i think im going to try and kill myself because I cant take care of myself and
>failed elementary schooling
>cant drive
>never had a job
>never had any romantic partners
>cant do basic math, so cant get ged or pay bills or taxes
>live with parents
>diagnosed autism
>diagnosed low iq
>dont get along with anyone
>dont like doing anything
>lazy and unproductive
>disgusted by nature
>no survival instinct

I have suicidality that is completely disconnected from circumstances. For instance i notice i want to kms just as much when im happy as sad, it doesnt matter, even like right after completing a goal, i want to die. Even when happy, i want to die. Its this constant burning curiosity. I dont want life. I dont want a body. I need nonexistence. I need death. Its not an emotional thing, its just...I need to die

I am going to kill myself by self inducing hypothermia this winter. It will literally take less then a few hours. Just gonna wait till the next time its 24 or less degrees at night, then im gonna go to the woods in the middle of the night, douse myself with ice water, and finally be free. It will hurt but it will hurt less then going through this nightmare. seriously just cant stand this shit anymore, its just so painful and disgusting, being alive is hurting my soul and there is not nearly enough good to even consider staying.

>highly expensive meds cost 30 dollars out of my pocket for literally 4 doses (less then a fucking week worth of meds )
>the package had only fucking 3 doses in it regardless
im going to fucking kill myself soon

I fucking hate when incompetent people get away with their shit simply because the competition is twice as incompetent