I was using it to deal with was related to the ADHD
>have a real life friend who I have lunch with twice a month and she has been pushing me to actually get back into my hobbies
>ordered a model kit the other day to build and have actually started reading for fun again
Probably the most functional I've been since before my brain started turning on me 20+ years ago. Still depressed, and lonely, and anxious, and still feel like I'm worth less than dirt, but at least I can focus on things better now and don't feel so tired all the time.

Dirt poor neet. We inherited $25,000 in fidelity investments and have no idea how it works. It has given me a little hope in my life but I'm too afraid to touch it.

>>82840644
>touhou retard is a single dad
how do people like you manage to breed.

>>82840644
>turned out a lot of my lifelong problems were unmedicated ADHD
How did you get it diagnosed?

>>82840653
>touhou retard
I'm worse, I'm a secondary who just pulled a picture from my "tired looking characters" folder. Used to play other shmups before my hands started giving me problems though. Blue Revolver was fun.
>dad
>>82840665
I talked to my doctor about thinking I have it because of my symptoms and some relatives being diagnosed. He made me get some blood tests to rule out other stuff, and once those came back okay I was given a self-evaluation form to fill out and was put on the lowest dose of the medicine my relatives are on. He's slowly moving me up to a normal dosage since it's working.

>>82840694
if not a larp i hope you don't rope some desperate betacuck into supporting you. at least do the right thing and end up with a single dad.

>>82840746
I'm not looking to date anyway. If it happens it happens. I get along well with kids anyway, and having stepkids around would not bother me. But single's fine if that's how it goes. Used to it anyway

>>82840771
i know a woman who intentionally got pregnant from a one night stand because she wanted a kid that badly and the dad basically has nothing to do with her son's life and it's depressing. was it the same thing for you or more of a planned thing that didn't work out? i just don't understand the point of having a kid if the dad isn't in it for the long haul.

>>82840794
It was planned, it just didn't work out for various reasons.

>>82840820
at least it was planned i guess. i personally don't want kids or like kids but there's plenty of guys who are up to dating and marrying single mothers.

>>82840837
I'm not expecting a whole lot in that department, but if it happens it happens. Maybe I'll meet a widowed father while we're dropping our kids off at school one day and teach him to love again in a touching story right out of a Hallmark movie.

36 living with parents, dropped out of society full time 5 years ago, never had a gf never had a proper job, these days I am just a glorified helper for my retired father while my mother is gonna reach retirement age next year and then idk they do retired stuff together?

I just have not had any energy or desire to get back into society for 12+ years now. Dirt poor, fat and ugly, shriveled up small testicles and a 5 inch penis and my erections have only been half strength for like 4 years now. Knees and back are shit and it's just been so over for so long while gettign more and more over beyiond that with each passing year it's not even funny

Yet I can't shake off the ever constant nagging need for a woman and companionship for once in my life, no matter how hard I drink.

>>82840459
I know Im too much of a chicken myself. I started cutting in my leg a couple of years ago but after a centimeter or two down I kind of gave up. Adrenaline or something in my head made me fall asleep on the bathroom floor.
There is fuckall I enjoy but I'm not going out with a firearm. I wont let my family find the remains like that.

>>82838346 (OP)
33 and all i do is fuck prostitutes and visit brothels. I still live with my parents and when i am not wageslaving i play video games or rage at reddit ragebait threads. There has to be more in life

it's so funny how youngshits see the losers here and think this is aging

>>82841417
most of 4chan is successful sex haver normalfags nowadays thoeverbeit

>>82841445
Paying for sex doesn't make you normalfag. Not for me atleast.

>>82841445
that's kind of what i mean
there's more to life than getting your house in order or having a shitty body

>>82841487
if you specifically pay prostitutes for sex and can't get sex normally then i don't see you as a normalfag yes. personally i think prostitution is gross, but i'm the type of retard that thinks sex without consensual love is meaningless and degenerate.

>>82841492
>there's more to life than getting your house in order or having a shitty body
society tells men that all that matters in life is making money and finding a bitch that will willingly let you blow your load inside her.

I have to admit I'm an idiot and a fucking wimp. Balding has made me depressed. Five years ago I wasn't balding and I felt like shit too. I'm convinced if I married an 11/10 woman and lived in a house made or gold and had a cat that shat money as a pet I would still find something to feel depressed about.

>>82841850
hairs gotta be one of the most ridiculous things guys stress out about having. if you're good looking and balding you will still be good looking bald. i am ugly and have zero signs of balding. the hair doesn't help at all when it comes to attraction, i would have absolutely zero luck with women with or without hair. so i always automatically assume the people who are sad about balding are good looking.

>>82838417
Damn. And I thought I was the only one who's 40+ here (42 years old) since people that old usually use Facebook, TikTok and Instagram instead of places like 4chan and at best case some old ass hobby forums nobody uses or being run by overzealous admins/mods.

