Thread 33461304

I'm upset at myself for always getting ghosted and knowing I'll start dming them back if for some reason they decided to reply back. It's like I have 0 self-respect. I hate this behaviour and I'm rewarding them with my presence when they request it after they ghost me acting like nothing happened??? ugh.
I hate texting.


I wish I could get over this behaviour.

it's over.

I hate that I have so many health issues. I don't want to be getting headaches, stomachaches or anything anymore.

I'm in love!

I'll take care of this one

I miss my gf

>>33461304 (OP)
The world is corrupt and it hates me. I will never be good enough for anything and i'm afraid that i will not get myself to repent, let alone bring another soul with me.
Errare est humanum.

Been thinking about it.
Many times. Been going through it over and over and over.
I don't know whether I should feel like shit or not.
On one side I did it badly. I should have been more calm, sure. But it genuinely pissed me off.
I do a little bit extra everyday.
I got pretty much a confirmation the other day that that's barely acknowledged at all.
On that basis, it seems like people have an impression of me. But I don't know shit, because I only get praise directly. So I have to autoevaluate myself here.
I'm guessing my demeanor made me look like a yes man, so now things are done without question or notice. And a chain of events regarding that made me act emotional about this shit. I lost myself. It wasn't a pretty sight, luckily there were fewer people. But now I'm a fucking clown that can't take it apparently. So I'm feeling guilty the whole weekend, because suddenly something gets postponed. Because I was just fed up with it. And to top it off now I'm kept away from that little effort I made as well. Yeah just toss me aside and make me feel even guiltier, why don't you. That will do wonders for me.

>>33461304 (OP)
i want my perfume back.

bossman embarrassed me in front of my coworkers, every neighbor keeps harassing me for "parking in their spot" (there are no individual spots) and if I push back they'll just slash my tires
I'm about to lose it

>>33461409
havent stopped. <3

Can't get over my inferiority complex and imposter syndrome despite objectively being in a better spot than many folks. Fucking hell.

>Mum has another one of her bi-weekly emotional breakdowns over something.
>Literally howling and shaking with misery on my shoulder as I hug her.
>Tells me to never have kids and that this family line should die with us.
Often I get so lost in self-pity thinking about how her attitudes have turned me into a poorly functioning loner with no ambitions that I forget that she's the way she is because she too has had a life full of disappointment. It's something my older sisters never tried to understand before they pissed off to live normal lives far away. She has such awful deep seated trust issues that I'm effectively the only social life she has at this point. It really bothers me how every time she has these breakdowns my mind is somewhere else entirely, daydreaming about video games or dinner or something whilst I clumsily try to acknowledge her pain. Is that bad? Am I a bad person for this? Shouldn't I be feeling more emotional, seeing my own mother in such a state so regularly? I didn't feel sad about my cat dying until around nine years later, it just hit me one evening that in his final days he spent a lot of time around me because he knew I wouldn't bother him. He was very warm, you know.

is it just me or is everyone putting the worst parts of themselves online nowadays? like everywhere you look it's just people behaving in obviously bad ways and getting the spotlight for it. after enough of this i feel my soul getting crushed. i don't hate other people, i don't hate society, but if being around other people means having to constantly deal with really bad bad shitty behavior that will make me depressed then i can't do it.

it feels like every 2-5 minutes someone just pinches my arm really fuckingg hard for no reason. that's what the modern internet is like. that's what the culture is like. i don't hate you guys but god i am tired of being pinched all the time

>>33462357
>>Mum
Stopped reading right there. Great Britain needs to be wiped from the face of the earth.

>>33462040
Ugh why?

idek why i care, i knew there was a low probability of success even if all lights were green initially

I posted a nude?? in 4chan, mostly because i was awfully bored, and someone contacted me, interested in buying some.

We talked for a bit and then i forgot everything about it. The thing is, i told one of My friends and we laughed about it. Two days ago, i left My phone unlocked on My bed before going to sleep, and My boyfriend read all the chat with my friend. Then, he told half of our friends. Between them was my best friend from six years ago, and he just ignores me now, calls me names and is now HIS best friend. I know i shouldn't be complaining about this, but i really don't have someone to talk to apart from my bf, who forgave me but still uses his other personalities or some shit to insult me every time he can. Im just awfully depressed and this is driving me to the point im feeling suicidal again.

>>33462526
>Im just awfully depressed and this is driving me to the point im feeling suicidal again.
good, you sound like a terrible person and he deserves better than you.

>>33462357
can you explain more abt this? this is sad :( why does she feel this way? do you ever talk to her about her past?

>>33462526
I understand you friend, it could happen to anyone

>>33462526
you know exactly why this is happenning. going unchecked turns girls into men. how is a female going to ever respect a man if she disrespects him constantly and he never puts her in line?

>>33461304 (OP)
I want to go outside again, Its been 12 days.
I want to have the energy to be able to get up and clean my house, take care of myself.

I have no one, I just hit the 1 year anniversary since my ex left the house. I moved countries for her. I have no one here, no family, very little friends and no one I can really call and cry to if I have a big sad.
I do things outside, but I'm incredibly lonely. I hate this fucking shit. I wish I could just get up. I wish I could do all these things. Dishes piled up, laundry piled up, fucking bullshit, I fucking hate this piece of shit thing. And when I go out I feel good, but god fucking damn I am not going anywhere. I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT A GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm starting an affair with a coworker and I'm really afraid I'll discover in the moment that he has a super tiny dick and all my hard work and my hopes are for nothing

I was a dumb NPC before mid 2021 and actually supported most of the tyrannical actions taked by covernment at the time. I think I shouldn't feel so bad based on the fact I was a dumb pre-teen and was surrounded by leftists manipulating me, but the fact that I took the injection and believed all the lies makes me feel really bad.
I feel like an subhuman (even more if it actually changes DNA or something similar) or someone who commited an unforgiveable sin. It's bad, but maybe I deserve it.
For now I'll just take nattokinase alongside the other suplements people recomend to deal with it (I haven't had any side-effects from what I remember, but I want to prevent future problems) and be more religious, just in case I die suddenly.

Small dicks are worthless. fucking 4 inches of misery.
Worse yet are women patronizing me for it. Eat shit then die, then get resurrected, then eat more shit, then die again.
Go fuck Chad for all I care. I'm never letting it be subject to another woman's gaze again until I complete my dick pump regiment.

Holy frick life is gonna be so good if I can just starve for two more months

>>33462597
>>33462614
lmao

>>33461390
Drink a lot of water every day

It’s torture

“if u don’t see us as your parents then quit mooching off of us”

Imagine doing this shit to someone. It actually happened to me and it’s still happening. This shouldn’t be allowed to happen to anybody.

>>33462593
where are you living ?

>>33462563
She had self esteem problems as a child, felt her parents and siblings hated her. She ended up distancing herself from her family, had a hard time on her own throughout the 80s working in the ambulance service, and became pretty jaded about life and people. Only married dad because he "didn't hit her" and while ultimately he isn't a bad person he was incredibly irresponsible financially and bankrupt the family whilst constantly lying about it. She spent a few years on anti-depressants, I was accidentally conceived and born during this period and she was going through the divorce when I was very young. With her other two children moving away and practically cutting contact over the years combined with her trust issues she's ended up like this. She's quite bright really and a good, principled person at heart, but she spends so much time at home listening to doomer radio channels and ruminating and that isn't helping in the slightest.

Nobody could understand what I’ve been thru

My life is just demented as fuck and I need to get away from the past and present.

>>33462693
I have no friends

But thank you for being here

Had a job interview today. Would be perfect for me. Somewhere I could see myself staying indefinitely. Hopefully everything works out.

>>33462660
Netherlands

>>33462618
do you want to lose weight or..?

