OP I relate heavy to what you're going through. It's hard to find balance. It's even harder to not just let oneself go and be a fucking dog humping any legs that come around. I'm 26 and after a serious relationship but it just hasn't been manifesting and frankly it's been demoralizing trying so many times in pursuits that only bloom temporary experiences. I'm sick of this temporary life, I need something permanent.

On youtube a very helpful source of comprehending myself has been the work of Sam Vatkin. His articulation and differentiation of malignant behaviors and dynamics VS healthy ones has been enlightening. However I still am alone and big sad. I can't even bring myself to make a dating profile anymore because I just run into women that are unavailable or unappealing now. It is what it is but man, I am a beaten down dog.

>>33463461
If you lead with your cheddar, all you'll attract is rats. Relationships, friendships, family. All the same. It's a struggle and technically self sabotaging, but for peace of mind it will be for the best when you do find that special someone who isn't only in love with your wallet.

>26m
I'm handsome, and got a pretty good trajectory for my life. I never considered dating a woman with somebody else's kids because frankly, I would rather make my own. However there is a stunning woman who unfortunately is my type to a T. Should I or should I just stop while I'm ahead and keep searching or concede this deal breaker I've created?

I have no issue pulling, the issue is I just don't like most of the available options so to speak :/
>No bait, please be authentic I'm vulnerable right now..