Is trans immutable? Seems like people just cite fmri studies which are useless for this kinda thing. Otherwise there's no reason to assume that it's like being gay which is immutable because it's not sexual attraction.

When I think about my life, it feels like its over. Feels like it is far too late I have no friends and it's too late to have friends anyway because everyone is getting married and having kids and im left alone completely emotionally and socially stunted and nobody is going to hang out with friends anymore they are all past that point in their lives and I never even lived in the first place but im too old to start to live and even if I had a partner its not enough because one person isn't enough to be my whole life but there's no way to make true friends nobody cares about anyone else and it just feels like there is no point to living anymore and I just want to die.

I almost never like my friends partners. I think for one, it feels like it will always change the friendship and I will always lose priority in that person's life and we will become less of friends because of it. And two, I often just dont even like the people they choose as partners. I think they are just bad people and bring a bad dynamic to my friend and will probably change my friend for the worse, and I dont want to spend time with them because I dont like them. Should I just give up on making friends? On life?