Thread 5959317

sad/melancholic/blackpill videos go here

>>5959317 (OP)
I have been trying to find this video fr a while now... Thank you.

>>5959455
Again

the lyrics speak to me

>>5959548
Fly high sky king.

>>5959706
Wrong file
Whoops

i keep coming to these threads hoping to see something more than a video with music played over it
but there never is

>>5959890
this is lovefool btw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NI6aOFI7hms

>>5960664
Well what else are you looking for?

>>5959706
Anyone knows which German march is used as a base for this song? Can't really find anything, since my German isn't that good.

>>5960962
Grün ist unser Fallschirm is the original song and the remix is referred to as Fallschirmjäger remix

>>5959542
>>5959508
>>5959509
>>5959520
omg this is so deep. you should also check out r/thisisdeep

>>5959534
Nice.

>>5959617
Nice.

>>5960892
Nice.

>>5959536
Nice.

>>5959528
yep it's not nostalgia
life was truly better even in seemingly meaningless aspects such as going with friends to lan dota after school

>>5959542
source for edit pls

If you're reading this, (You) are champagne.

>>5962101
Fucking based this made me feel so much better somehow

>>5960614
Im really sorry im bad at texting first. I smile like a retard every time someone messages me, most of my friends are people who just wont stop messaging me even when i never start the convo. I hope you'll know you never did anything wrong, im just retarded. T. The person you're mad at

only reason why I prefer the hell hole of gif over wsg feels is. the cringiest stuff can be posted in these ones

Does anyone have that video of a guy screaming / crying about being alone and an incel over a video of ducks?

Everything in my life is going well I have a beautiful wife i have a decent job I make money but still this feeling never leaves. As the years go by and this melancholy never seems to fully fade. Even on the best of days it's still their. Idk maybe trying to kill yourself at a young age ruins your brain forever

I don't think I'd kill myself anymore but i don't think id move out of the way of a car. I feel I'm cursed for life to be depressed. The world gets worse every day and their is no future

>>5962830
This is the worst video I have ever seen in my life.

>>5960892
How do you guys steer away from engaging is self destructive acts? I'm trying to avoid drinking or any other vices, but some days, it becomes hard to see the point of it all.

>>5962832
Same, but our type rarely kills themselves. People who kill themselves usually are normies that do it impulsive. Like losing their job, a break up, etc...
If you're numb you don't have the drive for anything including killing yourself

>>5963061
Personally I cut 1 bad habit by a time. Smoking, drinking, binging soda, stuffing pizza's, whatever... Always be replacing it by something (more) healthy. It's always hard at first, but I know that when you hold on (and its fine to have a slip) the good habbit will take over the bad habbit eventually. It's all about conditioning, you can condition yourself for anything.

I only drink water and deca coffee now, no fastfood or anything - just healthy food made from scratch.
I have a cheat day where I eat fries and pie because you still need to get some dopamine to keep you going, but I never will "treat" myself if my body is craving it because that's a bad habbit that wants to get back on top.

I'm now working on excercising which is pretty hard because im not replacing a bad by a good habbit here but creating a new one.

>>5962828
Faggot hands wrote this. Youre on a board for hopeless incels like me. I have a whole universe hiding inside my autistic head and im utterly incapable of sharing it with anyone, man or woman. and im 5’8 and balding besides. You owe it to miserable bastards like me to shut the fuck up and be happy. Cause id trade places dick face. Melancholy is for people with too much time on their hands.

>>5963620
>Melancholy is for people with too much time on their hands
this is oddly inspiring

When will we be forgiven from trying?

>>5963746
Why is it never us?

>>5963747
Man this shit never stops hurting to watch

>>5962832
>>5963502
I'm like Deadpool, God doesn't let me die. Dodged death like 10 times or so, once reached Heaven and they were like no bro you still gotta do this thing

>>5962832
>>5963502
Out of curiosity, what is the reason you guys are like that? Loss of someone? Otherwise anything is fixable

>>5959508
Thanks for posting this anon, I needed a good laugh

Not sure if this is the place to mention it, but recently I found out there's a trend of YouTube videos featuring greentexts of alleged feminists coming to understand that men have it hard too, but the posts featured are fake as hell (no visible date or post number, surpassed character limit, mentions of nonexistent Twitter posts, the posts can't be found in archives). What's up with that?

>>5959509
The man's grunts/cries are soundbites ripped from Swords and Sandals 2. I'd recognize them anywhere

>>5959317 (OP)
There's this webm of this guy on this motorbike getting chased, he eventually gives up, stops the bike getting off and picks up the sand with his hands until the police apprehend him. There's this techno song playing throughout it - I think it's deathgrips

Does anyone have it? Losing my fucking mind to see it again since I didn't save it to my new PC

>>5963875
People want to think there's still a form of like "karma/justice" you could say, where the evil realize their wrongs they either reform or suffer under the burden of their own sins. It's somewhat similar to "Bullies end up as losers later in life" it gives people hope. That's my interpretation at least

>>5959694
That almost made me cry

>>5962828
It's all relative. The general decline or stagnation of psychological well-being seems to have a large genetic component. Simply having material or personal success isn't necessarily going to guarantee happiness. You describe your job as decent, is there something you'd rather be doing?

Nevertheless, you have made it farther than many others anon, keep at it. If possible, I hope you find that last piece that you're missing.

>>5959509
song sauce?

