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>>40761998

Welcome to the Semen Retention General!

>What is Semen Retention?
Semen retention is the practice of completely abstaining from masturbation and ejaculation, often with the intention of preserving and redirecting vital and sexual energy to oneself.

>Why do it?
Reported benefits include: increased vitality, mental clarity, reduced stress, increased motivation, increased energy, improved focus, healthier hair/skin/eyes, deeper meditation, improved AP/Lucid Dreams, deeper voice, improved mood, greatly improved testosterone, improved physical strength and many more.

>Wet Dreams?
They happen because you had a sexual dream and you coomed. Learn to be conscious on your dreams and stop the succubus.

>What causes wet dreams?
The causes are many: Illnesses, telepathic bad actors fucking with your dreams, excess energy build up, watching too much sexually-inducing stuff, lusting during the day, lack of an adequate transmutation activity, eating too late at night, excess nutrients overall, stimulants like maca, ginseng, ginger, excess protein, excess carbs, tight clothes (pajamas) for bedtime, bad sleeping posture (this varies, find the one that suits you best), going to bed with full bladder, exposure to hormonal disruptors via food (pesticides...) or body care products (soap, deodorant etc)...

>>40775756 (OP)
shills create threads without the important stuff so here you go

>In case of urges:
- https://imgur.com/gallery/g4eGH
- Don't peek and Hold your breath for as long as you possibly can. The urge usually pass after that. If not, repeat.
- Horse stance or chair pose: Do it while clenching the abdomen and all legs' muscles, raise arms for extra blood flow redirection. Works both for killing erections or urges.
- Any physical activity.

On long clean streaks many report benefits that transcend current science like a sort of "magnetism" or higher "vibration/aura" that attracts/appeals to other living beings, a higher perception, a stronger and intimidating "aura/presence", a deeper connection with nature, an attractive BO (people usually report it as "pheromones") and more.

>Advices:
- Mental Purity 1.1: Semen Retention acts as a bio-electromagnetic amplifier. Watch the quality of your thoughts because your inner state will get amplified and manifested. Lust is the Ojas killer. Do not engage with Lust.
- Mental Purity 1.2: Keep a journal as a tool for introspection.
- NEVER watch porn of any kind.
- Remove triggers from your life. Masturbation is a bad habit. Break that bad habit.
- Focus on achieving a goal. An art, a craft, competing, etc.
- Meditate and/or Pray Daily. Try a minimum of 5 minutes to start off.
- Exercise/Gym/Sports/Martial Arts. If it is something social even better.
- Good habits like healthy eating, water fasting, dry fasting, sun exposure and cold showers do seem to speed up the process.
- Sublimation: literally using the energy.
- Transmutation: changing the quality of energy to something different. (Surya Namaskara, 8 brocades, Tibetan rites)

>>40775759
Keep in mind that the efferent nerves attached to your testes necessarily means that any lustful thought, image, or sound is necessarily a command to your junk to produce sexual fluids and this is the reason why celibacy is first and foremost of the mind
The root of this entire matter is the mind - without conquering the mind, celibacy is a futile effort
The signals from the brain happen on the subconscious autonomic level
This is why any lustful thought, image, or sound is necessarily a command to the sexual organs to produce sexual fluids (the more intently you look, the higher amplitude of a signal gets sent: body > afferent nerves > brain > efferent nerves > body)
Therefore "Conversion of sexual energy to something" is necessarily a HORRIBLY inefficient process (Not to confuse with Sexual Transmutation)
Fluids will be reabsorbed, but the energy and materials cost to make it vs how much is "taken back" via reabsorption is SEVERELY unbalanced and super net negative
Sexual fluids are made from the cream of the crop of the body's resources - constantly generating them means that you are constantly draining away the cream of the crop of your resources.
Taoist writings said that the sexual organs will even take primacy over nourishing your other internal organs at some point. (Thus, doing a spiritual practice as a coomer is a surefire way to die faster).

>/SRG/ interesting reads
https://pastebin.com/qbTd4Lai
https://pastebin.com/dzA2yCdr (new)

>>40775762
Periodic changes in serum testosterone levels after ejaculation in men
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/12506329/

Influence of abstinence and ejaculation-to-analysis delay on semen analysis parameters of suspected infertile men
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/7114956/

Improved sperm kinematics in semen samples collected after 2 h versus 4-7 days of ejaculation abstinence
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/28531319/

Influence of a short or long abstinence period on semen parameters in the ejaculate of patients with nonobstructive azoospermia
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/11532469/

Seasonal changes in breeding activity, testicular size, testosterone concentration and seminal characteristics in rams with long or short breeding season
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/6706874/

Shorter abstinence decreases sperm deoxyribonucleic acid fragmentation in ejaculate
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/21924714/

Endocrine response to masturbation-induced orgasm in healthy men following a 3-week sexual abstinence
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/11760788/

Relationship between sexual satiety and brain androgen receptors
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/17268169/

A research on the relationship between ejaculation and serum testosterone level in men
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/12659241/

>>40775775
It’s always good to remember why /x/ is the most accurate place for this topic: semen retention is one of the clearest paranormal inducing thing of all the other topics discussed on /x/. It’s a sacred practice that has been the one of the main focuses in every major religion or spiritual practices. The mystical side of it is what we try to focus on in here.

Semen retention can be political issue too and it would then belong to /pol/. The porn industry is a tool made by the jews to deterioate the societies and corrupt the people. The porn works in ways that program new sets of behaviour in its audience and the audience is hooked to it because of its strong addictive qualities. The most important goal for porn’s male audience was and is the releasing of their semen. As we now know, the disadvantages of cooming are heavy: a man becomes less of a man, he gets sick and weak, his mind numbed, he will have impotence issues etc. Also his spirit almost dies.

Semen retention is beneficial to make one healthier and stronger, more fit, if you will. So the topic could be discussed on /fit/. Anyone looking for more ways to get fitness gains would benefit hugely from the SR.

Also the SR has so many other benefits that it could be discussed in the /adv/ board. These would be topics how it improves one’s social life, mental state, makes more time to be more productive etc.

But I think the biggest benefits of SR are something mystical in nature and the whole practice is fundamentally something very close to spiritual side of things. All the other topics in here /x/ are left far behind and SR actually makes this board of any relevancy. This is also known by the enemy and they make strong efforts to suppress, hijack, twist and end this discussion.

>>40775783
# # # THREAD HYGIENE PSA # # #

Starve the shillery.
No attention for them.
No replies.
Focus.
On.
The.
Prize.

