>>719943606
>>PLAYAN
Silksong and rock band unplugged on my steam deck
>>WATCHAN
New south park with my dad
>>LISTENAN
Midwest emo, lil ugly mane
>>READAN
/v/, /tv/
>>EATAN
Local pizza place. Get a pizza with bbq sauce, pineapple, jalapenos and chicken
>>DRINKAN
Monster rehab, irish whisky and water
>>FAPPAN
Just fapped to some guy jacking off on a woman's feet
>>FEELAN
Pretty alright. Miss my ex-wife a little. Still in the process of getting a divorce. It's a long, tedious process. They trooned out and the HRT made them a whole different person. It's hard to really understand what's going on. They want nothing to do with me right now which really stings. She moved to new york with her trans friends. So i'll probably never see her again. We were married for 5 years before all this happened. I probably wouldn't even recognize her. I feel so bad for hurting her a few years ago. I didn't intentionally hurt her and I feel like a huge perv for it, which I am. I did something while she was sleeping and didn't say anything til a few months ago. Didn't think of anything at the time, we made a lot of sex tapes just for personal use so I did something while she was sleeping not thinking anything of it. I just feel so fucking guilty for it. I've been going to therapy for it and it's pretty much all i've talked about in therapy. Because of that she wants absolutely nothing with me. I have a lot of anxiety of getting a divorce. Mainly because i'll have to communicate with her. I have matching tattoos with her so it hurts to look at my arm. I'm just rambling about it. To go from someone I would talk to every single day, even after we decided to get a divorce, to almost a complete stranger is just such a weird feeling. I was completely in the wrong for doing something in her sleep but i'm just frustrated with the whole situation.

Oh well. I have the whole night to myself and i'm just going to enjoy silksong and take some 7ho.

I felt a lot more motivated to do things to improve my life when I thought, "I'm doing this for the sake of my future wife."
Now I have come to realize that no matter what I do, I cannot truly be attractive to women. And so I no longer have the drive to do as much for the sake of the future.
What keeps you going? What drives you in life?

>>106209206
I installed the kde environment and the logo in the window when I go to choose a file is the KDE logo

>december 2024
>i am playing starship warrior vs starship dk
>february 2025
>i am playing starship warrior vs starship dk
>july 2025
>i am playing starship warrior vs starship dk

>>24527000
To be alone is not necessarily to be absent from the company of others, the radical step is to let ourselves alone, to cease the berating voice that is constantly trying to interpret and force the story from too small and too complicated a perspective. Even in company, a sense of imminent aloneness is a quality that can be cultivated. Aloneness does not need a desert, or a broad ocean, or a quiet mountain; human beings have the ability to feel the rawest most intimate forms of aloneness whilst living closely with others or beset by the busyness of the world: they can feel alone around a meeting table, in the happiest, most committed marriage, or aboard a crowded ship with a full compliment of crew.

The difficulty of being alone may be felt most keenly in the most intimate circumstances, in the darkness of the marriage bed: one centimeter and a thousand miles apart, or in the silence around a tiny crowded kitchen table. But to feel alone in the presence of others is also to understand the singularity of human existence whilst experiencing the deep physical current that binds us to others whether we want that binding or no: aloneness can measure togetherness even through a sense of distance.

At the beginning of the twenty-first century, to feel alone or want to be alone is deeply unfashionable: to admit to feeling alone is to reject and betray others, as if they are not good company, and do not have entertaining, interesting lives of their own to distract us, and to actually seek to be alone is a radical act; to want to be alone is to refuse a certain kind of conversational hospitality and to turn to another door, and another kind of welcome, not necessarily defined by human vocabulary.

It may be that time away from a work, an idea of ourselves, or a committed partner is the very essence of appreciation for the other, for the work and for the life of another, to be able to let them alone as we let ourselves alone, to live something that feels like a choice again, to find ourselves alone as a looked for achievement, not a state to which we have been condemned.

I miss when 4chan was more than just take your meds/touch grass/have sex

Why can't we all just get along?