>>33461304 (OP)
I think I wasted my entire youth. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I have a wife and kids now, but I wish I'd spent more time pursuing my interests outside of the internet before settling down. I basically wasted 16 - 23 being a depressed NEET with no money or personal space, and by the time I turned 26 I was already engaged with a baby on the way. I never got a chance to just be me. I think this is what women feel when they wish they'd explored themselves more.

>>33462709
I worked there for a bit, never wanted to kill myself as much

>>33462715
Its a great society. I'm the problem.

How do I stop obsessing over my gf soon to be ex gf? It’s ruining my life and I can’t stop. I love her but clearly she’s changed her feelings. We work together professionally and I don’t know what to do, my jealous skyrockets if some fucking asshole even looks at her and I get confrontational

Everything is going to work out

>at the pharmacy for some folate supplements
>Pay, getting instructions from the pharmacist
>"You know these are good for pregnancy" with knowing smile
>mumble yes awkwardly and leave
>Spend all day thinking about babies
I can't stand this, I need a husband to get me pregnant asap

I fucking hate people so fucking much

today should be a good day but the fucking willful fucking stupidity of people is like nails on the fucking chalkboard of life

you're so fucking mean and you don't even realize it. i thought you were sweet and i was SO kind to you even when you were being weird and my friends said to stop replying. and then when i won't have sex with you, you block me on everything? like i'm some whore that sleeps with anyone that asks. jfc, you're done

Strangers keep trying to breach into my coinbase as if there’s anything in there

Went to the shops yesterday, passed a girl at the bus stop. She tried to talk to me. I had my sunnies on and headphones in with music blaring. I walked right past her. She followed me for like 50m, trying to get my attention. All I could think was, "not today satan." I crossed the road and she stopped. I am now so mentally broken by women that I can't even bare to talk to a random one on the side of the street.

I used to have 90% female friends. Now I only have a single one and its my mates girlfriend. I just can't look at women the same after my ex cheated on me with her step-dad, got pregnant with him, then tried to pass the baby off as mine. But I pushed for a DNA test and she mysteriously disappeared for a few weeks, only to come back and mysteriously had a miscarriage. I broke up with her and kicked her out of my house. Que several months of harassment from her friends. Phone, social media, work even. No where was safe and I was fired from job over it, because the psycho's were calling the office number and complaining about me. Explaining the situation to my female boss' did not help and in fact they saw me as the bad guy and joined in with the harassment.

It's been a few years since then and I still can't trust a single woman. Yet I yearn for finding someone and having a family one day. I am 34, I feel like my time is running out.

Feels bad man.

>>33461304 (OP)
AHHHGHHHH!!!! NOOOO! GET IT OFF MY CHEST!! ARGH!!!

>Discuss something with friends
>Try and be patient and direct with them
>They almost always try to one up me
>When they lose the discussion turned argument they act sassy and mean spirited
>Wait a minute
>Would I do that to myself or to others?

I'm legitimately considering that my view on friendship is possibly warped and not what it should be

STOP IT WITH THE CHRIS CHAN TIER STRESS SIGHS SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP

being with an anxious needy girl is destroying my life man

I feel guilty, this girl I knew hit every single sexual fantasy I ever had. I got rid of everything, but she saw I cleared my storage, she saw I removed access to my drive, and just blew up my phone with four. years. of smut. Of us, of her missing me, of wanting me. For me.
It's so hot. I've looked at it. I haven't done anything else, but I want to delete it, and at the same time it's so fucking hot, I know I shouldn't, I feel guilty because I'm with someone (or at least, in the start of being with someone). She doesn't mind if I look at porn, but surely this would be different. It took a whole ass 6 months for me to get rid of it the first time, not that I even looked at it then, but it's like throwing away lots of memories and feelings that were intense, insanely good, and still shape how I even interact with others sexually, she COMPLETELY changed me. It feels weird to get rid of it, I don't know why.
It sucks though, I don't want to have it. She knows she stays in the back of my mind, even when I block her numbers and block her on socials, she gets a burner just to reach out right when I haven't thought of her for weeks and feel like I might be escaping.

>>33462711
No, I'm just ultra-budgeting.

I hate living, i hate that I'm still here, I hate the world and society and I hate myself. All I do is exist, I have nothing that makes me happy or brings me joy, I cant remember the last time I smiled in earnest. I'm hardly even a person anymore and I've been this way for practically my entire life. I know what i do to myself inside my own head and I kind of understand why, but even knowing isn't enough to motivate me to be different or think different. When I do feel the want to reach out or try something different I remember what my life is, every single fact of my life is an obstacle. Where I live, the hours I work, the lack of resources here. So I have to resort to relying on myself and myself fucking sucks, and I am alone. That entire notion of not being alone in being this way is a fucking lie, how can I say I'm not alone when I can give up on life and everything and nobody even questions it. I have very few reasons to stay holding on anymore and eventually those reasons will be gone.

Hey Ashley I don't know why you are telling people I'm some sort of spoiled diva becasue my boyfriend got us all Dunkin Donuts ice coffees when you came over. They cost like $4 each with the coupon I gave him. Please stop telling our friend group that he 'buys me whatever I want whenever I want' I get your envious but if i really wanted to flex my relationship with Ice coffee I would asked for Honey Dew.

>>33463185
You can level up your life. practice minimalism.

I wish all of them well. Eventually I will have my own family to cherish.

Eventually there will be another God and Goddess in my life and I can finally just drown in the light.

If the masterpiece is murder I major in art

For better or worse, unfortunately I am attached to this God and Goddess forever.

I didn’t even know it at the time but I broke when she was gone. A part of me is gone now.

>>33463491
Gatman and Robbin', okay then.

>>33463506
Motherfucker you retarded, you touch Anon I’ll leave you dearly departed

i had a really chill and cute lab partner in college who straight up signaled that she wanted to have sex with me but i was too much of a sperg at the time to realize it or do anything about it

>>33463519
Classic.

>>33462597
>>33462619
Bahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha you pile of shit

>>33462721
thats why you dont have relationships in the workplace. If she flirts with them the shes a bitch

I'm going to put my fist right through this fucking monitor!!

i think i hate her now. i hate the person she's become. i feel terrible for thinking that.

i played guitar with some people recently, and it made me depressed. i've been playing for 20 years, and i still suck.

The only cool thing about having divorced parents is that you get double the birthday money and christmas gifts

I'm permanently brain damaged from anti depressants, and all my dad can say is try another pill.

>>33463726
maybe stop listening to ur dad

I saw a hottie at the movie theater a week ago and I have not been able to stop thinking about him.
I haven't had sex in almost 1.5 years, so there's that. He's probably 18, which sucks.
God, I am close to doing voodoo shit to get him to fuck me.

>>33462357
Children are not meant to be their parents emotional sponge, a lot of people would argue not their friend either. That's a bad lot, and your mom should have gotten help for herself.
You're numb to it because it's a barrier you've created, it's a coping mechanism.
I love my mom but I don't like her very much, I've not seen her in almost six years and I don't really miss her. I don't feel bad for her, not really.

Anyway, you need to get your mom therapy and set some boundaries yourself. You aren't to be her only friend people are not going to always betray her. Find God, I don't know, but she needs help.

Every day has been a nice bit of mental combat. Determining what stops me from breathing tomorrow, and I can still find a million and one reasons. A lot of them cheap but I'm glad I got millions of cheap answers to one costly solution.

>>33462917
Holy Christ that's awful, I'm really sorry that happened to you.
We're not all like that, but good grief are a lot of modern women just evil. I constantly say we need to bring back the wife beating days.

i don't have anyone i can confide in, not my close friends, not even my family. i feel so alone.

>>33463810
I'm also alone and will die that way. What about it is unappealing to you?

>>33463812
we always crave what we can't have.

>>33463814
Leave it to God, if you believe in him.

>>33463818
i've never felt the touch of god. i'd love to, but i never had.

>>33463819
I miss going to church.

>>33463819
Being alone isn't a bad thing. But you should know that God is with you. Even in your lonely times. There's a way to feel and pray with your soul, which is evidence of his work.