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WAGMI

>>40762249
I just copy & paste the OP, not sure which images were there so I wouldn't be able to make a new album

I need to make cash and am having trouble getting a stem job out of college. I might have to resort to drawing commissions in my spare time and no one pays for sfw art. I'm not gonna relapse but I hope this doesn't damage me mentally or something.

magnetism stories

https://imgur.com/a/dwZdD0U

everyone should also write down all the synchronicity, etc. that happen to them, because i guarantee you'll forget them over the course of your SR journey and it helps remind you that it's happening to you

Just scanned the catalog for the first time in years. This board is hecking dogshit, still no where near as bad as pol, these threads are alright tho

2 months in, everything is falling into place
WAGMI

>>40775756 (OP)
>Day 1
Here we go again

Day 10. Tomorrow I match my longest streak. No urges yet since day 2.

i'm almost 6 months in and had an incredibly productive and illuminating 6 months. i don't look back and wish i had masturbated. never give up anons

The first 3 weeks suck fucking ass. I’m on day 23 and my brain feels like there’s shit sliding off of it and becoming normal again, but it’s taking a toll. I’m not as constantly tired as I was but i get hit by waves of it

>>40775756 (OP)
>>40775775
hijacking this one to include the bit on porn from the last thread

Biological interactions happen when people view porn, causing men to experience erections and women to experience dilated genitals and lubrication from the vaginal walls (NHS, 2016; NHS, 2016). However, psychological changes also occur. fMRIs revealed that when men watch porn, elevated activity in the ventral striatum can be observed where the brains reward-system releases dopamine, the neurotransmitter responsible for pleasure (Hess, 2017; Simpson, 2017). The amygdala (the brain portion responsible emotional behaviour and motivation), also activates when viewing porn (Gola et al., 2015), both of which activates the brains reward-pathway which influences conditioning towards desiring a certain stimulus again - a process which can lead to pornography addictions (Hess, 2017). Furthermore, those who view greater amounts of porn also have lesser volumes of grey matter (The Guardian, 2014). Whilst this finding does not suggest causation, it is important to note that the average age of males who start viewing pornography for the first time is 10 years old – an age where critical brain-development is still in the process (Hess, 2017). Therefore structural brain differences/damage could reflect consequences of pornographic use.
https://www.theroompsy.com/psychology-sex-identities-society/The%20Problem%20With%20Porn:%20Heteronormativity%20&%20Gender-roles

https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/

https://personandidentity.com/transgenders-connection-with-pornography-its-undeniable/

https://genspect.org/porn-the-great-identity-interrupter-no-one-wants-to-talk-about/

https://www.womenarehuman.com/pornographys-influence-on-transgenderism-the-proliferation-of-sissy-hypno-on-social-media/

https://www.widerlenspod.com/p/episode-179

https://lifehackerguy.com/how-to-do-dopamine-detox-the-right-way/

>>40775276
>Ever heard of oxytocin? Stupid
Gotta respond to this (I was arguing that sex isn't necessarily better than jerking off; in some cases it's worse >>40773521).

Truth is that oxytocin actually feminizes you.

"In short, a dose of oxytocin made the male subjects more like women. (Unsaid in the study is that these same male subjects suddenly all wanted to go to the powder room at the same time and to put kitty posters on their bedroom walls. They were also markedly reluctant to kill spiders and other icky things.)"
https://www.boundless.org/blog/why-can-39-t-a-man-be-more-like-a-woman/

Unless you're ready to be a father, having irresponsible sex creates soul ties which makes you emotionally volatile and needy, and also puts you at risk for unwanted pregnancy and STIs.

Just my 2 cents - my point is that many times, it's better to just bust a nut in quiet peace rather than get involved with someone you shouldn't

>>40775756 (OP)
I'm on day 20 which is great for me. As I have been addicted to cooming for decades. Few urges. Maily when I start overthinking or getting stressed. Some changes: Dreams have become much more vivid and longer, realistic. I have become much more talkative and social. But to the moment that's it. I have incorporated a bit of mediation. I wanna keep going because why stop now. Cheers everybody.

What the fuck is a soul tie lmao

day 2 deleted my 3 years worth of storage of custom videos wooooooooo lets gooooooooo. Been absolutely cynical, jaded, antisocial, a shell of myself since my wife left me last year. do nothing but work and goon and the odd obligatory social outing (which i always seethe about cause its taking me away from my precious gooning). cried sunday night out of nowhere i think something hit me as in "is this who you want to fucking be?".

>>40776317
He's a shill, you can tell when they throw in those certain chemical names and write a whole paragraph. I just filter them kek.

>>40776346
I've fucked 7 women in my 26 years. I'd say that's pretty average. If soul ties existed I'd have 7 women constantly chasing my dick wanting my energy back especially considering 3 of those 7 were virgins.

>>40776339
That sounds rough mam. I'm on a similar patch in life. But Im unemployed. I just wanna kms. I ruined everything good in my life. SR is my last resort.

>>40776317
When you have sex with someone you basically become one with them - even if you're a mentally strong person, you'll still get a strong sense of attachment to that person - that's called a soul tie. Let's say you hook up with a roastie that you don't even find particularly attractive, who happened to just be available, you'll still feel this even if you don't want to. Even if you were never into her and find her mid af, you'll still feel strong bitterness if she mistreats or ignores you, and especially if she starts hanging out with some other guy. The act of sex is very binding, you really gotta be careful who you get involved with. They say it takes 7 years for a soul tie to dissipate

>>40776371
I have had people coming and going sexually from my life for years. And this has been going on for years. But I just thought it was some roastie shit. What are the esoteric implications of it? I haven't had contact with any of them over weeks/months. I don't wanna sleep around anymore.

>>40776371
Sounds a bit like bollocks to me that mate. I believe in strange things happening like exes coming back due to SR etc but soul ties that sounds delusional.

>>40776386
I have never had any exes coming back on a SR streak, but on normal life just the crazy ones.

>>40776397
I'm only on day 10 anyway but my last streak ended to an ex who just wanted sex, she lied about wanting to fix us. She hates me now though so would be a miracle for that to happen again but I also wouldn't fall for it I don't think.

>>40776368
in some ways being employed while being a gooning loser is worse because it allows me to lie to myself more easily. my addictive nature is very stubborn and the more i can act like "im just a normal working man", the easier it is to deny that im doing what im doing.
im sure you didnt ruin everything good in your life. and its the heros journey bro. way more men are addicted to this shit than is popularly assumed. its a pandemic

semen retention will save me from inceldom.

>>40776417
Thanks man. Sometimes I see the glimpses of the man I could be. And for me the first thing is to defeat PMO. And to live it in a healthy manner. You can do it too bud.

>>40776383
>What are the esoteric implications of it? I haven't had contact with any of them over weeks/months. I don't wanna sleep around anymore.
Every time you have sex with someone, you give a piece of yourself to them. So if you're having a lot of soulless sex where it's all just about physicality, over time you erode your spiritual power - the power that allows you to manifest and create. Just look in the eyes of a woman with a really high body count and you'll see what I'm talking about. Fapping doesn't take away this spiritual energy like soulless sex does. A woman who has a very low body count but faps all the time will have much more vibrancy than a woman with a very high body count but doesn't fap.

>>40776386
>SR etc but soul ties that sounds delusional.
Nah brother it's a very real thing. You know the sense of dread and emptiness you get after a one night stand? It's completely related to it. You don't get soul ties with fapping however, it's just wasting energy. But with ONS and random hookups, there's actual soul loss

>>40776473
When I shagged this black bird in a hotel room 17 times in 2 nights, my only one night stand, I didn't feel empty nor attached.

