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Nice going anons, this whole thread seems to be mistaken in the fact, that all of the bad mental stuff is only in your brain.
It is not only your brain, stupid!
How can you think that thoughts about killing yourself, crashing your car at high speeds and others of this type are just some random byproduct of chemicals? Demons are mocking you out of their hatred to God's creation.
It's spiritual warfare, and the first strategy of winning a war is to make your enemy think, that you don't even exist, while you are destroying him. First step is to understand, that all of us are under demonic attack. In short, fear, hatred, jealousy, misery, hopelessness - it all has to go my friend, these are the holes in your barricades. But you can't do anything without Jesus Christ, and if you don't know Him or know about Him, you are screwed.
Start doing some reading and praying. Eastern Orthodoxy is where the fullness of truth is at.
Father Seraphim Rose's books (he is a contemporary saint) are good. This man was gay buddhist looking for purpose, and after some time became a hieromonk living in seclusion.
It's all-life-long war, and the improvements will probably be few, and hard to see. Maybe God will bless you with some immediate healing if you are honest.
I am not a priest though, just speaking from what I've red for the past months, I'm currently a catechumen of the Orthodox Church, in the learning phase. So take it all with a grain of salt.
Orthodox Christian tradition has saints going back hundreds and hundreds of years back. There are many writings regarding exactly this topic. The term depression is not used though, rather from what I see it's despondency, hopelessness.
