hey anon. how are you feeling? im miserable. i hope you've had a nice week. what did you do today?

>>81908627
and i thought it couldnt get any worse lol
>>81908942
i guess i kind of care if my cat gets sad. i know she gets sad whenever i leave the house.
>>81909406
same. not doing it 2 years ago was a mistake.

hope... the best and worst feeling one can have. hope can hurt so much, but it can save you as well. its crazy to me how much humans can do when there's hope. its like some kind of reserve battery we have for when things get so bad and you have nothing that makes you go on anymore. if you have hope, then you get this strange burst of energy that lets you do things that you never thought you could've done before. it gives you courage, motivation, reason, to put everything you have into something. it makes you strive to be better, to be there for tomorrow, to continue on the path even if its treacherous. and yet, this same feeling can bring someone to their knees whenever it is shattered. putting all that remains of your hope into something, or someone, is so scary. its a gambit, it can be a death sentence. because, once its gone for good, once it's completely spent, hope never comes back. and then there's nothing to keep you going. no more batteries. only the waves move whatever is left of you. and when hope breaks, when it runs out, it hurts so much. its like a stab in the back, from this feeling you trusted with your life, only to see it turn back on you and overwhelm your entire being with nothing but with the opposite of what it promised; hopelessness. and then, all that remains is yourself. yourself, with nothing but this awful feeling. it lingers... it never goes away, it becomes part of you, a part that forever lives until you're spent. but until then, until the last little faint light of hope fizzles away, there's still something we can do! we can nurture this small light into something bigger, if we treat it with care, if we cherish it and do whatever it takes to never let it die and leave space for darkness. just like this little light is there for you, you have to be there for it, and do your best to keep it aflame. don't give up on it! its trying so hard to stay alive, and you have to do it too, so that you can both grow stronger, and brighter each day.

>>81620055
i was thinking i should too. but i cant.
>>81620076
a lot. i tried a lot. i tried to do things i wouldnt have done normally, i tried to follow other people's advice, i tried to do what i thought was right, but every single time things just got worse.
>>81620078
in any moment of decision, the best thing you can do is the right thing, the next best thing is the wrong thing, and the worst thing you can do is nothing.
>>81620233
thanks it made me laugh. i guess maybe i should also start doing the opposite, although, what im doing right now, is already the opposite of what i was doing before...