The real reason why before my grandmother died why she was short with me had nothing to do with me, but that she was in an excruiating amount of pain.

Considering the horrible pain and suffering I see NTs do to themselves, I do not want to have their perfect social skills. As a kid I wanted that. Now as an adult I think being socially awkward is the greatest gift I have ever had.

How can I make people who hate their life easy to deal with my quirky all over the place antics that given no other choice they have to deal with? I can't be specific on this, but imagine having to deal with a literal cartoon character in real life who isn't funny.

The fact that society has encountered so many situations that is like eating a cake that has razor blades in it, has really fucked up our view of humanity. It is the reason why autistic people are feared, because of said situation.

The person you are dealing with could be in serious overwhelming pain not be hateful towards you. Try to understand that. There are some people who are so worn out they lash out vocally and behaviorally towards others, some keep it in, and others forgive. While you should stick to those that forgive, remember those that keep it in you have to be considerable with them keeping a neutral face while they storm off.