>>724823269
In all my 22 years of living I have never come close to a relationship with a woman. In fact, I have never even touched a woman I'm not related to.
I want so badly to have a girlfriend or wife, but I've come to accept that that will never happen. Over the past several years I put my head down and focused hard on my studies. I went to a good school and got good grades and did internships and have a job lined up for after graduation with plenty of money saved with the intent of buying a house early. It doesn't matter. There is no hope for me.
Even IF I were to get a girlfriend it'll be too late. She'll be old and will have had her fun. There will be no spontaneity, no morning sex or practical jokes or loving me for me. I'd just be a wallet she fucks once a month to keep a roof over her head. Every morning before work I'll get a sterile kiss on the cheek as she gives me my two measly sausage links, which are burned to a crisp despite my constant (very gentle BTW) reminders that she's cooking them too long. While I work at a job I hate she'll cuck me with a 57-year-old personal trainer from Rio named Fabian. Is he better at sex than me? No not really. He's flabby and kind of small, but it doesn't matter to her. All that matters is hurting me. We'll delay kids until we're in our late 30s, and by then my decaying sperm and her musty eggs will produce a down syndrome baby that makes our life a living hell. I will kill the baby, then her, and then myself.
I'll never be awoken by a cute Ellie GF jumping up and down on our fluffy bed. I'll never have a cute Ellie GF jump on my back in the middle of the night as I grab a glass of water from the kitchen trying to scare me. I'll never run through a parking lot with Ellie in my arms trying not to slip and split her head open as I scurry to get out of the rain and into our car.
What's even the point?