>>82414005
>There's actually nothing morally wrong about torturing (including sexual torture), mutilating, and killing women for the sheer enjoyment of it.
I actually want women to do this to me. I'm a sexual masochist. I want to cuddle with her afterwards. This might be a product of my guilt and shame.

>>82127175
I've talked with my dad about this several times. I would just be driving around his only car when he doesn't need to go out anywhere, but I know he would be very anxious every time I'd go out in that car. I'm not some dumb teenager, I would be driving extremely carefully. For the past couple years, I've been paying attention to the road and everything going on around when my dad has been driving in preparation for eventually getting a driver license. I blame being born into poverty. If I were in a wealthy family, somebody would've just handed me a car years ago and wouldn't have cared if I got in a minor fender bender or collision or whatever as a new driver.
>>82127191
>>82127208
>you could collect enough money to get a used car in like half a year and then just keep saving
Insurance would be very expensive, and I would almost never use the car, and I could just have my dad drive me over to the gym or work with no issue. It just seems like this would be a necessity for having a relationship with a woman, unless she literally saw no issue in driving me around everywhere. Also, there are a few things I like to buy every now and then with the NEETbux I get. After regular monthly expenses (food, steroids, and ambien), I only have around $600 left. Try not indulging in buying anything nice for an entire fucking year just to get a car that you're going to spending a ton of money on insurance for, and you're going to be going paranoid at the thought of damaging it or getting in a collision.

>>81768513
Both.

I'm pretty frustrated that I turned 25 last month, and that I'm virtually a virgin. I've had several women interested in me over the years, but I never actually got to the point of sex. I was very fortunate three months after turning 15 when a 24-year-old woman got a bit intimate with me and we made out. I discovered her on the sex offender registry around the beginning of 2024 after getting the idea to look her up after watching some Chris Hansen videos. I've had a few girls show interest in me since then, including one instance where a woman approached me at the gym a couple months ago, and I was too stupid to get her number. She came up with some silly excuse to come to talk to me, like I was going to hurt my back when using a machine that doesn't even involve any back movement.

Covid did a lot of damage to me, and I even became a bad alcoholic during that period, but it was largely to do with losing my ambien prescription from my doctor, and I had no idea how dark net markets worked until early 2024. March was the first time I used cocaine. I've only done it twice. I've been sober for a year now, but I was an alcoholic for around 2.5 years. I stopped going to the gym in March 2020 and started again in January 2024. I was pretty much a hermit in my room this entire time.

I've had insomnia caused by OCD since middle school, getting worse in adulthood, but having improved in the past year and a half. This prevents me from being able to maintain any job on a schedule, so I can't work any A time to B time job. I have been receiving NEETbucks since I was 21, though. I get a bit less than $1000 a month now, and I live with my dad. My dad got a new job less than a couple years ago, and I've been volunteering to help him out every now and then, so this is a bit of a job, and I have been socializing with people there, but as of the past few months, I've rarely ever been going for a few reasons.

Do you have a discord? Mine is maxim20007878.

I've been thinking about asking her out for years, but I haven't done so, since I feel like I'm still relatively too much of a loser due to low income and not being that attractive at the moment due to being fat. I feel like if I asked her out, she would just view me as a loser and not be interested. We had some cute experiences in middle school, though. I can improve my looks likely within a year, but finding a way to make more money is going to take some time.