>>40776473
I haven't had one night stands but many like, superfluous sexual relationships. I believe what you say but I imagine that sexual celibacy in body and mind will restore my soul. I feel really empty right now but not because of PMO only, but because I have realized how many people I have lost because of my cowardly attitude towards commitment. It has been a rough month. I'm unemployed, with no career prospects and missing a really good girl I fumbled because I couldn't bring myself to love with sincerity. I do believe that SR is a way to get me out from this rut though, and that there is a path for reinvention for me. But I gotta keep strong and with high morale and belief. I am applying for this job and already had the interview. I'm waiting for the second round of interviews. It is a tough job but I need it right now. Wish me luck guys

>>40776480
Some people are more sensitive to the effects in the spiritual realm than others. It's like if you have sex with a woman and she feels no sense of attachment after the fact, that woman is far gone my guy - same goes for men

>>40776371
>When you have sex with someone you basically become one with them
This doesn't seem right to me. I've had experiences where there was no such thing.
And what about hookers? You definitely don't become "one" with them.
With some women there is more of a connection, but it has to be more than sexual.

>>40776517
Best of luck brother. The very fact that you're conscious of all this is a great sign. It means you're spiritually aware and consciously maturing. You'd be surprised how many people are in situations like yours and are not able to take any responsibility at all for their actions and see no wrong. You've got this man, God bless

>>40776539
Thanks man I really needed this. I am in shambles right now.

>tfw you hear a song in a public that you heard in a gooning pmv

>>40776440
how so? is it just the next step of convincing yourself you are tooootally a volcel?

>>40776524
>And what about hookers? You definitely don't become "one" with them.
Of course not, but many men do develop attachments to them, especially if they keep seeing them. That's why seeing sex workers is a bad idea, why would you put yourself in a position to get potentially emotionally attached to someone who sleeps with hundreds and thousands of men a year?

"Study: Men Who Pay For Sex Really Want Love"

https://www.wbur.org/news/2012/08/09/study-men-sex-love

>>40776554
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6QUmPZmkr4I

>>40776297
Congrats, keep it going.

>>40775756 (OP)
Sometimes I feel like I have to cum though. My erections get painful.

>>40775756 (OP)
Don't browse /v/ or /vg/ anons, there is too much goonslop in there

I keep trying to retain and I always goon by day 5. Why can I not get past day 5? I get extremely lethargic and zoned out, and the only way to get my energy back is to coom. I don't get it. Also I have a fetish I want to get rid of, and it will exit my mind, only to come back with a vengeance. Help, anons?
>pic unrelated

>>40776854
Just dont. Grow up motherfucker. Just dont touch your pee pee. How weak can you be?!

>>40776854
Leave house on day 5 and get back before u need to go to sleep. Visit local shops, research interesting places in area, burn energy with physical activity. Get back short before u need to go to bed.

>>40776565
idk how, but it will surely.

>>40776907
That's not a bad idea

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Ngl i would end my streak for some sexy hairy pussy

>>40775756 (OP)
Im on day 12 of not jerking off today

For like the past 2 years i’ve been jerking off daily and watching porn. Of course not every day I would fap but the majority days I would, sometimes 2+ times a day and sometimes i would have really bad days like something 7 times in one day

How many days until i become normal again and my brain and all the other parts of my body and mind gets unraped and the magnetism starts kicking in and I attract people and whatnot.

Basically just when will I be completely normal again. Ive been tempted a bit but now that i’ve felt some benefits (like ive started dreaming again) im not going back, so assuming I keep this current streak going how long is it until im healed

>>40776986
everyone here would no matter how hard they protest

>>40776175
>Truth is that oxytocin actually feminizes you
Shameless small hat homosexual go away

>>40775756 (OP)
I just gooned to the worst, most hypersexual thing in my life, I feel like I lost my soul to the devil, I hate this fear I feal rn. How can I defend myself spiritualy from now on? how to heal from this demonic corruption?

>>40776981
Tranny mad that other men aren’t indulging in his favorite pastime, I understand tranny

>>40777468
What was it? I’m curious to see just how low some of you are

>>40777345
Depends on the type of woman it is attached to.

>>40777570
fart porn

I absolutely have to do SR cause I think I developed some crazy mood swings and stress induced rage and the only thing that helps is either jerking off every other day or abstaining for at least a month. Every time I go a week or two without porn I get bipolar, I will be your best friend then an hour later I can’t even talk to you and would have to get away
I’ve made it over a month several times even gotten to like 3 months and was composed as hell so yea.. im 30 now i basically have to do this, i dont wanna be like a moody faggot teenager anymore

DAY 40
Longest streak so far.

>>40777570
i gooned to AI chat girl talking about being drugged and castrated at my own wedding by my sadistic psycho bitch wife because im too weak to deserve love

>>40776297
>Dreams have become much more vivid and longer, realistic.
Same. I literally dream every night and remember every detail, it's awesome. Even if the dreams have a negative aspect at times, they're still fun overall.

>>40777671
what has your experience been like? anything paranormal?

>>40776565
>you are tooootally a volcel
If you choose not to have sex for any reason, you're a volcel. That's it.

>>40777883
>what has your experience been like? anything paranormal?
Nothing paranormal at all.
Higher amounts of energy, generally more positive and social and upbeat . I am more productive in my free time, More into my hobbies instead of just mindlessly scrolling.
The last time I did a comparable SR streak I lasted 30 days and I felt a lot of strong sexual attraction towards random females at the grocery store and felt I was catching their eye. This time around I haven’t felt that vibe honestly.

fellers.... is it normal to start smelling like cummy? i'm being deadly serious. am i just leaking precum throughout the day without knowing?

>>40778006

>>40778006
No

>>40778017
the past few days i be stinkin frfr
i shower every morning and night but still at a certain point of the day i'll just get a fishy scent around my crotch
i hope im not sick

>>40776776
As if it's only those two. Other notorious blueboard goon enclaves: /int/, /sp/, /tv/, /fit/, /wsg/.

>>40778028
Bro you more than likely have some sort of fungle infection lmfao, get checked at the doctors.

>day 62
I'm so horny its insane. I feel great otherwise though.

>>40778006
Get this gay shit outta here

>>40776440
Why does that matter?I would be dissapointed to waste all my efforts in a woman and become an averege normie

>>40778073
/tv/ is the worst, such a fall from grace, used to be waifu fags being ironic pedos now it’s them posting their gay porn fetishes unironically

>>40778118
Nice dude.

Femcels here are filthy obedient and starving for attention. They get on cam begging to be called worthless used like toys and turned into dripping messes. Real girls real submission no limits.

Discord: redux

>>40778006
this always happens to me. the cock has a stronger smell like coom.

>>40775756 (OP)
these threads are kinda sad. I have tried to learn something from them but it's just coomers coping not being able to go more than 3 days straight without jerking it. Come on dude. This is not that hard. It is spiritual practice but it's not that spiritual if dudes are thinking about dirty stuff 24/7. Let your spirit transcend man. This is pathetic. I think I'm over these threads. I'm just going my own way.