>>33463821
i just want a genuine connection with someone. somebody who sees me, and loves me, and for me to accept it.

>>33463829
Sounds good, what's stopping you?

>>33463830
every single time i've tried, i've failed.

>>33463838
What's the furthest you got?

>>33463841
i've never gotten far. i've been in many one sided relationship where they string me along, telling me they love me, pretending to care, but really just using me.

>>33463843
Where did you meet them?

>>33463850
in school, friends of friends, one from a dating site, mostly the normal ways of meeting people.

>>33463853
>school
Less conservative girls there.
>friends of friends
Hm, how is your friend selection abilities?
>one from a dating site
The most fake people on Earth are on dating sites.

You want someone that loves you for you in places where they don't even love themselves. With people you don't actually think are good people...

>>33463861
playing music didn't lead me to meet any women, so i can't think of anywhere else it would happen.

I think the worst part of losing you is you managed to overwrite memory associations in the town we both grew up in, a place I thought would be just full of stagnant memories. Instead you brought new life to the place and now all I can think of is you.

>>33463871
Humanist conventions, school, but people with thoughtful majors. Idk how else to help you.

>>33463884
just pray for me, i don't expect anything.

>>33463887
I can't make any promises, but I'll consider it.

>>33463871
Most of the time people find love through the following ways.
>At work
Not a recommended but it has happened.
>School
You aren't here. Same with a lot of dudes. So understand you are not alone here.
>Through friends
Probably the only other safest way. Friend groups already are the attachment of closeness.
That anon is on point. How is your friend selection? There is no shame in saying you have no friends. Again, this is a generation of people who have such an ease of interaction other generations could only dream of. You aren't alone on that front but it helps to know to cultivate social habits or composure that draws people to you.

>>33463902
i have a good group of friends, that i rarely see. mostly at holidays. most of them are in relationships or already married.

anyone ever have an online friend reach out to you again after they cut you off? its been nearly a whole month since he just cut me out of his life and i'd do anything for him to want me back in his life but i know the more time passes, the slimmer the chances are of him contacting me are.
it just feels like such a slap to the face to develop a close bond with someone just for it to be torn away so quickly, i wish i knew how much more time needs to pass for me to finally start to move on as he has from me.

>>33463912
Maybe they didn't forget about you? They might not have heard from you in some time. Having their own responsibilities is common to break a group up, not in a bad way but understandable to notice.
Have you reached out to them to see if they still wanna talk? And if they don't, don't be afraid to move on from it knowing instead of never knowing. Spite grows from doubts there was ever a friendship. Challenge it. See if it's true or not. If it is over move forward with weight off your shoulder.

>>33463914
I'm the opposite: when I was cancelled, I cut him off, because he did not defend me.

I reached out about a year later. But then he led me on for months and finally chose his lame BF over me. So we are separated again. Now, I don't feel happy or sad about it. I really don't care about love or friendship anymore, and instead, I want to make money.

>>33463914
Yeah, happened a few times with this one girl. Though to be fair we have met up irl a few times and met through a mutual friend. She tends to cut me off when she gets a new bf.

>>33463935
cancelled? are u like some niche internet celebrity ?

>>33463945
you don't have to be famous to be cancelled, but people can ruin your reputation.

>>33463960
what did u get cancelled for then? was it deserved?

>>33463927
every time i see them, they always talk about getting together or doing something together, but i never hear from them. i'm not bitter about it, its just sad.

>>33463964
i'm not the op, but i was cancelled for bad jokes. i had people in my music scene try to ban my band and never let me play again because i made joke that someone didn't like. did they ever bring it up to me in person? no. they waited for months until it was advantageous for them. and the worst part was these were people i considered close friends.

There's no way I can love unrequited...

>>33463968
Then they aren't dedicated. If I told you let's plan to hang out and I just keep putting it off....why stick around?
You had good times from the way it sounds and it's scary to let go of that but you gotta. It's time to move forward. Find someone else to talk to.

Here is some advice of what I noticed for myself and others. Find a group chat. Don't expect to make friends immediately. Learn to talk to a stranger. Don't have to bow your ideas or anything. Just talk to a few strangers. Share a joke. Share a thought. An experience. It's like planting a seed. Doesn't poof up instantly but the amount of times I have someone I can talk back to the in the morning that isn't an AI chat bot? Feels good to know.

how is it that 50+ applications i've filed in a month, the only one that has followed up is on in a different time zone?

>>33463977
...what were the jokes?

>>33463986
i've tried making internet friends, i found it less fulfilling than absentee real world friends. but thank you for the advice.

>>33463945
I went on an anti-trans rant among my group of gay furry friends. Strangely, some reached out to me even after I had made my opinions known, because they couldn't get enough of my cock. But not him, though I felt we had the closest emotional bond.

>>33464017
something about wanting some wishing i had some white privilege when paying my bills. this was like 2014-2015.

>>33464026
Shut your gay ass up.

^ How did that make you feel?

>>33464035
I smiled

>>33464039
Dead, damn, you have thick skin. I was hoping to say "That's how Transpeople felt when they heard about your rant." But they probably have thick skin too.

>>33461371
Who gives a shit. Some people have more options than others.
don't beat yourself up over the fact that someone else might be distracted. There is literally nothing you can do about it

i wish i could live a screen free life. i wish i could go to a job and go home, without a constant desire for blue light. i can't even apply for a job without a computer. i thought getting rid of my smart phone would help, but its about the same.

>>33463696
same

>>33464099
Maybe you should have "Under Restrictions Many Ultimatums Make" intervene.

How am I meant to progress in life when I feel like my destiny is to just kill myself? I can't imagine 5 years from now, I can't even look forward to next year.

How gen z and millenials think:

Sees happy man gardening flowers

Gardener: oh well hai dare neighbor!


Husband: oh look honey he is gardening
Wife: what if the children that are missing are under his flowerbed...
Husband: Huh?
Wife: Nothing, sure do love those azellas!
Wife -gives ptsd look to flowers-

i long for the days of getting on a greyhound to anywhere, renting a fully furnished apartment or boarding house for not much a month, getting a simple job in a factory or something, and then leaving in a few months to go somewhere else.

>>33461304 (OP)
They actually tried to murder me because I was fat, I am not even joking right now. I swear to whatever everyone holds as good and holy, that this is true.

>>33464119
what do you mean?

i long for the days of having a phone book full of numbers, getting in a van, and playing music in basements and elks lodges, barely making enough money, but living life.

>>33464170
Look at the first letters of each word in the quotes, what does it spell?

>>33464184
i'm not british.

>>33464186
Neither am I. I just find the way they say 'mom' funny.

abilify shot in the ass cheek continues to help me not go insane but wtf. And some ambiguous offer for a new job, and moving apartments soon.
I’m tired and I can’t sleep and I can’t be alone with myself because it’s usually just all guilt. Working on it like everything else, man

I honestly want to commit suicide but feel guilty that it would really mess up some of my friends and family.

>>33464213
Why do you want to an hero?

i just want to make music that people like. not everybody, but a small amount who get it, and it brings them some sort of enjoyment. something beautiful to be remembered by.

>>33464219

Because for long as I can remember I've always been miserable, thought by making friends who are upbeat and positive would have an influence on me but it's having the opposite affect.

>>33464219

Now that I've advanced in my career and done the self improooving I feel even more empty, some of my best memories was when I was literally in the gutter.

>>33464227
Do you believe in God?

>>33464178
Me too. Anything other than this life.
I was a sex slave. There. I said it. Now they are trying to murder for the money made off it.

>>33464235
>Do you believe in God?

I thought I did but now I have become angry at God for keeping me alive. I'm angry that my bloodline will die with me.

I've always felt miserable, Yahweh is Satan who torments me.

>>33464278
>I thought I did but now I have become angry at God for keeping me alive
Have you tried asking why?
>I'm angry that my bloodline will die with me
Why do you care about that?

