>>41470621
no i haven’t… i just don’t know how to, and i dont know how to do it appropriately…my feelings feel so awful and creepy

and my gut says that he wouldn’t be amicable to it, i dont think he likes me but i cant really be sure…i just dont want to ruin things because im afraid he would be creeped out and get angry at me and want to go no contact

i just dont know what to do…i feel like an awful miserable coward and it hurts so bad…

>>41460993
all i want is for him to be happy
hes alone and it makes him sad and that makes me sad
he doesn’t view himself very highly i dont think and sometimes he calls himself a loser

it makes me cry because hes not a loser and it hurts my heart so much to know that this kind, sweet man who never ceases to impress me and who has so much ambition and who i look up to feels this way about themself. hes such a beautiful, unique, and talented person and i wish i could tell him the emotions locked deep within my heart

i dont care about me
i just want him to be happy

i love a man so much but i can never ever express how i feel to him because it’s inappropriate and weird and evil

it’s parasocial in nature and i hate my heart so much for doing this to me

i keep making this thread because i don’t know what else to do and i have no other way of expressing the feelings locked within my heart

he’s such a sweet man and i wish i could hold him, i wish he could hold me. i wish i existed in a context to where i could get to know him better, i wish i could make him smile and laugh, i wish i could spoil him and make him feel special, i wish he could keep me warm at night

i wish i could be his rock and make him feel special and wanted and loved, i wish i could cook his favorite foods and make him happy. i wish i could fix all of his problems and make his life easier, i wish i could keep him company so he’s not alone, i dont want him to be alone i want him to be happy, its all i want

but i can never have that, and i can never ever express my feelings. i dont want to make him uncomfortable or stressed out, he has enough on his plate as it is

i hate my heart for doing this to me, i hate being a boymoding tranny failure, a complete failure of a person

>>41439812
no just a khhv loser

i wish someone could hold me but most of all i wish he could hold me

it’s so cold and i don’t turn my heat on to save money and it would be so nice to curl up in his arms and hear him whisper in my ears that everything is going to be ok and that he’s got me

instead i go to sleep clutching my stupid shark every night crying while listening to his voice but knowing ill never actually hear him in that context

i hate myself for all of this so much and i don’t know what to do, i feel so stupid and small