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7/22/2025, 12:17:09 AM
>>81910892
im glad. i dont know. i feel tethered here against my will.
>>81910931
>You don't owe anyone anything
but i do. i owe my mom for keeping me alive. i owe my friends for trying their best to help me. i have so many debts and i dont even know where to start to repay them. instead all im doing is running away.
>You stay alive for them not to suffer
i feel like its the least i can do. i dont have the right to inflict such pain upon others especially if they've been nice to me. but now it starts to not matter anymore.
still, overall i think i agree with most of the things you said anon. thanks for sharing your view.
>Get a glass of warm milk
...i only have water
>>81911027
>but I did
no. you did not. stop blaming yourself. i dont understand why you're doing it in the first place.
>If my friends are miserable and i can't do anything about it am I really a good friend?
again, you are not a therapist. you are not god, you are not a psychiatrist, you are but a person. if your friend dies in a car crash, are you going to blame yourself for not being there to save him? its the same thing.
im glad. i dont know. i feel tethered here against my will.
>>81910931
>You don't owe anyone anything
but i do. i owe my mom for keeping me alive. i owe my friends for trying their best to help me. i have so many debts and i dont even know where to start to repay them. instead all im doing is running away.
>You stay alive for them not to suffer
i feel like its the least i can do. i dont have the right to inflict such pain upon others especially if they've been nice to me. but now it starts to not matter anymore.
still, overall i think i agree with most of the things you said anon. thanks for sharing your view.
>Get a glass of warm milk
...i only have water
>>81911027
>but I did
no. you did not. stop blaming yourself. i dont understand why you're doing it in the first place.
>If my friends are miserable and i can't do anything about it am I really a good friend?
again, you are not a therapist. you are not god, you are not a psychiatrist, you are but a person. if your friend dies in a car crash, are you going to blame yourself for not being there to save him? its the same thing.
7/18/2025, 1:01:03 AM
>>81866756
>you do this for yourself. and the moment you realize that, you recoil. and the one moment you recognize your own needs, you call yourself greedy.
I... dont think i could've explained it better myself. yeah, i think you're right, thats exactly what i do. i think, it would be so much easier to live if i didnt hate myself so much. so much, that even the slightest notion that i might deserve something more than just suffering makes me feel like im a narcissistic, greedy asshole. thanks for putting it into words for me and making me realize it
>you're too good for religion, to good for stories, to good to think that getting a job, and spending the rest of your days consuming shit is enough to fulfill your life
but then, what are supposed to do? its like the entire world was shaped for people that are the complete opposite of what i am. should i really be here? can't i just leave?
>but i hope you find solace in knowing there are other cancer patients dying with you around the world. motivating, eh?
i do, though part of me kinda wishes no one else felt this way. still, it does bring solace to know at least 1 person understands what it feels like. so thank you anon, for answering, and also for keeping on fighting
>you do this for yourself
...am i really worth it?
>you do this for yourself. and the moment you realize that, you recoil. and the one moment you recognize your own needs, you call yourself greedy.
I... dont think i could've explained it better myself. yeah, i think you're right, thats exactly what i do. i think, it would be so much easier to live if i didnt hate myself so much. so much, that even the slightest notion that i might deserve something more than just suffering makes me feel like im a narcissistic, greedy asshole. thanks for putting it into words for me and making me realize it
>you're too good for religion, to good for stories, to good to think that getting a job, and spending the rest of your days consuming shit is enough to fulfill your life
but then, what are supposed to do? its like the entire world was shaped for people that are the complete opposite of what i am. should i really be here? can't i just leave?
>but i hope you find solace in knowing there are other cancer patients dying with you around the world. motivating, eh?
i do, though part of me kinda wishes no one else felt this way. still, it does bring solace to know at least 1 person understands what it feels like. so thank you anon, for answering, and also for keeping on fighting
>you do this for yourself
...am i really worth it?
7/17/2025, 4:19:58 PM
>>81860983
>ya i guess i will have to accept the emptiness eventually.
better sooner than later i guess. is there something you're looking forward to in the future? maybe thinking about that might fill you with something, possibly hope. if you're anything like me it might just fill you with dread though. also hi.
>ya i guess i will have to accept the emptiness eventually.
better sooner than later i guess. is there something you're looking forward to in the future? maybe thinking about that might fill you with something, possibly hope. if you're anything like me it might just fill you with dread though. also hi.
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