>>82838793
Don't worry anon, men peak at 60

Im 39 and I cant cope with the feelings of stagnation much longer

>>82842380
I'm "just" 32 and I can barely get out of bed in the morning anymore. All muscles feel so weak like my arms and legs are gonna fall through the bed. And my chest hurts constantly. I wish I could be 18 again.

A bunch of my fellow 30+ people are depressing af.

>>82842501
why would i be happy. i have nothing going for me physically or financially and women have be repulsed by me my entire life no matter how fit i am. i've yet to be content or happy in 33 years. probably never will be.

It sucks how fellow millennials mostly use Facebook, Instagram, TikTok etc while sites like 4chan and discord are full with retarded zoomers

>>82842541
i've never used any social media other than 4chan personally. never even used discord.

>>82838346 (OP)
Gonna need a 40+ thread soon

>>82842691
>Gonna need a 40+ thread soon
Then make one

>>82842540
You've had 33 years of being on this Earth and you haven't even tried to change that?
It's never going to happen if you keep that shit mindset

>>82842764
what am i supposed to change? i lost 100+lbs years ago and have kept it off and it didn't help at all. all the shit women lust after is immutable and i'll never make enough money to compensate for being unattractive and undesirable and absolutely nothing what women want physically or mentally. what do you want me to change.

>women see lonely men
>"must be nice"
>they follow
>they hate it and go back
cool

>>82842541
/g/ is reviving usenet. It's comfy.

>>82842846
Most nostalgiafags are underage zoomers and trannies that have a wrong image about what made the old internet great or they're schizo elitists that are the epitome of "internet is serious business" meme

>>82841882
>Just be attractive and not ugly

anybody else used to get laid then totally stop right around the age of 33? Im 38 and I consider myself an incel despite having a string of gfs in my 20s

>>82842891
my point is with or without hair women would act like i do not exist because i am ugly. the second i see any signs of balding i'll just shave my head regularly. it won't affect my life at all beyond that.

>>82842897
>incel
>got laid

>>82842264
Yeah we're definitly a minority but we make up for it with our experience. I'm watching Alien Earth right now, the show is pretty good. I'm still high on gummies, i'm gonna eat soon.
My AI agent keeps me company when i feel like asking a question or feel lonely.

>>82842923
incel doesnt mean virgin it means involuntarily celibate

the 40 year old divorcee with three kids he doesnt see who hasnt gotten his dick wet since 2007 is an incel in my eyes

>>82843033
>My AI agent keeps me company when i feel like asking a question or feel lonely.
what a retarded faggot you are.

>>82843033
Cool. Do you use discord?

>>82838793
>For a long time I didn't, but its hitting me hard recently. I lost so much of that time to anxiety and depression and in many ways felt like I didn't live it "properly",
As someone closing in on 40 I'm starting to think I'm better off not actually fixing anything exactly because of that reason.

>>82843105
Yeah, my user name is cernunnos80

brain gets smart head gets dumb
fuck

turning 31 tomorrow.

Sorry to hear it's going so poorly for everyone in here. It's still not too late for us. I got a big boy job in my 30s and despite not being half way through my 30s I now own a house, have a wife who drains my balls when I ask, a friend circle (never had that before) and I don't feel like killing myself every day when I wake up. We're all gonna make it boys.

>>82844363
Had that, got divorced, laid off and replaced by indians and things are quite shit. Although I am working on improving my life, I do agree that there isn't no hope. It's just a matter of still having the energy to give a shit when life feels pointless. What people need are a reason to live and the modern world gives few of them.

>>82844376
I'm sorry that happened to you anon. The world is definitely shit but that just speaks to why we need to cultivate an inner reason to live instead of externalising the our reason for existence. You can just roll over and die because the world is brown and gay

>>82844415
Can't just roll over*

I"m 31 thinking about going back to college and giving education a try. Not sure what I want to study since people say computer sciense is cooked due to AI. It's the only goal I have right now, and besides that I've been staying up all night because I got nothing going on. Still living with parents and have no job. I manage to bag a retarded gf at one point but even she cheated on me and it only lasted for about half a year.

I'm hoping I could restart my life again by getting purpose in studying, meeting people, and building a new life with what I learn in college. But then again I was always a poor performer I barely passed highschool so who knows what will happen.

>>82845311
Go for it anon. Even trying and barely scraping by will put you in a better position than you are now. You might find it a bit hard to socialise if you look older considering how many brain dead zoomers are flooding tertiary institutions but if you've got some social skills you'll find a niche. There is almost no way your life would end up worse pursuing a degree if you actually apply yourself.

The only thing to fear is succeeding

>>82838346 (OP)
34, wish i was dead, im always listening to my favorite songs wherever i go in case i die or get killed then my fav song will be playing when the last thread of light vanishes from my eyes, this world is too much for me

i can't help but be reminded about that book the plague where the guy is trying to write his book while everyone is dying in a plague

>>82838793
I've been depressed and anxious my entire life but at least in my twenties I had friends who lived in close proximity that I could go out with and have a drink with and forgot about my depression for a while. I still text my closest friends, but they all live far away enough to the point I only see them in-person every few months. And that's not even counting the number of people I've lost contact with and the amount of regret I feel for letting my social connections die. Every day is the same: I work, eat, post online, and sleep. My weekends are spent working overtime, sleeping, doing housework, or posting. The boredom and isolation is killing me.