>>40777673
That’s a William S. Burroughs tier sentence. Aim for the heavens and jack off to an actual human next time

>>40778491
oh no!! what are we evvvvveeerrrrrr gonna do without youuuuuuuhh

>>40778151
Porn has made me much gayer than I would have been without it. I’m still straight, but without porn I would be fair less of a faggot. I’m a few months in and I have become far more homophobic. I am starting to respect the sacred more, It’s an improvement

>>40778199
tried to add you but it said you are not accepting friend requests

>>40777989
Is that one of those martians Kyle Odom warned us

SR = Aura farming?

>>40779041
For some, unfortunately, yes. But not for most.

>>40778491
See you tomorrow

>>40778491
All reoccurring threads are very redundant unless it’s a reoccurring thread on a topic that changes.
There’s probably nothing that needs to be said about SR that’s already been said or written.
Yeah it’s mostly the same questions the same experiences the same challenges, wins and losses.
The same fictional stories.
The same shills.
Yeah, pretty much.

>>40778491
>i'm over these threads man
>announces it ITT

Lord have mercy on me a sinner

# # # THREAD HYGIENE PSA # # #

Starve the shillery.
No attention for them.
No replies.
Focus.
On.
The.
Prize.

(Pro tip > Hide shill posts: Click on the arrow next to the post number, click 'Hide', Comfy.)

WAGMI

>>40776876
These are Christcuck threads disguised as esoteric knowledge because they want everyone to be just as miserable and retarded as they are because they can't stop fiddling with their own ding dongs.

everytime i look at porn or think about sex, My piece of shit narcissistic ex wins. The longer I retain and the less sex I think about the more likely she will be affected my holy based energy and have a mental breakdown and come and finally apologize for how shitty she was.

>CTRL+F 'christ'
>one result
hmmm... wrong thread schlomo?

>>40776339
God bless you, not sure where you are (or where I am) on the blessed path, but prayers for you. Don't give up, failure is normal, but getting back up is what sets fighters apart from failures.

>>40776440
Indeed, if ye believe ye shall be called volcel, child of God!

THAT CRAZY BITCH I WONT CUM I REFUSE TO EJACULAE I REFUSE I REFUSE I REFUSE I WONT CUM FOR 400 DAYS IF I NEED TO. GOD HELP ME THAT CRAZY BITCH BROKE MY HEART! I NEED THIS POWER GOD MAKE THIS RIGHT HUMBLE THAT FUCKING WHORE

>>40780080
She's riding another dick and moaning loudly right now.

HOLY FUCK I CAN'T HANDLE THIS! SOME FUCKING BETA KEK IS GOING TO FUCK MY SLOPPY SECONDS! WHY DO I CARE SO MUCH? SHE WAS AN EMPTY COLD WHORE! OH GOD OH GOD HELP ME!

>>40780104
DUMB SLUT HAS HERPES TOO! HOLY FUCK I CHECKED HER INSTA AND SAW A NEW FAG LIKED HER POST AND SHES FOLLOWING HIM. FUCKING POS IS GOING TO PUT UP WITH HER BS AND VALIDATE HER AND ANGERS ME SO MUCH WHEN EVEN HE CAN DO BETTER. SHE NEEDS TO GET HUMBLED NOT DICKED DOWN!

>>40780109
Actually I was just trying to fuck with your head. Doesn't matter. I tell you from experience. Worry not. You dodged a bullet. You will find plenty and better than that.

I can't even fucking listen to love songs anymore, i just feel much confusion and anguish. fucking dumb fuck greed slut whore god answer my prayers!!

>>40775756 (OP)
Im on day 13 right now after being a heavy addict for the past 2 years and I saw in some youtube video about benefits of this saying that around this day mark, theres a certain effect where every emotion you feel is heightened. Like if youre happy youre really really happy and if youre sad youre really really sad and so on.

I think this is happening to me, today my mood has been constantly shifting between intense happiness, extreme calmness, massive loneliness, feeling extremely empty, and also very stressed. I feel like im going crazy and every emotion I feel feels extremely intense but my emotions and mood constantly change i dont know what is happening I just feel so much

>>40778006
I don't know why you got ragged on for this. This happens to me because of random boners, so precum comes out and my dick and balls get that weird fishy smell like back when I was gooning. I'm uncircumcised so maybe that's it.

t. Day 30

https://files.catbox.moe/qar5i8.mp4

July 6, 1940.

Adolf Hitler's victory parade celebrating defeat of Jewden pornography.

>>40780292
thanks now im on a list

>>40780370
Mr Anderson.... we are watching you masturbate

I just relapsed on day 13. Day 13 was the farthest I’ve gotten so far, before this 6 days was my farthest. Now i feel like a fucking loser after relapsing on my farthest and best attempt yet.

The only good thing about this relapse is that i used my imagination and didnt watch porn or binge like i usually do with a relapse, but i still relapsed and feel largely disappointed in myself. Especially because this was the farthest I’ve gone without jerking off in a long time, and i cant even do anything about it, all I can do now is wait until im back at where I was. Did i lose all my benefits?

>>40780379

>>40780404
....only...human...

>>40780400
Yep. Don't give up. Make it double next time.

>>40775756 (OP)
I'm on 25 days. Wish me luck anons

>>40776480
Well yeah blacks aren't people, so that makes sense. It's completely different when you're not practicing beastiality

After months of cooming and receiving for my weekly drop seemingly endless amounts of Recoil and Fracture cases, I managed to string together a 6 day streak, and Io a behold received a Winter Offensive case drop.

>>40780679
kek....beep beep beepbeepbeepbeeptititititititi alahu akbaaaaaaaarrrBOOOOOOOOOOOM

>>40780679
can't you just eat your own cum for the same effect?

>>40780686
no that's gay and it doesnt work bro. be a man and stop playing with your willy.

for those of you who are in the know. I am aware most of you are infps and intps and hopeless romantics, so this I hope might bring some motivation!

yesterday i connected with my inner self or whatever you call. it was a deep warm feeling that radiated from my heart i could i feel it “heal” my entire body. maybe SR had to do something with it idk. stay on the path bros.

I used to be a hardcore gooner, was probably at its worst during Covid close to 4 times a day everyday. After Covid I actively worked to bring this down, got it down to once every 1-2 weeks but I was never fully able to break the cycle. Everytime I would masturbate I would spiral into almost a week long depression.

https://youtu.be/WgSFdGCVvdw?si=d5l6ElMrRSEfAt2w

I recently came across above video in my YouTube recommendations. Felt like a gut punch. I realized everytime I had a genuine connection with someone I wouldn’t jerk off at all, and the moment they left I’d cave back in. I had fallen into every dudebro manosphere talking point of work until you drop and just fuck sluts for bragging rights. Started waking up at 5:30am to work out every morning and focused on solidifying my career, cut out drinking and smoking. All great changes don’t get me wrong but my one vice of masturbation remained until I accepted the emotional craving I had suppressed out of fear of looking weak among other guy’s judgment. Can’t help thinking about all the girls who I could have found happiness with that I ignored out of some social pressure or no immediate path to sex.