>>5964400
the "success" sentiment always reminds me of the Midas story, You think you want 'gold' but it will become the source of all your pain.
I understand that it's a story about greed but i always thought Midas could just be a depressive, who spent their entire life thinking "this would fix everything, if only i could have 'x'" but when you finally get a taste of it, the emptiness and disappointment is ruinous

>>5964400
I’m always grateful I realized this before getting in the rat race. I know having lots of money and a family and anything material really won’t make me happy so I’m not going to waste my life and time grinding to get things I don’t even want just because society told me I should

>>5959890
looooooool kill yourself TCOAL FAGGOT!!!

you faggots should kill yourselves man up stop being sad

So many faggots infiltrating this thread
make your own ffs, why ruin threads

>>5959893

>>5962101
waste of 5 minutes

>>5959537
saved. No idea what hes singing but it struck something

>>5963746
The actor for Marty was a total slut though

>>5960596
Man, I wish I could be twenty again. Then again, I'd probably not do any better a second time around.
>>5964970
She seems fun.

Vidrel is on my mind lately. From the same channel the 'anemoia' video is from that get's reposted here occasionally, only checked it out because I saw it here. Kind of a shitty encode, should have probably just made the resolution smaller.

>>5962101
Great movie.

>>5963620
>You owe it to miserable bastards like me to shut the fuck up and be happy. Cause id trade places dick face. Melancholy is for people with too much time on their hands.
Not that anon but this is quite the cope. I'm not particularly ugly but it was still over before it started for me (bullied relentlessly from age 7) and even though I experienced having a girlfriend at one point, if anything it only made me realize just how far removed from normal human experience and emotion I am. I could never function as a normie.
Am I materially better off than you for having at least experienced it? Yes. Is this >>5962828 anon materially better off than me for having a wife and a job (while I'm a useless, unemployed 38 year old schizoid caring for his elderly parents)? Yes. Does that actually matter in the context of a feels thread on a cameroonian orangutan appreciation website? No.
Don't be so quick to judge your fellow anon.

>>5963907
its more likely a popular SFX pack that they used just like HOMaM3 SFX in south park

>>5961523
I agree that was all pretty sappy and low tier.
>>5959522
This is what we're talking about. Actual realistic things, not things that ritalin children of high class households consider bad, like actually working a job and failing to make any friends at all in 20 years like some kind of fucking hateful retard.

>>5959890
full version, sounds a bit different though

>>5964515
>song sauce?
Guided by Voices - Game of Pricks

>>5966580
should've saved a boolet

>>5967409
Hear an assortment of these clips everyday on my work playlist. It makes me want to watch the show just so I can see his character arc. I heard other anons say just S1 is worth watching.

>>5968269
Is that a girl pretending to be his daughter?

>>5962828
Read Burton's Anatomy of Melancholy.

how do i go from just knowing how over my life is to actually having the will to kill myself

>>5968389
Guessing its a matter of gradually losing all lingering attachment and fear. For me most of it comes down to my parents still being alive and both of them needing care. After that the only thing really keeping me would be an innate self-preservation instinct, but that probably won't last very long when I see that my options boil down to either endlessly slave waging just to keep a roof over my head, no friends, no family, no possibility of any real human connection (because I'm literally incapable of it at this point, and so are most other people), just enduring constant humiliation purely to stay alive. Or begging for welfare, again enduring constant humiliation just to stay alive.
Then again, part of me does thrive on spite so if nothing else staying alive just to spite normies also has a certain appeal. Not sure how far that can get you.

Anyone else totally out of it? I turned 28 and have got nothing to show for it in terms of social "accomplishments" or anything aside from academical and financial success. I have managed to ruin every friendship I ever had. I have no family left either. For half my childhood I was I was sexually abused on a weekly basis by an older female friend of the family, the mother of a boy I used to play football with. She groomed me and did everything that might cross your mind when you think of "sexual abuse". After a couple of years I finally managed to tell someone about it, which happened to be one of my sisters. She then also started taking advantage of me but in a much more loving manner. Rather than out of her own lust and desire it was more so done to help me cope, I think. Not sure. Of course that too left a mark on me but the memories of us together are mostly warm unlike the ones with that woman. Anyway when I turned 16 I told one of my homeroom teachers about what I had been doing with that woman which was for almost half my life at that point. It became a huge story in my small town. Plastered all over the newspapers etc. My family are a rather traditionally oriented bunch, upper-class White. So not White trash as you might have thought to yourself reading all this. My parents never once showed me any warmth afterwards, they never even brought it up as to play make believe. Believing that if it isn't talked about at the dinner table, it might as well never have happened. My brother did try to get me to open up to him, but I was too stubborn to do so which eventually got him to back off too.
I moved out at 18 and would only seem them every now and then, at family gatherings and such. It's only a year ago that the story my sister and I became public. My sister is a married woman with 4 children, a husband that provides for them too as a proper man of the house would and as far as I could tell, their relationship was rock solid. This was until she and I started "

