>>938373098
>It appears my attempt at vaguely reading your mind has failed,
Can't be helped, it's not the kinda thing I've ever thought about.
>What made you end up being a NEET.
,,,Hm. A summary, I guess:
High standards I set for myself, bad situation at home (now resolved), repeated failures of goals. Lowering the bar to below what I thought was sufficient, failing there too leading to depression about ten years ago.
Things got really low, but I got help. After giving it some (but not enough) time, I tried to finish my education with an even lower bar, failed again. Started getting panic attacks whenever any amount of expectation was placed on me.
Last thing I did was a few years ago where I volunteered at a pseudo-thriftshop. I managed to do menial work a few hours a week until I was asked to do something that needed to be done that week. Even with a "it's okay if you can't do it, it would just be nice if you could do this," I had a bit of a breakdown.
>Apologize to who, exactly?
People who ARE productive and such.
>and that is what constitutes 'appealing'.
Not a fan of the look, hm?