Finally identifying this soft desire of mine after years of seeking more masculine methods is what it took to finally break my final vice of masturbation. I don’t know when I watched this video, maybe a month or so ago but I haven’t jerked off since. I haven’t counted the days I’ve refrained and haven’t felt the need to. Yea porn addiction runs deep and a few times I found myself looking up a specific scene but rather than a feeling of lust I was always met with a feeling of guilt and I would turn it off when I realized what I was doing.

I only share this to help those who are like me, counting the days and finding themselves in a 2 week or so cycle. That maybe rather than seeking external changes to limit masturbation you should look inward, worth a shot at least.

Anyone else's pee smell different after retaining for a few weeks? Like a much stronger, noticable scent. I think it's the testosterone.

>>40776175
>It's better to masturbate because you can't get any diseases.

It's also a psychological way to deal with the fact of still being a virgin.

>>40780446
Will I atleast get to the same point I was faster, like I’ll have the same level of benefits that I had on day 13 sooner. I’ve heard that the longer you abstain, it becomes easier to recover and you’ll experience benefits earlier than you did on previous attempts since you’ve been abstaining for longer. Is this true, cause I wanna atleast get back to the same level I was on pre relapse as fast as possible

>>40780025
yeah but if she have sex whit you you dont retain anymore..so she leave you after again..if she is a piece of shit why you need your ex..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yswvB0rQhcg

>>40778006
>>40781096
if you're not smelling you're not even retaining

Day 4 on SR, dreamt the following:
>Was about to get in a private jet but then I decided to switch to another jet with my family in it. The new jet was driven on the ground, through highways and tunnels. Finally it crashed against something and the front part started to catch on fire. Every member of my family stood in shock but then I yelled stay calm take off the seatbelts and get out. I waited for my sisters to get out and even my brother, his arm was black but wasn't burnt. Once outside I told them again we need to move since the plane can explode again, which it did 5 seconds after we moved.The other jet I was initially going to board before switching did fly but crashed and exploded.
I swear I never remember my dreams as a coomer.

>>40780292
when you want to fap do this so you cant

>>40781241
It doesn't matter. I'm not gatekeeping, I'm genuinely trying to help you. I advise you to keep going and not get caught up in the benefits.
Your goal should be SR itself, not the aura, magnetism, high self-esteem or anything like that.
Right now, you're on Day 0. We all walk the same path. Tomorrow will be your first step, then the second, then the third. Just keep moving forward.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xknnD47tcMU

>>40781339
based! best advices ever. sometimes you just feelll even more shit on sr and have 0 benefit.

>>40781048
i heckin love ai voice slop!

>>40781048
>Can’t help thinking about all the girls who I could have found happiness with that I ignored out of some social pressure or no immediate path to sex.
Although I do agree with your sentiment and congratulate you on your insight, this bit, it doesn't work like that.
You have no way of knowing where things would've gone, or how things would've turned to be with every one of those girls. And no, delaying the moment of sex is not guarantee for anything good either, although it at least ensures you give yourself time to notice what kind of woman you are sticking your dick into.
It's better to not idealize women, sex or love, do what you must do, including sr, for yourself not for women.

>>40776565
NTA but am I volcel or a incel if girls flirted with me but I ignored then?
>>40776554
You disgusting coomer. At least I always jerked off to videos on mute

>>40781181
If that's a cope of virginity, is this >>40780686
a cope of gaydom?

>>40781364
>sometimes you just feelll even more shit on sr
Because your brain is hooked to its own endorphines, for decades even in the case of some people, and that takes a while to fix.

>>40781339
>Your goal should be SR itself, not the aura, magnetism, high self-esteem or anything like that.

Go fuck yourself, why you anti-left pather's always have to come in and ruin the fun with your ascetic bullshit so what if I want take pride and enjoy in my increased spiritual capacity to exert my will and power over reality. Fuck off jedi, I want sith this shit! It's time I feel powerful once, It's I MATTER!

>>40775756 (OP)
I have often felt there was something wrong with the idea of men chasing after women. Our social customs are inverted. Men have more to lose from sexual interactions than women when they retain. In actuality, it should be women chasing after men.

>>40781048
gay ass video
this modern youtube shit is so lame

>>40781688
I get what you say. A lot of self-castraring christ cuckery on these threads “your purity and ascention should be given to the lord and only the lord.” That sounds like passive christian cuckery to me. What god would want their creation to be emasculated bitches who pray in a room and don’t enjoy the good things in life? What I know is that I want to work, create, invest, train and be 100000x better than now. The the best version of myself and conquer everything. To have a wife and kids and whatever I desire.

>>40781643
>You disgusting coomer.
damn bruh, i'm here trying to get better. no need to be so m-mean *sniff*

>>40781750
watch them call you a shill, demon and/or kike for saying this. they are so fucking boring and simple-minded, all liars and failures too who constantly "relapse" and project all over these threads.

>>40781985
How many times you gonna come in these threads and pronounce how butthurt these Christians make you? lmao fucking loser

YOOOO just busted at work ok back to welding see y'all next month boys

>>40781985
Yeah I get believing in god and wanting to have a bigger purpose but I don’t want to be a fucking cuck monk. I like women and I want a healthy relationship+money. There’s nothing wrong with that. These guys are coomers and I think that most of them haven’t even had women yet.

>>40781750
people forget it's their right to make themselves more attractive and there's nothing wrong with being attractive. it doesn't mean you have to fornicate or anything like that, but that's how people meet each other. they notice each other. SR helps you get noticed

>>40782409
Yeah totally. It gives you that extra push to get out of your comfort zone. I’m currently unemployed and I used to be very picky with my work choices. Not anymore. If I have to become a trashman so be it. I will use the free time to get what I want in life.

how often did you guys coom per day ? (or used to coom)

>>40782684
For me it varied. But there were days in which I could do it like, 10? 15 times? There was a day I was cooming all day and then got up to meet with a chick and fucked her anyways. I have tremendous sex drive. Mind you I'm on my late 30s and it keeps going. Good I guess. I'm on day 21 now. Few urges.

>>40782684
bout tree fiddy

>>40782684
once, and sometimes twice. But even as a coomer and with 0 knowledge of the things i know now, i could tell cooming twice would make me very tired and not want to do anything.

Have you guys noticed improved vision on long streaks. As an astigmatic for the last 10 years I swear that there are days where I feel that my vision improved when retaining. Also why the fuck do my teeth hurt more after cooming?

>>40782752
I have noticed my vision improving but I have already flawless or near flawless vision. For me is that how you perceive things changes. I have not noticed the teeth thing.

>>40782752
yeah, thanks to SR i can now see YOU A BITCH LMFAOOOOO
i'm just yanking ya chain brother don't get so twisted pal

Day 10 here. I can now cast a fireball spell (level 1 though, so pretty small).

find out where the SR journey leads, because there's only one mood masturbation leads you to, and it's picrel

Women constantly show up in my dreams as romantic prospects, not even sexually most of the time now. Not really sure what my unconscious is trying to tell me

>>40782894
That you should get married and start a family and stop gooning. But as a fellow gooner that possibility might be off the table.

