Op here high as fuck thinking about years that passed by, doing nothing achieving nothing. Years of mental abuse turned me into someone I never wanted to become, I had to leave someone who was curious passionate and caring into someone who is just cold and treats people like shit, because no one treated me better. I am in a bad place and never wanted to admit it but my life is something I was once getting disgusted of and the worst thing being my life isn't even bad it's actually something many would want. No real problems other than my own mental ones. Others care about me but I just keep pushing then away until they give up on me just to have this feeling justified. On top of that my birthday is coming and just the fact that I'm turning 27 without real goal set or anything I want to strongly accomplish is scaring me.

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