>>41470939
thank you for the advice…i genuinely appreciate it from the bottom of my heart

for what it’s worth i do a number of these things…i always try to compliment him when appropriate, i tell him that he makes me happy in a variety of ways, things like that…sometimes we’ve chatted just me and him into the late hours of the night about mutual interests, it’s so nice when that happens…

im going to continue and will try starting small like that…
but i dont know how to cross the rubicon, in the sense of actually telling him my feelings at some point…
…what do i even say? this pathetic tranny loser likes you? im a khhv and ive never even been on a date before, i dont know how any of this stuff works…it all feels so foreign and the juxtaposition of that and the intensity of my emotions makes this all feel so scary…

i still don’t know how to get over the anxiety and actually talk to him

and i dont know how to make it better

i feel so stupid and pathetic

>>41450355
i see, im glad you were able to make things work in the past

ill take your words to heart, and will try and heed them

for what its worth, i do talk with him 1 on 1 quite often, sometimes at night for hours based on stuff we’re mutually interested in. its always so nice when i get to do that, i feel so happy when its just me and him chatting
i try and compliment him whenever possible and when appropriate like when he shares things that’s he’s made or just talking about his skills or things he’s done in the past, i say good morning and good night to him although i try not to be too excessive about that…and i try to be there when he’s feeling sad, the other night a week ago or so he seemed to be in a really sad mood and called himself a loser and said some other concerning stuff, i slipped and said i worry about him…i felt like that was too much in the moment but he still talks to me so idk…
the more i learn about him the more my heart pines for him…
i also buy him lots of gifts anonymously and send him little notes, i think it may be obvious its me from my writing style but idk, part of me prays he notices its me, its embarrassing how much money ive spent on him…

if i may ask, how did you end up approaching the subject of dating with the content creators you knew? how did such a thing come up? did you ask them or did they ask you?

i just want to be appropriate with him, the last thing i want to do is creep him out or make him uncomfortable and stressed…

>>41438771
because it’s not about a role it’s about him, i like him because he’s him, i like him because of how kind and caring he his, how mature he is and how much he’s worked on himself, for how he can be emotional at times, for his interests and passions and his skills and tenacity, how despite whatever happens he just keeps on keeping on and continues going forward, with how disciplined he can be with himself, with how he’s skilled in so many different ways and has all sorts of talents, with how unique and special he is
i like and desire him because he’s him, he’s one of a kind

and i haven’t said it before i don’t think but his voice…i love his voice so much, it makes me melt, it makes me feel like everything is going to be ok, when i hear him say nice and kind and sweet things or just hear him ramble or talk about something, it makes me feel content and happy
and it makes me feel like a creepy awful weirdo that’s disgusting and evil and horrible and all i can do is bottle up my true emotions and cry and cry and cry and cry