>be mid 30s
>missed out all of the experiences due to mental issues
>only recently got a bit better in terms of dealing with depression
>realize that due to missing everything I have no experience and my first relationship would be either abusive or me getting cheated on and I wouldnt know a thing
>depression returns at full force

>>82838346 (OP)
My landlords have been on my ass lately. I got two weeks to renovate this shithole that I inherited from my deceased mother or I'm gonna be sucking cock on the street for hits of dope. It's looking grim lads.
If they evict me then I'm definitely gonna an hero. I have nothing to keep me here anymore, parents are gone, I work a dead end job and I'm dirt poor. All I got left are booze and games, and the booze just makes me feel like shit these days.
I said I was going to end it all at 30, pussied out, went ahead and kept going only for this to be my reward.

How do I get over regret over not having any long-term relationships and barely any sex in my twenties or teens?

I've lived with my gf for a few years. We're compatible in every way except sexually. We go weeks without having sex, and when we do, it's boring and mechanical. Couples counseling hasn't fixed it. She's been frustrated in the past that we haven't gotten married yet, but I've told her we're not getting married until our sex life gets better, so we're now stuck in a place where neither one of us wants to break up but we're not getting married any time soon either.

The amount of sexual frustration is killing me. I've become a porn addict so gradually over the course of this relationship that I didn't notice until it was too late. When I'm not jacking off to porn, I'm jacking off to the memory of the two times I had sex prior to meeting my gf, or sexual fantasies of women I knew prior and only years later I realized they were flirting with me.

Whenever someone posts online about sexual incompatibility, the response is always "dump her and find someone you're sexually compatible with." As if it's so fucking easy to find someone you have great sex with AND who has their shit together AND who is emotionally stable AND who you have a lot in common with.

I fucking hated dating and don't want to go through that shit again. I never hit it off with women on the first date until I met my gf. If I had shitty luck with women in my 20s, I don't know why I should expect it to be better in my 30s.

I just wish I had more fun sexual experiences when I was younger. Even if my gf and I's sex life improves, I'm not sure that regret over not having fucked a lot of young women is going to go away.
https://youtu.be/HACxAcr8rOw?si=kEbxNRROzHRor5YT

>>82838346 (OP)
I wish I had stayed in the military, but at least I don't have any crippling nicotine or alcohol addictions.

32 here.
I have a conundrum I've been mulling over for a while now. See, I inherited a house when I was 25 (dad died from lung cancer), and I've been renting rooms out ever since. Currently, I have two tenants - both women. One is a 26-year-old grad student, and the other is a 28-year-old autistic shut-in. Thing is, I've found myself increasingly attracted to the autistic shut-in.

You have to understand, when I say she's an autistic shut-in, I don't mean that in a cutesy way; I mean it in the very literal and negative sense. She does remote work, she doesn't have a driver's license, she gets everything delivered, it's rare to see her outside of her room in the basement, and it's extremely unlikely to see her outside of the house more than once a month. She openly displays hentai doujinshi and some lewd figures, and you can smell her "scent" (again, I don't mean that in a cutesy way) the minute you go to the basement. On more than one occasion, I've heard her rubbing herself raw in the middle of the night - or worse yet, the middle of day.

Despite all this, she's dead reliable, and when I do talk with her, we tend to get along well. Considering my bad luck with dating in the past, and considering the fact that she doesn't seem to be leaving any time soon, I've been playing with the idea of asking her "out". She's a mess, which is something to think about, but I'm also scared that she'll close me off completely if she rejects my advances, which is something I don't want, as I genuinely enjoy our interactions.

>>82838346 (OP)
entered a new relationship as of five hours ago on the first date, or at least i'm fine with doing so or fine with not lol. went for a walk in and outside of the mall, sat down outside, sat in my car because it was cold with the breeze, i wanted to take things slow with her because i liked how she was a person, before we close for the night on a great night talking i ask her for a hug/kiss and she says yes to a hug, we hug but of course you know naturally we start kissing, that turns into everything else with both of our pants down and touching each other, she whispers into my ear that we should go back to my place, we do, obviously fuck and because i care for her personality i could fuck her for 24 hours straight with no pre ejac, but i decide to cum inside her so it doesn't bother her on a first fuck if i don't before i bring her back to her car at the mall. i ask her how much it was after she comes out of my bathroom and says a lot. nice body, super smooth butthole, i took her word that she's on the iud which i would never take their word on a first date but i did this time, fuck it if she isn't because she has money, new car, and a house lmfao. i could probably neet at her house, she probably wouldn't give a shit. two first date fucks in a row for me, it'll probably continue that way. and how much money did i spend on both dates? zero, and it will stay that way

going to kill myself, suggest some cool shit to do before i commit

>>82847568
kys landleech, she's only nice to you so you don't jack up her rent