I worry my seasonal depression and anxiety will be unbearable this year.

Im watching this in the midst of a turning 30 exestential dread, terrible midlife crisis episode. Im wondering how these people who speedrun find so much fulfillment playing these games over and over. I know it's autism, but besides that what do they have that I dont? How do I find something so fulfilling?

Are people still playing Hunt Showdown? Is it easy to get into or are people super pissy if you dont know every single meta thing?

>beautiful sunny day out
>playing death stranding 2
>reading steam sale threads
>listening to podcasts
>looking forward to ESA and GDQ coming up
>UFC fights tomorrow
>everything good
>suddenly remember I'm 30, done nothing with my life and will inevitably die

How do you not let the intrusive thoughts win? How do you recover?

>>713797345
Idk how I feel about ESA going before GDQ. I dont wanna be burned out for GDQ.