>>82838346
34 here. I miss my teens/early 20s like you wouldn't believe. For a long time I didn't, but its hitting me hard recently. I lost so much of that time to anxiety and depression and in many ways felt like I didn't live it "properly", but there was a vitality and aliveness to me in those days that feels muted by age now. I keep thinking about old times, friends and places now lost to the relentless march of time. The bridges I burned because I didn't want anyone to follow me across them. You think you have all the time in the world until you realise it's been 15 years and time doesn't heal every wound.

There are things I must make amends for before its too late.

All my friends hate me

Now that I know i will never have a gf I don't know what to do now.

I will die a virgin probably

I hate being a schizotypal so much

>parents
>Hey son, you're already 30 years old and still haven't made your first million dollars yet. Your female childhood friend made a million while living in Las Vegas. Then your classmate's little sister made 1.2 million in less than a year just from OnlyFans alone! And she's just 19 years old! What have you achieved in your life, son? Nothing!
god, kill me already...