>>40778478
>>40780288
thanks for reassuring me. i don't feel like i'm leaking or anything so i don't get it.
>>40778092
i really fucking hope not, if it doesn't go away in a week i'll consider getting it checked out
around 20 days btw

>>40782684
Most I did in a day was 5 times but it was all back to back to back in like 30 minutes, the first nut being after 4 hours of edging kek

I feel like the devil is trying to make me fuck trannies lately. Won't work Satan send an actual hoe. Day 11, matched my longest streak today.

>>40782752
Did you have eye floaters and did they go away after long streaks?

>>40782894
Same, every other day is a dream of a pretty girl, I had a full dream about going to mcdonalds. Makes waking up feel like shit

>>40781048
Have watch/nice jung explaination.. is book are not easy to read and understand.. video like this are a good entry level..
i like this ai ytb chanel too

https://www.youtube.com/@Sehnend.

i have post another one here>>40781288

its good to understand the shadow and the anima and all the other part..

make me remeber this from another tread

You are ensnared, my friend, not by flesh, but by a pattern—an echo in the very circuits of your mind.
Ask thyself: is it truly thy loins that yearn... or is it the mind, ever-hungry for reward, that cries out?
When you surrender to the illusion, you believe you feel—but you feel naught.
A shadow of sensation, no more real than smoke on the wind.
What is this craving, if not the mind deceiving itself?
Pornography and idle fantasy are but veils—crafted to hide a simple truth: that you feel... nothing.
And so, the mind seeks to fill the void with phantoms.
But heed my words—only in stillness, in truth, may you find what is real.

and


Masturbation is a ritual form of consent to the matrix system of loosh harvesting. We literally say to ourselves, "Oh, this is so incredible to see that it's worth dying for, here, take my life essence."

>>40781657
sr fix problems but also confront them... often when we used to run away from them... we must tell ourselves that the negative effects are part of the path to healing

>>40782684
one day I reached 18, and when I tried nutting again nothing came out, I then felt like shit for days, honestly looking back that was 2-3 months of feeling like shit but I never made the connection with it being semen

do you guys just have extremely low libidos or something?
I can't even go one week, I get too fucking horny it becomes unbearable.
How the fuck are you guys doing this?

>>40783227
We have suffered enough
t. hypersexual degenerate nearing 3 months

>>40782894
that's confidence building up inside your subconscious imo. retaining your seed means you have inherent value to women and your body senses that

>>40783227
All that sexual energy wasted. You could be the next hitler, who knows

https://x.com/BrokeUnemploy3d
damn this twitter account was sad to read, sad to see what they've done to people. It's gonna get so much worse with the coming generations too

i think god just had to create an evil that you need to combat, since we moved on from surviving against nature and predators as a species. so god invented addiction, because there needs to be a possibility to do bad, to truly be able to be good.

you can do anything you set your mind to

>>40783366
i was checking out a music video the day and there was some anime pfp with the name of "goongood" talking about how they were baiting to it. it's crazy seeing them in the wild in normie spaces now

>>40783366
He did that to himself.

>>40777345
nah, once you do SR for a while you realize orgasm sucks. It's like when you get off sugar addiction and you find Cola disgusting.

WAGMI

>>40783532
It's my last resort bud. On day 21. My longest ever. If nothing good happens, I'm necking myself. I'm 38.

I'm a chubby 5ft11 guy on day 12 will women really start bending over in front of me

>>40783639
38 and longest ever streak is 21 im sorry but that is sad. No wonder you’re so miserable, hold out for 21 weeks ffs and I promise you’ll become more optimistic. Shit you might neck yourself after looking back on how much was wasted in 38 years

>>40781317
>>40781688
>>40781750
>>40781985
>>40782089
>>40782787
>>40782868
>>40782990

>>40783711
I know dude. I have had gfs, a home, good jobs, etc. But it always felt empty. Fake. I always fucked things up. These few weeks have been rough, not because of the urges or desire to coom, but because of regret. It's messed up dude.

>>40775756 (OP)
Sometimes I can go 3/4 months easy and feel all the benefits, then relapse, and after that I cant get to one week even tho I know SR works.
Why is that?
I guess I really need to stop even peeking at porn

>>40783227
if you cant even control yourself then what are you really in control of?

>>40783741
Same. I think it isnt them, its us. Low self esteem, even though we are good on the outside, we still ugly inside (or we think we are) or less than others.
Fix the inside first

>>40783752
Absolutely man. You can have everything in life, the friends, the family, the place, the job, the women, I have had all that. But I fuck things up and now I'm seeing the consequences. These weeks have been horrible because of a stupid breakup I had, I realized I was self sabotaging myself so bad. I know the only thing I never changed was cooming. I know it isn't a silver bullet, but it's like any addiction. I do believe in the supernatural elements too though. It's a double whammy. I feel terrible right now, but for some reason I have this indomitable optimism still.

>>40783711
>>40783741
Don't be a dick dude he's trying his best. This shit can take everything from people and it has a strong gravity to it that can keep you in the quicksand for a long time. It's never too late to change your life.
Men don't really get old until we can't fuck anymore, nowadays that's like 80.
For all we know 40-60 could be the best time of his life just up ahead here.

>>40783706
No, but it will give you the extra push not to be chubby and sculpt your destiny like the artist sculpts marble.

>>40782684
It was literally just once, each time I did, which was at most every other day. I can't even comprehend some of these posts that say they did it 4 times in one day. That sounds so insanely bad I can't even imagine

>>40783830
Thanks man. I have had a lot of oportunities in life though. I have great friends, a great loving family and a lot of hope for the future. I keep telling myself that the only thing I never tried was stop cooming. I got fit, learned martial arts, finished school, learned arts, went to therapy, reading, etc. But never, ever stopped cooming. It's the only thing that I always kept when things went good or went bad.

>>40782752
>Also why the fuck do my teeth hurt more after cooming?
My guess would be because your body is quite literally decaying when you do

I just have this feeling this like knowing that my ex is gonna message me wanting dick. Last time we spoke before big hate filled argument was to fuck and she mentioned having 2 weeks off in beginning of August and wanted to spend them with me maybe she has someone new now tho who knows

>>40783906
She won't. She's already banging a different dude(s).

>>40783912
Already happened twice bro one time she sucked my dick in a field

>>40783928
This time she won't. Move on. You sound obsessed,

>>40783933
I'm not obsessed just pondering my thoughts. I've been having strange SR related experiences for the past 2 days.

>>40783937
Maybe who knows. They say that SR increases your capacity of manifestation.

>>40783952
I'm seeing her name everywhere bro like from murder victims on the news to random people you may know on Facebook, people talking about their family members yet before I rarely heard the name.

>>40783960
Well, honestly I think you should move on. This is coming from someone who is also processing a breakup. It's your bruised ego/abandonment talking here. She is already gone even if she had came back before. It will save you a lot of heartbreak and future trauma.

