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At this time it is important you do not succumb to misery. Happiness and positive emotion are required to have agency and control over your life. Periods of intense unhappiness overwhelm the intellect and drown out all knowledge of anything but itself. I believe these intense negative periods arise from the body, they are a physical reaction to a discrepancy between desire and reality, you cannot stop them or block them out. This bodily unhappiness is like an ocean wave, a temporary thing which passes over you and simply cannot maintain itself after it breaks. But the intellect can then carry this misery and prolong it indefinitely, allowing each successive wave to push you further down. Instead, you must wait out each wave of misery, then stand upright again after it has passed. Regain your calm intellect, and recompose your happiness. This becomes easier and easier as you practice it with discipline and gain strength in your legs.While miserable you are incapable of thinking, you are essentially unconscious. You must treat the miserable periods like narcoleptic episodes, wait them out and rest your soul, and emerge from them again and again back into some form of your true self. A happy self which is always there, and is only momentarily hidden away from you.