>>33464286
YHWH isn't The Creator.

>>33464286
How so?

>>33464292
Who cares. There is only one creator, why give it a name at all? Did you torture yourself?

>>33464302
>Who cares. There is only one creator
This is true.
>why give it a name at all?
Because then you would be speaking to nothing. He has a name so you can know him, it's not his fault his name is gatekept.
>Did you torture yourself
Why did you ask this?

>>33464311
Satan tortured you? How did that happen?

>>33464323
Satan? Tortured me? Maybe, but those are things to be overcome. I don't see the point in blaming anyone other than myself for what I went through, though I believe certain things wouldn't even be on my mind if it weren't for outside influence. Why are you asking this though?

>>33464337
Oh because my mom treats me like the most evil person on the planet when it is in fact her. He let me be groomed, as a kid, cp, rape, etc.

>>33464359
Do you still live with her?

I'm not the only one, I know.

>>33464364
No. It's all trauma - I keep trying to see her but I can't let the anger go anymore. The worst part is I know it happened to all of us kids then.

>>33464375
>No. It's all trauma
Understandable.
>I keep trying to see her but I can't let the anger go anymore
I can't imagine what you went through, it's okay to be angry, you won't be angry forever.
>The worst part is I know it happened to all of us kids then
I'm sorry you went through that.

I ruined this table. Dang. It was a great table. I learned from it. I can still use it in this case, in fact. Things are just never going to be what they could have been. This is the timeline I'm in now.

>>33464365
you aren't. In this big fucking world just know you aren't.

How the hell do you actually connect with people? I'm so lost. Been a lonely virgin my entire life and I don't understand social interaction

>>33462848
Sorry, we were just online friends, right?

>>33464523
Well, count yourself lucky. The opposite - being pimped out to the world, by your parents, is a worse fate.

How big is your dick? Intercontinental?

>>33464575
6.5, not so big.

>>33464575
Must be.

>>33464601
lol

>>33464611
That’s just how I be.

i would never lay a finger on my wife. God's honest truth. but..honestly. she does things sometimes that makes me beat the shit out of her

Slide into your DMs

Brakes. Full stop.

I'm sorry I haven't told any jokes, I'm just not in the mood lately.

They all want me to kill myself to cover up their bullshit.

>>33464619
Knock knock

>>33464623
Then live out of spite if that's what drives you.

>>33464625
Who's there?

I'm just sitting in my bathtub crying. I'm sorry.
I won't be able to do anything tonight. I'm backed into a corner, and i don't know how to get myself out.
Even someone like you can't help me.

>>33464630
Banana

>>33464637
Banana who?

>>33464636
I hope you don't kill yourself...

>>33464638
Banana knock knock?

>>33464643
Who's there?

>>33464644
Banana

>>33464648
Doctor Who's there?

>>33464650
Orange

>>33464651
Orange who?

>>33464653
Orange you glad I didn’t say banana?

>>33464663
I'm glad you didn't say "I'm going to kill myself."

>>33464664
I would never. And you won’t either, right?

>>33464678
>I would never
Good.
>And you won’t either, right?
You can say that.

>>33464681
Stay alive, jokeanon.

>>33464704
Will do. Idk how long I'm gonna be able to tell jokes here anymore.

Is it possible to be undateable and unlovable? To be so ugly, dumb, boring, soulless that you can't attract anyone?

>>33464715
That's literally me.

>>33464715
Don't worry anon, there's plenty of equally ugly, dumb, boring, soulless people out there.

>>33464706
Wherever your path takes you, hope it’s somewhere good.

>>33464741
I'm probably going to have to walk and be homeless.

>>33464737
I doubt it

>>33464744
I’ve been homeless. It is an adventure.

>>33464754
I might have to be until I die.

>>33464755
You sure about that? Perhaps the death is simply this part of your life. The best part is yet to come.

>>33464758
That's what it's looking like, to be honest, either way God is with me. If it is in his will, then that's what it will be.

>>33464759
Indeed. I will pray for you. God loves you and will shepherd you.

>>33464760
I appreciate that.

>>33462917
Men are not vanishing, they are retreating. From relationships, from institutional demands, from collective obligation. Not by cowardice, nor nihilism, nor weakness - but by sacred refusal to collude with a world that has hollowed out the feminine into parody, and severed eros from its mythic root.
This retreat is not a conscious movement toward soul, for most men have not heard of soul. It is not a deliberate descent into myth, for most don't remember the myths. And yet it happens. Everywhere.
Men retreat not in search of the feminine within but in search of refuge. They turn away from real relationships, work, education, not because they hate women, but because the outer feminine devoid of beauty, of function, of soul has become unrecognizable. And if given a choice between emptiness and the parody, they choose emptiness. They choose nothing rather than violate what remains of their inner integrity.
But it is there, in the void, that the great possibility stirs.
Even if they do not name her, do not know her, have never met her, still within that emptiness, the anima awaits.
She does not need to be reimagined, reengineered, or "updated". She does not ask to be made familiar to the modern psyche. She need only be seen. Once. As she is. In the dark. Without distortion. Without irony. Without demand.

This act of remembering is enough.

Because where culture collapses, myth re-emerges. And where men descend into the silence beneath language, soul prepares its next eruption. The anima was never meant to be found in daylight; she is born in shadow, dwells in dream, and speaks first through absence.
So let it be said: true virtue is born in darkness.
And when men meet her there not as escape, not as fantasy, but as a reawakening they will return. Not as obedient citizens of a broken world, but as bearers of the fire: visionaries, warriors, poets, and builders, not of new systems but of meaningful life.

This is not disappearance, it's gestation.

>>33461304 (OP)
I hate my round face and recessed chin. Jawline isn't too good either but could have worked if the chin was normal. My beard only grows thick on the chin and below the jawline, not on the cheeks, so when I grow out my beard it frames my round cheeks rather than make them look leaner. I hit 34 this fall and I get out-competed by other men all the fucking time. Women simply won't settle for me when they know there's a decent chance they can get someone more attractive. I fucking hate this so much.

>>33464794
have u tried losing weight

>>33464800
Yeah but I have to keep going. I have to make friends with the hunger.

Crohn's disease sucks, I just wanted to have a normal day today, but now I'm in constant pain and noone even understands it

I bet $100 all of these woman are fuckin fat

>don't communicate with me
>i do things to routine instead of whatever i was supposed to do differently
Crazy how that works

>>33465255
Well, I mean, I was here.

>>33462275
Hey, it's not imposter syndrome, if you're telling the truth and not just LARPing you're (probably) currently being harassed in a coordinated fashion and they'd pick on ANYTHING they could find fault with. Don't buy into the harassment and retain your core.

>>33465193
Oh wow, should you light them on fire? Is that what this is about.

i still think sometimes about this guy i used to be obsessed with for a few months a while ago, i'd do anything to meet a guy that reminded me of him even just a little and then i'd do anything for that person after. the way he was sweet to me just because he liked the attention and wanted me attached, even though he was really nonchalant and aloof himself deep down. never enough reciprocation to mean anything real but just enough to keep you delusional. i think desperation and obsessiveness scares me so the polar opposite just drives me insane and then ironically i want to give my all to someone who couldn't give less of a shit about me. attention and affection is so much more rewarding when you have to jump through hoops for it. i miss those highs so bad but i don't know anyone like that

>>33464806
Crohn anon here too
I understand you

Humans are so god damn cute. I can't with them. GAH

>>33461304 (OP)
I dont want to be too attractive when im saying something immoral

I hate this godforsaken website but there's no real alternative. The hack forced me off for a while but I came crawling right back when it came back online.
Also, I'm considering taking up smoking again after quitting for nearly four years. Cigarettes gave my life structure and forced me to go outside and interact with people IRL more often.

It baffles me that anyone would share their real vulnerabilities on this armpit of a website. Trolls will shamelessly use anything, real or imagined, to insult you. You're better off talking to ChatGPT because at least that isn't programmed to hate you.