hooking up" again. "Only" a handful of times in the last couple of years or so. A year ago I met this lovely girl who I thought was the one, which led me to try and steer clear of my sister. I remember visiting her place one evening, on the birthday of my niece. After I had played with the kids for a little bit they were sent off to bed. Her husband was out somewhere, not home. As soon as I tried to bring it up to her, tryint to tell her that it would be better for the both of us if we put and end to all this, she got all mad up and told me to my face that if I did that she would tell my parents about everything and also make sure to mention how I had forced her to do these things with me. Even all the times it happened when I was only 12 and she 18. I was in such shock that I didn't know what to make of it. She then turned into her old usual sweet self, and got closer to me. One thing led to the other, and we ended up doing it that night again. A couple of weeks later I did cut ties with her. That's when she went to our parents and told her side of the story. Her being a woman and me a man, they took her side. And it's not as if my parents had any warm feelings about me anyway. Shortly after my parents decided to disown me. I would've been fine with that if only it wasn't for the fact that they also forbade my siblings to stay in touch with me. A couple of months later the girl I was with also decided to end things. I've been pretty lonely ever since. All I do these days is work, come home, head to the gym and then head home again to read a bit before I call it a night. Sometimes I sit there staring at the wall for hours on end. I'm very careful with the way I carry myself in public, at work for example no one would ever know that my life is a large void. I do not show it on my face. I feel as if it's actually over for me. I find it hard to trust women, or be with them. Sorry for this messy wall of text. I won't ever kill myself but life just isn't "fun".

>>5968809
Tell your family to kill themselves and move on, start a new hobby or activity and make new friends from it. In 5 to 20 years you will be over it. In the meanwhile jack off to porn until you feel sane enough to start a new relationship.

>>5959317 (OP)
>I'm sad give me sympathy
>entire world view is based on mistreatment of groups of people
It's so crazy how they can't see the parallels of their own suffering while exercizing the midtreatment of others.

ive been looking for an edit using keep pushng on by john maus, anyone got it?

>>5968994
>entire world view is based on mistreatment of groups of people
wut? that is one big assumption

>>5968306
He would rather have a pretend daughter than his irl piece of shit son.

>>5967405
You know the song that's playing over it anon?
Shazam doesn't say anything.

Also, got any more of this fuel?

Sorry I can't contribute, my shit got nuked.

>>5969074
>>5968306
He has a daughter you retards and thats her.

>>5959534
song name please

>>5969906
Damnit I didn't realise it got cut off

>>5969378
Trevor Something Fade Away with some reverb added.

>>5968204
S1 is the only Season of True Detective I've seen and its definitely worth watching. 10/10 from me personally.

>>5969948
i like this one

>>5959317 (OP)
Yep, life sucks!

>>5959526
He rapes or gets raped too.

>>5961791
Dota? Lol fag.

>>5959317 (OP)
Anybody got the one where the guy is talking about growing up without much help and feeling like you're watching all your peers swim off to these great lives while you're just stuck in a life raft with no idea what to do?

>>5963765
People are disgusting creatures of mamipulation and evil. Society is basically a group of terrible people that agrees on the type of evil they prefer. It's okay to treat certain kinds of people bad. I'm autistic or something, but sonewhat attractive I assume by the advances I receive. I get turned off by women who obviously want sex. It's just like an animal. I don't get turned on by animals in heat. I had a connection I thought, but it was sexual. I fucked her well. I got depressed from friends getting killed and kind of withdrew. She started fucking around right away. I had a bunch of other run ins with hyper sexual women that liked me for sex. It's just empty. She loves me until I make her orgasm then I'm just a piece of shit. If she cheats then I'm always a piece of shit. I let people treat me however they want and when they start treating me bad I just disconnect 100% and feel nothing anymore. I currently have 0 connections. It's not lonely. I don't like any of you. I'm just here. I used to try to help people, but not anymore. I don't give advice or try to hrar stories etc. It's just, "That's cool" "That's crazy" "Oh wow" "No way" "Really?". I give nobody any part of me anymore. I keep the things I care about safe now. I don't hand it to society and let them destroy it and rebuild it how they want. I reject society and the future. I will not reproduce. People like me don't deserve to be treated terribly, and I won't let my children suffer through it nor let them help yours. Society doesn't deserve help. It deserves exactly what it is going to get. Abandonment by those that cared to those that destroy. The world will be birth defects, polluted water and wildlife, cannibalism, and grotesque infections and diseases. The last humans will be fucking and devouring their own family as long as they can survive lol. Mongoloid disfigured incest cannibals will be the ruling class and people will flee to death in the wilderness, because the animals are all dead.

>>5968389
You don't. It's lame. Why make a mess for sonebody to clean up as your last act on earth? Don't be a dick.

>>5959548
F

>>5971240
>Mongoloid disfigured incest cannibals will be the ruling class
that's a fancy way of describing jews

>>5969932
Does anyone know what Bowden speech this is from?

>>5961238
Stop spying on me

>>5962495
>Filming himself doing it
This is exactly what's wrong with everything

>>5968260
More soulful version

>>5968274
Fuck man. I sent this exact clip to my dad right before he died of cancer this year. Told him it reminded me of our relationship, and he said that it was beautiful.

Fuck. Fuck.

>>5971901
That's beautiful. Truly. I hope he didn't suffer, and I'm sorry for your loss.

>>5961791
Source on the song? It's an edit of Mobb Deep Shook One's part 2

>>5962347
such a great show

>>5959530
such a great show

>>5969932
Desire - Under Your Spell

>>5963061
I just don't do it because I've never done it before

>>5971778
>soulful version
>shitty video filters

>>5963765
It’s not loss of someone per se it’s more a giving of yourself. Losing who you were. Wondering where that kind curious 7 year old kid you once were went.

>>5972876
It looks like actual camera footage instead of being obviously from a movie which makes it way more soulful.

