>>16749515
i wouldn't trip balls the first time without someone around to babysit
also, hallucinogens are strongly influenced by how you're feeling at the time. you bring those emotions along with the trip. if you aren't in a good place, i would advise against them.
that being said, they provide a powerful experience which can have a profound affect on your life outlook, and one can feel refreshed after the trip (save for the day after when you feel kinda stupid). also, the meme that you feel connected with everything is widely known for a reason.
i'd try to find some mdma instead if you want drugs that make you feel good about being alive, but it's something that should be seldomly taken because it's a very special experience.
but truth be told, it sounds like you need to make some major life changes and try to engage with people rather than do drugs. drugs enhance certain experiences, they are not there to effortlessly break you out of depression, and treating them as such will just have a negative impact on your life.