>>33465992
Do other things outside like fly a kite or water a lawn instead of being a stinky cancer patient. It doesn't make you look cool, it looks like an adult pacifier.

>>33465193
>redditors proud of being retarded and self-destructive
No surprise there

one thing is fit to say at one point another is fit to say at another point, if said together it takes the bias of a caricature, meaning, not grounded in reality, in socialising i socialize for particulars, not to try to give people some 2-dimensional delusion of seeing a "thing in itself", if morality calls me to say something one point to create caricature, which I am aware is the default mode of thought, and the moral thing to take some temperance in a position that with this view of conversational particulars, in anonymous communication, can make a positive EFFECT on someone, since my empathy and familiarity with relations guides me, it is necessary to make a caricature of myself to calm people, and, here, it means only what it does in THIS particular situation, not in a thing of itself

When does it end. The social worker called it "processing". But how long is it supposed to last?

>>33464223
This is a noble goal anon. Good luck in your endeavors

This bitch loves dick so much I call her a meat head

My friend said we should do a 5k race. Where the hell am I gonna get 5,000 dollars?

>>33466047
>it looks like an adult pacifier
That's pretty much what cigs are, and also one of the main reasons I miss them so badly. It's not about looking cool, because I know non-smokers tend to despise smokers.
Am I going to pick the habit back up? Probably not, because they're expensive and I've already got other things wrong with my physical health. But god, whenever I catch a whiff of one, I get those cravings.
However, I'm probably not going to pick up another habit to replace them either, because nothing else is the same. Not even vaping.
I appreciate you want to help, but I'm just here to vent.

I get the ifs and the ands, but what the hell's an ore butt?

>spent all shift running around after the department chair and bickering with him
>forgot to eat
>forgot my meds
>minimal sleep
Misery misery misery misery misery rage sadness misery

and I saw her last night and we didn’t do anything because i forgot to initiate sex. we just cuddled. jesus christ im so annoyed at myself, you’re supposed to have SEX with a SEX FRIEND not just BE FRIENDLY

also not sleeping is giving me excrutiating headaches and i want to be shot with a fucking gun I should get a sig

Some people need a guardian angel, I don't even have a foster angel...

She got mad because I told her not to play with my balls. Last time she did, we lost the basketball game by 5.

>>33466501
Fuck why everyone is having sex but me

>>33466510
Literally a basketball joke that's supposed to start like a sex joke.

I really hate the fact that there's so many fags on Tinder all of the sudden that mark themselves as female so they can target straight guys. I can't even report them for being fags because Tinder removed the option to report someone for displaying themselves as the wrong gender. Keep in mind this isn't even tranny shit (that's a whole nother story), these are literally just gay men with masculine names and are open about it while marking themselves as female . This shit is fucking ridiculous

Do strong words go to the gym?

your low functioning ass is going to call me more rude than you are when you’ve missed 100% of the fucking cues from women who aren’t interested, refuse to stand by your friends and do nothing but gossip about people all day, holy shit nigger. I have <literally> made 10 times the number of friends you have over the course of my life, shut the fuck up!?!?!

I don't want to wear vans on my feet, why can't they be coupes?

>>33466663
You re a real little clown

>>33466685
Why a clown?

What's the square root of a dance number?

ExGF and I are friends broke up over a year ago and are dating new people. Current GF knows and is cool with it but recently I fucked up. I did a friend trip to visit a different friend in another state and my exgf was on it and we carpooled, but there was 4 other people on the trip. I didn’t make this clear to my current GF and the guilt is eating me alive. I know I should’ve told her but I was so anxious I never did and now I don’t know if I should even say anything. The guilt is debilitating and I’m so upset

I bet she likes Paramore

i had my interview. it seems like it went good. did the follow up quiz. i don't know if i should be excited, though. i'll still have to move 4 states away, and start fresh at 32.

Years ago I caught my mom taking my financial aid money for college and for whatever fucking reason she was the one mad at me. Flash forward years later she wants me to transfer money from a savings account into her account. The account was made for me when I was a minor and she doesn't have access to it anymore. A lot of things wrong here. I could've used that money for college for one. Although I don't need that money anymore and she needs it more than I do because its for medication, however it just pisses me off. I feel like I'm acting immature here but where was this money for me growing up and going through college? I remember I had birthday party as a kid and had a good amount of birthday money, looking back I don' t think I ever spent that money.

i don't know if i'll ever be someone that someone could like more than surface level.

>>33467039
How can you not like "That's What You Get?"

Stress but hope

It's almost been a year since me and my gf broke up, she made fun of my grief (recently death in the family) and then moved on within 40 days.

She was my first GF and first love. I'm struggling to move on but she haunts me constantly, I've been to therapy but that just made it worse.

Does it get better?
Will I get better?

i just tried my luck asking a girl out and got rejected but there's like 3 more i have a chance with

>>33467351
Just move on and stop being a pussy

>>33467351
Time, it won't get better but it'll be different

There will be no peace discussions with me

>>33467351
would u really want to spend the rest of ur life with a person that would make fun of you for something like that?
i understand u can’t just turn off your feelings for someone but you are clearly aware she did a shitty thing, and i'd bet that was just one of many. remind yourself of this everytime you miss her.

>>33467593
If that's how it's gonna be then so be it.

>>33467596
Thanks

>fat, balding, well over 6' tranny just joined my choir
>has a deep voice and dresses like a 12yo girl
>everyone else being friendly with him and calling him "girl" casually
>have to somehow suppress my disgust so I don't lose the friends I already have here
I can handle interacting with passing trannies but this one is literally the "man in a dress" stereotype to a T, how the hell am I supposed to act normal?

>>33467272
I've never even listened to the band desu

I've been deprived of love for so long and endured so much abuse that I fell in love with a fantasy woman. I think realizing that helped me realize how broken I am.

I still have a parasite in my phone changing the word “shit” to “ahit” and they know what it forces me to consider and they repeatedly do this to fuck my heart up. Been happening sin(m)ce October, likely longer.

>>33467933
Some creepy fucked up stalker who wants me to kill myself

>>33467897
Same

>>33467735
you don't need friends like that

>>33461304 (OP)
Sometimes I get fantasies of a jealous woman attempting to kill me turning into a mutual kill and I'm not really sure what to think of it. I know it's probably just a mixture of suicidal tendencies, masochism, sadism, and the desire to be wanted, but fuck if it isn't persistent. I kind of want it despite how bad it obviously is.

I have way to much to consider and too much deception and lies to sift through so I’m forced to be out of touch with reality

I don’t know how to spell

I come to these threads in attempt to understand things after being targeted here almost three years ago and it’s just lunacy stacked on lunacy

Everyone is having fun with each other on another website, and I'm here talking to myself. Hoping to be seen. Recognized

This is the most interesting thing I have going on in my life right now. The next time I talk to a girl I can tell her about the roles I fulfill in processes much greater and beyond me

I was likely selected out of pity, as many associated are. I don't have many friends, and this gives me a sense of companionship

The indirectness feels off, but it keeps me going

I so badly want someone to carve a glasgow smile into my face like idek I dont want to do it myself because then id be deemed 'insane' (which im not) so if someone were to do it for me but like I wouldn't be willing then that would be absolutely amazing cuz then I could say oh yeah I was forced into getting this carved into me and then people wouldn't find me insane and it would be an oh whatever thing! Also sometimes I have like idk what to call them, intrusive thoughts probably but like to either hurt homeless people because they have nothing its not like anyone would care or i hate to say this because I like animals but hurt a dog.. Am I weird for this? Is this a normal thing people can experience? I must admit this feels nice to get off my chest. :>

>>33468011
why arent u on the other website then?

>>33466663
Keep going, it was good to have a laugh. Kinda brings a tinge of light to all the depression and woe that blows up in here.