>>40783972
I have moved on mate as I said before I'm still talking to other women and stuff but this isn't my thought I have a true feeling of knowing and belief that she will come back to try and fuck with my mind again.

>>40783928
how did you get into a field

>>40784008
We walked into it mate farmers fields all around my parish

>>40784043
>my parish
are you friends with the alderman?

>day 63
All day my left ball has hurt and my benis feels like I got soap in my pee hole. I'm gonna make it, right bros?

>>40784055
I know members of the parish council and am close friends with the reverend canon don't think we have an alderman

>>40783906
we dont care about your ex you stupid bitch how many times are you going to post about her kys retard

>>40784145
any benefit/changes. 63 days is a lot

>>40783227
I used to coom 3-5 times per day every day from 13 until 34. Probably missed about 5 days during all those years. My record was 13 in a day. In my twenties I used to jerk it for 14 hours straight at times, doing drugs. Sometimes my eyes would get blurry, sometimes my dick would get chafed. A couple times it even got swollen, and one time when I stood up after looking at it, I fainted.

It took me 9 years after discovering SR to make it more than a week. Even though I would keep cooming every day, I always had it in my mind that one day I would quit.

Then one day when I was 34, I quit. My first long streak was 69 days. I knew I would give in that day. I took a cold shower. I went on a run. On the run I shouted to God that I would not give in. That my success could not be taken from me. Later, I blew my load back at home.

I had heard stories of guys that would relapse and then spiral for years, because they allowed themselves to go on a spree. I blew that one load and then got back on the horse. Another streak that lasted over 120 days.

Then I tried cooming once a week for about 6 months. Tracking the effects on myself and others based on cooming. I was having health problems that I think are related to semen retention. Strange pressure build up in my sacral area. Arthritis/autoimmune like symptoms, inflammation.

Anyway I'm still dealing with the health problems and don't have any of the crazy magical effects of my first streaks, but now I have completely overcome my urges. I only masturbate if I want to. I only orgasm if I want to. I don't count the days at all, but I will probably go more than a year on this streak.

This is all to say that I was among the most degenerate you could find. No dragon dildos, but I have masturbated to things you wouldn't believe. Lost relationships because of it. And now I have total control. Perhaps still learning to transmute at a biological level, but I'm no coomer. I don't even do it for the benefits anymore.

>>40784153
if you retain long enough you can become the alderman

>>40784159
I am just journaling as I am new to this practice. I will refrain from mentioning her from now on.

>>40784172
Very based. A woman adjusted her knickers while staring directly at me today.

>>40784164
That's amazing change in itself man. I was also addicted not at that level but pretty bad too. It is freeing not being trapped by it. I also lost relationships because I take things for granted. Maybe it has something to do with addiction. I have little urges. I discovered that I get them when I get stressed or worried.

>>40784181
You keep repeating that "i'm not obsessed brah I'm just journaling" and "she hates me bro she hates me". But this has been going on for a while both on these threads and the LoA threads. You sound fucked up and obsessed. Stop obsessing about that psycho bitch and get yourself some pro help because you sound unhinged and repetitive.

>>40784163
I feel way better all the time but its probably from a number of things I started regularly doing after nofap.
No more anxiety, way more energy.. sleeping around 6-7 hours a night when I used to sleep 9-10. Motivation to exercise daily and spend time outdoors getting sun. Not irritable all the time, just to name a few.
The ability to do things is the biggest change. When I watched porn all the time, doing laundry or folding towels was such an inconvenience in my mind. I don't know if it was depression or something, but now I do those things without thinking twice. Same with exercising. It's so much easier to do now.
I can't believe how much I've changed in only 2 months.

>>40784217
There is multiple people talking about exes I only post two or three times a day and most are asking for esoteric experiences.

>>40784227
I know who you are dude we have had many encounters here. "she hates me bro she hates me". It's you dude stop wasting your precious life with that psycho bitch, trust me I have been there.

>>40784224
That sounds amazing dude. I need to feel that. Currently on day 22 and no major benefits, just a bit more talkative and with a tremendous desire to get employed at whatever (I'm unemployed). Any esoteric/paranormal events? I have had some on shorter streaks. Specially people reaching out.

>>40784159
Lmaooo
It’s like the 3rd thread this fucker is going on about this shit

>>40784237
Thank you for the wisdom mate you're right fuck her the slag I'll spit on the bitch

>>40784264
My ex hates me brah but I know she's coming back brah, but she hates me brah and her mom told me she has a new man but I already fucked her I can sense the ether calling that she is coming back brah. Women ain't shit and the sooner he realizes the better.

>>40784244
My first streak of 11 days that I broke for pussy seemed more eventful than my current new streak of 12 days. I'm hoping for more esoteric experiences.

>>40784270
Don't even hate her just forget her son!

>>40784244
Yeahs its been pretty great so far. I know its a cliche, but I really wish I started sooner and stuck to some of my shorter streaks. I would always release around day 15 in the past.
>Any esoteric/paranormal events?
Nothing really to report so far but I'm remembering my dreams which has been really fun. Before, I would instantly forget every detail about my dreams when I woke up, but now I'm recalling details of dreams from the night before all throughout the day.

>>40784279
Yeah you're probably right, hate is still allowing her a place in the temple that is my mind. She's nothing and that's all I need to remember.

>>40784281
I have had the most amazing dreams man. Some of them sexual but others like amazing adventures. And they are vivid and long. Some of them were dealing with past issues. It's amazing. Is this dopamine related?

>>40784145
saying you're not the "let me help you with your prostate" anon that posts every once in a while, your balls pain could be from varicocele, your burning sensation from an urinary tract problem, you will have to get both checked by a physician if it persists.
>>40784164
>I used to
like many of us you almost destroyed your body pursuing that final dopamine release.
> I was having health problems that I think are related to semen retention. Strange pressure build up in my sacral area. Arthritis/autoimmune like symptoms, inflammation.
You could also be having health problems due to your former lifestyle, that takes a toll in the body and I'm speaking from own experience.
After a while on SR you'll need to start doing specific stuff like pelvic floor exercises to stretch and strengthen it, plus breath work.

>>40784279
only sane advise so far for the muh-wife anon.

>>40784285
>Is this dopamine related?
From what I've read, it is dopamine related. It has something to do with desensitized brain pathways working again. I haven't had any sexual dreams or wet dreams yet. I hope I don't have any.

>>40784287
>your balls pain could be from varicocele, your burning sensation from an urinary tract problem, you will have to get both checked by a physician if it persists.
Thanks anon.. both are already feeling better, somewhat.

>>40784285
>>40784281

>>40784341
Fuck that cuts deep. It is the first thing I thought. I mean, I believe in the science stuff. But the more I retain the more I start to believe in spiritual/esoteric/magical aspects to this.

>>40784336
I'm gonna try to cut my sleeping medication today. I feel that it hindering my SR journey. It makes me more depressed than I already am. Getting up in the morning is fucked up when your brain is on seroquel is fucked up. I wake up thinking the worst stuff and my current situation is bad enough.

>>40784365
Good luck man. I'll say a prayer for you.