>>5973172
No it looks like someone put a video filter over it. It's prentious as fuck and ruins it.

>>5963911
i don't have the webm anymore but here a link to the video if it's the right one

https://youtu.be/Dv4A6fEyjn0?si=cOoVsamkUzcTwcVw

>>5969079
Motherfucking insurance ad got me in the fucking feels. Goddamnit

Right now, at the moment, I don't even feel depressed but extreme dread, I feel unwell.

>>5963765
If I knew then I wouldn't be like this

>>5960596
music?

>>5963061
things hurt every day, physically and emotionally, no matter how much i try to improve my mental condition i'm bottlenecked by my physical illness that i don't understand
so i avoid vices and self destruction out of necessity because i don't want to make things any possibly worse than it already is and damage my already loose thread connecting me to happiness

>>5964599
what even is this and why does it make me feel like i've forgotten something?

So tired of being lonely. I've got so many things in order and FINALLY going right. More muscular than ever in my life, wealthier than ever too for the same reason. Instead of getting more social interaction I either don't exist or people stare at me like I have something disgusting or offensive on my face. I catch people doing it all the time and nobody tells me what's wrong. They just stare with a nasty look on their face until I leave. I know I'm not ugly but it sure makes me feel like I am. I know I'm not wearing an ugly expression either. Alongside that nobody talks to me unless they're obligated to one way or another. I feel like I was born to be alone at this point. I'm doing all the things that are supposed to get women interested and just like everyone else I'm invisible or I get that stare.

I'm supposed to be happier than ever right now because of my own successes but I feel worse than ever instead. I got to have a taste of happiness, now I'm deeper in the abyss than I was before.

warning, this is about a dog

>>5962828
>Beautiful wife
>Decent job
You won in life brother.
Perhaps you're missing a spiritual component of what fundamentally makes us human.
Reconnect with the Lord.
If like me you need proof of the spiritual realm, do a dry-fast for 3 days (build up to it by doing 1 day fasts once or twice a month)
When you do your dry-fast, pray (even if you don't believe) to God the Father as if he existed. Dedicate the fast to him.
You will be attacked by demons towards the end of your fast and you will no longer be a non-believer.

>>5967405
cute <3

>>5963765
For me, it's just that constant permanent loss looms over everything. And if you are really unlucky, you can live to lose a lot. Not just people passing away, but the loss of innocence, loss of childhood, loss of friends drifting away, loss of memories, even loss of treasured items. You lose some things forever and there's no going back. Time waits for no one and everything is so transient, I just end asking myself "What's the point?” a lot. I tried the different copes people have come up with to deal with this but nothing sticks. It's a gloomy way to look at life, but it still the truth. The good times are like ad breaks until the next bad times. I've been like this since high school.

>>5975375
Surprisingly good advice.

Religion is a nasty cope tho.
I prayed every single day for years for the good of my father and he ended up in prison for years.
I tried to cope and think that God put him in prison to protect him from a worse fate but why do that when He could soften his heart as he hardened Pharaoh's?
And why do I gotta cope with this shit when there are people born into an easy life where their parents are good and kind and not callous criminals?

>>5968264
Fuck dude. Bebop is too much some days.

>>5963061
Moderation. I'm an alcoholic that can usually control my drinking by establishing certain steps. I'm never going to beat it this way and I don't want to. A prospect of a permanently sober life sounds as much fun as pulling my teeth out, no lube.

>>5965782
Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows
Good stuff, I hadn't seen this one, thought he quit years ago.

>>5973326
Holy fucking shit anon, thank you so much. In my head the music sounded different than I remembered

Appreciate it immensely

>>5975375
I've been married for 10 years and bought a house in the countryside on an acre after working many years as a programmer.
Now I'm doing jack shit. Not because I got bank, rather the contrary. Why tje,? Because it all means nothing. The only thing that matters is family and health. And work is always a negative trade off, you always lose. Nobody on their deathbed ever regretted free time, they only regret working too much, not being their for their family, not doing what they love...

You don't lose in life. You don't win in life.
First of all, what defines "winning at life" is different for everyone. The image of "winning at life" is different based on the environment you're part of. I

2nd, you live the only life you could have.
Your choices aren't really choices, your brain already choses before your conciousness does.
These choices, your life, is based on your genes and environment, none of which you had a say in.

>>5959317 (OP)
Ii will never get any better.
Trust me.
I have a wife that loves me and does everything she can to makes me happy.
I have a daughter, we share a nice relationship.
Still, I feel empty, alone, tired.
Spare yourself another disappointment, this is not a remedy.
There is none.
Get used to it.
Hide it.
Pretend.
You will fall asleep alone, and you will wake up alone.
If any rest you may find.

>>5965092
a glass of vodka on the table
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R6JsNEKvfuU
https://genius.com/Grigory-leps-a-glass-of-vodka-on-the-table-lyrics

>>5960596
>Regrets mounting
The only way to live without regrets is to stop regretting. Taking a risk and having it go badly hurts a lot too. If you let yourself care what was in the mystery box, you'll never be happy no matter what you got.
You've noticed by now that obsessing over a mistake isn't helping you do better next time. So just stop doing it and you're instantly better off.
You want to change your life, fine, do it. Shitting all over your past self isn't going to help with that you just have to actually do it.

