>>6018475
>just let me codemonkey away
Lmao, Im pretty sure 95% of high functioning male autists are coders.
I was a programmer as well, but ever since I crashed out I haven't touched it. I just can't do it anymore. It's like my brain just refuses.
At first I wanted to get back to work asap, because I had just gotten married and depended on the money. But eventually you have to start accepting that you can't force this shit. It's been years now and I still can't do anything, my psychiatrist believes I forced myself so much that I caused permanent damage.
All I want now is to live a simple quiet life. I don't care about work, career, money, retirement or whatever anymore. I want to use the little energy I have for my wife and family.
It's such a cliché, people who suffered a burnout or get seriously ill suddenly realize the rat race is never worth it.