Thread 41459499

there’s someone i like and i get in vc’s with them but im too afraid to talk and use a mute chat they set up like a stupid tranny coward

how do i get over my anxiety of talking? i have a nonpassing stupid tranny voice and i dont want to utter a word until its better

but theres times where hes sad and wants to talk to someone and doesnt want to be alone and i feel like such an awful coward for letting my anxiety and insecurities get in the way of me trying to make him feel better and be less alone

what do i how do i work the problem???

play counterstrike and get bullied until you get over it

>>41459499 (OP)
Gonna be really funny when you eventually cross the parasocial Rubicon, talk to this guy, and nothing comes of it

>>41459516
this might be the strategy or vrchat

>>41459528
have you seen my other threads??? why would that be funny for my heart to be broken in a million pieces like that???
for what its worth i do talk with him, well chat with him rather i just never have done so on a voice call because im too afraid to speak…i hate being such a pathetic tranny boymoding loser
i hate that my heart has done this to me
i hate myself so much for this

what if he likes trannyvoice

>>41459575
i dont know if he does…i dont even know if he would ever date a stupid tranny like me…his last ex had a kid and im so worried that he would never date a tranny because he’s supa straight or would want kids

i feel like he would want a real woman but i have no way of knowing if he would like a tranny…its one of the reasons im so scared to use my stupid tranny voice…I hate it all so much i hate myself

>>41459516
yeah

>>41459607
ask

>>41459633
there’s no way i can appropriately ask such a question!!! it would be inappropriate and probably would come off far too strong and that’s the last thing i want
i know he’s trans friendly but that doesn’t mean he would actually date a tranny, let alone a stupid boymoding failure who’s been on HRT for almost 6 years and still boymodes and doesn’t even have a passing voice, its so over

i hate it so much, i feel so horrible and creepy and awful

>>41459652
how much do you work on your voice

>>41459662
not nearly enough, ive been trying to be better about it lately but im just not making any significant progress towards it being passing

i mean i dont have like a deep gravely man voice but its falsetto/somewhat pitched high and it sounds like a bad stupid tranny voice and i hate it
i feel like it would absolutely repel him
i feel like he wants a real woman and the thought of speaking just terrifies me because i don’t want to push him away
i want him so bad it hurts

>>41459701
record a vocaroo of this post

>>41459712
i will soon

>>41459812
how soon

>>41459832
in a couple of minutes!!! i work night shift and am doing something and must excuse myself to record an awful horrible vocaroo of my voice

>>41459842
hurry up i aint got all nigth

>>41459499 (OP)
Omfg just talk. If you don't voice train and have to put on a fake faggy voice, don't. And If you sound like a man, who cares it's even cuter if you do so... as a sign of Trust.
t.cishet white male lurk moar

>>41459846
>>41459886

https://voca.ro/12L95LcMIUYI

i had to run to the bathroom to do this stupid tranny voice that i hate so much, it doesn’t pass and sounds awful

even recording this increased my bpm dramatically, i feel terrified to even share it here

>>41459920
oh my god it's fine just speak up

>>41459930
im sorry i had to speak quietly because im scared

you really dont think it sounds bad?? doesn’t it sound like a tranny?? this is really the first time ive ever even shared my voice and ive just been terrified to do so

im still scared to talk with him on vc but idk does it not sound horrible as much as i think it does??

>>41459920
You sound like you have an orgasm. You Sound so kind, I wish I could listen to you every night when we sleep together on Discord

>>41459972
>you sound like you have an orgasm

what does this mean?? i don’t understand is this a good thing or do i sound weird and fetishey?? i dont want to come off as an agp freak

i pray he finds my voice as relaxing as you do, im genuinely so scared

>>41460001
its bad, and sounds fake. Try to remake your voice as it also sounds very forced rn.

>>41460030
i know it sounds fake and awful
its why i dont want to speak around him, i feel so bad about it, it hurts me

how do i remake my voice?? how do i make it sound better and more real? i just want it to be good for him i dont want to sound like a stupid awful tranny

Just detroone now and be a twink. You're not gonna make it retard

>>41460066
why on earth would i do that?? at 16 i made an ultimatum with myself that i would an hero or start HRT so i did and its literally one of the best things ive done

ill probably never pass and never get to have a boyfriend that loves me but at least im a functional human being now

i still don’t know how to get over the anxiety and actually talk to him

and i dont know how to make it better

i feel so stupid and pathetic

>>41459499 (OP)
voice train

>>41460276
im trying to be better about voice training i just pray i make some real progress soon because not being able to actually talk to him and being ashamed of myself is killing me inside

he was alone in the voice channel for a while tonight and wanted someone to talk to him and I felt absolutely miserable that i couldn’t be there for him and chat with him
i wish i wasn’t like this
i don’t know why my heart does this to me

i hate being me
i hate that my heart has done this to me
i wish i could make him happy
i wish i was real

>>41459499 (OP)
just as you can't become fluent with a language without speaking broken nonsense to natives for a few years, you can't develop a passing voice without sounding like a faggy tranny first

anyway most trannies never develop a passing voice anyway, especially not without professional coaching and/or surgery which is super risky anyway so you might as well just get used to it.

t. fagcent tranny

>>41459516
this doesn't work I know

>>41460707
i think i might be stuck being a faggot loser forever but i really hope not because i want to be real
i dont want to push him away
even though he probably only would want a real woman
i wish i was real