Do social relationships like friendships and whatnot go out with age? I'm 20 and have practically no social life now, basically zero friends. my old highschool friends dont want to even talk to me and I'm not ever invited to anything and I'm struggling to make friends at university. I think I have one friend I keep in touch with but we live far from each other.

>>5968994
4channite feels thread anons were way less radical and less interested in politics, you silly little thing. Radicalization on the whole website on both sides of the spectrum happened because no one but the top 5% of anons got a gf/wife and kids. Even the homos at /lgbt/ became radical leftists today because no other homo (probably ultra-giga normalfag gay kind of people) was willing to settle for them romantically speaking. Literally the last non-radicalized anons are the biological women lurking and posting on this website, especially /cgl/ which used to be filled with radical feminists 10 years ago.

>>5977175
bullshit. I have chosen my life and though I lament the circumstances I find because of my choice, I do not regret my choice. I could have easily chosen differently for it was a difficult choice and perhaps part of me does regret it for it was a burdensome price. You're not just your genes and your environment. You're a soul that has a choice.

I have won in what I was trying to do, but lost that which I actually wanted the most, I made a choice

>>5975306
Normalfags are envious little shits that don't even like to see the light in your eyes.

>>5975306
I can't express how much I relate to you Anon. Having spent all this time to get my life together and feeling like it didn't amount to anything. At a time I felt like I had recovered from my loneliness. I spent years on improving myself and my social life seemed have finally gotten better. But then I hit a wall and everything I built over the years crumbles. The fast majority of the time people just don't seem to care. I cope by telling myself much of this is cyclical but at times the copium is no longer hitting. Now things are finally looking more bright after a long depressive episode. There is a girl that is finally showing interest in me even if it is as mere friends. No matter how hopeless it all seems someone will come along I promise. You got to keep trying and put yourself out there.

And then there are the stares people give as if they can tell you are lonely but those people don't really deserve your time or energy to socialize with in the first place. Imagine seeing someone struggling and you make fun of them instead of helping them. That is essentially what these people are like whether they are aware of it or not.

>>5977935
>No matter how hopeless it all seems someone will come along I promise

Not him, but please don't create a habit of feeding wishful thinking copes to people, it may soften the pain now, but this is the kind of thing that can hurt more down the road, when the reality hits. There are still good and humble people out there that you can meet, but there is no law of the universe that makes sure that everyone finds a partner, friends and lives happy forever. Every person is different, people have different lives and that is okay, you are not worse than others and not necessarily doing something wrong.

I know very well how loneliness and social exclusion can hurt, but I wish people had been more real with me, instead of feeding copes and typical normie bs.

Not saying your should give up and kill yourself, keep self improving and doing whatever you want, but everyone should be ready for the possibility of not achieving everything and not living the peak normie life they see others living. I read once that society should teach boys how to lose and how to deal with failure, but instead, they only teach them how to be a winner, so when that doesn't happen, they breakdown and feel stumped. It doesn't help that we are fed a bunch unrealistic standards all our lives.

I turned 21 a couple of weeks ago and I have never felt more done with life.
It feels as if I have nothing more to say or do in the world. Because of this, I have been retreating inwards more and more. I find more in my inner world than the one on the outside.
I can't wrap my head around 10 more years of this, let alone 40-50 years.

My mother made a remark some time ago, about me being an unplanned pregnancy. Sometimes this gives me some comfort, knowing that I am not even supposed to be here, or rather that nobody wanted me here.

>>5978456
>I can't wrap my head around 10 more years of this, let alone 40-50 years.
I said that at your age, and I still say that now at 38. It sucks when you're not wired for suicide. Then again I keep thinking everyone has a limit, and I just haven't hit mine yet.
To be fair I can't imagine what it'd be like turning 21 in this year. I was depressed at that age, but back then it was still possible to feel a general sense of hope and curiousness for the future, for technological advancements, for possible opportunities. Now we're living in a weird nightmare limbo state where any advancement is just a new way to spy on you or fuck you in the ass, or make you obsolete, or force you to become a glorified prompt engineer. Politics has entered a level of absurdity where they don't even pretend that they're not blood-drinking pedophile demons anymore, and yet you're supposed to gaslight yourself into thinking that's not the case. Everything relating to the human condition is either already commodified or well on its way to be. Therapy, whores, streamers. What a fucking time to be alive.

>>5978572
>politics has entered a level of absurdity where they don't even pretend that they're not blood-drinking pedophile demons anymore, and yet you're supposed to gaslight yourself into thinking that's not the case.

I remember being younger and first hearing about 9/11 being fake. It was all I thought about day and night. As an eastern euro, mind you.
I could not comprehend how the much richer and educated americans could be fooled so easily. Which only led to me looking back at my own third world shithole. Was everything permitted here?
Yes, it was.

Now I look on as the US is becoming more and more like the shithole I left. Or the veil is being lifted and we can finally see that they were the same under it.

>>5977488
You can tell yourself fairytales like having a soul and choices. And most people have to, because the truth is uterly depressing.
But you don't, your brain choses, not your consciousness

>>5962812
Source? Song and Film please

>>5978760
Gelatin Silver, Love (2009)
O Paradis & Totenlied - Sin Sabor
Here's the better quality vid i ripped it from
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wd0hu0QSEdY

>>5978476
Heh. Nice.

>>5962830
The worst part is that she never had a chance of escaping. She was surrounded by ocean.

>>5978070
Beautiful

>>5978705
Why are we conscious then ?