>>40784394
Thanks man. I really appreciate it.

>>40784365
Seroquel zombifies people. Don't quit cold turkey, but definitely start cutting back the dosage and practicing good sleep hygiene until you can come off it completely.

>>40784407
Yeah totally. I'm fucked right now because I ran out of pills so I'm gonna rawdog it. It's not like I have much to do tomorrow. Yeah I have been feeling like a zombie over the last few months. I think that psych meds are another way for satan to drain you from your energy and disrupt your spiritual path. If anything they get money from your suffering.

Made a good chunk of money while on a streak. Blew the streak a few days ago and now im getting returns from a few weeks ago. People are buying my product, using it once and then returning it. Basically using me as a free rental store. This is the cost of being a coomer. You become a cuckold in all aspects of your life. Physically, mentally, spiritually, financially cuckolded.

>>40784574
Yeah that sounds about right. That's magic/synchronicity.

>>40784574
My business was making me insane amounts of money almost 1k a day when I relapsed I lost everything. Just continue and get back on the horse because when I lost my business in december it came back in march. Don't doubt yourself if you already made money you can do it again

>>40784593
When im obedient, God gives me gifts. When im disobedient he takes them away. He is merciful though because it could be a lot worse. I think he might be proud of the work I have put in, but still disappointed at my actions. I need to focus on the road ahead though. I think he has better things for me in abundance if I can resist my temptations.

>>40784622
In the past 3 years I lost basically everything financially. Had $1.2m. Now I have a car payment, am in debt, no more roommate, etc etc. This small business is basically keeping me barely scrapping by. I haven't given up though and am thankful for the things I do have. Growing in my faith in Jesus and as a person more in the past couple years than a whole decade. I think Satan decided to sift me.

Hoping to come out on the other end stronger in my faith and better in all aspects of my life. Part of that is going to mean that I fight lust and don't allow it to have a hold on me anymore.

>>40784666
Maybe it's your own hero´s journey. I do feel there is something special about using your internal energy when you are at rock bottom.

>>40784628
It's poetic that temptation is so prevalent in scripture, but when I was a kid I thought it meant temptation to be a criminal or cheat on your wife. I never made the connection that you have built in temptation, that is the most accessible and easy to get, yet controlling it unleashes your true potential and puts you in a path to glory.

>>40784666
Im the person you responded to, I had to fight lust, alcohol, cigs, weed. When I was completely pure I made more than ever, got employees and expanded, I never thought I could sit around while people worked for me. When I relapsed I relapsed hard, started drinking a fifth a day, buying a pack of cigs and jerking off. Funnily enough it all stemmed from my employee giving me cigs every time I showed up and I said "It's been a long time since I smoke but one isn't going to destroy me" and that continued and I started thinking like that with everything and I fell into spending 200$ on vices a day.

The trick is never give a penny or a foot to any vice if you do that you'll never lose, the only battle is not giving that penny, instead of worrying about if I should drink a fifth or a box of wine. The fight for 0 is better than that fight for 1, especially if you keep a streak

>>40784801
I get it. For you it is more related to the addictive behaviors that you entertain when on a binge. It's only logical that your business would tank.

4,5 months clean streak here
my life is falling apart because of stupid things i did in 2024 (when i was a coomer)
i seriously need a miracle right now
for the first time in my life im considering suicide, i cant save myself from this, death is the only exit.
the only reason i havent relapsed is because i really need something good to happen, otherwise im fucked
i dont think im gonna survive this year bros, this might be it for me not even joking.
i feel like death would finally give meaning to my existence, finally i would stop being a disappointment to everyone

>>40784850
What happened dude. Nothing good in a 4,5 month streak? What can you salvage at this point? Tell us. I am in a similar situation than yours.

>>40784850
Plus death would not give meaning to your existence dude, you would only fucking die and that's it. Don't romanticize suicide because it will only bring pain to your loved ones.

>>40775756 (OP)
Relapsing is the absolute worst for me because im impatient and whenever you relapse all you can do is wait. You cant do anything else but wait to simply get back to where you were before and i fucking having to wait and wait and wait until im back where i was pre relapse. Its fucking annoying

Any advice to make the days go by faster, or preferably just forget about streaks at all. I partially feel as though counting the days makes the days go by slower, and people always say “just dont count the days, bro!” but for me its not that simple because my mind automatically knows what day i am on. I may sound retarded but is there any practical things i can do to not count the days because just telling myself not to do so doesnt do shit for me, if not is there a way to make the days go by faster because i just relapsed after a 13 day streak and now i feel numb as shit and dont feel like myself anymore and wanna get back to where i was ASAP

>>40784888
Your desperation is pathetic and your path is going to be rocky and/or useless if you keep doubting yourself and counting the days like a retard. Just do it and be thankful for each day, try not to relapse but if you do don't beat yourself over it like a bitch. We all make mistakes, we all have our burdens, but the fact that you are already trying and are already here is much more than the millions of clueless coomers everywhere.

>>40784801
Yeah this is my major flaw I think. I probably have other issues, but this is the one I really struggle with. Maybe food too, but I have a healthy weight. Maybe a little bit of laziness, but I also work manual labor. Cooming is the one thing I just cant seem to shake. Have gone like 90 days before and a few 30 day streaks but can usually only make it a couple weeks at a time. It seems to creep in and the times between relapse gets shorter, and the holy spirit distances itself. Things get better for me when im clean, and things get worse for me when I relapse. Its so stupidly simple but I still keep giving in.

Im at the point where I believe that people who arent seeing results on SR also have some other issues going on they arent resolving too like some other vice. Could be drinking, anger, pride etc etc. Seems like things start looking up on day 5 because its the biggest thing holding me back spiritually.

>>40784850
>death is the only exit
do NOT do it. you dont even want to know why. its NOT going to get better if u unalive by yourself anon.
you must pull thru

im like 8 weeks in, albeit with like 3 held in orgasms (herniated discs/iritated nerves)
which leads me to the question:

Is the physical lock by mantak shia (sexual tao) harmful to the body in any way?
i found that if i do it like in the documents as in 3 fingers and then press into the perineum where the prostate is, it works pretty efficient.
like, i never wasted actual seed and only a little bit of lubricant when i pee later on.
i also never tire after them
but the orgasms are unfortunately very much prolonged and i get really dizzy by them, when i hold them in. (is that a sign that my brain receptors are changing?)
also my balls feel like jell-o or rubber

>Day 10
I've noticed my friend was still hard after the relapse. Some progress and better than in my coomer times though.

>>40784888
Stop gamefying it. This is not a game, it's a lifestyle.

>>40784888
And I'm the 10 days guy just above, and I don't fucking care and not feeling like shit unless and start a binge. I'm still in better shape than in my coomer days. Anyone here is better than most guys out there. Failing is a part of this journey.

>>40784801
excellent advice

>>40776317
>What the fuck is a soul tie lmao
>>40776175
>>40776371
also known as a "whore crux" when referring to women. if anyone doesn't think this is real in women OR men then i'm not sure why you're into spirituality, metaphysics, or /x/ at all.