Why's this website and it's userbase so fucked in the head?

I'm not asking this as a newfag, I'm asking this as someone who has been here for over a decade, partook in the culture and usual shitpost flinging and shitting on others, but every since I became properly Christian, there's something that just changed about my entire feeling of this place. I barely ever post here like once or twice a month instead of daily, if something comes up like a new game release and that's about it, and every time I open it up, there's just something stirring in me that makes me feel disgusted and unfitting to be on here anymore. I started noticing the huge amount of conversations where people do nothing but just insult and curse at each other with no point for anything more and more and it all just feels so absolutely vile and disgusting, I just can't explain it but it feels like whenever I open this thing up again, I'm entering Sodom and Gomorrah, and anytime I don't conform to the usual shitposty personality that's been made up around this place, I just immediately get pointed at and shat on an either immediately called underaged or a newfag or whatever other type of slur possible depending on the context of my post.

This whole thing was something I had awareness of before this as well, but generally just ignored or tried not to pay much attention to it, but now it's just this feeling of filth that I keep getting myself in whenever I come visit again, which I shouldn't be in anymore or engage with.

Im trying to find my friends from a discord sever circa 2017/2018

It was a small server, founded here. My name was numbersequence, but you all called me numbs. I only posted my face once and deleted it, I was pre trans.

I remember mimikyyu and a German person and I think Amelia. Please, if you guys remember me let me know. People on here call me milfanon now. I miss you all and regret deleting my discord, yall where there for me when I couldn't talk to anyone else. Pic unrelated I didnt have a pfp.pop.

As for do I like who i have become, for the most part, yes. I am much more comfortable in my own skin and im.proud of myself for really taking myself seriously and pushing myself as hard as I could to eventually pass. It was hard and took over a year, but we made it.

However, I dislike who I have become in other ways. I have let myself get taken advantage of and I let people walk on me now more than ever. I have a very hard time prioritizing myself. I also let my art suffer. A few years ago i was much much better. I wanna return to that.

I feel so lost.
I've been arguing with my boyfriend since 8 am when j got to work and they where upset no good morning text and i just got logged in and was running late.
We have been on again off again for 3 years now. We have a child. I take care of him mostly, We used to live together, I lost my job ans the apartment. After that he used kids and my kids to claim a low-income apartment and I stayed there and my mom's as we where breaking up and getting back together(he hit me and was mean to the baby, cpa got involved ans they caught a case and never forgave me even though it's all passed now snd they still have rights). They're flip flopping between super super mean to super sweet. But the last time I left them i thought I meant it. I got a place, then they quilted me into talking to them under the presence they wanted to see the baby and kept me on the phone as long as possible. They convinced me they changed.
Well, they didnt. Things where good for 2 qeeks and the drinking heavily cane back full swing the broken promises they even started getting physical. Every time I wanna break up they threaten suicide.

The couple months we where broke up where great. I keep trying to break up but they're making it impossible. They even calm my place if work if I dont answer.
I hate them.
They demand I get rid of my apt and move in with them again and ive been kidding my ground now im a narcissist bitch.
Now they're throwing a Pittt party saying they dont deserve to be happy because I said im upset I have to miss my sisters bday and wedding because my family doesn't like them and I cant go alone(their rules)
Now they're sad boy texting me saying they deserve to be alone and blah blah blah. Tempted to let it be. Idk. They made me cry in my cubicle my entire lunch. I hate myself.

>>715517928
How is it in the battle for nostalgic MMOs, people jump ship from wow to OSRS instead of guild wars 1? Is it retardation?

Why's this website and it's userbase so fucked in the head?

I'm not asking this as a newfag, I'm asking this as someone who has been here for over a decade, partook in the culture and usual shitpost flinging and shitting on others, but every since I became properly Christian, there's something that just changed about my entire feeling of this place. I barely ever post here like once or twice a month instead of daily, if something comes up like a new game release and that's about it, and every time I open it up, there's just something stirring in me that makes me feel disgusted and unfitting to be on here anymore. I started noticing the huge amount of conversations where people do nothing but just insult and curse at each other with no point for anything more and more and it all just feels so absolutely vile and disgusting, I just can't explain it but it feels like whenever I open this thing up again, I'm entering Sodom and Gomorrah, and anytime I don't conform to the usual shitposty personality that's been made up around this place, I just immediately get pointed at and shat on an either immediately called underaged or a newfag or whatever other type of slur possible depending on the context of my post.

This whole thing was something I had awareness of before this as well, but generally just ignored or tried not to pay much attention to it, but now it's just this feeling of filth that I keep getting myself in whenever I come visit again, which I shouldn't be in anymore or engage with.

>>509103737
If i can puke the last bit of bile out my stomach maybe i can fall asleep a few hours
Help me God

>>508865676
Once everything burns i'll give people in need some food and mici and sarmale or whatever
Some clean water, i say that would b enough

Why's this website and it's userbase so fucked in the head?

I'm not asking this as a newfag, I'm asking this as someone who has been here for over a decade, partook in the culture and usual shitpost flinging and shitting on others, but every since I became properly Christian, there's something that just changed about my entire feeling of this place. I barely ever post here like once or twice a month instead of daily, if something comes up like a new game release and that's about it, and every time I open it up, there's just something stirring in me that makes me feel disgusted and unfitting to be on here anymore. I started noticing the huge amount of conversations where people do nothing but just insult and curse at each other with no point for anything more and more and it all just feels so absolutely vile and disgusting, I just can't explain it but it feels like whenever I open this thing up again, I'm entering Sodom and Gomorrah, and anytime I don't conform to the usual shitposty personality that's been made up around this place, I just immediately get pointed at and shat on an either immediately called underaged or a newfag or whatever other type of slur possible depending on the context of my post.

This whole thing was something I had awareness of before this as well, but generally just ignored or tried not to pay much attention to it, but now it's just this feeling of filth that I keep getting myself in whenever I come visit again, which I shouldn't be in anymore or engage with.

Why's this website and it's userbase so fucked in the head?

I'm not asking this as a newfag, I'm asking this as someone who has been here for over a decade, partook in the culture and usual shitpost flinging and shitting on others, but every since I became properly Christian, there's something that just changed about my entire feeling of this place. I barely ever post here like once or twice a month instead of daily, if something comes up like a new game release and that's about it, and every time I open it up, there's just something stirring in me that makes me feel disgusted and unfitting to be on here anymore. I started noticing the huge amount of conversations where people do nothing but just insult and curse at each other with no point for anything more and more and it all just feels so absolutely vile and disgusting, I just can't explain it but it feels like whenever I open this thing up again, I'm entering Sodom and Gomorrah, and anytime I don't conform to the usual shitposty personality that's been made up around this place, I just immediately get pointed at and shat on an either immediately called underaged or a newfag or whatever other type of slur possible depending on the context of my post.

This whole thing was something I had awareness of before this as well, but generally just ignored or tried not to pay much attention to it, but now it's just this feeling of filth that I keep getting myself in whenever I come visit again, which I shouldn't be in anymore or engage with.