>>5979207
Evolution. Just like every mutation that benefits survival. I hope you're aware that there are certain animals that have different levels of conciousness as well, we're not special, we're just more evolved

does anyone have the one with the guy who says "i want to go somewhere far away, i want to be someone else" and theres a train that goes by

>>5979551
This one?

>>5960596
Men born in an era where they are hated for creating civilization, mocked for trying to protect it, and shamed endless for making mistakes, while being pushed into depression or degeneracy. The freefall of society is rapid, and it is up to (you) to stop it, man on 4chan.

>>5962830
Elephant just wanted to be free from its abusers...This is what Ego does. Puts innocent into prison, and kills the innocent when it lashes out.

>>5969948
Interesting amount of clips and choices. cool video

>>5973600
I need to watch this series again... really good edit. Do one for jon snow.

>>5975306
Speaking as a 31 year old Anon that has failed 100x more than the average person has, the only thing that matters in life is you loving yourself, everything else is bonus but shouldn't be your priority. How to love yourself? Recognise the growth, and achievements you've made no matter how small. If you feel negative or think people are judging or dont like you, then tell your Ego to STFU and get back in the corner. What other people think about you doesnt matter, what matters is that you care about yourself and you're being positive and being grateful for what you've achieved in life and have done in life. Focus on self improving to be a better version of you a year ago, if people judge you negatively thats their choice but its not related to you, thats on them. You be your own cheerleader, You be your own Positive Perspective Maker, You be your own best friend, Be Kind to yourself, Never let your Ego shame you, You are Human Consciousness and that is something to be proud of in itself, think of all the animals on earth that wish to be a human, think of all the humans in worse situations than you, think of all your ansestors that had such harsh conditions from constant wars/disease/sickness/lack of freedoms etc, their blood is literally in your veins!

Screw everyone else, check your Ego for putting your down and realize that your purpose is to love yourself and help be a better human that you were the year before!

>>5969906
>I'm surrounded by people to talk to I doubt thats gonna change
Yeah until you hit your mid 60s and people stop caring you exist.

>>5980028
yeah thanks man

>>5962830
That poor sweet girl :(

>>5968272
fuck you guys, How do people even get this

>>5968809
>I'm very careful with the way I carry myself in public, at work for example no one would ever know that my life is a large void. I do not show it on my face. I feel as if it's actually over for me.
I don't know but this is really sad, Like you see a stranger with a poker face or a downbeat face and you don't exactly know what's in their mind and then you realize he has the most fucked up story like yours

But don't worry lol, The only problem is your family and you should start new in somewhere (if you're in somewhere then) just find a new girl and you'll be fine don't worry

>>5968272
man

>>5978070
Maybe the point of hope isn't to make dreams come true
Maybe it is just the blanket to keep us warm while we chase them

>>5980028
what movie?

>>5968272
>>5980810
>>5980815
I wonder how many videos there in this photobooth style. Maybe it was a fad for a while or something.

>>5969932
Midnight City - M83

Does anyone have the webm of the anime chick ODing on Coke in the club ive been on the lookout for that for so long, ty

>>5968266
Song?

>>5981268
Movie/show name?

>>5976762
glad i could help.

>>5982930
dj poolboi - i had it all

here a link to the original video

https://youtu.be/bTxfcINRwXU?si=y-LBnSqX7ivMEi8P

>>5981134
kek

>>5981153
Based Kare Kano appreciator.

>>5982958
movie: on the count of three

>>5975306
>I know I'm not ugly...
Are you really sure about that?
How people perceive and treat you mostly is dependant on looks. If people treat you this way all the time it kinda is a strong indicator that you kinda are, not trying to be rude. Humans are shallow.

>>5963061
sticking to beer instead of liquor and only smoking cigarettes at home on my back porch

>>5968204
only watch season one, afterwards they go to different actors and characters and it fucking sucks. season one is 10/10 as other anons have said.

>>5959694
This almost made me trans

>>5978705
>>5979532
stating you don't have a soul, that there is no higher power, and all that other stuff is based on the exact same amount of evidence that we do have a soul and there is a higher power, which is none. it's belief. it's the world you want to live in and you get to choose and nobody can ever prove you right or wrong whether your opinion is affirming or denying these things. that's the truth.

>>5971236
I hope that you speak of this one. I checked the properties of the video when I found it and was surprised to see it was from January, 2022.
The video is likely older than that, but I am realizing how much time has past since then, and the video still feels relevant even after graduating uni.
I hope that you are doing better than I am, anon.

>>5968809
>no one would ever know that my life is a large void
I get it. I graduated uni this May and have barely felt anything since then. I am not being metaphorical; I have had total brainfog where I can feel (more specifically, not feel) large parts of my brain, meaning I have trouble concentrating, struggle to visualize, and sometimes slur my words.
I shall pray that your life improves, for you have been through hell, friend.

