All the people who downplay being stuck in the circus as something they'd enjoy being trapped in are worrisome, It's not about how you'd win the circus by actually liking it, it's still a hell to be locked in that way out of your life no matter how horrible it was or how unfulfilled you were.
Ragatha absolutely had a hard time adjusting -kinger says as much- and she had an absolutely terrible upbringing, I bet she spent years trying to find a way out (while keeping a positive attitude over it) even if it mean returning to an abusive family and a dead end job probably shedding away her hopes as the new normal settled in.