I don’t know why either Paul or somebody impersonating Paul showed up in these threads as soon as I began to post so it made me wonder if he had been spying on me or for how long and I didn’t like that so I made a reasonable response.

>>33467953
I live in a college town, if I can't be friends with people who accept trannies than I simply won't have friends, unfortunately.

>>33468139
Who the hell is Paul?

>>33468142
Iykyk

I still think about you despite not having talked to you in years. I kind of regret being the one to cut you off, but I was young and dumb. Now that I'm far away from it, im embarrassed to have done it.

Hopefully you're doing ok, sorry to just have left.

>>33468141
a big enough college town should have some kind of conservative scene

>>33461304 (OP)
I feel like the US's miserable state is only a harbinger of what's to come, the wealthy truly blan on enslaving us all and nobody will be able to stop it, in 10 years sites like these, talking to actual people will be myths, legends, urban tall tales

>>33468183
Conservatives are even more cringe. I'm just a regular person who acknowledges true things, like that elderly felons with a sub-80 IQ should not be President, and that men cannot become women.

I’ve been maliciously targeted by a hacker in my phone ever since I’ve had it and I can’t imagine what their excuse is. Whatever it is it isn’t valid but I’m sure that they try and convince others that it is.

>>33468228
>felon
lol no wonder you have to hang out with trannies

That annoying guy at work got fired kek jackass. Sometimes you just gotta be patient.

>>33468157
That's the good thing about having a terrible memory... sometimes I forget the most painful things. I love you more than ever. I just recently learned that. I thought my love was deep for someone else, that I wanted to marry, but it has always been you. I mean that. Even if we are never together know how deep my love is, I don't lie.

>>33468281
That's messed up

>>33468011
The good thing is there are a lot of genuinely big secrets revealed here. If you are smart enough to catch them.

It's fine. There is only one person that I'd leave home to be with at this point.

If u are using me to construct a project of some kind could u hurry the fuck up?

it's pretty great that women have a hole just for us to put our dick in and make babies with

>>33467947
Then I fell out of love.

I wasn’t in love, just obsessed and attached. All in my imagination.

I can’t financially afford to love anyone either so it’s whatever. It’s best for me to detach from everyone for a variety of reasons. It suits me best for not only comfort but prosperity as well.

Sometimes detachment is needed for the sake of self respect and a path forward.

I love you passionately. I think I've always loved you but wouldn't admit it. Now it's too late and this is the worst fate possible. I have nothing to look forward to... everything I did, all the pain was for nothing personally.

so thats it. i mean that isn't how the story is going to end; but it's how this chapter's gonna end.

i have no choice but to let you die. you left marks that will never be undone. i still dont want to let you go but my hands are tied here.

i dont know if its your fault, or something else. i dont know. conventional wisdom would tell me it is, but is it really? are you really in control?

QUICK. EVERYONE POG

My mom and i were planning on buying my dad a new phone for father’s day, but we were afraid to buy a model he wouldn’t like, so we asked him about it. but when we did he just started acting like a huge jerk. he was screaming “you guys are going to waste money” (not a problem, really) and kept screaming no at the idea of the gift. like, you could’ve just said thanks for the suggestion, but no or something more polite, but no, he just decides to hurt us. it felt like he thought we were some incompetent fucks that couldn’t give something decent to him. and just earlier he was complaing like a bitch that my mom made a small typing mistake. I know it’s really ungrateful for me to say this, since he did give me a good childhood/opportunity to study, but sometimes I just wish he was dead. Soemtimes it seems like he just hurts my mom’s feelingnd, he’s rude and he keeps shitting on her family (they’re kind of annoying weirdos, but they’re still her family)

>>33461304 (OP)
I think we were meant to be together. That's why our lives are one disaster after another with nothing working out. I really hope you have joy and peace and I will always love you.

No, I have no control.

Every fucking day I am a doormat to walk on. I do what everyone tells me to. But fucking never I can do what I want. I might as well chop my fucking balls off because I can't use it if everyone treats my ass like a vagina. All because people get to tell the cops they can bully me. Oh sure stop people from bullying you. Really?! People bully me everyday and I can fucking never do anything about it! I bet if I die one day no one will fucking care!

>>33468759
>I do what everyone tells me to
stop being a doormat. If it isn't that easy for a stranger like me to tell you what to do then it shouldn't be that easy for people you know to do that.

I really hate my brother and mother. My brother for being an arrogant jerk... my mom for being the most horrible person I've ever come to know. I wish I didn't see it, I wish I had had a kind mother who cared for me. She is so evil.

I need to get busy and never stop, I don't want to ever think about my horror of a life again. Everyone in my past is dead to me.

>unironically dreamed I deepthroated multiple strangers in a public bus
Wtf is wrong with me?

As kid: Oh boy how silly and fun one day I'll be just like my dad.
Middle school: Okay then any moment now having fun.
High school: what is happening?
College: WHO THE FUCK AM I
Adulthood: Oh God I am fucking hideous. Oh God why didn't I get to be who I wanted. I became a man-child NEET. Someone fucking kill me.

I’m going to go get some milk

>Ex boyfriend of 6 months commited suicide.
>Starts dating a man 6 months after ex passes
>together for 2 years now
>Can literally never talk about ex again because boyfriend will get upset which is reasonable getting upset about your gf being up her ex dead or not

Suffer in silence rip

>>33466269
It depends on how much trauma, I don't think. I'll ever be okay after the cult abuse, the gaslighting, sexual abuse, mom using her love as weapon. My life has been absolute misery from the start. I hate how life has abused me to the point of no return. I have no one that wants to hear it.

There is no point in existing anymore.

>>33469073
I’m back, don’t worry

My mother is literally satan.

I can't imagine anyone being more evil. I wouldn't wish that mother on anyone. I would've been so much better off in a foster home. There is no undoing the damage.

I want to go to sleep and never wake up.

They keep saying things will get better but they never do.

I think my mother hates me and I may never be able to repair this relationship. Despite my genuine best efforts she continues to be a fuming bitch which pushes me away. Giving her time only makes it worse.

He tells me sooo many people love me. That's bullshit. I'm loved by maybe one or two people. I'm just done, done being a prisoner.

I'm not rich enough to be crazy.

Why oh why did Jack get a bunch of retards to do this to me.

>>33469215
I would bet a good amount of money that she has very valid reasons.

>>33467984
super hot

It's weird when men say they would prefer a fag son over a slutty daughter when fags literally rape kids. Scrotes think child rape is more ok than a woman just enjoying herself. Really telling on themselves there but I already knew most men are pedophiles

>>33469026
Riddle me this:
What's with this fish??

Looking at my old childhood photos and I realize I was never really happy, I was always frowning even back then. I never wanted to be born into this world, I view it as a hell.

I love cute panties. That it's. That's the post.

Giving myself to Christ has been a wonderful thing, but I’m not sure I can vibe with Catholicism. My friend sent me resources to join a a church and catechism, but a part of me doesn’t feel fully good about it

>>33470522
You probably don't want to be catholic yet. Just attend a catholic church and see if they have Bible studies and go to one of their retreats.

>>33469819
What if your daughter is a slutty lesbo/bisexual

>>33468094
Thanks. As soon as I think of any, I'll go. Probably in the next one.

>had a bad dream about an ex almost 3 weeks ago
>it's still affecting me
AHHHHH WHY AM I LIKE THIS! STOP IT!

I wonder if Grass is really him. I really need it to be - then this nightmare is partially over. I was programmed to find him, to love him, that's why I am the way I am. They hypnotized us, they knew the military-grade psychology secrets. How could I know it's him?

Why did his sister and mom hate being John Malkovich soooo much? I need to understand this.

>>33471118
I'm not that person, but it's cool that you've found someone to love.

I'm still having a hard time processing how my mom is so horrible.

>>33471127
It's unrequited thing I'm sure but thank you, you are a kind soul and that goes a very long way these days.

