yes, I am too anxious to go outside

Nothing turns a woman off more than being nice to them. No matter what they say, no matter how much they cope, they love it when you treat them like disposable trash. That doesn't mean yelling at them and calling them ugly disgusting whores, like feminists love to strawman, but it means general indifference to them while sprinkling a bit of kindness every once in a while to keep them hooked.

Women like being beneath you. Don't let them gaslight you into thinking otherwise. The women who wanted the date me the most are the ones I cared about the least. Foids are incapable of feeling love so you do need to manipulate them a little bit. This is the harsh truth.

I can't watch porn anymore. Looking at it just makes me feel sad. These are real people enjoying each other's company. Billions of people like them all over the world. And I'm just looking at them from my screen, alone.

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I'm in the planning process. Death is a messy thing so I'm trying to leave all my assets in order to make it less bothersome for my family. I already managed to rehome my dog so that's good.

Did you know that you shit yourself when you die? I bought a pack of adult diapers so I wouldn't leave a mess lmao.

It's kinda crazy how much economic status matters as an adult. I was raised in a trailer and shared a room with three people but in High School I dated a girl who lived in a two-story house with her own room. Stepping inside her house for the first time was legit mind blowing at first but despite our differences we got along so well.

I legit cannot fathom entering into that sort of relationship as an adult. That memory feels so alien to me now. Women will unconsciously reject you inside their heads simply based on what kind of car you drive.

What are you supposed to do once you acknowledge that you don't deserve to be loved? Is suicide the only way out of this hellish torment?

I feel like I'm stuck in a state between wanting to stop existing but also not wanting to die. Does that make sense? tbqh if there was a magical button that made me instantly vanish, including from other people's memories, I would press it immediately.

Even if you end up finding a wife, it's too late. The damage is done. She was getting drunk at parties with her friends, getting plapped by 5 every weekend while you were sitting alone, spiraling through endless depressive episodes. She was sleeping in the warm embrace of another man's arms while you were laying in your cold bed, clenching your eyes shut and trying to block out the suicidal fantasies.

You will always be a little bit stunted. Damaged, even. She will notice.

My Practice Girlfriend bought me a cake today for no particular reason. I was planning on breaking up with her soon though but now I feel bad. Should I wait another week before doing it?