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i googled abit around because the question interested me, kerouac lists him as on of his favorites, and that fucking pederast ginsburg and burroughs meet him actually once in france, so yes that kinda confirms my suspicions that they are strongly influenced.
But i personally find celine way more nihilistic and bleak. He isnt as depraved and hedonistic as the beats, and that makes him way more sympathetic and thus harder to read. Im still entertained by burroughs and so, but dont feel an ounce of pity for them, they basically see the world as their playground and celine sees it more as a harsh darwinistic dog-eat-dog world, thats atleast the impression i got from journey through the eind of the night (but very subjective, because thats the only thing ive read by celine), so in that sense i understand why he feels way more humanistic, because he sees himself as part of the scum and bottomfeeders, the beatniks always had an aloof air to them, that they still thought themselves above the true bums but now im just ranting away, but feel free to disagree with me and give me different views to consider. i think i will read it again in the next months too

learning to read too soon, read a book my older brother got when i was 4, and that book was about the intelligence of animals. That book said that one of the biggest differences between humans and animals is, that humans know that they will die one day, even if they are completely healthy in the moment. That smacked me in the face so hard and i became completely dissociated and since then im stuck in a perpetual existential crisis. Ofcourse that made me weird and very removed from my peers, because i didnt see a sense in anything and i just couldnt get that fact out of my head even from that young age. Now i have copes and can live with it, but my formative years were completely fucked and im not well adjusted. Beside that i would have had good conditions for growing up well adjusted, nice parents, peaceful neighbourhood, stuff like that. But that fucking book ruined it all. Looking back everything stems from that book

yesterday i drank too much too, on night out with the lads i just drink 2-3 beers thats it, so i havent been properly drunk for atleast 1 year, but yesterday i overdid it big time and im very tired from my bluecollar work on top of that, now i remember why i dont drink so much. Should have just smoked a joint and gone to bed at 10pm fuck. my whole free day is down the gutter