>>33471138
I know how that feels. Here's hopes that you get the love you want.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UcQAtN7qMD8

>>33471130
The horrible in question: asked you to eat your veggies, told you to do your homework so you can get a job one day, told you to put your dirty clothes in the laundry, told you to put the dishes away, told you you have to attend family christmas, told you to not hang out with the druggies, told you to shower slightly more frequently.

>>33461304 (OP)
I want a woman to say absolutely disgusting perverted shit in my ear as I fuck her, call her call herself daddy's little girl, having me fuck her little cunny, literally the more perverted the better. Makes me want to pound them harder and harder until I lose control.

>>33471315
I want to meet someone like this and have him go crazy about me

>>33471390
Nothing is stopping you, I'm right here after all. If you're short I'll be throwing you around like a fuck doll too.

>>33471395
You forgot to add skinny, young and cute.

>>33471400
Thought that'd be included anyway, where do we start?

>>33471407
Nta, just wanted to tell you why she will never agree to do this irl.

>>33471400
What are the requirements for skinny and young ?

>>33471411
I don't know, for a Catholic I can make a lot of women protest

>>33471413
Men like this always think they deserve a 10/10.

>>33471417
Fucking hell you hot depressed men only exist on 4chan

>>33471427
Plenty of stripes here, I want to know when I can go from getting something off my chest to something all over yours

I feel so lost.
I've been arguing with my boyfriend since 8 am when j got to work and they where upset no good morning text and i just got logged in and was running late.
We have been on again off again for 3 years now. We have a child. I take care of him mostly, We used to live together, I lost my job ans the apartment. After that he used kids and my kids to claim a low-income apartment and I stayed there and my mom's as we where breaking up and getting back together(he hit me and was mean to the baby, cpa got involved ans they caught a case and never forgave me even though it's all passed now snd they still have rights). They're flip flopping between super super mean to super sweet. But the last time I left them i thought I meant it. I got a place, then they quilted me into talking to them under the presence they wanted to see the baby and kept me on the phone as long as possible. They convinced me they changed.
Well, they didnt. Things where good for 2 qeeks and the drinking heavily cane back full swing the broken promises they even started getting physical. Every time I wanna break up they threaten suicide.

The couple months we where broke up where great. I keep trying to break up but they're making it impossible. They even calm my place if work if I dont answer.
I hate them.
They demand I get rid of my apt and move in with them again and ive been kidding my ground now im a narcissist bitch.
Now they're throwing a Pittt party saying they dont deserve to be happy because I said im upset I have to miss my sisters bday and wedding because my family doesn't like them and I cant go alone(their rules)
Now they're sad boy texting me saying they deserve to be alone and blah blah blah. Tempted to let it be. Idk. They made me cry in my cubicle my entire lunch. I hate myself.

>>33471432
From France and you ?

>>33471461
England, I sound posh and I'm pretty well built. I'm sure we could make it work, flights aren't exactly expensive.

>>33471458
Move and never tell them where you live.

Fuck my workplace. Fuck every single motherfucker there (Except that one chill guy).
Every single day there drains a bit of my soul, they have no right to make me feel this fucking shit and steal my joy in the time between leaving their building and coming back in the morning.
If it wasn't so hard to find a new place right now I would be long gone and wishing for the whole company to crash and burn

>>33471467
>>33471461
Had a check, I could even do a flight out next Friday if you really want an Englishman to ruin your tight wet little French pussy.

>>33471458
>they
Have you tried not letting trannies impregnate you?

It's always been games with you
Keepin' score and changin' moves
I was all for it but lately you
Showed me that side, that crazy you...

>>33471562
You like that.

>>33471569
Not all of it...

>>33471577
Stop the cap.

>>33471526
We don t even know your requirements yet you dirty pervert

>>33471580
You just put me on the spot. What part of that sounds like cap?

>>33471584
You said it yourself, your short, skinny, pretty and very pervy, what more do I need to know?
My only want is an adventure, do you want one with me?

>>33471592
All of it. You're basking in the mean bitch phase. You want to dislike it but you find it rather entertaining. You'll miss it when it's gone.

>>33471613
>You're basking in the mean bitch phase
I can't argue.
>You want to dislike it but you find it rather entertaining
It's cool and all, but not everyday.
>You'll miss it when it's gone
Because it's you, not because I care about it.

>>33471627
Uh huuuh....

>>33471645
I'ma go do somethin' else. You funny though.

>>33471648
Enjoy yourself

>>33471653
You too, with whoever or whatever you're doing.

>>33471594
Best plan to catch english aids isn it ?
Just for your info english daddy, I m 50 kilos for 1 m 60, 27 but look younger, wear glasses and yes super sex repressed and super tight

>>33471667
I'm no disease, I'm the cure.
I'm 26 soon to be 27, young face, light tan, black hair with a nice streak of silver hair, can lift 60kg cleanly above my head (OHP), trust me when I say, I can throw you around like nothing.
I'm as good looking as this trip will be exciting.

>>33471682
I would like it so much but it s crazy and you re going to rape me

>>33471760
Then what are you waiting for? Email me AngloAdventures@proton.me
I'm sure the chatting will be the least naughty thing we'll get up to.

>>33471760
And remember, I'll be a foreign man in a foreign land, everything up to the bedroom will be your domain. I'm as good as my word and after all, I'm not sure a French woman can give up the opportunity to to tease an Anglo?

>>33471548
Not a tranny just how i type

>>33471478
I did and then I fucked it up T_T

>>33471838
Idk why, but that shit made me lol.

How are you realistically supposed to chill out and stop thinking so much about so little? I've heavily cut down my passtimes over the past couple of months to try and fix my brain, I've had off days - precious annual leave that I would usually do things I want to do - where I've intentionally just sat there with my thoughts with no screens, and still I've just gone on endless tangents thinking about history and lore or some other dumb shit. Then I try to go to bed and those thoughts continue as I toss and turn. Are people actually capable of switching their brains off and settling down or is that just a meme? This is honestly destroying my life and I'm not exaggerating, I'm being dead serious. Dead fucking serious. As in, this is undermining my ability to actually function as an adult. I can do my job and tick along, sure, but anything more than that and my brain is so swamped in tips and tricks and trivia that I cannot compute. I'd stumble over ordering a pizza. I had a meeting today which included the directors and I was legitimately thinking about the promotional animation for an 8 year old video game whilst I was speaking to them. One thought cascades into another, there's computer addicts that can function better than me. I wish I was into ASMR or something and I could sit down and drool after work, at least I might feel a bit rested afterwards. I caught my reflection the other day and for the first time truly felt that I looked older.

>>33471515
Same very same except for me its a few chill people there and the rest well ya know

>>33471768
>>33471760
As a showing of trust, here's my voice to entice you a little more.
Would be so terrible for an Englishman and a French woman to get together, to tease her, to please her, to rile her up, how awful every little bit, especially when she'll be saying such awful things in my ear.
https://vocaroo.com/1hjrXBPwVArx

>>33471998
Leave it be. She's ugly and just wanted to feel like someone wants to fuck her for a few posts.

I played it for myself, not u. Ip was disabled so I couldn’t reply. Play your hero and victim card idgaf.

>>33462429
This is definitely a problem I faced with a lot of past friends. Suffice to say I have cut down my social circle by a lot, and its nearly drama free nowadays. It's hard, but the only thing I can advise is to heavily regulate the kind of people or even content you are exposed to. Going outside is always a nice escapade as well : )

This shit has been haunting my phone’s keyboard for like two years fuck please fuck off you’re a fucking creep

>>33471950
We're gonna make it anon.
Tbh it's not just a single chill guy for me either. There are a few chill guys, but with most of them I never cross paths because they work on unrelated stuff. And in my team there are a few semi-chill people who only become mildly insufferable in certain contexts.
But yeah, I'm a bit envious of a couple of friends who tell me how much they have fun at their job and how they have superiors who are genuinely good people who care about them.
Used to have a boss like that at a part time job I worked as a student, that was the best. Really hope I'll find a place that doesn't suck me dry of joy soon.

