>>212460055
I'm one step up from killing myself lad. The moment anything goes wrong in my life that I can't fix due to not having enough money / willpower, I am gone. The light has long since gone out. The only reason I am still here, the only reason, is to prevent my family being sad once I die. I got a glimpse of that when I attempted suicide before. To be honest I don't know that I will last until my parents both pass away either but I am still trying in the sense that I'm not dead yet.
Often people will say stuff like why not have a big blowout etc but it's not like that, you don't have the energy for that. All I have the energy to do is get through today. I don't make plans for the future. I have no goals. There is no future for me.
>>212460070
Prefer not to say. Nothing glamorous or interesting, I can assure you. And quite unbecoming of a person my age.