Same anon as the previous two. I had a good hour, where I was chatting with two friends and took a relaxing shower.
My mom (live with her since I am out-of-work) came in after to remind me that I do not need to feel pressured to see "someone who lies to me and hurt the family" (they organized a divorce this year and are still managing the paperwork) since I told her he asked if I was interested in working out tomorrow (now today) and I said yes because he makes me feel awful when I choose not to see him. He is not that bad, just a self-pitying loser who was still better than my mother for most of my life.
The conversation escalated until I fell apart to my worst self and began muttering like a psycho and even irreversibly bent my glasses under my water bottle. She tried to leave several times but I always shouted for her not to walk off during arguments like she always does because I can repeat each point she makes and she interrupts so often that she often does not even pretend to know what I said when I ask her what I just said.
I lied on the floor crying a few minutes after and she yelled up for me to take a Tylenol. I complied, came down, and asked about the rug's measurements because I heard a tape measure and she realized she forgot to measure it when I went with her to look for a new rug today.
I am sorry for blogposting. I had been feeling better this month and felt like everything came crashing down, especially after such a great hour. I feel like a lost cause and cannot accept that my family is a lost cause. I am not suicidal but wish I was to get more sympathy from normalfags who think that depression is just a series of stages until you get to suicidal feelings.

>>5984040
To clarify, the comment on the rug was light-heated, and she understood that. I never want to go to sleep when the last sentence was a negative one.
Goodnight, thread.

>>5962729
only problem is that /gif/ is full of garbage porn now. Coomers and feds post there and what was there 4 years, 6 years ago, hell, even pre-covid, is fuckin gone. First time in maybe 8 years I've come to WSG and it's weak shit.

>>5984205
try starting one thread

>>5983732
Yes, I'm pretty sure. When I'm not working I also put effort into not looking like a slob. Also try to maintain good posture pretty much always when in public. On top of that I'm also pretty well built at this point. My legs look like I stole them from Spider Man.

I figure it's because I'm doing aspie things and not realizing it but again, nobody ever tells me.

>>5959526
doesn't this remind you like an anime opening??

>>5959712
you can delete post on 4chan, retard

>>5963658
best webm in /wsg/

>>5973539
FUCK YES

>>5968262
This is so gay, if those people mattered at all the douche would have their phone numbers. Got old Halo 3 clan mates that I played Helldivers 2 with this last weekend.
>>5965782
>my life was easy: shitty encode version
HIGH-LARRY-US

>>5963746
That's Mermaid Man btw

>>5983981
Just turned 24 today. Damn, I've really wasted these last two years.

>>5985556
>I've really wasted these last two years.
doing what anon?

>>5968309
song name please

>>5983750
That goes hard.

>>5981273
>25 was the age i allowed myself to kms
>realized i allowed myself to cope for 5 years with sex, drugs, and rock and roll
>worse than when i started this path
Guess I've got a past due IOU

>>5980810
Charisma. Not being born autistic.

>>5969948
phenomenal

>>5985437
Honestly its probably just some bro that turned his xbox on recently out of an old box and updated the date. If its offline then it will say it was X number of days since you put it in the box.

I'm still friends with the boys. I never let them go because I wouldn't be here if I had. I wasn't as aimless as I claim sometimes because good people are too important to forget.

However if you have found yourself without friends then reach out. They might be even happier to hear from you than you are to hear them. I certainly know some friends that I wish I could hear from.

My dog died Wednesday night... everything just keeps going wrong and there's not even gaps between it anymore. I feel like I'm carrying around a curse and I'm tired of it. If it weren't for my mom I'd have already punched out. This year was supposed to be my big year, instead it's been hell.
>started the year with a very good friend in the hospital for brain cancer (he lived)
>a suicide in the family after years of the person scrambling back into the bottle every chance they got with the final months being especially awful
>constant problems almost entirely zeroing out the good job I finally got in spring
>I got to experience a core fear happening as a wheel ripped itself off my truck while I was driving it
>now my dog is dead following absolutely awful cancer
It just keeps getting worse. I don't just feel empty, but like even that emptiness has somehow broken too. I'm wondering what's going to happen tomorrow but I'm sure it won't be a bolt from the blue mercifully taking me out because that would be stop me from suffering. I have nobody to comfort me and work through any of this with either and I'm hesitant to even try to find someone because last thing I want to do to someone I care about is subject them to this. I don't know how much longer I can take it. I just want to be done with this one way or another.

I figure most of the people itt are in their late teens to mid twenties

anyone here 30 or older? It's hitting different for sure...

Why am I in a constant state of grief? I just cant seem to stop crying even though nothing has happened. It feels constantly like someone died, as if someone broke up with me.

>>5987665
32
I kinda always assume other people here are also in their thirties. I've been here since '07-08ish and I just grow older and think everyone else here does too.
Reality is, most leave and new blood comes in, only the lost souls really stick.

Even though my life is completely different now, I am not. I used to be a depressed teenager that genuinely didn't think about a future because I didn't expect one.
Somehow I managed to get married and own a house in the countryside, yet I'm still just as empty and lost like back when I was younger.

I imagine that most other people that sticked around from back then, are just as empty as me. What other reason could one have to still be here but melancholia?

anyone got that video of the blond cute girl that constantly turns to the camera and smiles?
she was genuinely so radiant of positivity it felt therapeutic sometimes. it was just constant cuts of her turning to the camera and smiling.
>>5967405
kinda similar to this sui fuel(it's technically sui fuel but can be somehow also a refuge from melancholy).

also, wish you guys the best, life sucks but wcyd, just power through every day and see what happens the day after.

>>5975306
sounds like you are too good looking now, you fucked up and now you gotta learn how to be a fuckboi or grind to be a nice guy that looks great, w/e it's over you fucked up and now you need to do extra work to get back to normie

>>5985041
face bf% is far more important to the average normie, you can get away with pretty high fat as long as you have big traps and your face looks slim, and you are not nude until it's too late

I try to do the opposite of what I did so far and I still get nothing

>>5962812
Is this Chinese “Blade Runner 1990?”