Dude I need help. I’ve told them to fuck off so many times but they’re always there. How have they not been caught yet?

>>33472067
Sounds like a Disco Elysium quote, not gonna lie

>>33472056
For me, I love the game, I love the chase and if there's a prospect of adventure, it's hard for me to say no.
Truly I am a terrible and most awful Anglo.

I just type notes in my phone for therapy and this creepy fucked up weirdo just sneaks in and tries to fuck up my psyche even further and they never fucking leave.

I'm in an emotional state that I didn't think I would ever be in again since i was 22. But I am. I also thought it would fade away but it didn't.
I wish I could tell you that I want to spend all my time with you. But of course, that would be really weird.
I feel like you like me though, if only as good collegues, or maybe even friends. You rely on me. You posted pictures of us on your social media. That must mean something. I feel dumb but not desperate, it just warms my heart and makes me feel good.
I can't say anything about this to anyone but it's killing me to keep it inside. I don't want to stain this, so I won't tell.
Yes I'm in love with you and I could have myself transferred somewhere else so I didn't have to deal with this. But I don't want to.
I would marry you in a heartbeat.

They have nothing to rob from me except my sanity and they’re just after it every day trying to chip away and it’s so fucking demented

i'm 32, i just want to meet a beautiful woman in her early 20s, get a small house, and have 5 kids. thats all i really want in life.

>>33472226
dont u mean a woman in her early 30s?

>>33472235
no, i want to meet a woman with enough time to have a lot of kids, and to outlive me.

You’re stalking me because u want me to kill myself obviously. What isn’t obvious is the reason. Why do u want me to kill myself so badly that u waste this much time and effort into me like this? What the fuck is your malfunction?

i just want reTHAWed to add the classic modes from all the old games.

The fuck is your problem, weirdo? Why do u follow me around rage baiting every fucking day?

Why do u put effort into fucking my sanity up and keeping me in a perpetual state of misery? Why are u so fucked up?

Seriously why are u so fucked up?

>>33472282
narcissistic parents who divorced early in my life, decades in doors, never succeeding in life or romantically. that's it in a nutshell.

just give me a time machine to 2011, let me invest all my current savings in bitcoin, bet on all sporting events, meet hayley williams, and marry her.

I found it hard to believe
That you love me and only me
I found it hard to see (x2)

It's gon' be hard for me to give you all of me (Yeah, yeah)
You hold it down for me, you get this crown from me (Yeah, yeah)...

>>33472308
Well if you’re my stalker I would appreciate it if u stopped harassing me because it’s fucking me up

>>33472340
people can't stalk you on the internet.

>>33472347
Yes, they can. Ever heard of a RAT?

>>33472353
yeah, its a distortion pedal.

people can't stalk you on the internet if you don't put up everything for them to see. get off the internet, go outside, get some sun in your face, and get an ice cream cone. you'll feel much better.

>>33472365
Oh boy...

im in my 20s now and i still have acne
makes me want to hide my face from ppl, its embarrassing
may God show me mercy soon

>>33472375
stop eating seed oils. eat beef.

>>33472347
I am actually being stalked via technology

i know she's probably just staying in contact as a friendly gesture but i can't even go on that platform anymore because i'm too sexually attracted to her and she's a family member

>>33472379
ive already tried that and much more, from cutting out stuff to drinking a shitton of water to trying out different skincare stuff, even straight up not using any skincare and just washing my face with water
nothing helps

>>33472393
we all are after sept 12th, 2001. get used to it, or move to the woods. hope a solar flare emp makes it all go away.

otis redding really did everything better.

What do you call a bunch of built dudes in a race? Moving units.

What is that dude doing in the corner of the party, watching everything go down? Stranger Things.

When do we classify lesbianism as what it really is? An Eating Disorder!

>>33472436
Dead.

>>33472442
What other group of people eat clam every night and doesnt get sick? huh?

>>33472445
They have superpowers.

>>33472447
the only place with more clam eaters than a lesbian bar is a new haven pizza place. HIYOOOO

(probably regional humor)

>>33472452
You from CT? Hold up, that's crazy af.

>>33472454
sadly, yes.

What's 4chan and a black actors have in a common? Every few hours there's a new set of threads.

>>33472459
So am I, desu. Too bad I'm disgusting, huh?

>>33472469
we all are.

>>33472470
Funny.

Your weird, fucked up friend in LA started making threats towards me by direct messages for something I never fucking did.

>>33472477
Lmao

I can't think of anything.

>>33472483
I dindu nuffin

What does Spider-Man call himself during the holidays? Cider-Man...

What kind of cinematography do you use for an amateur porn video at night? Moonlighting...

When do Korean cowboys have their duels? Hi-Noon.

What does a grandma named Summer call their grandson? Sunny.

I forgot it was Thursday...

If my childhood friends are being followed, it's because whoever is following them wants them to be less cowardly, more brave. I was confused for a long time as well but there is no changing it. It will make more sense for you later. Just relax and stop fighting. You have a role in something larger than you might even know. I never wanted this but apparently I have absolutely no other option.

I really want to go fucking crazy and abuse the fuck out of anon

>>33472682
Who?

>>33472477
Who’s friend?

>>33472852
That is the secret

Oscar wasn’t being weird and fucked up, he was just being dumb and annoying and maybe my stalker isn’t weird and fucked up but their behavior is not appropriate and I want them to stop bothering me.

there was one girl who flirted with me at my last job, if only i wasn't busy helping everybody i could have gotten laid. fuck me, right?

Oscar was being fucked up but I forgive them

I legit don’t understand what people want from me other than suicide and it’s fucking retarded

i want all my favorite albums on vinyl. i want a freezer full of steaks. i need someone to love me, and give me a reason to keep on living.

Can’t believe she infected my dreams again

I’m in such a shit mood my stupid fuck is still fucking with my keys. Leave me the fuck alone. I needed love and I just got fucked with instead until I don’t know what to do with it even if I had it now. I don’t know why the world decided to do me so wrong. Cruel and fucked up.

I had all this love to give and the world just pinned me down and fucked it out of me. Still waiting for an explanation but everyone is a smug fucking coward instead.

U fucked me up and I’m just supposed to deal with it or something

Yeah just let me get worse. Better yet, contribute to fucking me up more.

For what reason do strangers everywhere find it appropriate to either make themselves audience members where they breach my privacy or follow orders from people to repeat what someone tells them to around me? Reading God damn scripts around me trying to send me into mental episodes. What’s your fucking problem?

Why do complete strangers find it appropriate contribute to making me feel dead inside? The fuck is wrong with u?

Think about all those people who have left your life and the adventures they've taken
Why are you sitting around waiting for your turn when you can just go and get it?

If it weren’t for strangers and their God damn antics taking advantage of my poor mental health I would be sitting on at least 200k right now ready to live whatever kind of life I want but now I’m just trying to get a shit job and start all over while a festering wound is reopened several times each day by stupid assholes who won’t quit fucking around with me.

If it weren’t for that fucked up bitch in my house who calls themselves my mom I would have been working the last two years.

Things aren’t going to get better for me until I have an explanation. Why the fuck does only bad shit happen to me? Why am I targeted? Why is a blind eye turned from me?

Why am I not allowed to be ok?

A month later
I'm still accidentally making mental note every time it's her off days or the night before them
Still converting the time difference in my head automatically
Still waking up way too early because my body got used to that rush of receiving her surge of early morning messages
It's less sharp now but it's still hard and I wasn't expecting it to take this long
Just need some more time

I wear sickness like a second skin these days. I catch so much awful crud from work. It really sucks. When life gives you lemons just take it in your eyes, sometimes you really deserve the path you tread. I'll scream fuck till I'm blue in the face!

Do u take advantage of me because u think i take advantage of mentally ill people?