I read my (now ex) gf a list of reasons I was miserable in the relationship. Her first response was
>You're making a lot of assumptions about me
Instead of trying to console me the first thing she did was defend her character. She is so fucking selfish and lied to my face about her intentions with me.

I am so fucking sad to lose her but I was miserable in the relationship. Now I just feel empty as fuck. I cried watching this >>5959548
because I feel like a broken man with a few screws loose, and my brother did too when he killed himself.

>>5988587
update, I actually did get what I wanted, doing opposite works, gonna continue taking the costanza pill

I have a picture.
It's the brightest spot in my life.
I never look at it.
It hurts too much.
It represents success, happiness, fulfilment.
The antithesis of my existence.

Since I have no experience of that kind, all I can fantasize from the picture, is the worst kind of suffering.
Where bright futures are stolen.
Likely due to my own incompetence to protect the most important of things.
Where there once was love and hope, has now been replaced with resentment and malice.
Where I can never atone, even in death, not that I would be allowed to, were that sufficient.

And yet...I see the picture in my minds eye and think;
Maybe, if there ever could be good, it won't end badly.
Which makes me feel all the worse for my selfishness.
For a brief moment of my own solace, I would ruin and condemn those around me, simply because of their association to me.

>>5978070
I used to love driving on the city ringroad at 3am when no-one was around. It was like the loading screen to Streets of Rage.

>>5987396
My dog also died this year, i creid a lot. Mine was called doky and was a very good dog, maybe a bit dum sometimes but i loved him still.
I bet you gave him many years of happines.

>>5972876
>>5973172

Why do zoomers do this? Just keep it closer to its original format instead of getting corny with it, let the medium speak for itself instead of imposing some external meme aesthetic on it

>>5989531
Story?

>>5985572
nothing/NEETing

>>5960596
I remember seeing this at 19 maybe 18. I'm 23 now, it doesn't get better but you get stronger if your put in the effort

>>5978376
Avoiding reality and not valuing growth

made youtube channel for archiving some of YGYL videos

https://www.youtube.com/@ygyl-bump

>>5989732
thanks buddy :/

>>5989978
That Saturday I texted a girl and yesterday I went out with her and now she's my gf
I've wasted 15 years being my stupid self when I should have been doing the opposite

>>5989739
I used to enjoy driving to a neighbor town for work, tiny road, green on both sides, trees, farms. Just me, my car, my radio. Now I don't enjoy it so much anymore, just go kind numb with powerfantasy daydreams. Don't know what happened.

thank you all in this thread for sharing you pain, happiness, thoughts, minds, i appreciate it all. the elephant video killed me for real, i renounce evil, I hate the anti christ

>>5991544
Based.

>>5962828
I'm in a similar situation, although I can't keep a job. I think the melancholy stems from the obvious downward spiral society is locked into. If you have the capacity to realise the larger societal picture and the way the wind is blowing then it's natural to feel down, if not for yourself, then your children. The future is dead.

>>5963502
probably true. I've always thought about it, but never considered it.

>>5963765
I don't know exactly, but my big bro (best friend too) went missing and turned up dead when I was 11/12, so that probably played into it. I still had problems before that though.

>>5963875
AI slop designed to get views from the "own the libs" crowd.

>>5989502
Women always do this. Speak to men and you'll realise that 85%> had their hearts shattered by their first love.

>>5980856
>warm
Sane*

>>5973034
>>5976454
Nicely put
Good description of me, you 2, and I bet half of the people in this thread.

>>5973172
Actual security camera footage wouldn't zoom on his face like that. Now it's not only artificial, it also pretends to be candid. It's straight up insulting. Fuck off.

>>5990149
Fuck me man lol
>t. 24

>>5989736
this is basically me, except I don't live with my mom anymore
because she died of cancer a year ago
I don't know what I'm doing. I had a real chance at a good future but I fucked up every single important thing in my life
I'll never have a decent job. I'll never find someone. I'll never have kids (probably for the best I'd fuck them up too). I'll never go on vacation
I'll just scrape by in misery until the heart attack takes me.
I used to think about getting in shape, but if the only thing it would do is maybe get me more of this, why bother? My grandparents are 90 and they'll occasionally fall and I'll go over and pick them up or do some other task they cant do anymore
Do I want to be 90 when there'll be no one for me?

>>5960596
>>5990149
>>5992667
24 here as well
been a shutin neet since 20... only this year it really started hitting that i really am wasting my youth and probably my whole life
i don't think you can truly recover from completely withdrawing from the world for years and years and regardless i have to at least try even knowing i will never be able to be a normal person, i'm too damaged at this point
i do not want to know how i would feel like if i still stayed like this in my 30s or 40s
>>5992873
i feel you and i actually was very fit before becoming a shutin but i changed nothing, i'm flawed on the most deepest level and being fit doesn't fix that
i used to listen to this song a lot when i was like 16-17 and the line
>If I see 25, I'll be surprised
hits especially hard now that i'm actually about to reach that age
can't even begin to imagine and doubt i'll make it to these ages but
>If I see 32, I'll take every letter I wrote to you
>And bury them alive, bury them alive
>If I see 44, well I haven't thought that far
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YjQc5u6BM7g

>>5964689
yeah but not having those things, or being unable to have them, doesn't make me happy either....It's a lose lose situation.